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2006 31 January :: 5.57pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Freaky- Juelz Santana
I guess you could say that today was pretty eventful. I've fought with Amy pretty much all day. I won't go into details. And no, I don't feel bad for fighting with her. She brought it all upon herself.
Randi, Jena, Kristen, & I always talk; and when we're telling stories or whatever, it comes to the point where we've caught Amy in a lie. It would be fine if it happened like once a month, but no, it's EVERYDAY. We are all fed up with her drama and lies.
Not to mention, Amy and I started fighting once I found out she's talking to my [older] brother. She's calling him, text messaging him, and talking to him on aol. It really bothers me. Maybe I'm taking it a little bit out of hand, but in my eyes, she's MY friend, not his. Do you think I'm overreacting? Honestly? I don't think so, but Amy does.
Becky.
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2006 30 January :: 7.18pm
:: Mood: sick/sore/sleepy
:: Music: ME COUGHING
sick as a dog.. RUFF RUFF
yeaaaaah how bout i'm terribly sick.. bad sinus infection that is messing with my joints and what not so i'm like sore as all hell.. the doctor SHOVED A FUCKING TUBE up my nose.. IT WAS LIKE A FUCKIN HOSE!!! #%@!..those bastards.. but ya my friend Gered took me cause hes a sweetie!. and then we went to pick his brother up from school (were i should have been, hehe) and then we went to chill at his house. BUT if i didn't go to the doctors i would probably be even more miserable and top of that wine and cry lol like a little baby that i am. but yeah so no school tomorrow for me just like today :).. so yeah I HOPE I FEEL BETTER DAMNIT >_<
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2006 29 January :: 12.47pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Believe- Brooks & Dunn
I've been sick all week and haven't felt like updating. I missed a day of school because I woke up with a really sore throat; not to mention I didn't have a voice that morning either. I still don't feel good, but I'm getting better. My ears hurt the worst though.
Today I went with my parents over to my grandma's house and made her breakfast again. Just as we do every weekend. Which is good considering she lives by herself. She needs the company.
School tomorrow; and class tomorrow night.
I love you.
Becky.
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2006 28 January :: 11.16pm
CRAZY AS FUCK
lastnite was crazzzzy. i went to jenas 18th bday party and i got fucking hammered.. i swear i'm never drinking again Lmao. (yaa rightttttt) but anyways i had fun.. things happened! lmao *cough cough* but yeah and this morning i was hungover like real bad and that never flippin happens.. fucker.. so i puked like 38948 times and my mom told me your going to be like your father i was like wtf no i'm not. but she laughed and told me not to vomit all over her car; and i made her get me mcdonalds haha. so i came hoem bout 12ish and i slept til bout 4:30pm.. and i miss talkin to ISAIAH! arg. but ya anyways.. grr NITE
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2006 27 January :: 12.00am
:: Mood: happy
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY
TO ME!
kbye.
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2006 26 January :: 10.18pm
:: Mood: tired as fuckkk
WaS iT a DrEaM
today was retarded; just like every other day i got my report card. I did okay i guess.. 1 a. some b's and c;s and 1 d. yeah im cool *sigh* but ya that sums up my day.. and i just want it to be summer already!!!!!!!!!!! im counting the days..
oh ya tomorrow is jenas bday HAPPY BDAY JENA! lol. luv u
If this is where I'll hide
It was built deep inside
Yeah I'm a selfish bastard
But at least I'm not alone
My intentions never change
What I want still stays the same
And I know what I should do
Is understand myself
Was it a dream?
Was it a dream?
Is this the only evidence that proves
A photograph of you and I
Your reflection I've erased
Like a thousand guns I asked today
Believe me when I say goodbye forever
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2006 24 January :: 3.47pm
:: Mood: GRRRRRRRRRROWWWLLL
:: Music: Ludacris - Yous a Ho
banana oil (nonsense)
the other day jason threatened me again; i'm gettin real sick of this bullshit.. seriously i honestly don't care anymore. so fuck it!. and i talked to gered the other day and he over heard at his party that 'i was mad at him cause some girl was all over him' i denied it and hes all like 'your lieing to me' and i'm like no dude wtf shut up. When really im not jealous.. i mean hes a really great friend, funny, cool, cute, i have a good time when i'm around him.. i don't know i'm all blank lol. but that nite at the party was crazy..BLAH AND i mean yeah i'm young but so confused about everything. sometimes i don't know what i want but thats another day..... But yaaa i think Gered is mad at me for the fact he thinks lied and i went all wack-o when he asked me if i was mad.. and hes like 'u don't wanna see/hang out with me and everything anymore huh?' and i said ' no gered that isn't it.. u JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND' and clearly i don't either.. so yeah i apologized cause i guess i'm a moronic fool. BLAH sorry for rambling on i guess i just needed to vent it out. arg
but friday is my bestest friend jenas 18 MOTHERFUCKING BIRTHDAY (YAAA BIIITCHES) and its gonna kickass!! so i cant wait to see her cause it seeems like a fucking year. err LOVE U!
i wanna see my baby isaiah. arg!!!!! =)
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2006 24 January :: 5.32am
:: Mood: tired
I started the medical terminology class at CCAC last night. I really liked it. It will be a lot of work; but nothing I can't handle. Last night we actually completed 3 chapters. I'm not used to that pace quite yet, but I'm still hanging on. We were also told that we have a test every week on the material we learned the week before. The class is from 6pm until 9:10pm every Monday.
