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2007 13 June :: 7.26pm
To love & be loved;
I want to feel love.
I want to feel needed and desired.
I want to mean something to somone, more than just something, I want to mean everything to someone.
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2007 8 June :: 11.33pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: dead presidents - hip hop
11:33pm and i think i have some names in mind.
If it's a boy; Kaden.
If it's a girl; Chanel.
now those aren't forsure but it's been lingering among me. so we will see.
anyways, it's friday and i'm bored as fuck and hungry as hell, i might eat a bowl of reeses puff's cereal, YUMmm! :)
nothing went on today it stormed all crazy though, kinda scared me! i thought the power was gonna go out, but it turned out to be a blow over really and just effects from other areas where they were gettin' hit. sucked though, but atleast it rained.
then doug came and chilled for a min with my boo* he took off and now hes just playin socom and i'm on here like a loser, cuz i'm alil stoned *eekk* and tired and boredddddddddd. someone help me? LoL
my mother gave me a few bucks today.. i needed a few grocerys cause my cubberts are bare. lol well not all the way but enough to where you cant put anything together; but were fine now thats to her. thank heavens.
i could go for some icecream right about now. or tomorrow, so jena wanna go? :)
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2007 7 June :: 4.10pm
If I was your vampire
I bought the new manson cd. It kinda sucks. It's way more mellow and not as "out there" as his stuff usually is, which was kind of disappointing but I do like it.
I am also in the process of re-doing my room.
I'm finished painting it mostly. And I've put up a lot of pictures and stuff. I put caution tape on my celing and I put my manson flag up.
I still want a few more flags and pictures and then it should be done. I like it a lot.
Only 6 more days of school left. I will most likely pass everything :)
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2007 5 June :: 5.20pm
:: Mood: tired.
alot of things have changed in my life.
i'm on my own now, and yes i do miss my mothers house alon with my sister... i basically dropped outta school and i'm going to get my G.E.D and hopefully get a job in the near future. i live with my boyfriend. and where going to have a baby.. i'm like 3 months.
hopefully it's a boy. hehe, i do need help picking out names though, i can't seem to find one at all and i can't find a girls name either. moneys of course.. TIGHT. but we live and survive to the fullest. i'll deff be updating my journal now since i finally got the net today, SHIBBY! LoL ANYWHO. i'll attend tomorrow. <3much love.
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2007 3 June :: 5.54pm
Where did I go wrong?
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2007 28 May :: 1.59am
I am slowly learning the lesson that I have only but myself to rely on.
People are not worth it, they arnt worth the time or energy.
So far every single person I have had the pleasure of letting into my life has fucked me and caused me a whole bunch of useless emotional pain and stress.
That being said there are the select few who have showed me what true friendship is. Tianna & Gaetan. And my mother who has never let me down.
I FUCKING HATE YOU
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2007 24 May :: 12.14am
& when I press the keys it all gets reversed, the sound of loneliness makes me happier.
I should have never told Jesse.
But thats life.
I hate regret.
Depressed as fuck.
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2007 21 May :: 10.43am
Oh life.
I need to write about happy times more.
All my entries are the same.
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2007 16 May :: 1.23am
[Hollie] How grateful I was then to be part of the mystery, to love and to be loved, let's just hope that is enough says:
no one actually wants to like me or love me or anything they just wanna fuck me. and i dont even see why.
[Lance] Pokey˛ | But I, I know who you really are You're the one who cries when your alone. says:
I like you... and unless your pants liek those sweet ass bondage tripps one in my size I dont have a big interest in getting your pants
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2007 9 May :: 8.01pm
:: Mood: bored
New myspace.
clicky here to add me!
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2007 4 May :: 4.33pm
So this is life right now. It's okay.
I'm learning to be content with myself and my surroundings.
Taking it one step at a time.
Mostly I figured I would just give up because I wouldn't be able to graduate on time. And I wanted to take a semester off and just work.
But now things have changed. And I feel differnt. I would rather graduate and get school out of the way before I start anything new.
I desperatly want to get away. But I know that will come eventually.
I love my mom so much. Thats just something worth mentioning right now.
Lots of drama has gone on. Not now but in the past week.
I'm not sure I should bother writing about it but I guess. Because I'm sick of writing pointless entries.
So my Aunt Jamie is in England visiting her boyfriend. She is due back on May 8th. She had to be out of her house on Monday. So her son Andy was moving her out and he had a place to go but that fell through. And her daughter Ashley found out she was out of town so she went over and caused a lot of drama. Because they don't get along and shes a meth addict. So on Sunday me and my mom went over to help Andy and Ashley had taken his car and he told her she had to be back within half an hour and she said she would. Well 4 or 5 hours later she called and said that she wasnt coming back. So Matt (Andy's cousin) traced the call and it came from the Delta hotel, so Matt and Andy drove down to see if they could see the car and they could so they called the police, the police pulled up her record and shes wanted for credit card fraud. So they went in and there were 6 guys and Ashley. They found guns and plans for a robbery and so they arrested 4 guys but everyone else got out, why I don't know.
So once Ashley found out Andy had called the cops she left him a message saying "your fucking dead" or something like that. And early that week she threatend that his work would get robbed and it did. And he had been beaten up a few times.
Anyways. Andy stayed with us for a night and then he went somewhere. And hes staying there for awhile. But he left his cat with us :D It's cute, his name is squirt.
Anyways! I think thats all of it. I swear it could totally be made into a movie. :D
But i'm off to my dads for the weekend.
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2007 24 April :: 10.43pm
Sucker love.
:)
Life is complicated.
I like a boy but nothing will ever come of it. But it's okay. I'm not ready for more drama.
I miss Kyle's family.
I've been thinking about Kyle less and less.
But still a lot.
I'm back at work, it's good :)
Um school...kinda sucks right now.
Friends are good. I've been more busy lately :) It's nice.
Family is good.
I've been depressed but not to the point where it's unbearable.
I've been having troubles sleeping lately aswell. I hope I don't have insomnia again.
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2007 23 April :: 2.12am
:: Mood: horny
Whats your fantasy?
We stand face to face, in a dark room. I wear nothing but the handcuffs around my wrists, he is completely naked. He tells me to get on my knees and I obey. He grabs a fist full of hair and pulls my head back. Open your mouth he commands. I do as he says. He thrusts his erection into my mouth. His movements are slow and deep. He tightens his grip on my hair as his pace increases. A rough moan escapes from his throat as he comes closer to climax. He pulls out and orders me to get on the bed. I lay on my back as he hovers over me. He bites my lower lip, then my neck. I squirm as he moves down my body caressing my nipples with his tongue. I cry out in ecstasy. "Shut up you whore" he yells, as he clamps a hand firmly over my mouth. He slides his hand up my leg and vigorously shoves two fingers inside me. "Is that what you want you dirty slut?” I do not reply, he says it again, the tone of his voice louder and harsher. "Yes" I moan. He spreads my legs wider and lifts my knees to my chest. He enters me with a solid thrust, I whimper with a mix of pain and pleasure. He slaps me across the face, and blood trickles down my lip. As his thrusts become faster and stronger my breath increases, he groans as he violently penetrates me. He shoves his tongue in my mouth, and as his pace quickens I clench every muscle in my body. Finally with one firm thrust he erupts inside me. I wrap my legs around him and scream as I climax. My body shakes as he pulls out. I lick the cum off of his still hard erection. We lay entwined together on the bed, breathing together in unison.
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2007 14 April :: 3.20pm
My stupid fuck.
I fucking hate EVERYONE.
I miss Tianna.
Everyone else should fucking die.
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