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2003 19 October :: 7.14pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: numb
sunday
Today is sunday. I hate sundays. The day that lies between my favorite day and my least favorite day. Sundays are just ...there.
So late night i went to green wells. again. This time , we go-cart raced. :o) it was oh-so-funn. Kind of. Exsept my baby couldn't go. *sigh* Another night i couldnt see him..i miss him again :'o(
Im talking to Jill. I missed her more then anything this week, really really i did. Jesum i needed her. I love you JIllane Elizabeth Dahms...19 days !! woop woop!
`brittany
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2003 19 October :: 3.05pm
But look at dis too!!
Brittany is the #187 most common female name. 0.117% of females in the US are named Brittany. Around 149175 US females are named Brittany! source namestatistics.com
Gamester is a very rare last name. Very few last names in the US are Gamester. Be proud of your unique last name! source namestatistics.com
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2003 19 October :: 3.04pm
:: Mood: unique
hehe look at dis :o)
Jillane is a very rare female name. Very few females in the US are named Jillane. Be proud of your unique name! source namestatistics.com
Dahms is the #13311 most common last name. 0.001% of last names in the US are Dahms. Around 2500 US last names are Dahms! source namestatistics.com
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2003 18 October :: 6.14pm
Havnt updated in a while...didnt have interenet all week, ahh.
I had so much fuckin fun last night! We went 2 green wells for that haunted hike thing (which was lame) but i had sooo much fun anyway. I love kevin so much..you have no idea. Scratch that..i like kevin so much. Yeah, thats it. Even though he got all pissy at me for nothing, not that he could tell me. He had to go bitch to emily bout it..but thats besides the point. THe point is i really like the kid, i wanna be with him all the time... I really cannot stand being away from right now. Im gonna go call him :o)
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2003 16 October :: 7.36pm
:: Mood: uncomfortable
Look at dis...
SwissCheese530: i personally think she should move bak here
J d shortier 623: i personally kinda of agree
SwissCheese530: cept she wuld prolly convince her parents to move by u
SwissCheese530: cuz shed rather b wit u den any one here
J d shortier 623: oh wateva dats sucha lie
J d shortier 623: u dont even know chelsie:-(
SwissCheese530: wut dont i kno
J d shortier 623: everything
J d shortier 623: u have no idea whas been going on wit me and her
J d shortier 623: u think everything is jus sunny n bright well its not
SwissCheese530: at least u get to tlk to her
J d shortier 623: yah ok like when?
J d shortier 623: we dont talk very much anymore
J d shortier 623: i mean we talk sometimes but lately we havent really
SwissCheese530: i havent tlked to her in like weeks
J d shortier 623: well why not?
SwissCheese530: okay and when we tlk its like we dont evn kno eachother anymore
J d shortier 623: u could have IMed her a millino times
J d shortier 623: well den tell her dat!!
J d shortier 623: Tell her how u feel im sure she'd try n fix things
J d shortier 623: but u sould try n fix em too!
J d shortier 623: urgh ur away msg is bull i hate it>:o
Auto response from SwissCheese530: Im sucha waste of space.......
doin hw bbl
my name for all of u that dont kno its chelsie and for those of u that have forgotten
SwissCheese530 signed off at 7:24:11 PM.
Urgh i dont even know anymore! Everyone is so friggin stupid!! Chelsie so could have seriously talked wit her, she could have helped things, and knowin bout *perfect* n how sweet britt is she would have changed things and made everyone happy jus like she always does...*Not dat shes really happy, but as long as everyone else is happy things r okay* So i really personally think dats Chelsies fault! But ahh it dont matter wat i think anyway...
Ya know wat, i was thinkin and like one time me and Britt were talkin bout wat would happen if she moved bak here, and she asked like if i thought dat we'd be closer if she moved bak here,and isaid no and said some lame ass excuse as to why, cuz i really couldnt explain wat i was thinkin at da time, but now i think dat i can explain it...
Like i think dat if she moved bak here, we wouldnt have dat special bond dat we do cuz shes away and i cant see her ya know? Like the one thing dats special bout eachother is dat we cant ever see eachother, and like we cant get in dat many fights, and like well were so far away, and we both miss eachother alot dats why we try n keep dis friendship of ours going, cuz we know dat some day we'll be bak together n still da perfect pair of friends, and its like since were so far away we kinda like wait fo dat point in time ya know? Wow dat really dont make sence either, i know wat im taklin bout it, its jus it wont come out in words, Like if we lived by eachother den it would be too easy to stay friends, and then soon we would jus like become those friends that r jus there and u semi talk wit and semi care bout, but could really care less if they moved or something ya know, but like since were so far away from eachother its harder and i think dats one thing dat really keeps our friendship going, *The fact dat its hard to keep long distance friendships going, and da fact dat we care so much not to lose one another* I dont knw if dat makes sence either lol, but oh well im jus going on and on about lil nothings...
