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2004 26 April :: 8.05pm
:: Music: Seether- Fade away
Today's the day when I fade awaayyyy......
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Possibly the best song ever..for now..
Seether f. Amy Lee- Broken
I wanted you to know
I love the way you laugh
I want to hold you high and steal your pain
Away
I keep your photograph
I know it serves me well
I want to hold you high and steal you pain
Away
Because I'm broken
When I'm lonesome
And I dont feel right when your gone away
You've gone away
You don't feel me here
Anymore
The worst is over now
And we can breathe again
I want to hold you high and steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn
And no one left to find
I want to hold you high and steal your pain
Because I'm broken when I'm open
and I don't feel like I am strong enough
Because I'm broken when I'm lonesome
and I dont feel right when your gone away
1 *KiSs |
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2004 26 April :: 7.28pm
All this talk of being lonely, Is getting me down my friend....
I'm tired.
Cam sang good today. He has a very nice voice. It's hot. lol I still say "Drugs Dont Work" was his best preformance.
I laughed alittle at Andrew Hawks when he started tapping his feet. Then felt bad because I realized that they have talent and I don't lol.. Then I laughed quietly to myself.
I owe jesse $5 because I bet him that the girls volleyball team would beat the boys bball team. WELL thanks a lot. I'll blame this one on Carinna like I use to blame everything on her last year lol haha only kidding.
Goodnight
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2004 25 April :: 1.33pm
Yesterday was cool I guess. I went to Kohl's and Target on Alpine with my Mom only because she said she'd buy me something if I helped Ashley with her paper, which I did. She's a fucking senior why does she need my help writing papers. Jesus. Anyways, I got a cute skirt and a halter to wear to Ash's graduation and I'll probably wear it to the wedding shower I have to go to next weekend. This whole trip with my mom and me was gay. It was the typical silence also filled with random questions asked. I kept the answers down to short answer. I think I held my own.
I saw Stephanie at Kohl's. She was looking all hot and cute as usual! haha. I was caught off guard to see her so I didn't know what to say but we talked for a while then I left.
Well, now I just got done watching the Texas Chainsaw Massacare..which was an OK movie I guess..kindof gay they could have made it more interesting and explained it more. Ashley's was crying because my mom finally yelled at her for the like 100,933 time to go get a job. Finally jesus. Go get a fucking job thats rediculous. Don't cry just because you have to go get a job...seriously Don't give me 101 reasons why you shouldn't cry for that reason or I'll wear myself out. I was tempted to give her a piece of myself but I held back because I have too much cleaning to do and don't need her complaining about me to her "online" friends
I'm out to do laundry and what not...
This week my schedule is going to be fucked up... GREAT!
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2004 23 April :: 9.32pm
Maybe there isn't going to be any change at all.......
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2004 23 April :: 6.25pm
:: Music: Usher- Nice and Slow
Well Well Well..
Well Well Well..
Lastnight I couldn't sleep at all. I just had soooo many weird things running through my head it was almost like I was dreaming about the past 5 months with my eyes open...But I've come to a conclusion I think?
There are a lot of things I need to let go of, desperately, and to be able to let these things go I think the only way I can go through with it is to like maybe write a book. I don't want it to be like dialogue..just like writing...all in a form of some sort. If I had like 500 pages full of my mind like I would be totally amazed. SO, I'm going to be working on this for the next few weeks, months, years, or however long it takes me to achieve this goal, but school comes first at the moment or atleast for the next month or so because I need to get through that and not cause myself anymore reason to be pissed off and back to the way I was 6 months ago..I think I've done a complete turn around and I have all my friends and new friends to thank for that. Maybe something good has come out of this year after all?...
Well on to today, It was Friday and I was soooo anxious to get outa there so I could be home and just do whatever the hell I wanted to do..(sleep) lol So my cheat sheets I made for spanish and science worked out good haha, and they always do.
Well, I think I'm going to find somethin to do I'm talkin to Samara right now, she's so funny! Samara I'm glad I met you this year lol haha
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2004 22 April :: 8.37pm
:: Music: n.e.r.d- she likes to move
Wowwww
Ok. Today was just like everyday for the past like month. This end of the year part is going to suck because all the days start to blend into eachother and I only get left with waking up tired and feeling like I slept for like 2 hours. Why does school go by so slow but when I go to sleep thats the fastest part of the night/day..ugh. I'd sell my left nut if I had one just for a night of sleep. It's Thursday just be apreciative for that.
