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:: 2004 22 May :: 10.37 am
:: Mood: just wOke up
:: Music: suga pie hOney bun .. is in my head.. haha

last couple days
ok well i havent updated since tuesday and now its saturday.. thats weird for me ha

hmm where to start..

tuesday - the "current thought" was where the hells eric.. he ended up gettin online later that nite and i got to talk to him for about 10 minutes maybe

wednesday - school was ok i guess - at the buses it was rainin and everybody was soaked.. yesss.. were all oh sO seXay when were wet.. ahaha.. well yeah so rode sams bus home.. yesssss it was FUN.. haha.. travis was dancin and stripin and chris was messin with the bus driver "mrs fram" [ mrs frame but he said fram haha ] .. umm.. got to sams.. chilled and got some food then eventually started the projects that i came over to do.. went home around 1o:3o bc SOMEONE cant wake my dad up on time.. douche.. i had to wake up poOr larry and make him come and drive around sams neighborhood [ he passed her house like 2 times haha ] .. then came home and got online ..talked to sam for alittle bit then went to bed.. ohh yeah this day eric cut and came to our 8th pd.. and everyday since tuesday sam cut and came to me and erics lunch..

thursday - regular day of school.. i dont really remember what happened in school so yeahhh.. its w/e.. all iknow is i came home to an empty house anda locked door..so i couldnt get online.. so i called sam.. talked to her for a little bit.. stayed awake at least until angie got off the bus [ arOund 4 ] then ended up fallin asleep with sam and the phone so she let me go so i could take a nap.. me and angie fell asleep in the recliner [ haha how cute.. hahaha ].. wOke up to my dad and the DIKE comin through the front door around 7 only to hear my dad be like "whats a matter?? got nuthyn to do??!" <-- cus he locked me out of his room so i couldnt get online.. asshole.. so yeah woke up ate sumthin then called sam back.. around 8 sumthin i said i could get online so we got off the phone and she was away bc shes grounded off the computer..so i waited till about 9 sumthin and she snuck back on.. i was talkin on the computer till late as hell.. bc i remember i had a lot of shit to do but i kept talkin and talkin and i didnt get to bed till like 12:3o.. sheesh

friday - had ISS.. got to school... walked with sam and eric until that door to the trailors.. got to the door and it was locked so me and this girl hannah waited outside in the "rain" [ it was really drizzlin not even.. but she was scared cus of her hair so it was rain to her lol ] .. the lady came and we got in.. um.. ended up sittin where eric sat before.. thats weird cus i didnt even realize until i waslike takin out my stuff after bein in ther for like 5 min.. i looked infront of me and there was his attendance paper with "Eric + Sam 4->" drawn on the back .. and i was like "yesss".. haha .. in school was fun.. all you do is watch the black people get yelled at and yell back.. haha.. then when we had the fire drill they were like "in schOol kiLlaS!" .. haha.. yesss.. im not gonna say what happened cus i pretty much dont feel like it.. ha.. it doesnt matter anyway - umm got outside.. ran into sam and eric.. stood there for like 5 minutes probably more.. till ant and craig and paolo all came out.. then said bye to eric and sam got on my bus with me.. uhh.. the bus ride was fun =) .. ha.. idk why but it was... me and sam singing ..yesssss! - then we got to my house .. chilled in myroom for alittle bit.. then went to see the house.. came back and pretty much chilled out front of my house.. eric didnt come bc my step mom is a dike and when he called me and sam were outfront throwin a teness ball back and forth across the pike she answered the phone and asked my dad if eric coudl come over and he said no.. FUCKIN DIKE.. so eric doesnt wanna come over bc hes not wanted.. ok i get that.. so i went inside and argued with my dad.. he kept throwin excuses at me as to why eric couldnt come over.. and everyone i defended.. until it came down to my just talkin and him ignorin me with nuthyn else to say.. and my choices were his gay ass plan.. that instead of everything bein easy and eric just gettin dropped off here and then later his mom pick him and sam up .. he wanted his mom to come here pick me and sam up and take us to her house and then he would pick me up later before he had to go to work.. uhh NO ..thats way more difficult and out of the way and just NO faggot!.. so it was either that or i get grounded.. so i was like "ok if thats my choices then ground me bc your not answerin me and its w/e cus you wont do it.. " and i told eric to come over.. but he didnt want to bc hed have to come over and just end up leavin i nlike a half hour anyway.. bc we wasted time on the phone when he could have been here .. and my step mom is a dike it was none o fher business..if the phones for me then answer it and give it to me dotn talk to the fuckin person you asshole mother fucker.. who fuckin does that.. shes such a fuckin bitch.. god i wanan kill her.. so yeah after all that me and sam just chilled in my front yard playin catch in the rain and then gettin into shorts and bare feet and runnin in the wet grass.. ha.. finally experienced CHEESE FILLED CHICKEN STRIPS [ yesss ant!! ] .. theyre mighty good.. sorry buddy we ate them ALL.. next time i get them ill bring you one.. i prOmise.. just remind me tho.. lol.. yeah then around 8:3o i had my dad take me and sam to walmart and then take her home.. on the way i saw a chevelle.. yessssssss.. awesome.. and thats pretty much it.. nuthyn exciting.. or interesting

i guess thats all.. my updates suck anymore..=\


if you read this comment so i know.. cus if noone is readin this except me and sam im just gonna make my updates reminders for myself..

later -- vee

2 never thought wed make it out alive | its all in your goodbyes


:: 2004 18 May :: 10.01 pm
:: Mood: not sure..headache=\
:: Music: dashboard - ghost of a goOd thing

but i believe in you so much - i could DIE from the words that you say..
just bend the peices till they fit - like they were made for it

oOo babAy x (9:45:52 PM): such a concerned cutie pie
oOo babAy x (9:45:52 PM): haha
VoicE x unhEard (9:45:56 PM): niice
VoicE x unhEard (9:46:00 PM): THATS WHAT I SAID!
oOo babAy x (9:46:07 PM): i know
oOo babAy x (9:46:08 PM): ha
VoicE x unhEard (9:46:18 PM): oh but he gets a "concerned cutie pie".. oh w/e
VoicE x unhEard (9:46:19 PM): haha
oOo babAy x (9:46:33 PM): ahah
oOo babAy x (9:46:35 PM): okay you ...
oOo babAy x (9:46:36 PM): hmm
oOo babAy x (9:46:38 PM): =\
oOo babAy x (9:46:53 PM): sexy hairy .. sexy .. beast you .. did i say sexy? =P
oOo babAy x (9:46:54 PM): haha
VoicE x unhEard (9:47:00 PM): hahahahahaha


