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joslyn_julia

:: 2010 9 March :: 4.06pm

i love being left out.
go me

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phil-himself

:: 2010 7 March :: 5.30pm

To add to awesome weekend, started the cycle back up today and went for a drive.

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phil-himself

:: 2010 7 March :: 1.27pm

Barricade

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phil-himself

:: 2010 6 March :: 4.00pm

Ford man now, will post later.

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fishyrere

:: 2010 5 March :: 10.49am

Finally got a new computer!

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gillette

:: 2010 4 March :: 9.01am

a B+ is NOT that bad jessie. i can come back from this.

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spud

:: 2010 4 March :: 1.01am

so yeah. think i have a cold of some sort. that's pretty bitchin'. shan tomorrow, dad friday, kevie-poo early next week. weekend's pretty open, but the neighbors might be having a fire. that'd be fun. i like fire. and stars.

actually, i made a very important (personally) discovery tonight about the stars that i often look at. if you know the constellations cassiopeia and orion, then you can find what i'm talking about. because right in between them, there is this weird curvy group of stars. these are all visible to the naked eye on a clear night. when i first saw it, i was most struck by its resemblance to a parabolic curve. and ever since then i've wanted to figure out what constellation it is, and if i could find a mathematical equation for the curve that would best fit that group of stars (have them all be on or very near it). i'm lazy so it'll probably never happen. and i'm discouraged by the likelihood that someone else has already beat me to the punch. anyway, i discovered tonight (through the use of these programs) that the stars i was looking at belong primarily to the constellation perseus. obviously, there are some stars of perseus that i have omitted from "my" grouping, and may have stolen one or two from somewhere else, but it's still a cool pattern.

but now i'm pissed because the entire time i was trying to watch for perseid meteors, i had no idea where in the sky to look. i guess now i know for the next time. but it's frustrating that i would have been able to, had i known the name of the constellation i've been looking at for the past couple of years already. but now i do, so there.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2010 2 March :: 4.00pm

If you say "fair-i,ix" or "pacifically" onnnnne mooore timmme. Ugh

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2010 2 March :: 3.54pm

Oh my goodness I wish my teacher could fricken pronounce words like 'pharynx' and 'specifically' and that this school didn't suck so much.

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gillette

:: 2010 27 February :: 2.21pm

i will not let you dictate my happiness anymore. if you want me, fine. if you don't, then leave me the fuck alone.

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phil-himself

:: 2010 25 February :: 2.14pm

It's god damn 2010 and people still don't know how to do the most simple things on their work computers. Now I could understand if you don't use a computer much, but these people, it's a part of their damn jobs. The company gives them these machines that are a part of doing their jobs, they don't know anything about these machines so really they don't know how to do their jobs. Do your damn job.

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gillette

:: 2010 24 February :: 10.37pm

Kevin

I got a few ideas, but I want some more that are implied nude photos.

10:28pmJessie

what do you mean by that, nude but just covered up or something?

10:29pmKevin

yeah

but I want it to seem that me being naked fits, compared to me being naked just to be naked

10:31pmJessie

oic..maybe in a bath tub then

10:32pmKevin

I was thinking shower, me standing under a shower head that's on with me leaning against the wall and one of my legs bent just enough to cover my............you know

10:35pmJessie

yea.that's a good idea.

10:35pmKevin

or me sitting on the side of a bed and the camera being off to the side, making it clearly obvious that i'm naked

10:36pmJessie

yea that;s a good one too

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phil-himself

:: 2010 19 February :: 3.38pm

being able to RDP with DDNS amuses me

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gillette

:: 2010 16 February :: 12.01am

today was valentines day. i was worried it would be horrible, but it really was wonderful. i was with the one i'm falling for until 8am this morning :) we went out to eat and watched a movie together and slept close all night long and i don't even care that he snored the entire time. i didn't hear from him today at all though. i know he had his child until 7 and probably crashed after that. i don't know, but he's making me crazy in a good and bad way.

jake stopped by this afternoon. we switched back belongings. it was hard to see him go- in fact it's making me cry now. he still treats me like a princess and wiped away my tears when i cried.

the night ended being kissed by someone i didn't really want to be kissed by.

i'm not sure i want to remember this day.

