I had to fall to lose it all.
i woke up at 12:40pm to a guys soft voice saying 'hello baby, what are u doing' and i replied 'nothing who is this....-pause- JASON?' and then the voice goes 'WHO THE FUCK IS JASON!' lmfao. it was only ben hahahaha i felt dumb but yeah we talked for a few mins. and then i said so ben when we gonna hang out? and hes like 'whenever you put out we will hang out' I GOT SO PISSED i hung up on him, so ya hes tried to call saying 'im kidding and sorry' so i just went CLICK! hahaha. anyways ya hes still my friend but pisses me off. ugh. and i got into a verbal fight with this girl who is obessed with the guy im talking to, of course i showed her whose boss but still little girls and them thinking there to cool for there britches.. fuck that i would so rock her face. she doesnt need to fuck this up, ill be damned if she trys to..but im not worried about anything cause were going great. right baby? :). & hes the best things ever and i adore him so much...


anyways i cant wait til nextweekend im so excited i couldnt be happier!!! :):) oxox.

i saw the heavens skies in your eyes
You're super special to me babyxoxox




blah today i had to clean.. like the whole flippin' house; so now i'm tired. LOL. hopefully i do something tonite but who knows cause i'm extremely tired my mother got me up at like 8am i didnt go to bed til like 3am. i need lots of rest haha. i got a new headboard it's really pretty but it makes so much noise i freakin layed on it and moved my arm and its like 'bang'.. i could only imagine how much noise it will make at some points in time ;);).

i can't wait til next weekend, i'm so excited!!!!:)

burr
today sucked big time.. it was freezing outside for one and snowing so we didnt have a 2-hr delay which pissed me off.. ugh anyways i have a stalker and it isnt cool. he follows me everywhere and talks to me all the time im like go away? but it never works.. so i just let it slip by..im so happy its the weekend i dont no what im doing most likely nothing just sittin on my arse. hmmm.

but...the only good thing thats happening is i met a wonderous guy.
i'm falling in love i swear

11.29.05
A kiss without commitment's
Like a flower without the rain
It only leads to pain
And it fills my heart with emptiness
Your touch without commitment's
Like a calm before the storm
The tears are starting to form in my eyes

When I kissed you I was curious
The child that I was
I never realized I would love you so
And in the magic of the moment
I was swept to the side
And I saw your heart
So small and tender..




today was gay. i hated today :) i went to the doctors cause my sister is sick and i had one too for reasons because people are assholes.. but ya anyways.. i was supposed to have an appt. for my permit also for driving but noooo not today its bullshit.. its like i will be 493094 years old before i can fucking drive i mean my liscense are already suspended for like 5months when i get them cause i was a moron last year and didnt like to come to school and always skipped. blah!!!!!

you be love & i'll be liar
That wonderful Someone
Who makes the stars all shine
Who fashioned the mountains
To reach to the sky
Who brings each tomorrow
Who hears every prayer
In sunshine or sorrow
If you call He'll be there
That wonderful Someone
Who makes the flowers grow
Who paints every sunset
With colors that glow
Look all around you
And these wonders you'll see
Designed by that Someone
For you and for me


*sigh*

crazy night, wooo
i was at my aunts house thursday until today and i came home..

and i just got home.. i was house cleaning my room rugs. earlier..[lol] and then ben calls and is like you wanna get jena and then me u and jordan hang out and i havent seen jordan in like 2 yrs so i was all excited [this kid was my bestfriend for like 5 yrs] but u see when we got together me, jena and ben went looking for something..and we didnt succeed so we called kelly and we all chilled so me jena ben kelly and audrey got together .. then just drove around and hang out.. hahaha. it was fucking sweet as hell. omg i feel so fucking stupid im tryin to type all okay like n shit. lol. now im home and its 2:45 am and i left here at like 7:30 pm, hahaha and im just chillin bout to hit the sack :):) but i had a fun time and turkey day break is going swell.

people are really fucked you know that?
welp today was an interesting day

not only is school gay off the rocks.. but we had a bomb threat again! yes SECOND DAY IN A ROW WE HAD ONE! you would think they principles and the administration and the teachers or whoever would think 'hey we should hold off school' or hey 'lets do more action in this instead of letting these kids freeze their asses off' yeah we stood outside for like a fucking hour just cause some loser doesn't have anything better to do than call and say "your all gonna die theres a bomb.." and blah blah blah.. its funny in a way but when u make me stand outside in the cold for a fucking hour of course i'll be ticked wouldn't you? its like puemonia (sp?) weather out there!!! ugh. soooo.. I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE FUNNY AND SAY " A BOMB? THERES A BOMB IN THE SCHOOL? HAH LET IT BURN bomb bomb bomb bomb" all loud 'n' shit and also i said hey is ur parents a terroist cause ur da bomb to some cute kid [lol] and i guess i was heard by a teacher so i got reported AND i told them i thought it was dumb for me gettin in trouble because its my opinon hahahaha. so my mom isn't lettin me do anything today because i made a big deal bout shit and got ISS and Detention [what else is new? lol] AND i was supposed to hang out with jena&ben so basically if i wouldnt have like smart mouthed and threw a fit cause of there stupid policys 'n' shit i could be ok and chillin with them.. so i feel real bad. but tomorrows another day!!!! and we get out at like 12:18pm; and i really do not wanna go tomorrow especially cause some retard might do the call phone again ugh. ill shove the phone riiight up there ass whenever i find out who it was.. makin me stand outside for a fuckin hr. is this coldness. piish think again biiitches! hahahaha :):)


UPDATE!!! i did hang out with jena and ben after all thank goodness. :) it was nice seeing them & hopefully we hang out tomooooorrroooowwww!!!! :):):):):) luv yins