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2005 20 November :: 9.48 pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: guns 'n' roses - knocking on heavens door
to much to handle
I feel like a ship beneath the waves
A child who's lost its way
A door without a key
A face without a name
I feel like a breath without the air
And every day's the same
since you've gone away
all this shit is getting to me
i just can't take it...
so many things running through my head [i don't know what to do, i don't understand].. i just wish i knew the answers.
i wish you'd want me again
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2005 17 November :: 3.33 pm
bitch what the fuck?
I HATE LITTLE GIRLS
anyways lastnite me and my mother got into it because im tryin to go to a alternative school called phase 4. theres one in washington and one in monesson im tryin to go to either one lol. i would be able to graduate this yr. and i get out at 11:30am. so yeah i mean come on plus the works easier. and i told her i wanted to go back to my old school if she doesnt sign me in or look into a alternative school lmao. it sucks not seeing everyone. hmm
this girl better watch out before i rip her eyelids off. ugh.
^ to a girl i want to rot n die cause i hate her so much with a burning passion
sometimes u gotta let people know whos in charge! :)
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2005 16 November :: 6.38 pm
:: Mood: crabby
:: Music: 10 years - wasteland
doodle doodle doodle da da
whoa i need to get back on track and update daily.. sorry kiddos.
Wed- last day of school had a 4 day weekend woop woop.
Thurs- was with kelly
Fri- Went to rolands and played Monopoly from 7pm-12am. haha fun fun.
Sat- Went to wal*mart with my mom and just chilled with my mom,sis,step dad, aunt and cousin.
Sun- Went with jena to the movies to see Saw II. it was real good i liked it alot. but i liked me and jena spending time together; its been awhile since we hung out. i really missed her.
Mon-Went to gay ass school.. came home and slept.
Tues- My aunt and cousin went back home (even thought i got annoyed easily with them i miss them alot). i got to stay home but also i had 2 watch my sissy for a few hours [we had a blast!] hehe. then when my ma came home we went to washington to see my aunt missy and plus my step dad had to remodel her kitchen 'n' shit..so i decided to go to the mall..i got a shirt at dots [green and white with a pocket on the boobie lol] also 3 pairs of really cute underwear!.. (we all know im a undies fanatic. ugh).. then i went to Pac Sun cause there having sales i got a shirt [orange, pink and white]. then Spencers for new gauged earrings. i'm like the only one with my ears gauged in school lol but hey thats meeeeeee. :). also me and mark got into it. hmm what else is new. (i try to get over him but it doesnt work out)
Wed Not having a good day really everything is getting to me. i hate school im not doing well on the second nine weeks. and i'm taking to many xanaxs.. my worlds coming to an end. little girls think they can try and take us cool folks men.. but WRONG-O SISTA!! lmao.. ILL STAB U IN THE FACE BITCH!!!! hahahaha oh yes indeed. :):)
i keep thinking of my ex boyfriend danny, i do miss him, he gets out in march i believe.. i would like to write to him and see how he is but my mom hates him... shes like 'if u get back with that lowlife i wont want to have anything to do with you!' im like 'but mom. i never said i was going to i just wanna see how he is!!!!! ugh she just said "w/e i'll get u a fucking stamp" i doubt she will stick to her word but oh well. i can talk to whoever i want to... also earlier today i talked to my mom on the phone bout another school since she wont let me go back to bentworth; called PHASE 4 not the one in washington but the one in Monessen. i will graduate early and get out of school at 11:30am instead of 2:18pm. and less kids to put up with... i mean ringgold is okay and i did make new kickass friends but i just cant take the 'other' peers and the teachers and the fucking work. i just cant im assuming school isnt cut out for me. never the less. hmm* wel im outtie.
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2005 8 November :: 10.34 pm
:: Mood: hopeless
what you gon do? lol
well today is tuesday and i'm rochelle and i don't know nothing at all.
i miss all my old friends but these new ones are cool and all do not get me wrong just i miss everyone, i am tryin to stay intouch with everyone. but in this new school i've been in 3 fights (go figure) cause people are morons and do not know how to stfu, i mean what else is new right? hmmm.. also i am very in need of sexual intercourse lmfao.. jena KNOWS WHAT I AM TALKING BOUT! lmao
xxx jena says: guys are f-ing stupid, and if they didn't have dicks. there would be no use for them.
absent x dreams: LMAO
absent x dreams: true
absent x dreams: 'true dat' lol
xxx jena says: I NEED SOMEONE TO HAVE SEX WITH
xxx jena says: I AM SEX DEPRIVED.
xxx jena says: i'm going to die from no sex
xxx jena says: I DON'T UNDERSTAND!!!!
xxx jena says: DO YOU FEEL THE SAME, OR ARE YOU GETTING SOME?!?!
absent x dreams: IM NOT GETTIN ANY!
absent x dreams: I SWEAR ITS LIKE EVOLUTION!
xxx jena says: IT HURTS..
xxx jena says: AMEN SISTA
absent x dreams: it most certainly does
absent x dreams: LOL
absent x dreams: ammeeeenn
xxx jena says: ahhh.. whatca gonna doo
absent x dreams: go look for honry young boys
xxx jena says: LMFAO
xxx jena says: I WANT AN OLD ONE!!
xxx jena says: sweet.
absent x dreams: LOL
absent x dreams: ya me to i dont really like lil boys.. lol
lmao were retarded
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2005 25 October :: 11.49 pm
:: Mood: sleepy
ummmMm
Riding on this satellite
Sun faded and sweaty, but that's alright
Cause I'm still alive
Always stranded in this memory
Your mouth is wide open
You can't scream
Oh you can't scream
And don't take my picture down
And don't erase everything that we had
Don't think I let you down
And I might be gone, we'll meet again
Can't find you, so I'll call your name
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2005 24 October :: 10.46 pm
doo woop
nohing to new and exciting here, just got home from chillaxin with mark and his friend mike.. i had a nice time.. i just feel bad cause my mark got unexpected news bout a friend of his that died..:( i feel so bad.
and gosh do i wish it was friday.. im sick of going to school already lol.
