i have no idea what i said in my last update
right. i could actually check, i know. but thats way to much work. lol. Coheed kinda owns in a very very odd way. lol. today was IGSMA contest for band we placed in division one so we are goign to state. Oh, and at St.Laurence we also placd first and recieved the highest ranking band of the day award. I am a band nerd... dont question. My sax teacher is more of a band nerd then i am though. to the max times ten. Yeah. Well dec. is on MONDAY. and MIRACULOUSLY becca and I have learned our lines i'm UBER excited that we might do decently (not forcing ms.riodan to suffer through terrible thoughs and wrist slitting lol) i have decided that monica is cool. So populars arent that bad.. i'm just much too cool for them. lol. i seriously have nothign else to say. I haven't really done anything at all thats been excting. sorry kids. catch ya later.

--the sweetest goodbye is the one never uttered--

today
was my birthday. my mom bought me the marroon five CD.. which is cool beans. i'm sick of always being the one to do whats right. can't every one else do the right thing for a change? lol my lovely friends, i love you all so much. my locker decore was ... superb. hahahahaha. i heart heart heart you all. i need need need to practice my declaimation piece b/c i've embrassed my self up there. I hope ms.riodan doesnt hurt us. lol. she rocks my socks. Hehehe. I dont reallly think that i have any news sorry gang.

--this love has taken over-- maroon five

tomorrow
is my birthday. yes. finally the year is over. maybe i can put to rest the evils that keep me up at night.... think for yourself.

its my birthday tomorrow/oneone here would know/ iw as born this thursday/ 22 years ago/i'm a plane in the sunset with nowhere to land/just let me know that you need me/let me feel your touch/let me know that you love me/and let that be alright/ -- switchfoot.

yes. well not much news here. I have my contest for the speech team soono. its like in two weeks. omygosh! today i totally butcherd my lines with becca.... we went to a bunch of classes and proformed it was embrassing to say the least. lol

liz<-- so i love you. kill me.

tomorrow
is my birthday. yes. finally the year is over. maybe i can put to rest the evils that keep me up at night.... think for yourself.

its my birthday tomorrow/oneone here would know/ iw as born this thursday/ 22 years ago/i'm a plane in the sunset with nowhere to land/just let me know that you need me/let me feel your touch/let me know that you love me/and let that be alright/ -- switchfoot.

yes. well not much news here. I have my contest for the speech team soono. its like in two weeks. omygosh! today i totally butcherd my lines with becca.... we went to a bunch of classes and proformed it was embrassing to say the least. lol

liz<-- so i love you. kill me.

well... if you read the posts
hey everyone. if you read the post you would know that the j-man and i are broken up. Let's face it, he's one of my BEST FRIENDS. And going out with him would have been just way to weird. we both decided to break up so no, we didnt sit at home slitting our wrists. Lol. Jimmy was on the bus today, acting like a stupid head, he's changed so much, i can't stand it. I hate people who are fake or who change when they're around certain people. I don't know if I do it, but if i do, someone, please, tell me! hahhahaha. welll i think thats all. ooh, WAIT. there was Cantigny today, yes, great field trip but it was soo darn cold. Cantigny was robert mccormicks estate that he renamed contigny when he returned from wwi. He was the owner of the tribune forever, i did my history fiar project on that... i know, im a nerd. Well, anyway. we toured his mansion, that was awesome, it was soo HUGE and COOl. and there was the war muesuem, which was really cool too but we had a crazy for our tour guide... it was kinda creepy. hehehe. today we sat at school and did nothing while the other group went on the field trip... fun right? not exactly, we watched life is beautiful, which wouldn't be a bad mood if it wasn't soo... hard to understand. It was good but i couldn't understand the plot at times and i didnt know if it was just dark humor or realy mellow dramatic. I laughed a little with sean and jeremy and anne marie and toni were giving me dirty looks. like i care. okay well now, i'm done!

---90'S DANCE MUSIC OWNS! MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 5 DAYS!----

"what becomes of a broken heart? those who i have loved have now departed, and i know i've got to find some kind of piece of mind"-paul young

omygosh
omygosh, i am going out with Jeremy... wowie ... i cannot believe my life can be this splendid. LOL. wow. sorry. i'm okay. well today was... decent. until now, now its WONDERFUL. AND GRRREAT. wow. aww i like him A TON. soo... yeas. i got a 60 on my math test. right, its nice , i know. pac did worse then me! hahahahaha. okay well... i think thats all. just wanted to give you, my adoring fans an update

-we're not quite ready for the love word... but heck, jeremy, i like you... a lot.---

im at laurens
hello gang. i'm at laurens. i'm trying to get to stop swearing.... to noavail. I made her an Xanga today (only becuase my beloved woohu was all filled... darn woohu!) and well she told as i typed her profile and crap that i didnt sound like her. Hence, my acting skills have been insulted. My gosh, laurens house is a hot hole. hold on must remove hoodie. and yes, i still have a shirt on, perv o ramas. Okay well, well, well, i am tired. to the max times ten. my hair is rebelling against me.... it looks like poo today. But.... dun dun dun igot a great TBS shirt today at hot topic. taking back sunday owns you. i wanted the dashboard confessional tee but they didnt have it. some hot kid named one eyed brian was at the register.. ooow ooow! lol. Okay well sorry if this makes no sense but its hotter then hades in here! geez.

