idont wanna feel this small

:: 2004 26 March :: 12.21am
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: The Unseen - 1,000 Miles

THIS IS JAY!!!
hhahahahhah! i know brittany's password nigga'!!!!!!!!!!!!! not much to say except for i love brittany more than all of you do comibned plus one. mother fuckers. i am gonna hang out with brittany tomorrow!!! woop! lucky me. i am gonna go see the Unseen and The Virus tomorrow. love you brittany.

<33333333

-Jay

cant handle this

:: 2004 25 March :: 3.55pm

tOday i fOund myself

yesterday..
i got a referal for dress code =/
i was in i.s.s. all 8th period tho so i got to miss science =]
than i went home with jay! we watched american wedding n he gave me a monkey.. =] i love him oh-so-much!!!!

than i went home n jus rested cuz i didnt feel good at all..
woke up this mornin and still felt lyk shit so i went to school for lyk an hour...

we had an assemly n me n lindsey met the bunny man !! lmao

than i came home n slept n watched tv ..

i miss my jilly =[

miSsing yOu again

:: 2004 25 March :: 11.03am

http://www.poetrynrhyme.com/69_Silent_Tear.htm

http://www.poems.fsnet.co.uk/269_Struggle.htm

3 alone | cant handle this

:: 2004 23 March :: 7.31pm
:: Mood: thankful
:: Music: Get married--Jagged Edge!!

I hate you, but i luv you, baby youve got me torn..
Wow today was..uhm good i guess. No not really it was f'ing horrible..cept the end!! =) School was horrible..and we didnt have group..but James picked me up, at work in the lobby like rite after skool and he had all these flowers for me!! I ran up to him and gave him the biggest hug!! Everyone was like..whose that whose that..and im like..thats my baby!! =)

Then he took me to counsling, and then my mom picked me up bcuz he had to go get his check from work..he didnt have to work t nite thank god!! Then i got home, mom and jelly went out fo dinner..and so James n me ordered a pizza for us n wilson!! He stayed here a bit, but had an emergency at home so he left like 20 min ago!! =(

I love this kid soo much!! No i dont luv him, i like him lots, hes my best friend, how couldnt i? lol Counseling was fun today, talked bout britty tons!! lol Good stuff korse!! I luv you soo much britty!! *i wanna name stars, n talk bout brushin our teeth, n bout blowin on pepperoni in the middle of the nite, n listen to you talk about nothing on the phone all nite long, i miss those days!! i guess i was replaced ='(

But ive gotta go, gotta see if wat me n brandy are doing 2marro after skool..i luv you all *mwuz* latah babes!!

Ali jean stand tough babes, i will luv you no matter wat!!

<33 meeeh!! =) i luv you jamsey

7 alone | cant handle this

:: 2004 23 March :: 3.59pm

i CanT SEe mE ..
hey guys im in laungage arts n im sooo bored.. today hasnt been the greatest day =[ uggh.. but im sittin here w/ michelle n cassandra <-- i loOve them both !!!

yesterday i went to nicks .. n we hung out w/ mark for a while n than we watched a skury mOovie... =] i had tha bezt time <33

i missed jay though!
i stole his lunch today =]

ill write more later..
Brit

wIthOut yOu*

2 alone | cant handle this

:: 2004 21 March :: 10.38pm
:: Mood: sore

People change and forget to tell us..
Wow today was eventful..hung out wif my baby most of the day..that was lots of fun!! And then rents get into it and both of em leave and i guess neither is coming home today or 2marro. Damn aint taht a shame =p

Talked plenty wif brittany today, that was fun as always * luv you babes* and chelsie..and korse my baby Ali jean!! Ya know these days im starting to realize how friggin blessed i am..my friends are the best and i luv you all!!

I am going to get going James is surposed to be coming over in a bit..he said i sounded upset on the phone and he needs to come over to make sure im okay..haha nice excuse big boy =p hah..gosh i wish i could talk to Britty on the phone sometime..but no she never answers or i can never call her..either way we dont talk anymores..oh wells!! I hope her n whats his face are okay now..well im gonig to go!!

I luv you all soo soo much!!

LaLa91

:: 2004 21 March :: 7.06pm

andrew not liking me= understandable

andrew ignoring me instead of just breaking up with me= that bastard

3 alone | cant handle this

LaLa91

:: 2004 21 March :: 6.19pm

twinkle twinkle little star.. screw the world and everyone in it..
hey hey everyone.. including calli who [[somehow]] got my journal address and reads it. lol.
im in sarasota right now. FUN. my bro and dad are settin up a bball hoop 4 my cuz b/c itz his b-day tomorro, 11. kayla.. if u still need a place to dvertise your icons an address for that is
www.textads.biz
oh yeah and i found a whole bunch more iconz for ya.. i searched blurty and got like 15... that proves how much i love you lmfao..
um lets see,, i went with bailey and her family to a deserted island.. got burned like a b_tch..
i talked to my bro's gf britney.. shes really nice.. thought i would let everyone kno that!! lol..
im talkin 2 robert about b*****.. lol um, daniella [[mark's gf]], jenn [[mark's ex]] liz, eric, and matt.. all my homies lol.
good news::

i can go out for track and feild.. so bring it on.. b/c now that i got my appendix removed.. im lighter=faster. lol.. yeah right..
okey dokey.. ima go eat..
-x0

