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2003 24 September :: 10.28pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: nothing, not in the mood for music.
I hate liars, especially people who yell at me for lying..
If i hear about one more person getting into musical theatre, i am going to absolutly bust and quit drama, the end. last year when i auditioned and i didnt get it, i went to speak to hasko, and she promised me that if anyone was to drop then i would be put in...cause i was NEXT on the list..and now..olivia dropped, kyle was put in over the summer AND some new girl is randomly put in now. FUCK THIS. you have no idea how discouraging she is making the drama dept seem. I've already decided I'm not doing the spring musical...I cant take it, i try so hard to fit in with you people and to make mrs hasko like me and no matter what i do, i cant win. i'm done trying, this is over.
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2003 24 September :: 10.20pm
i teach one person how to do the scrolling marquee, and i look at my friends page, and all ya'll have it...i'm not special anymore...hmm where are these journal awards <3<3
<3mandyy
p.s. happy belated birthday kayla <3
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2003 24 September :: 3.30pm
:: Mood: ugh
:: Music: "radios in heaven" -Plain White T's
today
just another day...
well another day of O.R. had passed, i only got one more day and i'm back to my perfect life...i wonder...how it feels like to have some one in your control, like a puppet...yet she doesnt know, or does she
see i'll keep complaining about the same thing forever....but if i didnt have this to complain about, what would i talk about?
heh not much i guess...this kills me, but w/e doesnt kill you only makes you stronger.
its not just her tho, its everybody. everybodt had a sotry to tell and there onyl so much you can take in beofre you just stop caring...that why i think i'm not a good friend, ugh wat a day....
i dont have a problem with anyone, anything, i dont have a problem with the world...i'm seen very differeently then i think i am..."they" have a probelm with me, yes "they"...the world, it doenst matter how many songs i write or lyrics i scream to get it out...it doesnt matter at all, cuz in "order" to get over this, u just need to let go completly...i dont think i'll ever be able to do that, and thats my problem-some of us try and trat and try and make it....but people like me try and try and try and try once more but fail, fail at what you ask? i dont know...everything...but that everything is actually ntuhing now because i've wasted it on one thing...my invision of "love" it not one person...its every person i've "loved"....but i dont feel better now that i got this out, i feel worse cuz i'm left with this thought in my head until something else can overcome. and i'm sad that this is what i have to worry about....while other kid are out having fun and worrying about toher teenage things like a ride to a party or getting her phone number....i'm stuck here worrying about merely surviving.....surviving my remaining teenage years...surviving my ambitions, expectations, love.
this is all just way too extranuous.
(sigh)
...just another day...
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2003 23 September :: 10.33pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: none
How could I forget, my deepest apology.
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2003 23 September :: 9.48am
I have forgotten to do this, I'm so sorry my loves.
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2003 22 September :: 11.05pm
:: Mood: contemplating
:: Music: no music..just me and mommy talking <3
I wanna hold my title for best journal title in the awards, i'm trying hard lol
for my journal title which one sounds better hold my breath and close my eyes...goodbye or dont cry because its over, smile..because it happened or try and see what only i can see?
and now i'm having blanks on comment links too, ugh, i'm gonna work on thist tomorrow. Goodnight <3 until then...
"Tell me u've had trouble sleeping,that u toss and turn from side to side.that it's my face u've been seein' in ur dreams at night.tell me that u wake up crying,and u're not sure exactly why.tell me that something is missing in ur life.tell me that u live for love.that forever is never enough.that u've waited all ur life to see,that u want so badly to believe,tell me that it's not just me"
((sorry for the 'slang' writting)) [thanks jenna]
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2003 22 September :: 10.41pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: i wish you were here // incubus
I'm a product of you
Today was fun. I got up at 6:30 with the intentions of bringing Hasko my Friends of the theatre money, i didnt get to far out of my bed until 7:15, and by then I had to leave in 10 minutes to go get Laura for our field trip. I got to her house, we were on our way, almost got into a car accident, but i didnt. Got there saw lots of people i had no idea were going on the trip..David Gray went, he's nice, i still kinda like him, but w/e he likes laura, or w/e i dotn know..no big deal. We went snorkeling, it was fun, but i didnt feel good, but its ok. I wasnt sea sick, jsut didnt feel good, I'm gonna go on the next trip again, maybe it'll be better. Got home at like 1:30, took a shower, and i left for lake worth. I had a match, got there ridiculously early, and then bowled first game, we lost today =(. Paige and Molly left early, what a shocker, no more, their getting in trouble, its not fair for the team.
I came home, fixed my computer again, ate dinner with my mom, we ordered sushi and thai for dinner <3 Then we jsut finished watching WHITE OLEANDER i really liked it, aside from the fact that i love Michelle Phieffer (sp?) it was just so good. I cried, kinda, my mom did too. we're funny to watch during movies. Ok this is long, i'm out.
<3mandyy
shout outs: laura, stephanie vaaaaz, sara stanely, scuba steve, bryan greer, mike cofer, david gray, jackie/april/kelly, alicia, coach adler, and my mom <3
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