I just wanted to update really quick. I need to go take a shower so I can get ready for school. Comment me.
Becky.
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2006 22 January :: 7.18pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: Wish You Were Here- Pink Floyd
This weekend was pretty much amazing. =]
Friday I came home from school and took a much needed nap. I woke up; and read for a while. After that I went out for the night with the best guy in the entire world. <333
On Saturday, I went to my grandmother's house with my parents, and we cooked her breakfast. I came home and then left again. After I got home, I cleaned my room and did some of my homework.
Today I was just laying around all day. I was waiting for 3pm to roll around so that I can watch the Steeler game. Which by the way was great. Steelers beat the Broncos; 34-17 and we're on our way to Detroit for the Superbowl. I'm not sure who we're playing yet; that game is still going on. It's probably going to be Seattle. I'm not too worried about it. The Steelers are going strong.
I love you.
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2006 22 January :: 7.10pm
:: Mood: sore
:: Music: Twiztid - darkness
lastnite i went to Gered's. i didn't think i was going.. cause i thought he blew me off since he was supposed to be here anywhere from 8:30-9:30. it was bout 10:10 when he called.. so yeah He wasn't supposed to have a party
but he did anyways, so i was like whoaa. We all got trashed.. i didn't even know wtf was going on. Even though i remember EVERYTHING. And something happened that reallllllly shouldn't of have =); but that would have never happened if 'she' wasn't there..stupid hoe. but yeah overall i did have a good time; i called Alaina and was like 'you need to get here, everyone wants you too' so she did.. she came bout 3am and we both left at 5am. Went to Mcdonalds since Wendy's wasn't open (fuckers) haha. and we got breakfast.. you know ate, was goofy, played in the playhouse thingy! then we just went back to her house and ate some pizza and fell asleep. Today we just drove around alittle and she brought me home. SOooO now i'm just relaxing thinking bout how crazy my night was and what to do and at the same time i'm pretty fucking tired and alil hungry. EeeRrr.
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2006 21 January :: 4.21pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Sarah McLachlan- Angel
When the broken hearts are mended and the many tears are dried, you learn. When you're over the old boyfriends and girlfriends and you realize you can live without your first love, you learn. You see that the world doesn't end just because you think it will, and that sometimes growing up means letting go. You learn what real love is, and you begin to see that one friend who really cares about you is better than a hundred friends who don't. You learn that you can be strong. Take each day step-by-step, and survive every sad moment. So feel the pain and cry the tears, go out and experience life. But when you're at the end of your rope, and you're ready to jump off that ledge, remember that heartache fades, pain subsides, and though life seems at times too tough to handle, it's also too precious a gift to waste. So keep living. Never give up, and remember: You Learn.
Becky.
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2006 21 January :: 1.44am
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: ICP - homies
=]
Just got home; i was with Gered all night basically. :) had a nice time... i needed to do something since lastnite my mom and step dad got into it.. err. wasnt to pretty; but when is it ever?. tomorrow well i should say later on today i think im going back to Gereds to chill and party! wooooweee* hes such a sweetie. but yeah anyways im outtie!!
go steelers wooooo
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2006 19 January :: 12.21pm
:: Mood: pissed off
Ahh, I don't know why I haven't updated. Haven't felt like it I guess. Anyway, Amy and I went to the mall last night. After that we went to Wal*Mart and then went somewhere to get something to eat.
Today has been a really bad day since I woke up. Not to mention, Kristen and I are fighting again. We were sitting at lunch today; and she said:
Kristen- "Becky, I've been meaning to ask you something. What did Sam say about Randi & I being friends again?"
Me- "She didn't say anything."
Kristen- "You're lying."
Okay, so that's when I flipped and cussed her out. First of all, nobody will ever sit there and call me a liar to my face and not expect to get a bad response out of me. I'm not a liar, and I don't appreciate someone calling me one. Second of all, Sam really didn't say anything because she doesn't care. A lot of people are really self conscience, and think everyone talks about them. But actually, they are worthless and nobody could give a rat's ass about them.
Becky.
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2006 18 January :: 8.04pm
:: Mood: tired
been staying home past 2 days; no school. went with gered the other nite.. had a nice time:: today i went with alaina since i didnt go to school, we took a ride and then went to mikes and drove around.. got high, ya that how ordeal lol. i just woke up alittle bit ago... ate and went to sleep, hehe. and i really dont appreciate my friends 'talking' to my ex boyfriend.. kinda i dunno PISSES ME OFF. but yeah. me and him are still yet not talking and todays his 19th b-day so i told him happy birthday.. but we didnt talk, =\, oh well!
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2006 17 January :: 12.22am
i went with gered and his brother today job searching.. well they did not me and then we went back to there house to chill. i had a nice relaxing time..
then i get on AIM and me and jason get into it. and i mean like hardcore. what an ass. i was called a whore and pathetich and stupid and etc.. i dont feel like whipping out the convo, ive cried enough.
fuck it; fuck you.
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