------- what a kid ....

hm so ANYWAY.. i know i updated yesterday but i hate when my last update is just surveys.. it gets annoying scrolling down and looking at.. so A LOT of shit was found out today.. take a gander at sams journal.. its the one with like 8o sum comments..not hard to miss.. haha.. i think its all officially "settled" now tho.. i still dont like that sam and danielle arent friends anymore.. or the reasons to hate her when half of them apply to me too.. idk .. i cant do nuthyn about it.. its over and done with.. for some reason my current thought is "where the hells eric at??" .. haha idk why.. i havent talked to him in soooo long..it feelslike.. barely talked yesterday and i barely saw him too.. bc like i knwo i dont talk but at least i see him and give "looks".. thats "talking" i guess.. but not even that cus in school.. haha.. its so weird without him around in school .. and i didnt talk to him AT ALL today.. nuthyn.. i dont think i even made eye contact with him.. makes me feel like were fighting=\ ..

sad thing ill tell ya, all of our friends ..like the guys.. were startin to like.. drift from them.. like for instance i can go down the line [ well sam said all this first im just repeating ] and say something wrong with all of them lately

paolo - suddenly thinks hes "tough shit" and isnt afraid to say ANYTHING..

carl - just sits there and doesnt say SHIT..

randy - hes cool but hes kind of rude with those bodily functions.. ha

tom - talks SOO much about shit NOBODY understands bc hes such a smart kid..

ant - is an asshole a lot more and takes advantage of everyone cus hes so big

pogo - so caught up in his life that hes not worryin about bein nice.. but hes startin to "come back".. lol

craig - oh god.. this kid.. we barely talk anymore and whenever i do try to talk hes mean or like.. doesnt care.. AT ALL.. hes like off in his own little world since hes got a g/f.. no offense to brittany..shes cool ..im just sayin.. hes different..

thats like "the circle of friends"..

except for sam and eric

sam - she was bein a bitch alot but after i said somethin and a little fight..shes MUCH BETTER.. and were like.. EXTRA close lately.. ha ..definitely ;) .. hahahha.. so much shit has happened in the past 2 or 3 weeks.. hah.. yesss.. you know i love you sam!! ..i guess we do need new friends =\ ..tahts not cool tho.. i dont wanna just drop eveyrone.. hopefully its just the heat and itll go back to normal.. cross fingers..

eric - this kid.. lol.. whast not to love? =D .. i just feel like i havent talked to him in forever!!.. ahh where are you eric??! .. =\

the table was better today tho.. so hopefully itll stay normal..

i forgot what i was gonna update about!.. shit.. im tired now.. so yeah.. im gonna go

bye guys [ the few that read this.. ]

xo -- vee

its all in your goodbyes


:: 2004 17 May :: 6.38 pm
:: Mood: tired - bored - sore - sick - yeahh..
:: Music: old puddle of mudd

im so fuckin bored_!
im mad bored so heres some surveys that im takin to waste time... blah this is soo boring.. ughhh

.....Do You Remember these......
-Bands/Singers (If so put one lyric in from them)-
Guns N Roses:whooaa whooaa whoaa sweet chilld oohh mIInnee
Def Leppard:pooOr soomme SugaR onn MEE..IN the Name of LOVE
Warrent:uhhh
Blondie:hows it go..!..one way or another im gonna find you..im gonna get you get you get you!
Styx:idk the lyrics i just know the music
Journey:who
Pat Benetar:who
Motley Crue:oh shit i dont know the music i just knwo the band..haha
Poison:i forget how it goes..but he laughs evil in the beginning of it like "ha ha ha ha"
Heart:who?
-Trends/Fads-
Jellie Shoes:oh yesssssssssssssssss i had them..aha
Spandex:ahha yeah i remember..=\
Side pony-tails:yeah mann..haha
Leg Warmers:haha yesssss
Big Hair:oh yeah;)
Madonna Look-alikes:haha yesss
-Shows-
Fraggle Rock:yeah lol..damn whered that go?
The Smurfs:yes ..i watched that shit
The Carebears:yessssssssss=\whyd they go away?!
Strawberry Shortcake:yeah..i dindt watch it tho
Charles In Charge:nahh..who?
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles:yesssssssssssssssssssssssssss!!!!
Alf:umm
Family Ties:yeah
Three's Company:yeahhhhhhhh!!!
Miami Vice:no?
Punky Brewster:no
-Movies-
The Lost Boys:yeah i think
Pretty In Pink:yesssssssssssssss
Dirty Dancing:yesssssssssssssss
The Breakfast Club:yesssssssssssssssssssssssss
16 candles:yeah but i never saw the whole thing
Fatal Attraction:yes..freaky
The Gremlins:yesss haha..STUPID..
ET:yes man.. yess.. ET phone home..
Back to the future:oh yeah.. michael j foxx was hott then =P
Ferris Bueller's Day off:yesssssss..=).. bueller..bueller.. bueller.. haha
-Toys/ Misc Stuff from the 80's-
Glow Worm:yeah
Garbage Pail Kids:yeah i think..
Garbage Patch kids:wasnt it cabbage patch kids? lol
Teddy Ruxpin:nah
Rubiks Cube:yes
G.I Joes:oh yes 8) haha
Stretch Armstrong:yeah man

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this one is kinda gay bc idk what the lyrics are..but.. idk.. its w/e

finish off these lines of lyrics...
eating seeds is a:wow idk
nothing from nowhere im no one at all, radiate, recognise:idk..
with a frozen heart and a:dk
as i close my eyes:..forget
hear one thousand screams:forget
inside my shell i:dk
swing through sadness:dk
we are the dead and:forget
hey tall man, just take:dk
we're off to button:idk
just to see whats behind the eyes of an angel,:idk
doll dagga buzz:dk
through our bleeding:forget
use your fist and:forget
there was nothing to drink 'cept:idk
if i should die before i wake, pray no one my soul to take:forget..
now make up your own...
as i fell i:lost all trust - so ask why, i must
fuck you:for meaning this much to me - fuck you for doing what you do
i was awoken by:the scent of the air -thats the blood on your hands that led me to stare
in this world, so:worthless and lost - i could care less what the cost ..
children, cast your eyes:do see the power of their lies?
where darkness:lies, there is a truth in you
in this light, i bathe, i:fight - i wouldnt want you to see me at my worst under the microscope - ..
when all eyes are closed:all the lies are exposed