But on da other hand it would be kinda better if she moved bak here, cuz den she wouldnt most likely be best friends wit Emily anymore :o) hehe jk dats mean, *evil laugh, whispers, But secretly i wish dat would happen* hehehe im so sweet i know haha neways im gonna get going fo now ta ta!
Love always,
~*Jilly*~
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2003 15 October :: 11.16pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Something wit Ying Yang twins lol
blah blah blah
Urgh t day was really a bad day i really dont want to get into details cuz "most likely" Brittany is callin me bak in like a couple minutes but yah i dunno im so happy dat were talkin i missed her goofy ass t day! *sniffle sniffle* I luv dat girl to death...
Oh wow lol i found out some really interestin things bout her t nite too so t nite is a pretty good nite heheh...Brittany ur sucha an ass im still mad atchu bout dat! ASSHOLE! *yells* lol
But dont wrry i still love you, with all my heart u mean everything to me! Your sucha great friend u jus need to work on ur "trust issues" lol :-p but really i do luv you ur da best
Aint got nuffin to say in here really...so ill jus get offline...latah everyone! :o) hehe another britt smiley! lol
P.s. Mike r we going out? cuz ryan told me dat u told him dat we were? So whas going on cuz i unno whas going on ya know...*confused* lol i still luv you ur da best! *KiSSeS*
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2003 13 October :: 9.03pm
:: Mood: thankful
Brittany Marie!!
Last but certainitly not least, Brittany, Brittany u r my best friend, and u mean everything to me, i really dont know wat i would do without you, ur seriosuly da best thing dats ever happened to me, i am so glad dat were best friends, and i know dat we always will be no matter wat! Without you there would really be no me! I luv u more den anything in da entire world...
baby britt623: i love you more then anything in all the world
Lil Jilly07: u sure? :-\
baby britt623: absoltuly possitive that i would bet mah life on it
baby britt623: i would never ever hate you even if you became a terrorist and killed everyone in the world and
baby britt623: killed all my friends n my whole family and wuz really fat n ugly n i donno!! but i would love u
baby britt623: alwaysn forever..forever n always n always n always
baby britt623: I FREAKIN LOVE YOU!
baby britt623: I WILL NEVER HATE YOU
baby britt623: AS LONG AS I LIVE
baby britt623: SA LONG AS THERES LIFE
baby britt623: AND LONGER THEN THAT
baby britt623: TILL I TAKE MY LAST BREATH
Awwe ditto babe...ur da best person dat ever lived n im sooooo friggin glad dat ur my best friend, no matter wat happens youll always be my best friend, and im always here fo you no matter wat! I luv u so so so much n i hope to talk wit u more like 2marro or something! Luv you lots chickie boo! Bye...
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2003 13 October :: 8.08pm
:: Mood: hopeful
Stacey Roo!!
Another person dat i luv more den anything would be my Stacey ROo!! Hehe i luv dat chicka so much shes like sucha great friend and sshes always there fo me when i need someone to talk wit, and i can always count on her no matter wat!! Im so happy dat we met cuz like i dont know wat i would do without her, shes so awesome and i couldnt love her more!
Angel4Lyf23: YUSS U ARE U THE BEST THING THAT EVER STEPPED INTO MY LIFE REMEMBER U MY EYES W/O I CANT SEE WITHOUT U I CANT BREATH U MAH HEART W/O U IM DEAD U MAH WHOLE LIFE AND I CARE SOOO MUCH ABOUT U SWEETIE I LOVE U SOOO MUCH AND DEEP DOWN IN MY HEART I WISH I WAS YA ONLY BEST FRIEND BUT I CANT MAKE U MAKE THAT DESTION THATS ALL U SWEETIE BUT U MAH BEST FRIEND AND ALWAYZ WILL BE NO MATTER WHAT AND I PREY EVERYDAY AND NIGHT DAT MY WISH OF US BEIN BEST FRIENDS FOREVER WILL COME TRUE!
Isnt she jus da sweetest person in da whole world!! I cant beleive im so lucky to have sucha great friend as her!!
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2003 13 October :: 7.53pm
:: Mood: flirty
Mikey Boo!!
Awwe omg, me and Mike have been talkin again, and its so awesome, i luv dat kid hes so friggin cute!! I cant wait till i get to see him again!! I luv dat kid, i think dat im startin to get a *crush* on him hehe...hes soooo sweet n sooo cute n soooo awesome!! I luv him...
