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2004 8 June :: 8.14 pm
:: Music: Fiona Apple- Sleep to Dream
I tell you how I feel, but you don't care
I say tell me the truth but you don' t dare
You say love is a hell you cannot bear
And I say gimme mine back and then go there - for all I care
I got my feet on the ground and I don't go to sleep to dream
You got your head in the clouds and you're not all what you seem
This mind, this body, and this voice cannot be stifled by your deviant ways
So don't forget what I told you, don't come around, I got my own hell to raise
I have never been so insulted in all my life
I could swallow the seas to wash down all this pride
First you run like a fool just to be at my side
And now you run like a fool, but you just run to hide, and I don't abide
I got my feet on the ground and I don't go to sleep to dream
You got your head in the clouds and you're not all what you seem
This mind, this body, and this voice cannot be stiffled by your deviant ways
So don't forget what I told you, don't come around, I got my own hell to raise
Don't make it a big deal, don't be so sensitive
We're not playing a game anymore; you don't have to be so defensive
Don't you plead me your case, don't bother to explain
Don't even show me your face, 'cuz it's a crying shame
Just go back to the rock from under which you came
Take the sorrow you gave and all the stakes you claim --
and don't forget the blame
I got my feet on the ground, and I don't go to sleep to dream
You got your head in the clouds, and you're not at all what you seem
This mind, this body, and this voice cannot be stifled by your deviant ways
So don't forget what I told you, don't come around, I got my own hell to raise
Blow me a... |
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2004 8 June :: 6.45 pm
You'll never see -- the courage I know
Its colors' richness won't appear within your view
I'll never glow -- the way that you glow
Your presence dominates the judgements made on you
But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch, I see from greater heights
I understand what I am still too proud to mention -- to you
You'll say you understand, but you don't understand
You'll say you'd never give up seeing eye to eye
But never is a promise, and you can't afford to lie
You'll never touch -- these things that I hold
The skin of my emotions lies beneath my own
You'll never feel the heat of this soul
My fever burns me deeper than I've ever shown -- to you
You'll say, Don't fear your dreams, its easier than it seems
You'll say you'd never let me fall from hopes so high
But never is a promise and you can't afford to lie
You'll never live the life that I live
I'll never live the life that wakes me in the night
You'll never hear the message I give
You'll say it looks as though I might give up this fight
But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch, I see from greater heights
I realize what I am now too smart to mention -- to you
You'll say you understand, you'll never understand
I'll say I'll never wake up knowing how or why
I don't know what to believe in, you don't know who I am
You'll say I need appeasing when I start to cry
But never is a promise and I'll never need a lie
Blow me a... |
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2004 8 June :: 6.21 pm
:: Mood: creative
:: Music: Finger Eleven- One Thing
Just for one thing...
I moved my "Beach theme" to my GJ. I thought I needed something more..me. Anyways, I think I've come up with a topic for me to write my so called book on (that will probably never make it to a book, it will just end up being 2 pages long and I'll move on to something else). I'm not sharing my idea...I don't know why but I just don't feel like it ha. I haven't started at all but I think I'll be more modivated when I get a new notebook and writing utencils..I long to have a new calligraphy pen. They are fun to write with..and look nice.
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hmm...
Dear Sony Electronics & Co. ,
Thank you for creating the shuffle button, if indeed you created it. If not, could you tell me who did so they could be properly thanked?
Much love, Amy
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haha. Moving on...
My patience is growing smaller with my mom.(Yes, she doesn't deserve a capital M..wait does it need a capital M? hmm) I will bust a cap soon..or split a lip..
Eh,
Later
Blow me a... |
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2004 8 June :: 2.41 pm
I miss the feeling of being preoccupied...
I need to find something to do.
Blow me a... |
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2004 7 June :: 9.13 pm
I'm twistin
cuz' one side of me's
tellin me that I need to move on
on the other side
I wanna break down and cry...
Blow me a... |
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2004 7 June :: 8.31 pm
Hey Hey Hey
When you look you see right through me
Cut the rope, fell to my knees
Fallen, broken every single time
Always keep me under finger
That's the spot where you would (sue) me
But I see sometime pleasure in my mind
Yeah, here comes the water
It's come to wash away the sins of you and I
This time you see
Hey hey hey
When you seek me you destroy me
Rip my mind and smell the poppy's
Fallen blood in every single time
Always keep me under finger
That's the spot where you might linger
But I see sometime the pleasure in my mind
Yeah, here comes the water
It's come to wash away the sins of you and I
This time you see
Like holy water
It only burns you faster than you'll ever dry
This time with me
[guitar solo]
When you look you see right through me
Cut the rope, fell to my knees
Fallen and broken
Every single time
Yeah, here comes the water
It's come to wash away the sins of you and I
This time you see
Like holy water
It only burns you faster than you'll ever dry
This time with me
Hey, hey, hey
Blow me a... |
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2004 7 June :: 6.58 pm
omg...
