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2004 1 May :: 8.27 pm
HOLY FUCKING GOD
"Why are you shaking your foot?" "Why are you rolling your eyes?" "What color underwear do you have on?" "You can't wear that under those white pants" "Whats going on?" "Why can't you get a ride home?" "When are you leaving?" "What movie are you going to see?"
Holy fucking shit if I don't end up shooting myself someone please do it for me.
Can someone also remind me how long it has been since I was 6? When am I ever going to be treated like and adult...Never is my guess.
And Ashley you don't help the situation either. I never ask you to take me anywhere or do anything unless its taking me to school and bringing me home. You don't have to be such an asshole and not pick us up because you want to fuckin talk to Matt. That's pathetic. Go tell on me after you read this too I know you will..and what, you are almost 19? Wow..just wowww!
GOOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDD *screams*
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2004 1 May :: 6.38 pm
:: Music: Mudvayne-Not Falling
I have a feeling this summer is going to be a summer of sin ;-) A summer of change and renewal. Who knows what will happen...
I can't wait until school is over with.
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2004 1 May :: 11.31 am
:: Music: Nirvana-Half the man I use to be
Lakes Mall, Muskegon. 2:00 pm. Charlotte Russe, Wet Seal, Hollister. What more could I need?
Oh, It will be great.
Today I plan to sit on my ass and do nothing. Maybe clean up my room..maybe not.
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2004 30 April :: 8.30 pm
:: Music: Beyonce- Hip hop star
The way I feel oh girl I know it's bound to be
I'm a Rock Star
tonight I'm not doing anything, Tomorrow should be better. I want to see mean girls lol.
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2004 30 April :: 5.50 pm
This week went by really slow, but I'm glad it's Friday so I can stay up and watch movies on hbo, cinemax, or whatever channel.
The whole activities thing turned out ok in the morning. I had movie in the lgi with Steph, Frank, Kyle and Tara. Then the day seemed to go by faster because our classes were only like 30 mins. long each. I'm probably going to be screwed when I get progress reports in the mail though ,I don't know what my grades are but I always think they're worse than what they really are.
I took a long nap and I just got up, I should be awake for a while tonight then lol..
"My brother saw you in the parking lot and asked who you were and I was like Oh thats Amy and then he said Tell her I said hi"
Ok that made my day...lol
later.
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2004 29 April :: 3.39 pm
Anyway, So last night was pretty fun. The talent show was hillarious, Jeff Blackmore did ribbon dancing to Total Eclipse. Then Mr. Denton did a whole thing on the Star Wars kid ahh it was great.
I'm going to the show tonight too so that should be fun, I hope my mom doesn't come again though..lol Gay..
Today was ok. Tomorrow is going to be fun because its movie day and I'm in the LGI with Carinna, Tara, and Kyle AND WE'RE GOING TO WATCH FINDING NEMO!! lol hhaaha
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BEyERK 6 90: im jackin tho brb
Crazee BaBy040: lol i hate u
Crazee BaBy040: I mean so am I
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lol
I'm out, later
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2004 28 April :: 9.53 pm
:: Music: Jay Z- Dirt off your shoulder
Wooo
The RHS Variety Show was OFF DA HOOK!! lol
Spotted a lot of hot guys. Can't wait till next year -wink-
I'll write more about it tomorrow....
Night.
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2004 27 April :: 8.12 pm
haha
Oh god lol
Andy drove past my house.
Andy..you're a nut... and a stalker lol
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2004 27 April :: 7.10 pm
Stolen from Tom
LAYER ONE:
-- Name: Amy Elizbeth Baird..haha I know you're laughin
-- Birthplace: Grand Rapids, MI
-- Gender: female
-- Eye Color: brownish greenish
-- Hair Color: light brown?
-- Height: 5"7'
-- Righty or Lefty: Lefty baby
-- Zodiac Sign: Libra
--Chinese Zodiac: damn I don't remember
LAYER TWO:
-- Your heritage: SWEEDISH, IRISH, and scottish BITCH!! lol
--language: English,
-- The shoes you wore today: Black Elle girl platform sandals
-- Your fears: Dark..and bugs
-- Your perfect meal: Subway Turkey sub on white 6' lite mayo lettuce and sweet peppers with a Dr. Pepper.
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: Take pottery or painting this summer or just do something new and fun
LAYER THREE:
-- Your thoughts first waking up: GOD D-A-M-N-I-T Seriously is it Friday yet?!?!
-- Your best physical feature: haha I don't know
-- Your bedtime: I pass out around 11ish on weekdays, then whenever on the weekends
-- Your most missed memory: Elementary School. Playing with that giant parachute in the gym..good times. And 4/$1.00 popcorn sales.
LAYER FOUR:
-- Pepsi or Coke: Eh, not a big pop drinker. ICE WATER BABY
-- McDonald's or Burger King: eh..either is ok
-- Single or group dates: Single
-- Adidas or Nike: nike
--usually wears: depends on what...jeans..hoodies..skirts...
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Neither
-- Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate
-- Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino
LAYER FIVE:
-- Smoke: hell no
-- Cuss: Yes
-- Sing: in da shower ..haha
-- Take a shower: Yahh...
-- Have a crush: Sure
-- Do you think you've been in love: Nah
-- Want to go to college: Sure
-- Liked high school: It can kiss my ass
-- Want to get married: Yeah sure in the future..
-- Get motion sickness: Depends
-- Think you're attractive: Surrrreee....