Carinna when are you having your party?!?!!?!!!! I'm anxious. Micah better get alcohol lol I'm telling you I will leave early if there is no alcohol. just kiddin I love u.
I got 100% on my math quiz. Be happy for me. Atleast I won't have to retake math now lmao. uhahhahaha downside to slacking off, sometimes you fall behind. I was never a math person anyway. As long as I can write thats all I care about. I'm not going to use math after I graduate. I know how to count...thats all I need right? lol
I need to find a really good book to read. Maybe I'll go to Barnes & Nobles or Schulers Books sometime. Find a book then get some coffee. Sounds like a plan too bad I'm pressed for time. Maybe I'll have to wait until summer.
Thinkin about going to bed early...probably will never happen but I can always think about it....
later
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2004 21 April :: 10.36pm
:: Mood: Forlorn
:: Music: Umbrella [The Hollies]
Bus stop, wet day, he's there asking, "Please share my umbrella."
I should be sleeping, but instead I'm missing you.
How about that?
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2004 20 April :: 6.45pm
I'm not quite sure you know who the Bee Gees are. They sing Stayin Alive.
You know, Night Fever.
Have you heard Tragedy?
...Jive Talkin??
Who are you? Who am I?!?!?!
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2004 20 April :: 6.42pm
:: Mood: melancholy
:: Music: Tragedy [Bee Gees]
I'm listening to the Bee Gees. What does this say for my mental state?
Not much, I'll tell you that.
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2004 20 April :: 6.32pm
I'm extremely irritated to the point where I'm ready to lock and load into my temple. H-o-l-y s-h-i-t sometimes...seriously.
Oh and I'm liking this whole no comments in my woohu lol.
As you can tell already today pretty much blew. Everyday blows. The last day of school I will be happy probably only temporarily. Then I'll sit and rot from the inside out all over again, I can see it happening now. Carinna you better have that party soon I need to get wasted you have no idea how long I've waited. Uugggghhhhhh I'm incredibly frustrated to the max. Exhale Amy, exhale.
There's so much more I could complain about but I'll spare you and myself from further frustration..I need to write or draw or something before I go insane.
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2004 19 April :: 9.46pm
:: Music: Here Is gone
I'm so lost
I'm barely here
I wish I could explain myself
But words escape me
It's too late
To save me
You're too late
You're too late
You're cold with disappointment
While I'm drowning in the next room
The last contagious victim of this plague between us
I'm sick with apprehension
I'm crippled from exhaustion
And I dread the moment when you finally come to kill me
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2004 19 April :: 9.45pm
:: Music: Here Is Gone
I'm so lost
I'm barely here
I wish I could explain myself
But words escape me
It's too late
To save me
You're too late
You're too late
You're cold with disappointment
While I'm drowning in the next room
The last contagious victim of this plague between us
I'm sick with apprehension
I'm crippled from exhaustion
And I dread the moment when you finally come to kill me
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2004 19 April :: 7.51pm
:: Music: Usher-Nice and Slow
hmm
I scared myself today. I actually did most of my homework at home. Yes, I know very scary.
Today was okay I guess as usual. We played indoor soccer in gym and it was fun for once. I'm hoping its shitty out tomorrow so we wont have to go run on the track. Haha.
Eh, I'm out
Later.
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2004 18 April :: 7.18pm
:: Music: Kayne West- When it all Falls Down
Well It's Sunday, what now?
Today went by faster than I expected. Way way faster. Maybe it's how I spend my weekends, doing nothing. But in a way, I prefer it that way only because it's the only so called "down time" that I get.
"When it all, when it all falls downnnn and when it all falls down who you going to come to"
I felt like writing right now but I don't know what to say. I had a whole shitload of things on my mind to write down but it seems that all of them have evaporated from my mind. Maybe they will come back later.
I hope we get lightning storms tonight. I like to watch them. Nothing describes seeing a bult across the sky as it lights up the whole house and the crackling sound that follows. It's kindof scary in a way. Fear and adrenaline make me hot...haha
Well, I'll update later I guess.
Later.
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2004 15 April :: 3.57pm
:: Music: Papa Roach- Dead Cell
I love the power of boobs lol..that's all I'm going to say... forever...don't even ask lol
tehehe
Today was a good day. Kyle cracked me up in math as usual. Yeah... Cool. I have 2 quizes tomorrow. Grahh. Design was fun today. I got to paint my sculpture. I kick ass at painting. I used pink and black so far. The pink is on the wings of the animal and its all like shaded in diff colors of pink..it looks schweetttt..
Eh, i'm done
Later
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