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:::...The usual boring bullshit...:::
whats ur name man?:valencia
do you like it?:at times.. or when certain ppl say it
nicknames?:vee
age?:15 buddy..
siblings?:yeah definitely
who do you live with?:dad - little sister - step mom - this guy larry lol [ family friend ]
do you live in an appartment, trailor, etc?:uh..house
whats your sign baby?:saggitarious?.. dont call me baby you fag
dick/dickless?:um..definitely dickless..
where were you born?:jersey
do you still live there?:yeah
why/why not?:bc i do..
if not, where do you live?:i do..
do ya like it where you are currently residing?:not the people im with or the location..but its a cool town and shit..
are you in highschooL?:yep
arent your teachers a bitch?:not all..
whats your best friends name?:sam
is this a guy or a girl, your best friend?:girl
do you have more friends of the opposite sex?:yes
why do you think that is?:bc i hate girls..theyre gay
:::...social life and school...:::
do you play alot of sports?:not really
which ones?:football or ride bikes..idk..walk?
why?:cus i do
if you dont, why not?:cus im lazy
are you afraid of publicity?:depends on who im with..
would you hump a sign right now in front of 200 ppl you know?:yeah..humpin is NOTHING haha
i would. so you got a girl/boy *them special ones?*:nah
what's their name?:idk whats YOUR name?.. ahha
if you dont have one, do ya like being lonely?:no not really..but i guess it "suits" me..
are you depressed alot?:yeah but more for other reasons ..not bein "lonely"
what do you think your friends think of you?:oh they think im gay;)
are you a true playerrrr?:no haha
i am. so what are your grades?:sucky
are you proud of them?:not all ..well ..FEW..
whats the lowest grade you ahve?:an incomplete
the highest?:maybe like a 85 if im lucky
who's the bitchiest teacher?:ISBILL........
the nicest?:boxely..
are you taking any foreign languages?:italian
which ones?:^
:::...RANDOMNESS...::: say what comes to mind
derek:my cousin..hah
bird:kai
keyboard:typing on it..
jeff:edminston..?
sonic:session
tom:houseal
jerry:tom
period:red=) ahaha
march:15th.. wtf?
captain:kurk.. ahahahhaa
smile:no
rain:it will soon
kisses:nice=)
aladin:and the geni..?
:::...More "just stuff"...:::
what's your favorite cereal?:um.. probably lucky charms or shredded wheat..depends on my "mood" lol
favorite beverage?:sprite or code red..
that was short...:::Illegalizing:::...
do you smoke weed on a weekly basis?:not weekly..only like 3 times this weekend for the first time
how bout drinkin??:i did the last two weekends..but i didnt get drunk
do you think marijuana should be legalized?:yeah..but then again no..
so do i. why do you think it should/shouldnt?:it should bc its fun and cant kill someone "health wise" but..no bc you can kill someone on accident cus your high or some shit like that.. idk..
whats the most hardcore drug you have ever done?:weed.. haha
when was the last concert you went to and got wasted?:r h c p.. i drank but dindt get wasted or nuthyn
when was the last party you attended?:my own haha..
did you get blazed?:nah..
i did. what did you do this new years?:chilled with sam eric nick and the neighborhood kids around sams neighborhood
have you ever been suspended from school?:yeah
if so, for what?:cursin out a teacher
if not, do you want to be?:idk.. no bc i cant get no more absenses or ill get ngs
have you ever been caught at school w/ guns, drugs, alcohol etc?:nope
i havent. do you TAKE it to school and sell it?:no
are you a total crackwhore?:no haha
have you ever done crack?:nope
what about ice? lol. same thing stupid.:ha
methenphatamine?:nope
the big "E"?:nope
Weed?:yeah
heroin?:nope
cocaine?:nope
are you just some goodygood?:i guess..haha idk..
do you go to football games?:uh..i have before but i dont regularly
do you get high there?:nope
i do. what about drink?:not at one..watching one..
i do. how often do you go to an event that you dont do something wrong at?:uhh.. i always do sumthin wrong..just it rarely involves drugs or drinkin..like idk..its winslow..who DOESNT do sumthin "wrong" at school events
^including school^:yeah..
:::SEX::: *i know yall perves like this one*
what is the most you've done w/ the opposite sex?:hooked up
how bout the same sex?:hooked up
ever made out w/ your best friend?:yeah..but not sam you guys..an OLD best friend a LONG time ago..
did you like it? *i bet you did*:i dont remember ..seriously haha.. she was drunk and i wanted the money from the bet =)
how old were you when you had your first kiss?:from a chick - like.. 11?.. a guy - 14? ..thats KISS ..no tongue..i didnt get unprude till this winter with nick
when you first had sex?:i havent..
is your pussy all stretchy *if you're a girl or a hedero*:ummmmm ahaha no hahahah =X no comment!!
do you sell your body for crack money?:o yes all the time.. haha NO you SHIT!
have you ever given someone 'head'?:nope
did they like it?:
have you ever done anything sexual with a relative? cousin? etc?:aha..i kissed my cousin like a peck on the cheek but he moved bc someone called his name..everyone made a big deal out of it and i was soo pissed..haha ahwell..
eww!:yeah i guess..aha
what about an animal?:well i let my dog lick my face when he "kisses" me..aha..and i kiss his head and stuff..lol
^applies to that. have you ever humped a dog?:yes..aha.. jokingly guys..jokingly..
how bout a a chair? i have.:yes ahah
ever fantasized about a teacher?:not that i recall
other authority?:um.. yeah this hot gym teacher a while back..aha
do you masturbate alot?:not anymore..but i used to ALL the time..ha.. idk why i dont really anymore..its not 'pleasuring' anymore..
why/why not?:its not 'pleasuring' anymore..
do you use your hand?:yeah..
something else?:ha.. NO comment.. =X .. i dont got a dildo if thats what yous are thinkin..
have you ever looked at porn?:yeah
what sites do you go to? *I suggest gay british porn*:aha.. idk about sites..i watched movies
do you masturbate to pictures?:no..
are you gay/straight/bi?:straight
if you're straight: ever think EVER about the same sex? *dont lie*:yeah..you always do when your fingerin yourself to a porno..the best part is when the dudes goin down on the chick..cus you can imagine like what it would be like if that wasu
are you getting horny right now just thinking about it?:no lol
are you attracted to whites/hispanic/africans/canadian?:whites.....ill admit tehre are some hot black guys..but not many..
:::canadians:::
do you like canadians?:uh no?
:::family life:::
were you abused as a child?:not physically..like i saw a lot of shit go on..
did you tell anyone?:one guidance counselor and she only made shit worse so i said fuck it.. but i went through it with like.. 5 bros and sis's
why/why not?:bc it wouldnt help..
its called 911 kids!! save yourself!! have you ever pranked the police?:yeah
did your mom find you behind the living room chair and spank ya w/ a book?:no..
have you ever been spanked with something other than a hand?:yeah.. hanger - vacuum tube - fly swatter
whats the longest you've been grounded?:i never get grounded..
what was it for?:__
do you think you deserved it?:__
:::psycho therapy:::
do you bite your fingernails?:sometimes
how bout the toes?:no i cant flex like that..aha
do you smoke cigarettes?:not all the time but yeah i used to and i will if i found one or was offered
do you like it or just do it to be "cool"?:i like it
do you think you are cool?:yes but not cus i smoke lol
why?:bc everyone says i am and i doubt EVERYONE would lie to me
why not?:__
if you had the choice to start over, would you?:with my family life..but not my friends or anythign else..just my family life
or would you go 10 years into the future and see where you'd be?:i guess i would..idk
what do you think you'll see in 10 years?:i probably wont be alive in 10 years..
what would you do different if you went back?:idk..depends
do you think there is a god?:honestly - no
with that, i'm out... goodbye. SAY BYE! hope you liked it! :):call me ;) .. haha dOrk..=P.. BYE!..happy bitch?