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phil-himself

:: 2010 14 February :: 10.54am

ha internet

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tuwang

:: 2010 11 February :: 11.54am

It's not that it happened, its that you don't understand why

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phil-himself

:: 2010 10 February :: 10.41am

Iron Maiden - Man on Edge
Read more..

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gillette

:: 2010 5 February :: 1.04am

never again. its obvious you don't care about me. i can't keep doing this. fuck you.

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spud

:: 2010 29 January :: 10.20am

winter camp

is better than you.

high of like 20 all weekend up there. should be fun.

: P

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tuwang

:: 2010 28 January :: 11.17am

じゃ。。。 実は俺ホンマに俺の本当の気持ちを書きたいっていう気持ちが出てこちに誰も分からないように日本語で書く。

最近はまーまーやな。 なんてやってもいろいろがまだ悪いことにしてる。でも俺だけじゃなくて毎日授業中とか道路で歩いてる人とか誰でもすごくかわいそうな顔してる。無効に座ってる女が遅くサンド食べてて何か待ってることがありそうな感じだ。

つまりこの所が体にも心にもわるいんだ.

出たいな!っていつも考えてるのになんでかな? 出身じゃないか? 子供時代からずっと住んでる場所じゃないか?いつも好きじゃないとだめだっていう考え方もってるけど 嫌いな!大嫌いなんだよ!

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m&ms487

:: 2010 28 January :: 10.33am

I am sitting in bed under the covers because it is quite cold outside. John Mayer is on Vh1 singing about heartbreak and warfare.

Had the Brinner pajama party last night-it went quite well. I still have about 8 dozen eggs, though, so I might be making some deviled eggs this afternoon to take to closed rush.

We are bidding for next years convention and I'm in charge of it. Planning a convention for 600+ people is not an easy thing to do.

I am afraid that the garbage truck outside is going to hit my car right now.

Nope, it didn't.

I need to do my reading on Socialism and Communism-ideologies that happen to fulfill my psychic needs (or as Fromm would say).

This is my last spring semester as an undergraduate. I need to do my taxes. I need to fight with my insurance company about paying for my Nexium. I am having a surgical consultation in a few weeks. I need a nap.

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phil-himself

:: 2010 28 January :: 10.38am

Big boy job.

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spud

:: 2010 27 January :: 1.01am

cable television
it's sad that this is what my life has become.

i'm watching a movie on flix. i hit info. this is what comes up.

Snake Island (2002) (a rating of one star is always a good sign):
creepy nonsense about killer reptiles terrorizing clueless tourists.

lmfao.

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phil-himself

:: 2010 26 January :: 2.55pm

Shithawks
The stupid discuss persons.
The average discuss things.
The intelligent discuss ideas.

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spud

:: 2010 24 January :: 4.40pm
:: Music: explosions in the sky - welcome ghosts (embedded)



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phil-himself

:: 2010 24 January :: 12.36pm

Dem boys got tha blues

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spud

:: 2010 20 January :: 7.55pm

vampirezombieraptor vs. robotcheney

discuss.

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gillette

:: 2010 19 January :: 11.43pm

i'm having the internal fight of my life.

yay for chest pains :(

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phil-himself

:: 2010 15 January :: 11.13am

Chuck Yeager, that was a damn good man right there.

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spud

:: 2010 14 January :: 5.05pm

i just made a post on farmville that contained the phrase "asexually reproduce" and they censored the phrase thusly: "a***ually reproduce"

what the fuck?

edit:

i realized i forgot to mention that over the christmas holiday, i was offered a full time position drumming with the machines (that band i played with in grand haven on the 18th). as of yet, we have no gigs lined up, and are still working on compiling a set list. if you have any suggestions, please shout them out at the top of your lungs. or just post a comment, if that's easier for you. i think we're trying to stick in the oldies/rock/blues-type area, and we need stuff that's kinda danceable. not necessarily slow, but danceable. and easy, did i mention easy? i mean, i don't want this to be like actual work or something. ; ) just whatever you'd want to hear a band play while you're out at the bar. and the bar is full of "old" people.

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