THINGS I WANT RIGHT NOW!
1> the new incubus
2>maroon five
3> more tee shirts
4> for lauren to turn this damn song off.
5> a rather attractive loving boyfriend

-love you all.... well what does love mean ? ... hell who cares anymore?--- marilyn manson is on the radio1!! my gosh, what hasth this world comith to? come hither my love.

ps- sorry this makes no, sense is sooo darn hot!

itss been... a loong time
wow... i think this is the longest i've ever gone without journaling. Like 4 days to be exact. wow. Or three.. i dunno you do the math. Well, today, today, was ... well.. pretty darn good. Kaite i heart you. I think katie will except Christ soon, or at least i hope... she's asking questions : ) but shes as stubborn as i used to be. which is okay, because hopefully we can change her mind. Yesh indeed. And no that was not a type-0 i meant to say YESH.... umhm... deal. OOH, YOU GOT SERVED. lol. today was fun fun fun. There was hot lunch with greazy (ick) pizza. and yummy yummy salad, which i did not get to eat b/c i was talking to katie, but thats okay because i love katie more then salad. : ) Well, i love Dave Matthews Band. Yep, i do. i really do. Oh, i'm going to run for president, someone please vote for me! thank you. lol. I still don't have a date for the 8th grade dance.... anytakers??? didn't think so. i have two guys in mind.. but i dont know. Someone help me. Please? My aunt Fran's in the hospital... sad sad. Ppl think she's going to die. She's my great great aunt and she'll be 90 in July. That makes me sad. i love her. she's so wise. i like that. I want to be like that when i'm old. a fountain of knowlegde. I am sorry if all this doesn't make sense and i'm rambling like a crazie but i jsut need to. I live for this moment, in you.

"no matter what i do, somebody hates me. And you know what? I hate someone too! Someone like you!" - Reel Big fish... hate me

meep :' (
SO, today. yipee kiyaye... i visited my great great aunt, she will be 90 in july,,, yep 90! She's in the hospital though : ( .. and man, thats not cool. I have been feeling very overwhelmed by it all. I don't know what i'd do if she died. I just don't know what any of us would do. B dialed me up today... i returned her phonige... she hates me. Which sucks but hell.... who cares? i'm sorry if you're reading this love, but i'm in a very very very selfish mood. The j man and i went to the mall on valentines day... and well we didnt tell her, she was madly upset b/c we had plans for later that day. And hence the upset. I guess there's this secret rule that if you make plans that offically counts as plans for the whole day and you obligated to those plans no matter what for the whole 24 hours that that day entails. GEESH... i dont think i can take it. I am one of your atypical emo kids who doesn't talk about whats wrong... and thast what im doing . I'm going into the bottle effect where i wrap my self up in my little bubble and bottle up all my emotion. I've got so much of it bottled up i bet i coud sell it. Ha! I try to act normal on the outside, but that occasionally back fires. Just today my mom noticed the yellow tinged welt on my arm.. she asked what it was... i dont know... what to tell her. (Make your own conclusions.. but before you jump to them rmember i was born this way) i guess thats all. I don't want anyone to die... i really don't. I'm really sad today... its nto good. Someone please call me tomorrow. i need to go see the passion. I need some passion. I need God to set fire to my butt. YUCK. i'm wallowing in self pitty how unatrractive is that!?!? someone please help me out of this rut... i'm desperate. Ick ... i heart dave matthews band. hey anyone like my new layout? I was totally board the other day. i like it... read the header i heart it... a ton. I AM FAT. ha.

--did i tell anyone how much i love dmb's christmas song!?!? it's not even about christmas---
When Jesus Christ was nailed to his tree he said oh, daddy oh, i can see how it all soon will be. i came to shed a little litght on this darkness scence instead i fear i've only seen the blood of our childeren all around, the blood of our childeren all around.

triple dipple argh!
okay well kids. I am even more annoyed at ppl today then i was yesterday. Ugh, since i'm not totally immature i'm going to change the name of the child who ticked me off the most today. Let's just call him Peter... what the heck. Well peter is a big bigoted meanie who has no consideration for anyone. which is totally lame. Its quite sickening actuaally. I am soo tired 0of ppl thinking they're always right. I am only relentless when i now for certain i am right.. or its an oppionion that the other person is arguing back just as strongly. i really dont like peter at all. He is so self richeous it makes me want to puke. Seriously. i know he's not reading this right now, so i could put down his name.. but i am above that so i won't but man does he tick me off. He's sooo rrraaah. he's anti-homosexuals.. which is soo lame b/c he has no reason for it besides that"it's just wrong" well kids, tolerance and acceptance. I donn't care if you think you're a hardcore christian... facts are thats not a valid reason to hate an entire group of ppl. Self richous... ick. Whats better the life of the self richeous bigot or the life or the tolerate, loving hippie who kills the bigot b/c she wasn't thinking? i've been trying to weight taht all day. ha. The clothes have reached an all time record for collecting in my room. I think pretty soon my room will explode, which would be funny. Anger managerment.. is for me? I dont know, it may be. YOu never know. And Peter... you told me to shut up and sit down..? well guess what... SHOVE IT! yeah.. up yours buddy!!! OH, watch out.. crazzzy pieces on the LOOSE.. hahahaha.