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Basics:
Name?:vee
Age?:15
Zodiac sign?:sagitarrious?
Sexual Orientation?:straight....?
Religion?:none..well i used to go to church and it was christian..but my dads a catholic..so idk..you pick
Your favorite...
Television show?:friends.. or csi .. <--not miami..the original with grissom
Color?:red i guess
Children's song?:hokey pokey_or.. hmm.. idk..
Thing to do?:be on aim or chill with my friends =D
Animal?:dog
Person to talk to?:sam or eric..
Your least favorite...
Electronic device?:remote..its always confusing..
Type of music?:gospel?..
Memory?:dyfs
Word?:poser
Food?:chunky tomotoes - mushrooms!..yucK
Do you...
Enjoy school?:yeah but not always..and not the whole day just parts..
Have a fondness for children?:uh im not michael jackson..so yeah deff not! you faG
Talk to yourself?:yeah..more in my head then anything but i do talk to myself outloud sometimes
Get pleasure from hurting those you hate?:yeah of course
Sing while in the bathroom?:yep
If you could...
Do any one thing what would it be?:cant say bc im not sure about it..
Become president what would be the first thing you'd do?:quit my job..thats too hard
Murder someone without being punished who would it be?:step mom.. DEFINITELY
Live in a different country which one would you move to?:britain or like.. australia <--yeah CONTINENT but w/e..lol
Change one thing about yourself what would you change?:my quiet side.. take it away i guess..everyone complains about it..so i guess its gotta go =\

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this next one - i KNOW im not emo so dont say nuthyn on that topic..bc like i said ..i hate the word poser..so if you got any comments on that dont even bother cus you wont like the "results" kk? =) thanks so much

This is an emo quiz, so here are some bands. Do you like them or not..?
Taking Back Sunday:yeah
The Used:yeah
AFI:yeah
Dashboard:yes
Coheed and Cambria:yess
Matchbook Romance:i only heard one song..its ok
Motion city soundtrack:idk
weezer:yes
white stripes:no not really..but i can listen to them if theyre on..but not always
Story of the year:yeah
new found glory:yes
hot hot heat:yes
maxeen:nope
the get up kids:i heard a few songs..theyre cool
moneen:nope
sugarcult:yeah
brand new:yeah
the sounds:nope
Enough of that, now for style::
Do you wear scarfs? What color?:i did int he winter.. gray with red fuzzy tips..
What type of shoes do you wear?:kenny andersons
Do you own any chuck taylors? what color?:nope
What about pants..do you wear tight jeans or normal ones??:uh..both..wait wahts normal to you? ..lol
hm..do you wear skirts??:nope
What does your purse look like?:i dont use a purse..
Or is it a messenger bag?:nope
hey, what does your haiiiir look like?:um..longer then short and its brown
Is it colored? What color??:it was black..now its like brown with auburn highligts
Now for some emo stuff::
What makes you emo?:im not
What is your definition of emo?:emotional ..mellow..
Are you apart of any "emo" communities?:nope
Whats your favorite lyric quote?:everything is gonna be alright. be strong.believe. -- yellowcard..not emo i guess
FAvorite band?:id say rhcp or like.. coheed or yellowcard..idk theres a lot
Fave emo guy?:dk
Fave emo girl?:dk
Your friends::
Are they emo?:some are
Do they make fun of you?:hmm..idk do they? haha..
Do any of them make you feel better?:yes
Who are your 5 bestest buddies?:sam eric paolo tom ..shit..i dont have 5 =(
What brand of ___ do you eat? *fill in the blank*
ketchup:heins
greens:uh..whats it called? .. jolly green giant? aha idk
bread:king somethin..i forget..the bag is yellow and it starts with a k with a dude in a chefs hat with white hair
chips:i forget the name.. uh..lays..i think..haha i dont really eat chips
icecream:briars
candy bars:reeses or hershys
soda:coke.. pepsi.. sprite [ well that is coke ].. moutain dew
tis almost the end ;(
Do you like rain?:yeah as long as its not a big ass windy rain storm
Does it make you cry?:not always..but it has before
Do you listen to the all american rejects?:yeah
what about the ataris?:yeah
starting line???:yes
are you gonna go to the warped tour this year?:possibly..
I AM I AM!!!
Which do you prefer
My finger on the trigger, or me lying face down on your floor?:your finger on the trigger
cold or hot:cold.. bc you can cuddle and bundle up in blankets =)
elephants or giraffes:hmm.. i cant decide haha
bam or johnny k.:theyre both hot and theyre both cool but i was more obsessed with bam so..bam
ally or jamey?:neither fuck them..