LIDSTROM12: ya i want to see u now:'(
J d shortier 623: awwe i wanna see u rite now too!
LIDSTROM12: ya so i can kiss u all over and over and again:-D
LIDSTROM12: well so i can kiss u:-D
LIDSTROM12: god i love you:-D
J d shortier 623: awwe i luv you more!! :-D
LIDSTROM12: i love u even more:-D
J d shortier 623: no way I luv u more!! :-D
LIDSTROM12: i don't think so i love u more!!:-D
J d shortier 623: I do think so i luv uway way more!
LIDSTROM12: do you know ive been thinking of you ever since that one weekend out at the lake
J d shortier 623: awwe omg r u serious? y?
LIDSTROM12: because i couldn't forget you
awwe isnt he sucha sweetheart i luv dat kid to death!! *KiSSeS*
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2003 13 October :: 12.50pm
:: Mood: tired
Today i skipped skool fo like no reason at all...on my fav day too...i really skipped to talk wit Brittany, cuz we havent been really talkin all dat much lately, so yah i skipped to talk wit her t day, but it doesnt seem to be workin out dat way...shes leavin now...so i guess ill jus call James n ill go over there fo a while...so yah a waste of precious learning...lol jk oh well who cares...
Nothing else happening t day...jus gonna be bored all day long...
I'll write more like latah t nite or something bye!
Love always,
~*Jilly*~
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2003 13 October :: 2.59am
:: Mood: cranky
Urgh ill write in dis one before i go to bed again too...
Well nuffin really happened t day...but yah ya know who ive like been forgettin bout lately?
Sara Mutimer!! Of all ppl...i unno how da hell i could forget bout someone like her, but i did...cuz like when britt called me last night i unno wat made me think of her or how britt reminded me of her or wateva, but like i started thinkin bout it, and i have been forgettin bout her...
Sara was da ONE person dat was ALWAYS there fo me no matter wat! She was there when Jesse died, when Debbie died, when anything was going on in my life, big n dramatic or small n no big deal really, she was always there and she always listened, and she alwyas gave da best advice ever...
She meant a lot to me, jus as much as Brittany does now...and now ive forgotten bout her...how is dat possible...?
Ahhh ya know who else i forgot bout...Emily...oh my my, me and dat girl used to email eachother every single day and it would be really long and we could talk bout anything! Anything at all...she meant alot to me too, like before it used to be my best friends...1st Sara, 2nd Emily, and 3rd Brittany, now its 1st Brittany 2nd Stacey and 3rd prolly Steffanie or Tiffany...I really miss those emails from Emily, i really miss Emily...geez o peets dat girlie is like prolly in college or sumpthin by now...omfg she prolly is!! Holy fuckin shit! Ahhh...damn...Ya know, another thing dats funny is, dat me and Emily have always said dat once i was into highskool n shit, we were going to go on a road trip jus us girls ya know...but looks like those plans are shot...i unno im gonna email dat chicka n see how she is, den maybe ill send her a letter cuz she dont get online anymore, and Sara too...i unno i miss those ppl...
Before i always told myself dat Sara n Emily were two ppl dat i could seriosuly NEVER LIFE WITHOUT! And now look, im forgettin bout em...funny how those thigns work out aint it...*sighs*
Well im off to bed, latah everyone...
Love always,
~*Jilly*~
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2003 12 October :: 9.56pm
fresh blood
So, this is my new journal. Starting fresh i guess? This one im putting in my profile, so anyone can read it. How brave of me. Haha. Emily and some other people wanted to read my journal, but i don't think its a good idea for them to read the other one so i made this one for all of you. Anyway, i guess i should talk bout what i did this weekend and what not? I didn't do that much of that in my old journal..anywho
Well Friday emily came over, and then i went to her house...her dad's friend had a massive heart attack. It was really sad cuz his wife died a year ago today from the same thing. What a sad world we live in.
Everything has been fairly good lately. That makes me nervous...
the more you got the more you got to loose
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2003 12 October :: 2.54pm
:: Music: Welcome to Atlanta remix
New Journal
I jus started a new journal thingy so dat i could have everyone read it and everything ya know...uhm yah...
Lets see here t day was okay i guess i didnt really do much yet...rite now im at katies house and im gettin ready to leave and go out to lunch at 4 30 and my ride will be here at 4 15 so ive got a lil bit till den ya know...
Urgh i havent really talked to Brittany in a couple of days n i miss her goofy ass...*sighs* Shes prolly wit Emily havin da time of her life tho...neways...
Nothing to really write bout t day but if i think bout something to write bout den ill be sure to inform you...lol bye!
Love always,
~*Jilly*~
P.s. I need more friends on this thingy so yah reply if u wanna be *friends* lol
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