"there's no antadote for irony you say."-good old fashioned Something Corporate!

raaaaaaaaaah
okay well this dumb site just DELETED MY ENTRY. so i am retyping it for you not so much enjoyment. I ammmm sooo hysterically cranky today ... i dont know why i need to went and rant and yell and scream and totally hurt things. Okay well i am feed up wtih ppl who are totally bigoted and close minded it makes me positively sick. Everything lately is getting me mad. And i wish i acutally could type and put into words how absoulutly feed up i am with certain whiney ppl. maybe i'm jsut selfish but there isn't anymore of me to give. I can't take it anymroe. i realy want to go off on me. Thats what i would have done.. but i just try not to get angry anymore.. and now look at me.... typing like a mad woman, and i'm sorry if there's a lot of typos i can hardly see straight let alone type correctly. It's driving me mad... omg i've been reading way too much english literature. Okay today we had band practice from five thirty to about seven.. i dont feel like moving my fingers up off the keys for numbers sorry. well our practice was PATHETIC and everyone let early because of ash weds. i didn't go to CCd b/c i didnt want to. and i am seriously fed up with Catholism.. okay later

"ture maturity comes with listening"

solo and ensamble
today was solo and ensamble.. i have a feeling i had news yesterday but this site was down... i dont know why. So, sorry i haven't postedl. ANYWHO.. solo and ensamble... 1st place clarinet sextet ensamble and 1st place sax solo. 2nd place for my clarinet. I had the same judge for everything and he thought i was insane b/c i was in so many events... oooh phooee to that. lol. hahahaha did i share with you all the i got in!!! yes ... McAuley here i come!! lol i am excited but sad... i won't see my friends as much ... but thats okay i have a feeling they have gotten sick of me recently lately. Yeah. JImmy broke up with HER then told me today that he was back with HER.... ick i don't like HER, i am not very fond of HER at all. lol. OOh freaking well ...get over it liz. and now i'm talking to myself...great.

"was happiness a fad? was it in the lost and found again? to hide the issues, it might not be so bad we're all addicted to our tradegieds... but i guess thats how it had to be... nothing on my back...." sum 41- nothing on my back.

this weekend
well friday night i was babysitting while everyone was at the dance. Then on saturday i was doing nothing... i went to the mall with jeremy and then katie and britt slept over we saw the perfect score. That wasn't too bad ... not too much romance... i dont like romance too much. it was just good i liked it. Sunday-today- i babysat and made lost of money i'm loaded lol. I like the green hahaha. I still didnt get my high school results i'm kinda cringing... what if i ddint get in? i'm screwed then!

" all you need is love"

ugherz mcgou for tomorrow
well tomorrow is v-day! ick ick ick. tonight is the dance... who goes to dances their sooo damn lame lol. Hahahahaha i have to babysit. grr. Are Jeremy and I the only appreciators of PG flicks?? lol. Jimmy got HER a TEDDY BEAR AND A ROSE for valentines day... how absolutely sickening... lol. I am soo not the jealous type.... right? i think i am a superhero... hahaha britt and katie but the j monster knows!! lol. Oh well. Okay well i have nothing to say. Today was a good day but during drama club mrs.miles was geting frustrated b/c everyone was talking about the dance and no1 was focussed. : (( well i'm done...

" you could be my punk rock princess... and i could be your garage band king.. you can tell me why you just dont fit in... and how you're going to be something big"-punk rock princess something corporate

i l]think its my turn
i think it's my turn to come out top. My dress for the 8th grade dance (that i was totally enammoured with last week) is now public enemy number one. i hate it. ugh what to do? I need to get over jimmy and relized that that is an unrequited romance... ha. i miss having someone who made me laugh and feel important. Who i could run my fingers through their hair. And as much as everyone's heard this too bad.. i just miss being in love or at least in live with is a mix of LIke and loVe. hahahaha. i got out of the valentines dance which is good ... i have to babysit.. darn! lol. I feel optomist that things will get better. maybe not with jimmy (or boys in general) but just better... at least. I'm kinda feeling ugly today its just one of those days. And notice i have tried my darndest to include puncuation and proper spelling in this entry. I say snaps for me.

"We all have our yesterdays our there's nothing good about me days.. we all have bad hair days,those no lunch cuz the jeans don't fit days but we just keep moving on b/c we'll still be here goign on" -superchic[k]