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What's your name?:vee
OUT OF YOUR FRiENDS, WHO iS..
The craziest:sam
Loudest:sam
Goofiest:sam
Bitchiest:sam
Annoying:lately.. craig
Skinniest:um.. paolo? ..or me.. aha
Biggest:ant
Gorges themself but stays super skinny:me and sam.. =)
Depressing:i guess me..
Fun to be around:sam=)
Funniest:hmm..all of the fuckers are funny..ill give them that
Coolest:ehm.. were ALL cool 8) haha..
Oldest:eric..i think..
Youngest:sam i think..
Who do you call when you're sad:sam
Who do you call when you're hyper:sam
Who do you call when you just need to talk:sam or eric..depends..i dont think ive called eric but i would ..i just havent "needed to talk' lately..
Smartest:pogo..
Athletic:carl or pogo..maybe even eric - ridin that bike ;) lol
Popular:hm.. well everyone knows ant and everyone knows eric.. and pogo.. proably pogo tho..hes just so famous haha
Has the most friends:hmmmmm idk
Computer nerd:haha.. =X
Music lover:there isnt just one
Ska fan?:idk
Rap fan?:me and sam man..come on!..haha eric too i guess idk lol
Country fan?:me and sam.. duhhhhhhh!
Rock fan?:all of us niggers
Jazz fan?:none
Classical fan?:none hopefully..
Oldies fan?:me and sam 8)
Pop fan?:uhh.. fuck that shit.. lol
Hip hop fan?:me and sam i guess..idk
Latino fan?:um NONE thank god
SALSA!:none..
Who is the nicest:pogo ..i could say eric here to bc hes never really been anything but nice to me.. but idk..pogo is just so nice lol
Best to party with:um.. sam!
Has the best ideas:me and sam together..and eric on his own or with his friends..yess that kid is soo smart when it comes to that kind of shit..lol..
Has the stupidest ideas:tara [ a nose can be a ski jump.. ] hahhaha lol good one!
Most likely to..
Join a cult:aaron jones......
Become a rock star:doug
Become an actor:oh yes.. me adn sam ;) haha
Become a millionare by chance:aha.. probalby like randy or sumthin or carmen hahahahhaha
Jump out a window:mike already has....
Kill someone:me..
Take over the world:hm.. carl hahahhaha
Dress up in a bunny suit and hop down the street:ant.. i wont say why lol
Invent something great:idk about "great" haha..one of us will.. prOmise;)
Become the next Michael Jackson:ugh.. ew hopefulLy NONE
Eat someone alive:aaron jones.....
Become president of the USA:yeah.. none of us..
Move to Spain and cut down all the trees:aaron jones..
Become an astronaut:umm
Sit here and do this stupid survey:uh me..
Leave home first:me
Leave home last:paolo..
Never leave home at all:haha um.. probably carmen idk
Get into the best college:paolo or pogo
Never graduate high school:me...
Or are you still in grade school..? =X:nah..
Dig a hole all the way to China:paolo.. he wanted some damn rice..BAD
Become a talk show host:hmm.. ant or like.. tom donahue..or tom houseal aha.. thatd be crazy
READ ALL THESE QUESTiONS:me

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i guess thats it

im not really havin a "good day" anymore so yeah.. this shits gay - its hot and thats makin my knee be in pain and i dont feel good as it is so the pain is makin me more nausous..its just fuckin gay..

its all in your goodbyes


:: 2004 16 May :: 8.42 pm
:: Mood: fucK a mOod =P
:: Music: thursday - bout to switch it tho..

weekend shit__
humm.. well lets see

friday - half dAy.. aLways awesome =)
anyway half day bc prom.. wow proms over already.. ha .. this weekend went by madd slow.. hum i wonder why.. 0=) ..hehe - well ANYWAY ..damn how many times am i gonna go off fuckin subject.. aha.. ok so sam came home on my bus.. bus ride was pretty fun.. me and pagano were shootin paper wasps at cars and shit.. while sam would make more and reload us lol.. [ nah i mean LIMM ..lol sam you know ;) ] ok then eventually mike white got in on it.. and then he tried bein "cool" or w/e.. like aimin wasps at me but not shootin em.. so i shot one at his ass..aha.. that turned into me and him in the aisle just smackin each other with rubber bands..nah mean? .. like not smackin but like.. you know.. well yeah so .. i think i won.. idk.. asK sam if you care that muCh ..aha.. but i punched him and got him with my rubber band..[ that was madd thick compared to his ..hah ].. i ripped his into like 5 peices..aha..peice of shit.. hehe.. anywhO.. got home.. uhh i dont really remember what happened... ummm... shiT.. ohh yeah sam got in the bathroom and shaved her legs and i was on the computer.. we ended up doin chOres for my dad.. like.. takin the trash out.. dishes.. sweepin.. then i wanted to clean out the car [ not realLy ..i just wanted to drive it =) ] so yeah me and sam got in the car.. and i backed it up around the curve to the back of the house.. ahh ..real scary.. i hate drivin in reverse.. .. well yeah we cleaned the car out.. then moved it back.. chilled in it for a few minutes too i think.. idk.. we talked to eric on and off.. then ended up hangin arounD my house in bras and underwear =) [ oOo seXay! =P..aha ] .. yeahh well it was madd hot so we had no choice.. i dont got air conditioning lol. .uhh i know we did sumthin else friday nite but i cant remember.. oh.. we watched sCary mOvie 3 and aTe piZza.. ah yess 8) .. haha.. i seriously cant remember what we did friday nite ahwell.. i know we watched titanic and fell asleep and oh yeah we rode bikes up the piKe to spRing road.. aroudn to flemming pike.. sam almost got hit by a car..

