:: 2003 13 December :: 12.33 pm

courtney is here =] i love her sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much!! <333... last night evan piked up me n court n sarah n we went to the moviez.. it was really fun. my hubby was there =]. Ryan, Shane, Matt, Jon, Danielle, Amanda, n some other people were there..! It was really fun =] i squeezed jay'z guts out just like i said i would ..hehe. -n- i met this kidd named matt. hes in my laungage arts class and hes really nice. jay spilled water all over my shirt and matt was drenching me in popcorn.. it was awsome <3*.. jay switched seats wit matt cuz he was mad ='[ I LOVE JAY THO HES SOOO AWSOME N SEXYFUL!!!

i love courtney g. stephenson!! <3*
i love jay m. gamester!!!!!! <3*

5 alone | cant handle this

:: 2003 9 December :: 11.09 pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: semi-charmed life

7 alone | cant handle this

:: 2003 8 December :: 11.05 am
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: Out of control..

3 alone | cant handle this

:: 2003 7 December :: 9.33 pm
:: Mood: lonely

Everything is always my fault..
kimmy is all feeling left out cuz of me and daniel.. i hate it when people feel left out. i hate being left out. and ive had my fair share of that, trust me. But yea..i reallllly love kimmy! n i hope eveerything turns out good =]

i wanna hang out wit daniel again though, soon. he is by far the coolest person ive ever met. i love you daniel =]

everything is not okay with me and jill. yeah, i lied.

im so fuckin ugly. i feel fuckin fat around most mah f'n friends...i just really dont wanna feel that way anymore. i eat. but like not as much as i should..ick. somedays i eat abunch, lyk yesterday n some days i dont eat barly at all. maybe one meal cuz my mom makes me...i cant fuckin control it god.

and jill is doin that one thing ..alot . so who gives a fuck right?




how can i trust anyone..if i dont even fuckin trust myself??

< / 3.

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:: 2003 6 December :: 11.29 pm

still laughin
Today was sooo great--*
i slept in till lyk 2 pm today!! holy shit, i didnt feel good so i didnt/ n culdnt go to the moviez..but instead i went to DANIEL's house.. i love him!!! he is sooooo fuckin funny we watched simply irristable n darkness falls n omg we were laughin soooo hard i started crying !! ahh it was great!! we would start screamin cuz it was SCARY n then start cracccckin up..omg i love it..im gonna come back tomarro..loli love you daniel!!

ahh thats bout it for now..write more later.

3 alone | cant handle this

:: 2003 2 December :: 8.48 am
:: Mood: indescribable

Didn*t talk to jill at all yesterday!!!! =[!
but thas ok i'll just have to bug her double today =P

`Yesterday was grrrreat. lyk frosted flakes. lol. =P. JEREMY CALLED ME!!! I havn't talked to jeremy, in probly 2 months!!!! I missed him sooo much! i didn't even know how much i missed him...were gonna do something not this weekend but nexxt weekend. Weee.

`Keverz kalled me @ lyk midnight lazt night n i was soooo beat. We both musta fell asleep cuz i woke back up @ 2 n he was still there but it wuz dead quiet =] but than his fone died 'gain.. i love him soo much.<3.

daniel is so amazing. he is the sweetest person ever..

TODAY IS MISSY N AMBER'Z BDAY!!! YAY!!!!!!

i love jay!!!



<3. brittany

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:: 2003 1 December :: 8.26 am
:: Mood: loved

New month--*
Ahhh monday..December 1st. Kan*t believe its december already!! gawd. xmas is coming up...!*

Last night i called jilly, talked to her for a bit, then got ready for bed n rite wen i was gonna go to bed kevin called =]. so talked to him till bout 1iish..then slept till now.

my 2 favorite people...
cant get any better than that

`Brittany--*

4 alone | cant handle this

:: 2003 30 November :: 7.22 pm
:: Mood: loved

if you wrote a book about my life, all it would talk about is you..cuz you are my life.
today...was ok i guess. Yesterday was gr8 tho.. emily wuz over..n i talked to kevin lyk all night on tha phone .. he fell asleep round 2 and i listentened to him sleep for a while..he sleepz so kute..he wuz tlkn in his sleep 2 it wuz funny hes lyk O YEA IM 16!!! or sumthing lyk that ..haha it was kute =] so i listened to that monkey butt till lyk 3 mayb n then muh fone died so we watched skary movie 1 n went to sleep..

i jus wanted to say..
J i l l a n e E l i z a b e t h D a h m s- jus thanks for everything..i love you so much.. theres no one ive laughed with more cryed with more shared more with or loved more then YOU! manii more laughs. tears. n long talks boute everything n othing to come..love you baby!

Kevin
i lOove yOou. sOo much.
you are tha best boyfriend i could ask for! tank you for being there for me..you mean so much to me.... xoxoxoxoxoxo

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:: 2003 29 November :: 11.20 am

Saturday
Havn't wrote in a while. I started another journal, cuz alotta people found out this one. But im back to this one. It has more history with it. I have to stop running from people. So lets see whats been going on with my life lately..

ive gone to the moviez lyk 10 x ..munday school..tuesday school n then moviez..lately. ...wednesday no school-wuz me n kevz 2 monthz. . . . uhm thurzday wuz thxgiving..ok i guess..frididay moviez-kevin came this time so that was good ! ! ! --* Than 2day im going to emily'z resturant n stuff..i gotta go now so ill write more latah today

<3

4 alone | cant handle this

:: 2003 22 November :: 7.33 pm

Jill spent the day with chelsie today.
n she met megan n everyone...
i wish i was there.
but instead im here.
that breaks my fucking heart...

4 alone | cant handle this

:: 2003 19 November :: 11.13 pm

everyone wants to die ...



so what if im one of them.

2 alone | cant handle this

:: 2003 16 November :: 11.28 am

PINK!

Pink: You see the world in bright pink. The world is a happy, happy place! You love all people and things!! Life is great! You're just like a happy child. Spread the cheer.

3 alone | cant handle this

:: 2003 15 November :: 6.15 pm

I just called jills house, her mom picked up, or who i think was her mom. She said like one thing to me, and i wanted to cry.
me: is jill there
her: no shes at work

that's all it took, just hearing her voice made me go crazy... i wanted to yell at her for ruining jill's life, i wanted to scream at her and tell her how much i hate her and wut ahorrible person she is. I wanted to tell her i hope she fucking dies for everything she has done to jill..

but all i could say was okay, bye

cant handle this

:: 2003 15 November :: 12.15 pm
:: Mood: crappy

Did you notice i was afraid?..
Its saturday again. Everything is going by so fast.

I havn't talked to Jill since i blew up in her face. I called her today and yesterday..she called me twice last night but i was in the moviez and couldnt pick it up..

The movies was really fun... me and jay got divorced ='[ ..hes married to gina now
But anyway, a wholllle bunncha ppl went to the moviez it was really fun..Kevin won me a really kute bear :o) ..n i got a purple elephant too =]

Today i might go to sarah's brother's bday party wit kevin n but i really dont feel good...


i miss jay!
i miss jill !!



sometimes you forgive people for the
simple fact that you want them in your life..

1 alone | cant handle this

:: 2003 12 November :: 11.12 pm
:: Mood: crazy

Story tales took all the good endings...were left with this
Tyler n I (how proper) were just talking about how Marcus's best friend died. Its so sad. So many people die all the time, but this was his best friend. It got me thinking bout what it would be like if my best friend died. or any of my friends for that matter. God i cant even imagine it. Death. Its such a strong fucking word. I wish everyone could live forever..like in peter pan...


lucky bitches.

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