Booya
Yesterday Lai came and picked me up and we went to her moms.. thats where i am now!!! and were having a good time, it was nice to spend more time with her, its like we used to. we got high light nite in her moms bathroom cause it didnt look safe outside, her mom lives in the country and the neighbor has pet wolfes hahaha.. so kinda scary... so yea were dumb and took the risk! and we grubbed all nite and didnt go to sleep til like 4am which is cool; bruce called me & her lastnite on my cell.. i guess he actually shot a rag head over there and hes like scared for life. today is going good.. her moms having a party and that means us = getting plastered WOOOWEE i havent gotten smashed in forever!! so this shall be fun me and alaina drunken monkeys together hehe. so yeah thats itttttt

let me tell you sbout my day, hmmm
Well today my mom woke me up at like 8:30am. because she had to go up town plus we picked kelly up from *sarahs house* -ahem- so she could go home and get ready for work.. then i called audrey (cause we were chillin today) and i asked if it was ok for me to come over at like 11am.. my mom was in the area and i live in the boonies so ya it was easier! im so happy we hang out like we caught up on alot of shit to, and even no we had fun we still had alittle dilema going on about 12am. im not going to say names but people need to grow up honestly.. forget things that happened in the past. and i will chill with who i wanna chill with. -errr- me and audrey are pretty close u no. we get along, better than we ever had and i cherished today. i had a good time! but tomorrow my mom is picking me up after work which is like 4pm cause i havent really hung out with her im always running haha. so it will be nice to catch up with my mom as well.

also my ex calls me today sayin hes movin to washington and to forget about him, ya we always have are disputes but i wanna still be friends. i guess he met someone named WonNita.. ya so i dunno good luck i guess. i wish him the best even THOUGH i got treated like shit when we were together.. but i wish NO bad on anyone. so i doubt ill ever hear from him again. and someone -coughs- gave his new fellow gf my number cause she called me saying "dont ever talk to my man again, blah blah i'll cut cha" wtf? some crazy ass shit fuck that nonsense i dont play that shit!<-- i hate people and i mean i litterly loathe them so much its unbareable.

& i went to the school to get my report card cause i didnt get it in the mail (cause i moved haha) and i passed woooooo.. BUT MY MOM told me in the car she was thinkin bout sending me to Job Corps in Pittsburgh, hmmmm i dunno bout that!.


-chelle

ITS FREAKIN COLD IN MY ROOM.. burr

anyways..

yesterday i slept til about 7pm. haha im such a loser.. then kelly called and wanted to come pick me up so i figured hell yes! haha and i asked her if she would run me to audreys house today.. grr but plans changed i had to help babysit like 5 kids.. it was rough a 11month old, 3, 9, 12, 13 year olds.. ahhh so stressed out dude u have no idea, err i mean i love kids.. but geez so many hehe. i had fun though we chilled and went swimming. so i came home tonite instead of stayin with kelly at her mans house and shit!.. but im DEFFgoing to audreys tomorrow. im waking up early in the morning with my mom cause she has to go into town and ill have her drop me off at her house -yay-. also i got payed 15 bones today just for cleaning out kellys aunts tub and the toilet.. WOOWEE thats alot for a little ol' job, dont u think? so i bought my smokes haha and i have 10 left. YEEHAW sorry i had to let my inner rowdyness out hehe. so until then ta*ta


-rochelle

.....
hmm lastnite i went to my aunt penes house.. then today i came from i didnt feel like staying, i usaully stay for like days at a time but i decided i wanted to come home. Mike keeps hounding me to stay at alainas and shit, i guess to smoke pot but i dont really do that shit no more, i guess cause of drug tests and shit from the court. he gets all pissy when i tell him i have other plans! omg oh well screw it. Tuesday im supposed to hang out with Audrey.. yay! i cant wait! we will have so much fun... hehe so until then goodbyeeeeeee

I'm no barbie doll
I'm not your baby girl
I've done ugly things and I have made mistakes
And I am not as pretty as those girls in magazines
I am rotten to my core if they're to be believed
So what if I'm no baby bird hanging upon your every word?
Nothing ever smells of roses that rises out of mud






OMFG I ALMOST WALKED IN ON MY COUSIN HAVING SEXXXX *gasps* so gross hahahah not the fact "sex" is gross but my cousin and his gf? ewww.