saTurday -- um got up around.. 10 - 10:3o? . . ate some food.. i got in the shower.. then sam did.. eric called.. started to straighten sams hair and finished watchin titanic.. eric came over.. watched with us..and watched me straighten her hair haha.. yess.. then we took a nap..sort of.. we just layed in my bed and watched the movie.. then watched it rewind.. then pretty much layed there and closed our eyes.. i dont think any of us actually fell asleep.. then we got up and went out in the garage for a little bit..then walked over to the abandoned house.. sam and eric smoked .. i didnt.. dunno why.. i dindt feel good.. they smoked like..a little more then half.. cus it burned quick and shit.. and it was loose.. anyway uhh.. hid the blunt and went back to my house to order food.. we were sittin in my kitchen on my floor..and i was just listenin to the idiots talk ..and make no sense..aha.. i tried callin demarcos but they didnt have panzarottis and thats what me and eric wanted so i wasl ike.. "uhh can i call you back?" .. and he asked me what i wanted on a cheese steak.. i was like "um..cheese?" hahaha.. we finally got my step mom to order for us.. then it got boring in the kitchen so i went and sat on the front porch.. just watchin cars pass and like.. playin games.. idk i made them up in my head..lol.. after like a half hour maybe..eric and sam come out and sit with me.. the delivery dude was new and he got lost ..so he was like over an hour .. what a douche.. haha.. uh..they ate and i didint cus i got a hoagie and it wasnt cold AT ALL so i put it in the freezer.. then we walked back to the house and got the blunt..didnt smoke it.. we were lightenin shit on fire on the top deck.. and eric like got 3 peice of wood..like ruler size peices..and he shoved one like in between the deck boards and made a little t-p lookin thing..and put leaves and sticks int he middle and lit it.. and it was burning and it looked like the deck was on fire so we put it out.. and the deck was still glowin but we didnt think nuthyn of it.. went to pastore to get sodas..eric ended up stealin a whole case of 20 oz cokes..haha yesss.. what a kid =) .. then we went up and chilled on my bed and like 10 min later his sister brenda showed up.. me and sam closed up the garage and all and then went in.. chilled in my room.. ate some food.. watched um.. some movie.. i dont even remember.. ohh yeah my cousin carol anne's graduation..then when thta was over the fun started =) =) .. haha .. put some loud nigger music on.. smoked the rest of the blunt.. then put w/e was left in a bowl and smoked some of that.. then i dont really remember what happened..like i remember it in short little images.. i dont rememvber the shit happening.. i know that i was standin by my stereo and like i started laughin uncontrollably out of nowhere..then sam started laughin.. then i dont remember.. the lights were out.. the music loud..we were on the bed.. everything was like delayed like 5 min.. like hmm..idk how to explain it if you dont know.. like if you turned your head..it took like 5 seconds for your eyes to get there.. and you couldnt remember anything for like 2 seconds.. i was FREAKIN OUT.. i dont remember shit.. i was fuckin stoned..ahh ..lol.. first time smokin pot and i get fucked up..niiice.. ahah.. me and sam yo.. we were goin crazy.. ahaha.. we smoked at like midnite and we were still high till like at least 3.. i knowi fell asleep and she woke me up and told me that we shoudl sleep normally so we can fall asleep.. so i did.. and then i woke up to fire trucks passin by at like 7 or 8 am..

GUESS WHAT!!.. that fuckin house we were messin with the fire at.. it burned down.. and its bc of us.. how fuckin unbelievable is that?!?!?! ahh .. its crazy!!!.. ahhhhhh

in betweenall that.. it rained and shit yet it still burned down.. C-R-A-Z-Y..

so we woke up.. ate.. did w/e.. rode down the piKe to the houes.. all the windows are shattered..the upstairs is like half gone.. theres a hole int he deck where we had that thing lit.. fuckin nuts man.. thats mad unbelievable lol.. daMn

and after all that.. we still didnt get introuble!!.. waht the hell.. haha

idk this is gonna be longg as hell..ahwell..

xo -- vee

i love sam domicz and eric pollosco =)

2 never thought wed make it out alive | its all in your goodbyes


:: 2004 11 May :: 8.22 pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: hoobastank - let it out

LETTING IT OUT
ok - first of all lets put the lyrics for this song up in this "Jawn"..

Hoobastank

"Let It Out"

This is ours, we made it with our everything
Something real, as real as it could ever be
You gave me all of yourself, I gave you all of me
Now set it free from yourself, for everyone to see

I'm not afraid to let it out
I'm gonna show you how I feel
I'm not afraid to let it out
(who cares if you dont like it)
(if you don't like it)

Go ahead, you know just what you want to do
Don't deny, you feel cause I feel it to
Take a look all around, you'll feel it in the air
From the sky to the ground, I feel it everywhere

I'm not afraid to let it out
I'm gonna show you how I feel
I'm not afraid to let it out
(who cares if you dont like it)
I'm not afraid to let it out
I'm gonna show you how I feel
I'm not afraid to let it out
To let it out
(who cares if you don't like it)
(who cares if you don't like it)
(who cares if you don't like it)
(who cares if you don't like it)

This is ours, we made it with our everything
Something real, as real as it could ever be
You gave me all of yourself, I gave you all of me
Now set it free from yourself, for everyone to see

I'm not afraid to let it out
I'm gonna show you how I'm free
I'm not afraid to let it out
(who cares if you dont like it)
I'm not afraid to let it out
I'm gonna show you how I'm free
I'm not afraid to let it out
To let it out
To let it out
To let it out
(who cares if you don't like it)
(if you don't like it)
(if you don't like it)


-----

ok so anyway - what am i letting out, you ask ..

supposedly overbrook people are tellin eric that nick was sayin that me him and sam had a threesome..and that me and eric are doin stuff.. first of all ..WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?! .. second of all.. where do these ppl come up with this shit?!?!? .. bc we definitely arent havin threesomes and me and eric definitely arent doin nothin behind sams back.. you all know that eric loves sam and he wouldnt fuckin do that so stop fuckin sayin he would!! godd.. and neither would i so what the hell ..fuck yous! .. and apparently its richie who told nick all this shit.. fuckin RICHIE.. erics BEST FRIEND.. how fucked is that? .. and its so much worse bc whenever the fuckin kid is chillin with us.. he fuckin sits there and says NOTHIN.. except for the occasional shit under his breath that only eric knows what hes sayin.. so WTF.. hes got SOME balls between those legs of his.. and sams supposed to be nice and talk to him and hell eventually start talkin back to her.. no fuck that! why the hell should she fuckin go through the god damn trouble when 1 - he obviously dont care 2- he talks shit on her and me and his own best friend and 3 - he doesnt try either so wtf.. no FUCK THAT.. the kid doesnt know what hes talkin about.. but ok lets believe him bc nobody likes nick.. what the hell.. i know you wanna believe your best friend but .. ugh.. that kid is a fucking douche bag.. he doesnt talk to us when hes around.. yet he complains that hes bored later on to eric.. fuck man.. what a pussy.. but anyway lets not completely start doin what he does.. TALK SHIT.. im just sayin the fuckin kid doesnt know what hes talkin about and if he does.. i certainly dont..and im sure sam and eric dont either.. so fuck.. well believe richie.. no way.. i have no reason to believe that kid.. he didnt ever talk to me or give me a reason to be his friend so wtf.. idc if hes erics best friend.. if he doesnt like me and sam then why should we like his ass?..yeah its not a one way street.. so definitely fuck that.. and some how fuckin renee is involved? .. this is bullshit.. im sick of fuckin people talkin shit when they definitely DONT KNOW what theyre talkin about.. and im fuckin SICK and TIRED of RENEE messin with sams head.. i know she hasnt done it yet wiht this little "issue" but i can see it comin.. so im sayin it now ahead of time.. the girl would probably do anythin to ruin sam and this is just another bullet in the gun.. so yeah.. and if any of yous heard this RUMOR dont fuckin believe it.. bc im tellin you right now.. STRAIGHT FROM ONE OF THE HORSE'S MOUTHS..none of that fuckin shit is true and whoever fuckin made it up.. [ for now.. its RICHIE ].. has got some explainin to do.. and some ass to get kicked.. =) kk?