-- Think you're a health freak: Nah
-- Get along with your parent(s): No
-- Like thunderstorms: Yes
-- Play an instrument: Air guitar
LAYER SIX:
In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: No, god damnit
-- Smoked: no
-- Done a drug: no
-- Had Sex: No
-- Made Out: no
-- Gone on a date: no
-- Gone to the mall?: yes
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreo’s: no
-- Been on stage: no
-- Been dumped: no
-- Made homemade cookies: Yes
-- Gone skinny dipping: haha not exactly
-- Dyed your hair: No
-- Stolen anything: No
LAYER NINE:
In a guy/girl..
-- Best eye color?: Doesn't really matter
-- Best hair color?: same
-- Height: Tall
-- Best weight: Doesn't matter really..just not like obease lol
-- Best articles of clothing: Undies baby hahha
LAYER TEN:
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: umm. 0?
-- Number of piercings: 1
-- Number of tattoos: 0
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: I don’t know
-- Number of scars on my body: like 7
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: A lot
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2004 27 April :: 6.07 pm
:: Music: Nirvana-Half the man I use to be
SPEAKERBOXX...LOVE BELOWWWW!
Today was another fucked up day. We had homeroom for like 2 hrs and did gay CAT testing I was like the 3rd one done and just sat there the rest of the 40 minutes.
Barnes blew kisses at me and obsene gestures with his tounge...It scares me.. a lot then it was followed by an end of the day "I hate you ugly whore". Wow.
Guess whos Artist of the Month.......Meeee. lol I was a little caught off guard and shocked...wow my first award of some sort. and I thought all my stuff looked like shit...? hmm...
Chineese food makes my stomach hurt.
later
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2004 26 April :: 8.05 pm
:: Music: Seether- Fade away
Today's the day when I fade awaayyyy......
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Possibly the best song ever..for now..
Seether f. Amy Lee- Broken
I wanted you to know
I love the way you laugh
I want to hold you high and steal your pain
Away
I keep your photograph
I know it serves me well
I want to hold you high and steal you pain
Away
Because I'm broken
When I'm lonesome
And I dont feel right when your gone away
You've gone away
You don't feel me here
Anymore
The worst is over now
And we can breathe again
I want to hold you high and steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn
And no one left to find
I want to hold you high and steal your pain
Because I'm broken when I'm open
and I don't feel like I am strong enough
Because I'm broken when I'm lonesome
and I dont feel right when your gone away
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2004 26 April :: 7.28 pm
All this talk of being lonely, Is getting me down my friend....
I'm tired.
Cam sang good today. He has a very nice voice. It's hot. lol I still say "Drugs Dont Work" was his best preformance.
I laughed alittle at Andrew Hawks when he started tapping his feet. Then felt bad because I realized that they have talent and I don't lol.. Then I laughed quietly to myself.
I owe jesse $5 because I bet him that the girls volleyball team would beat the boys bball team. WELL thanks a lot. I'll blame this one on Carinna like I use to blame everything on her last year lol haha only kidding.
Goodnight
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2004 25 April :: 1.33 pm
Yesterday was cool I guess. I went to Kohl's and Target on Alpine with my Mom only because she said she'd buy me something if I helped Ashley with her paper, which I did. She's a fucking senior why does she need my help writing papers. Jesus. Anyways, I got a cute skirt and a halter to wear to Ash's graduation and I'll probably wear it to the wedding shower I have to go to next weekend. This whole trip with my mom and me was gay. It was the typical silence also filled with random questions asked. I kept the answers down to short answer. I think I held my own.
I saw Stephanie at Kohl's. She was looking all hot and cute as usual! haha. I was caught off guard to see her so I didn't know what to say but we talked for a while then I left.
Well, now I just got done watching the Texas Chainsaw Massacare..which was an OK movie I guess..kindof gay they could have made it more interesting and explained it more. Ashley's was crying because my mom finally yelled at her for the like 100,933 time to go get a job. Finally jesus. Go get a fucking job thats rediculous. Don't cry just because you have to go get a job...seriously Don't give me 101 reasons why you shouldn't cry for that reason or I'll wear myself out. I was tempted to give her a piece of myself but I held back because I have too much cleaning to do and don't need her complaining about me to her "online" friends
I'm out to do laundry and what not...
This week my schedule is going to be fucked up... GREAT!
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2004 23 April :: 9.32 pm
Maybe there isn't going to be any change at all.......
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2004 23 April :: 6.25 pm
:: Music: Usher- Nice and Slow
Well Well Well..
Well Well Well..
Lastnight I couldn't sleep at all. I just had soooo many weird things running through my head it was almost like I was dreaming about the past 5 months with my eyes open...But I've come to a conclusion I think?
There are a lot of things I need to let go of, desperately, and to be able to let these things go I think the only way I can go through with it is to like maybe write a book. I don't want it to be like dialogue..just like writing...all in a form of some sort. If I had like 500 pages full of my mind like I would be totally amazed. SO, I'm going to be working on this for the next few weeks, months, years, or however long it takes me to achieve this goal, but school comes first at the moment or atleast for the next month or so because I need to get through that and not cause myself anymore reason to be pissed off and back to the way I was 6 months ago..I think I've done a complete turn around and I have all my friends and new friends to thank for that. Maybe something good has come out of this year after all?...
Well on to today, It was Friday and I was soooo anxious to get outa there so I could be home and just do whatever the hell I wanted to do..(sleep) lol So my cheat sheets I made for spanish and science worked out good haha, and they always do.
Well, I think I'm going to find somethin to do I'm talkin to Samara right now, she's so funny! Samara I'm glad I met you this year lol haha
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