The doorbell rang and I'm just like shit. So I take of my hoodie so I was in my tank top and pj bottoms I look in the peak hole and damn 2 hot guys I'm like DAMNIT..but SCORE! LOL they came to the door to collect pop cans.. I told them we didn't have any since I didn't feel like looking in the garage. They said thats ok and then spanked me...
Yeah I know, that last part didn't happen.
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Good God have I been dreaming
This paralyzing feeling?
Was I left alone? Where have you gone?
Were you somewhere else just sleeping?
If I wait to wake you
I'll never ask you
Would you take my hand?
In the deepest end
Would you stay and drown in me?
My open eyes see everything
But I'm passing all the days
through a window pane
And as the scene would change
I'd stay the same
This paradise was nothing new
But the paradise gets tired of you
A single conversation
Stole my attention
My open eyes see everything
And you see nothing
And don't forget it
Blow me a... |
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2004 7 June :: 5.35 pm
Damnit because I was sleeping I missed out on going to steph's cottage with Danielle to tan and what not... damnit.......damnit damnit damnt
I was in such a deep sleep I seriosuly forgot where I was and what day it was..I could have sworn it was morning.
Salute Your Shorts was on Nickelodeon today for the old school pick...Ah, it was good seeing that show again.
Blow me a... |
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2004 7 June :: 11.46 am
:: Music: Usher- Burn
Can you feel me burninnn..
Lastnight/ This morning..was..interesting. haha. Arie I still need to talk to you.
I don't think I'm going to do anything today other than cleaning the dishes from lastnight...and probably going to take another nap because I still feel tired..but my eyes won't close lol.
later
Blow me a... |
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2004 7 June :: 2.18 am
I'm awake. I wish Arie was on
Back to tv watching I guess...
2 *KiSses |
Blow me a... |
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2004 6 June :: 7.10 pm
Wowww
Crazee BaBy040: Andy Volk was lifeguarding yesterday
Crazee BaBy040: I almost had a seizure he was so hot
CrinnyCaroo: yumm
Crazee BaBy040: I had to unload groceries and I was all like bending over
Crazee BaBy040: lol
CrinnyCaroo: lol
CrinnyCaroo: sick
Crazee BaBy040: lol
Crazee BaBy040: I'm kidding
Crazee BaBy040: No I'm not
CrinnyCaroo: jp, i love ur ass
Crazee BaBy040: lol
lol I love you Carinna
I did ABSOLUTLY NOTHING today... and it felt good I might add.
Blow me a... |
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2004 6 June :: 9.54 am
I kindof feel like I have to puke.
I should take a shower...just incase anyone wants to do anythin today/tonight. If not, I'll be clean.
Why did I wake up this early?
Shower..then back to bed.
Later
Blow me a... |
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2004 5 June :: 6.50 pm
Wow.. I'd so do Adam Levine. You can feed my appetite..any day. lol
Dauuumnn.. my fettish for musician boys continues....mmmhmm.
ANNNNNYYYYWAYSSSSSSSS.. I am a dildo.. I forgot to get a new notebook.. well I didn't really forget I just didn't go to the store.. Now I'll have to wait until next weekend hmpph. Oh well..
Blow me a... |
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2004 5 June :: 1.58 pm
Cloud my eyes and tell me what to see
I'm falling
Every way I turn the same disease
But I like it
Brace myself and hit the wall with ease
Colliding
I'm not minding the pain
I've been down here before
All my bones and joints are sore
Find my way out of the wreck again
I've been down here before
Lost myself and so much more
Find my way out of the game again
Open up my head and take it in
Just like always
Think about the bar and take a swing
Loaded trapeze
What you need the most from me is yours
I'll continue to deceive you my friend
You lost what made you you
Or maybe I never knew
I can't stay here anymore
Give it all or you're on your own
I will leave you
I will leave you
I will leave you
I will leave you
Blow me a... |
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2004 5 June :: 1.10 pm
Andy Volk is lifeguarding at the pool right now. I'd tap that.
Blow me a... |
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