im not fuckin around either bc idc who the fuck it is.. richie or not.. whoever.. they still dont know what the fuck theyre talkin bout and they deff dont need to be tellin ppl that shit when its not true.. whether they like us or not.. thats just fuckin LOW.. god damn ppl.. you ahve no moral value no more.. are you that desperate to fuck somethin up for someone??


your all fucked up


"I'm not afraid to let it out
To let it out
To let it out
To let it out
(who cares if you don't like it)" <--damn fuckin straight


-valencia

4 never thought wed make it out alive | its all in your goodbyes


:: 2004 9 May :: 7.08 pm
:: Mood: indifferent
:: Music: hooBastanK - unaffected

so what should i do,just lay there as though im unaffected? and who should i be when theyre judging me as though im unaffected?
well im kinda in the middle of fixin my fuckin bike right now but its pissin me off and my dad isnt helpin at all by sittin there tellin me what to do and not just doin it or showin me so i can do it myself..hes just tryin to tell me not show me..and then i do the wrong thing or somethin or i ask and hes like 'NOOO" ..like ugh.. fine faggot do it yourself!!.. geeze.. but even tho it was pissin me off i got tired all of the sudden so im takin a break

hmm - so saturday i got up at like 8 and got to school by 8:3o .. it was borin as soon as i sat down but i knew i had to get it over with so i was like ..gotta do this..gotta do this.. i made it!.. ha.. it didnt even really seem that bad..it was wayy worse last time bc it was all crowded.. anyway the people let us out at 12:o0 and i told my dad to be there by like quarter after but he didnt get there until like ..12:5o .. wow.. ha.. i was like the last person to leave.. anyway so we go get sam.. and i want panzarotti's.. bc i didnt have time to eat any breakfast or nothin.. so i was hungry..and first he was like 'what for? theres food at the house.." <--he always says that!..ughh.. so i kept sayin "well theres no panzaroti's and thats what i want".. so hes like.. "the place doesnt open till like 4 anyway..theyre closed" and were passin and this lady walks in.. i was like "ITS OPEN!!..AND YOUR STILL DRIVIN..!!!! AHH!" and hes tryin to say.. "no that was a prep waitress.. " .. ugh w/e.. just say you didnt want to get me the food.. GOD.. lol.. so we got home and me and sam got on the computer for a little bit.. until my dad said get out.. so then we ended up goin out on the tractor like all day.. we went to the train yard.. to jake and joshs ..ha.. they gave me a porno and was like "here..shrek gave me this and since hes not comin back.. put it back in your dads room or keep it.." ..like .. WOW thanks guys.. lol.. i already watched that one anyway..haha.. but yeah ..ohh shrek is my brother jay.. he got takin out of school by DYFS and now hes gotta live in a therputic facility or somethin .. and my step mom has to move out.. a whole bunch of shit..i doubt that will go down bc shes still here and this was like 3 days ago.. no sign that shes leavin.. =( .. but anyway back to what we did.. uhh.. we went to the abandoned house.. ha.. fuckin birds scared the shit out of us.. ohhhh yeahh guyyys!!.. if yous ride you can come chill at my house! seriously bc the house has a pool and people were already ridin in it.. yesss.. ha.. the abandoned house is the shit =) ..haha .. uhh we basically drove the tractor all over ..we got tired of drivin around the crops so i just drove over it..omg hahahha.. it was so bumpy i had to get off.. lol.. so then we realized to drive horizontally acrossed them ha.. fuckin idiots =) .. then we were drivin in jake and joshs neighborhood and people were outside and sam was on my lap and i was makin sex faces and noises..hahaha.. yessssss.. and we found 2 super size condoms with 'built in sperm"!! haha!! .. i opened mine and i had to get rid of it bc i couldnt hold it anymore =( .. owell lol..sam left hers here anyway..but its not like i need it.. geeze.. ANYWAY.. hmm came back here ordered demarcos.. yessss.. chilled.. i fell asleep to gothika.. and then she put in peter pan and the phone rang [ eric ] and i woke up and then they were talkin and keepin me awake kind of ..then she turned the tv off bc he was complainin..idk.. i remember sam sayin "why are you bein so gay?" and then i was out.. woke up to the phone ringin.. [ jesse ].. he called like twice..then the phone got paged like 4 times ..then he called again and i finally answered it.. we got up.. ate.. then got on the computer.. we wre gonna go to the store but she got picked up at like 1 .. i ended up goin to the store at like 1:3o .. got back and chilled with jesse [ my brother ] for like an hour until he had to leave.. then i started fixin my bike with my dad and lookin for washers bc someone took mine.. who knows..anyway.. now my bikes sittin in the livin room.. i need to put tension on the tire and then tighten the bolts..but i cant find the crow bar or the wrench..how gay.. i guess thats it..

i wanted to update about like.. the whole situation with my brother and my step mom.. and my mom.. and my dad.. and sam and me.. but i dont have time and im not in the mood..and this thing is already off topic and long as it is.. so ill do it later tonite or tomorrow.. who knows..

ill try

later kids

xo -- vee

its all in your goodbyes


:: 2004 7 May :: 7.09 pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: hoobastank

i like to think i can go my own way and meet you in the end..
just got back from cold cow niTe.. dude we got there and i was NOT expecting that many fuckin people to show..haha.. there was at least 100 fuckin people in line!!..ugh.. and i definitely didnt know that angie had so many friends!..as soon as she got out of the car like 50 kids came running "angelena!!!" haha.. and like 10 hugs all at once..lol.. little faggot kids!.. anyway we talked to her teacher and her teachers husband..theyre havin twins or somethin and they were remakin a room for the babies when they come..and my dad helped them save a lot of money so they came over and were thankin him and stuff..how nice =) so yeah got in line.. waited for a longgg ass time.. haha there was this old black guy..and he was heavy set and his hair was black [ kinda like the grandpa on that show with the hot white kid who lives with the black people with his mom ].. anyway he comes up and hes like "dang kids told me it was at the school.." haha i was like "yoo hes awesome!!!" haha.. and there was this fat fuckin lady wearin a fuckin PINK ass shirt and some shorts.. SHORTS..and her legs were skinny then all of the sudden her shorts were like a foot away from her leg and she looked like she was wearin a inner tube or somethin around her waste to hold her pants out..haha.. FREAK!.. yeah my dad was makin friends lol.. we met this cool dude.. didnt catch his name tho.. damn!.. ahwell.. finally get to the "counter" and see shawn.. and we were like next in line but not up yet..so i wasl ike "dad..see that kid? in the gray shirt?..thats shawn.. he was in the play.. his character was abusive" so we get up to the window and i say hi or w/e and my dads like "YO! I HEAR YOUR A WOMAN ABUSER!!" and shawn was like "=O! whaat?!" ..his eyes like jumped out of his head..haha.. poor kid.. i feel bad =\.. he probably thought i told my dad in all seriousness or somethin ..hahaha.. yeah well ANYWAY stood there and ate with my dad and watched like 10 little kids [ including my sister ] run around and play tag and have screamin contests.. wow lol..then came home..now to type this

