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2006 17 December :: 3.37pm
Go on pull the trigger.
Don't think it can hurt anymore than it already does;
My 16th birthday wasnt great.
It sucked.
But Kyle tryed to make it good, and that was so sweet. Im glad I got to spend it with him.
I dont care If i was sick. Or there was no power. It was nice to stay with him.
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2006 6 December :: 5.31pm
Fuck Everything I said earlier.
FUCK you.
FUCK kyle.
FUCK tarl.
FUCK everyone in my life right now.
I'm fucking sick of this.
I try so hard.
And i get fucking nothing.
I HATE YOU
I FUCKING HATE YOU
I FUCKING HATE MYSELF
I FUCKING HATE EVERYHING
I FUCKING WISH I WAS DEAD.
BECAUSE THEN I WOULD NEVER HAVE TO SEE YOUR FUCKING FACE AGAIN
I FUCKING HATE LIFE
I FUCKING HATE EVERYONE
I FUCKING HATE EVERYTHING
I FUCKING HATE HOW YOU DONT CARE
I FUCKING HATE HOW YOUR SO SELF CENTERED
I FUCKING HATE HOW I ALWAYS TAKE THE BLAME
I FUCKING HATE HOW NO ONE EVEN PAYS ATTENTION
I FUCKING HATE HOW I GET IN TROUBLE FOR TRYING TO DEAL WITH MY PROBLEMS
I FUCKING HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
I FUCKING HATE YOU
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2006 6 December :: 3.31pm
Its my birthday soon :D
Everything else sucks right now.
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2006 28 November :: 9.31pm
My celebrity crushes<3
Travis Barker
Marilyn Manson
Dita Von Teese
Davey Havok
Tom Delonge
Ben Kowalewicz
I know i'm lame
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2006 2 November :: 10.03pm
FUCK YOU.
FUCK EVERYTHING.
FUCK MY FUCKING USELESS EXISTANCE.
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2006 17 September :: 2.34pm
Fight.
The past couple days where okay i guess.
Kyles a fucking douche for reading my journal.
Uh I spent most of the weekend at kyles.
We hung out it was cool.. I went shopping with his sister Kisa.
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2006 14 June :: 12.42am
:: Mood: Confused
sitting all alone inside your head.
delusional1fish: Sunday i got a texted from you sayin "hey roach".. it was weird..
absent x dreams: hmm.. odd! i dont recall texting you! sorry
delusional1fish: yeah you were probably drunk
delusional1fish: would never have crossed my mind to think that
delusional1fish: always
absent x dreams: always!?
delusional1fish: fucking drunk
delusional1fish: most of the time
absent x dreams: no im not!
delusional1fish: seems like it
absent x dreams: err im not always drunk.
absent x dreams: but whatever.
Yeah.. i don't know anymore
i guess my friend is trying to tell me something
like..
i need to slow down..
yeah...
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2006 2 June :: 6.40pm
:: Mood: all mixed up.
:: Music: marilyn manson - lunchbox
kill me.....
everything sucks anymore
i try so hard for people but nothing ever turns out right.
we fight, we love..we hate.. its just a fucking cycle.
theres just alot of shit going on that i cant quite explain.
i just want everything to be alright.. and it never will be.
i want to be happy. for the 43903 time!!! im so done.
i.. i dont know
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2006 14 May :: 10.54pm
5-14-06
welp today since it was mothers day i made my mom dinner, got her flowers and a card.. and called it a day lol
friday and saturday i had massive amounts of alcohol in my system. woo wee! anyways. it was a goodddddd weekend.
very good weekend.
<3
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2006 12 May :: 2.29pm
i haven't added an entry in forever on here..
sorry people
but WHATever i say anymore.. doesn't matter.. because it's never entertaining its all boring and what not on the same routine. hah! seriously.. but overall i've been alright had to go to the doctors a few times because of a few minor complications. and My gram has been real sick lately; just sucks i can't go get her.. oh well. my friends have been acting weird.. i miss alot of them! and i've been doing the same thing everyday.. i'm single because men tend to suck ass LoL. yeah...and schools almost out and i'm sooOo fucking excited!! omfg. YES! woooo hoo..
<3
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2006 9 May :: 10.57pm
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
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2006 6 May :: 4.15pm
well everything has been fuckign shit lately.
i dont do anything besides drink, smoke, and other things..
my life is sucky.
i do the saem thing everyday
and i dont have a job
oh yippiieee!
UGH!
im sick of this fucking SHIT!
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2006 23 April :: 3.18pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: atreyu - x's and oh's
er.er.
wow lots of shit have been going on besides me being depressed all the time..
my friend selenas dad got shot do i had to bare with her and go with her to the hospital to see him; so therefor i missed jenas party.. ONCE AGAIN!.. :(
cousin is in rehab while the other had passed on.. ugh
i've lost alot of things, and alot of friends.
i have.. no job
i have.. NO money errr
i wanna be happy..
all i want is to be happily ever after; like asap!!!!!!!!
im such a complainer.
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2006 17 April :: 8.50pm
:: Mood: DEPRESSED
:: Music: Twiztid- afraid of me
:(
i wish i could tell you how i feel.
but its so fucking hard; and it hurts like crazy
But i have developed a strong likeing to you....
i just wish u could see that i could do so much more what she can, and i would give you everything that i possibly could
BUT NOONE EVER SEES THAT
cause i never get a shot at anything!
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2006 15 April :: 4.51pm
nothing fucking matters anymore
fucking seriously....
im pretty sure theres something going on between my bestfriend and our one friend... and if so that is not good and its pretty low. UGH! its kinda sickening and its pathetic; but i have no room to talk.
and how about i love being used
its always going to happen to me
forever
i'll never be MOTHERFUCKING HAPPY.
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