LYRICS FOR YOUR EYES!. hehe
I know I've been mistaken
But just give me a break and see the changes that I've made
I've got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all and throw them in my face

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending it's as much as i can take
and you're so independent
you just refuse to bend so I keep bending till I break


Ps. Everyone like 43483729 x 4 people were telling me on AIM "oh i just got back from Ozzfest, it fucking rocked.. what did u do all day?" lmao my answer "i sat on my ass, cleaned and cooked all day.." ya thats meeee. ugh but next year im totally going no doubt.

well for the past few days i havent updated because ive been chillin with my cousins and a few old friends.. i had fun it was nice to get away for awhile and hit the scenery and the e-town. its been along time. i just got back from 2 days of skateboarding (well me trying anyways) and me getting broke off my ass. it was some funny shit. of course the usual bonding of the gonja and etc..stayed up all hours of the nite doing good ol' crazy crap. i saw decker yesterday for the first time in months boy ol' boy did i miss the fucker.. hes doing ok, but not the best of luck with things but hes cool; roland doesnt like him much so he didnt stick around. haha.. Ozzfest is tomorrow AND UNFORTUNANTLEY I CANNOT GOOO! FUCKING SUCKS DONKEY DICK. ugh but its ok mabey next year. hmm** i saw mike and alaina yesterday as well and of course i waved and all i got was a shitty ass mini wave with HIS fucking pinky.. wtf? is that dude.. AND I DIDNT EVEN GET A HELLO? from either of them fuck em' i dont give a fuck anymore.-- my leg is killing me, my cuz got his board swiped up from under him and i happened to be in the way.. and my leg got freakin railed. so my leg is all swollen and black&blue, oh pitty me. my mom is working on getting my my cell phone.. of couse i cant because no signs of a job piiisssh.. so she said possibly tuesday wooohooooo IM SO HAPPY!! but enough of me blubbering on and on about BS. its time for me to go clean. oh boy! lmao.


<3
Chelle

dead beat dad.
i found out my mom finally got a good lawyer, so hopefully my asshole father gets nailed pretty hard. i hate that fucker. he has done nothing but cause me and my mother suffering. now its his turn. me and my mom HAVE BEEN (not no more though) involved with CYS before because of him.. my mom gets no help from with when it comes to my needs. but fortunatey we make it, well i make it.. but my step- dad helps out and hes more of a father my real dad will ever be. i mean my real dad doesnt have to know where i am or w/e but im still his kid, he made me.. he should atleast have some dignity and gimme something? am i right or am i right?! i wont sit here and tell u how awful it was when he was around which he and my mom have been divorced for like 5 years or something i dont keep track.. but mainly im just venting a morsal.. but ill narrow my life when he was around.

1.i couldnt do anything ever
2.when my mom was working and he was home i had to stay in my room. or if he was watching tv i had to be quite so i wouldnt distract him. or go outside.
3.when they had little fishing games and stuff at lakes/ponds and what not for the kids he wouldnt take me
4.he was always drunk and fought with my mom
5.he was to drunk to come home for when i got off the bus and i couldnt get in the house. ex( when i was 11 he was at a bar all nite and my mom worked latenite and he was supposed to be home and i had to stay in the dog box with my dog to keep warm) it was winter.
6.he was always cheatin on my mother
7.never payed attention to us?

BUT NOW HE ISNT AROUND and me and my other are happy.. just the fact he is tormenting our lives and doesnt understand that i dont want to be apart of him, because he never wanted me to be apart of his life then, so why should i change my ways for him? piiisshh


enough said.. im sure ur tired of reading and listening to me. i just hope and pray this lawyer gets him, do u no how much money i would have in my name..ugh

ps ok mabey i was being a hypocrit alittle bit i did tell u how awful it was haha. but im sure i was very informative.

i want my phone asap.
.well today is dumb. so hot outside, so meaning i wont step foot on the grass. hah! im supposed to get a cell phone today.. keyword supposed ugh i hope so i hate not having a phone its so gay, im hopeing she gets a going. im going to my aunts house tomorrow, i cant wait i miss hanging out with her and bonding. haha my cousin roland is always there as well so its gonna be kickass. kelly wanted to chill today and go to the mall for some things. i told her my mom isnt able to take us, i think she got mad? so i dont think she wants to hang out, but thats ok. im not mad. just in 'hmm' mode.




GRR I WANT IT NOW.

i want alot of things. hmm :p



pss. i returned from the wireless store. looks like i didnt have enough money this time around. but ill eventually get it sooner-or-later. ugh im so pissed.