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2005 23 October :: 1.09 pm
:: Mood: bored
whoa
stupid bitches just can't seem to keep there mouths shut
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2005 15 October :: 2.14 am
:: Music: lalalala
blah today sucks ass. but when doesn't it?
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2005 12 October :: 10.55 pm
:: Mood: stressed
im so fucking stresed.. i thought my aunt and cuz would be cool livin here.. but things never go as they seem.. im so sick of it.. so fuckign stressful.. i cant deal with the drama.
i just cant..
..plus i miss all my friends from bentworth
i have no job, im poor. heh
i dont do anything right
ifuckup
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2005 9 October :: 11.19 pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: Cradle of filth - nymphetamine
long tiring day
Well today i did absolutly nothing, i basically bummed it out all day.. i was supposed to go with my friend but things came up. so its ok, i talked to steph today, and of course the only reason why she hasnt called is cause she has been busy.. with her new bf.. and thats ok i mean w/e but i got to chit chat with her so its all good. ALSO i talked to jack, fuuuuck him hes like 'wanna hang out' im like 'no, u left me high and dry at that party (lastweekend) when i was puking and u didnt even care u went and got ur pp sucked' so no fuck all that. anyways.. i have school tomorrow, buttttt who has skewl on COLUMBUS DAY?! fucking ringgold.. them pussy batards. UGH so yeah im not really having a wonderous day as planned, i dont feel good neither so yeah.. but im jetting so later.
Do you know
The story from the start
And do you know me
Like you've always told me
Do you see the whispers in my heart against your kindness
My eternal blindness
Do you see...
yourxsoxspecial
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2005 8 October :: 8.27 pm
:: Music: oasis - wonderwall
HhMmm
And I was drifting away
like a drop in the ocean
And now I realize that
nothing has been as beautiful
As when I saw heaven's skies
In your eyes
hows about i seen my ex bf smokeys MOM lastnite at the gas station and she was like 'he writes me everyday (causes hes in jail) and tells me he misses u and needs u and wants to marry u' im like ..uhm no sorry *runs out the door* LOL oh well not my problem but ya anyways! MY COUSIN AND AUNT came in from South Carolina the other day so its pretty cool, lastnite also we worked the haunted house. woo for fun and for me for some extra- community service. WOOWEE. anyways ya.. today was a pocketful of awesome though..
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2005 27 September :: 10.20 pm
:: Mood: Giddy
:: Music: Trapt - Stand up
whoa, long time!!!!
Ya, i can litterly say its been a long while sincei updated this bitch! lol lots of exicting things have been happening last weekend i hung out with ben and his gf stephanie and she is cool as all hell shes my new bestfriend, hehe no lie! i cant wait til i see her this weekend woooooweee** and .. schools gay lol. i feel like im gettin fatter. lol but im really not fat its just my mood. ugh. i think im seeing my new hun bun LOL tomorrow.. i cant wait, and this weekend i think im going to stephadoodles house, I LOVE HER SO MUCH! *wink*. anyways im outtie. later.
i hope everything works out for me
i mean i deserve to be happy.. dont i? lol
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2005 14 September :: 3.22 pm
yo homie
well i havent really updated lately, and i apologize hehe, forgive me?
anywho. school is going okay.. i mean its GOOOOOING. im makin more friends basically every other day. :) but they will never add up to my old ones. *make new friends but keep the old.. one is silver and the others gold* i remember that shit from like 4th grade music class. lmao.. this weekend is going to be fun, im going to stephanies to chill with her and ben! hehe funnnnn.. so ya thats bout it. oh ya and i havent missed school yet. last yr i missed 493482042 days and this yr. sooooo far none.. ZILTCH !!!!! ya whos cool now? uhm not me. oh and my ex got put away for robbin the pizza guy.. and not for the money, for the pizza. LMFAO HAHAHAHAHA what a dumbass. oh well hes a moron. :)
Gat Man and Robbin' :)
<3<3
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2005 9 September :: 11.14 pm
todays friday thank goodness.. im so tired anymore and on top of that i am sick! :( i dunno i think its allergies but then again i keep gettin worse:( probably a freakin cold.. ugh! also i went to the football game with jena (mad ppl there) ppl i havent seen in forever and kelly met up with us later on. i was so tired n sick i just wanted to go home, but i had a good time seein my friends.
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2005 8 September :: 6.22 pm
:: Mood: gayyyyyyyy
:: Music: Twiztid - darkness
ya ya ya
i've been tryin to get my mom into letting me go back to bentworth.. u dont understand how much i miss my friends. i want to see them, i need to laugh and be around them.. ugh ::sigh::
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