so weekend plans?.. so im told.. i go to saturday completion tomorrow..till like 12:3o.. then i pick up sam on the way home.. go back to my house and chilL!.. she sleeps over and then goes home a little earlier then usual on sunday..bc of mothers day ..how sweet=P lol.. jk sam=) .. anywho..right now shes at eriCs.. i guess a few more hours ..ill wait till i talk to her to go to bed i guess.. ugh i gotta get up early tomorrow!..and SIT for like 4 hours!!.. ughh how gay.....i hate NG's!!.. =(.. well this is the last one.. HOPEFULLY [ cross my fingers ]..

oh yeah - i got my hair cut =\..im not to happy with it right now.. like it looks fine.. but i dont like how its got the "freshly cut" look goin.. its gay.. i like the split ends =(.. but it was too long i had to cut it.. i just didnt intend on it bein this short.. i mean its not short..but its short for me.. =( uRrrrr

ill just keep straightenin it and burn the ends again =). .. haha what fun!..x_X

ok i guess thats it.. hooBastanK is doin the hipPiTy diPpitY .. hha..idk lol

later

its all in your goodbyes


:: 2004 4 May :: 7.26 pm
:: Mood: alone
:: Music: elton john - your song

oOo sexaY!! =P
hm - last time i updated i was in a shit for a mood .. right now im "giddY" but still alone and cold and hungry..=\

just finished watchin my new movie...
PETER PAN!!!!

yessss!! hes so hott!! =).. anyway yeah, it sounds korny.... oh does it?! well FUCK YOU! cus hes super hot and its a classic.. so yeah.. go fucK youRseLf!!

nothin special happend in school .. well ok thats not true -

6th period lunCh --

theres this kidd ben, right? ..and he doesnt sit at our taBle but he comes over every once in a while.. and he came over today and he was there for a little bit.. and you know.. when youre sittin there someone gets bored and starts fuckin around with anything they can find.. well i found the little metal thing that you pull to close the taBle.. and i pulled it and they all leaned on the table so it opened up.. so the kids like throwin his leg on it and pullin up..tryin to get the thing to close, right?.. well anyway, eventually he gets up and starts jumpin on the thing like a maniac.. [ way to impress the niggers that sit behind us..they were screamin "man its always gotTa be the white people, man!" lol ] and anyway.. i pull the metal thing and tom and paul are pullin up.. meanwhile the kid bens still jumpin on the table and BOOM..it shuts.. pinchin his ass and leg.. hahaha.. he got up bc the dude was like "lets go" and his pants were like stuck in the table.. it was hilarious.. i almost pissed myself..haha.. and tom was laughin his ass off and he dindt even realize his ass got pinched..and hes like "did his ass get stuck?" and i wasl ike "yeah..his pants were in it and then he got up an dthey wre stuck in it still" and he started laughin..haha

uhh - nothin else really.. i didnt get my hair cut cus bc my dad ran out of time bc last min retard decided she had a eye doctor appointment and it ended as they had to go to therapy.. so we couldnt go.. but he took me to walmart real quick to get peter pan!.. new release!!! yesssss!!..

well anyway i guess thats it

me and sam are cool now.. back to talkin.. i know were still gonna have to talk it out in person bc im sure theres still stuff she wants to say.. and me and eric are good.. and im not sittin with him at lunch no more.. per sams request.. so yeah..

later

40 never thought wed make it out alive | its all in your goodbyes


:: 2004 2 May :: 1.08 am
:: Mood: sucky
:: Music: usher - let it burn or w/e

everything went to shit in less then 24 hours --
ok well i figured puttin that convo in my journal would help sam realize my "point of view" or whatever you want to call it . . and i left her a bunch of messages and commented in her journal and mine.. and yeah.. no reply.. so i guess shes serious - there goes one of my best friends

now eric read the convo and hes mad at me too.. there goes another one of my best friends

im down to craig.. and weve been gettin less close soo..yeah

by the way i think he finally asked brittany out.. good job craig

other then that my lifes shit =)

how great it is to be me

and i thought i was doin my best to help the situation - the fact that me and sam might not be friends anymore - i was talkin it out iwth jackie and then she needed someone to help her and i gave her advice.. i was nice to my step mom.. i was pretty happy for me - well for me at home doin nothing and bein around these people - online sucks..im tired of being intouch with my friends anymore..it only makes things worse



i hate this

go die - all of you



dont comment - i dont give a shit what you have to say

15 never thought wed make it out alive | its all in your goodbyes


:: 2004 1 May :: 4.31 pm
:: Music: none

none
ok the as some of you know the convo that happened with jackie and me was in here.. but it kept bringin more bullshit our way so i took it out...

otheR shit that was in here --->

feel me out guys - i know im not innocent but its not all my fault

and sam i lied in that comment - i do care.. and your not throwin this away over some stupid complaining.. i could give a rats ass what was said your just not doin it.. bfaaffenmwwst .. yeah.. NO MATTER WHAT.. and i certainly dont think this is anything to call for the words "im completely done"

no your not - your not allowed to be


and im sorry for doin that.. i really dindt mean for it to be an entire entry..i had so much more to say but by the time i was done complainin i was so worked up and stuff i couldnt remember..i wasnt planning on burnin you like that.. sorry.. i still think your more of a bitch tho.. and im not takin much of the stuff that i said back..just the fact of the matter and the part where i said i dont care..i know im not all at fault..this is your fault to.. and maybe erics..idk

but yeah your deff not ending this over this - and not without a fight.. and especially not in a journal comment - no way

gotta go

- valencia

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