5 alone | cant handle this

:: 2004 20 March :: 10.22pm
:: Mood: upset

`if i was with yOu nOw
ugggh

thursday.. my birthday =]
had a lil party .. [ if i didnt invite u im sorry it was xtremly last minute ] .. kimmy ,sarah, marissa, jay, ryan, nick, mark, josh, daniela , felicia , daniel , stephen , carissa , kaela, stephanie , cassandra, chris, lindsey darren, jamie .. all went .. it was pretty funn.. kinda krazy lol.. we broke my couch, the applesauce jar , my canopy thang n 3 bowls lol.. n than carissa, cassandra , kaela, sarah, marissa , stephanie , n fefe spent the night =] .. every left round 4iish n i slept the rest of the day lol..

today i cleaned & than i was soposed to go bowling w/ daniela n jay but jay;s mom couldnt drive me .. so i told him to jus go or come over here .. n he went bowling .. n than nick never called me back n now hes there n bein all stupid. n sayin its my fault ii didnt go n they are all havin fun... n im sittin by myself . i gave jay permission to ditch me but i didnt think he would really leave me... i had american weddin in the dvd player all readii cuz i thought he was comin over =/
o well its all gOod i love him sOo much and its realliie not his fault...but yea i called them n than josh is lyk why arent u here im lyk cuhz jay dithed me n than jay got on the phone n told me i ruined his night by not going....i was freakin all ready to go and than his mom couldnt take me and he knows i couldnt go cuz my mom cant fuckin drive w/ her hurt arm.

so yea i ruined everyones night.

everything wOuld be Okay

:: 2004 20 March :: 3.52pm
:: Mood: flirty

Anytime you need me..im already there
Awwe..i just had to tell Mikey boo that i got a bf..yeah that wasnt too easy =/ But oh wells its over now..but omg hes the sweetest lil boy ever!! I luv him soo much too!! This is what he said after i told him..

SupraDude5: ya well thats ummm....kool
xSwEetoXoKiSseSx: yeah..i knew i wouldnt be able to stay single long:-P but why you say it like that..likei ts really a bad thing..
SupraDude5: i mean i am happy for ya and all that but if someone hurts you i am gonna turn mideval on there ass!!!!!
SupraDude5: cuz ur to nice for someone to hurt you
xSwEetoXoKiSseSx: awwe babes..your soo sweet!! I luv you!!:-D
SupraDude5: i luv you to
xSwEetoXoKiSseSx: i always have n always will:-*
SupraDude5: same to you
SupraDude5: :-*
xSwEetoXoKiSseSx: hehe your the best babes:-)
SupraDude5: u r to
SupraDude5: i don't want anybody to hurt you
SupraDude5: i don't care how old they are

Awwe isnt he the sweetie guy!! hehe i feel soo loved!! Dont wrry James its nothing like that were just good friends!! =p

James i luv you more than anything in the whole world!!

2 alone | cant handle this

:: 2004 19 March :: 8.22pm

I wouldnt trade you for anything baby
SilentLoVe87: Jill I do love you, your not only my girlfriend, but my best friend. Please do not take that away from me!!!!
SilentLoVe87:I want you to be the girl that I marry, the one to have my children. I want you to be the one i hold in my arms every night until the day i die. You just have to have faith in me that i wont hurt you. Baby girl I love you!!!

James baby i luv you soo much and i never want to lose you!! Your the BEST guy out there, i couldnt imagine life without you!! :-*

yeah that was in my info..but ya'll knw how i dont like to show off guys in my info..so ima shw it off here =p

:: 2004 19 March :: 7.59pm

Time will change your mind..
Well lets see here today..was actually friggin fun!! German day at U of M was soo fun!! Wow, i love Derek, and Emily, and Erik, and Tyler..thier all fuckin soo funny and fun!! We all sould get together again!!

I need to talk to someone, before i seriously go nuts!! Urgh everyone has thier own fucking problems, i called everyoen today..tried to get outta the house but then Josh's gf is staying the night *wif me* haha yeah but were not even really friends..oh wells..I called Brandy and talked to her for a bit, but ya know her and her boyfriend of 2 years broke up tonight so yeah she had some problems so i had to help her and comfort her ya know..when really i need some fuckin comforting too..im not complaining because i will always be here for her i luv that gurl but ya know i need someone to talk to too =(

Oh well..no big deal i guess..well ima get going..nobody is online because every1 is at riot..where i sould be and was going to be until my fucking mom had to go to the hospital!!! Urgh..shes prolly sick because shes prolly fucking having pill withdrawls..and needs more!! I fucking hate her!! I hope she is sick and gets something HORRIBLE!!

Well bye..love..me!!

cant handle this

9 alone | cant handle this

:: 2004 18 March :: 2.19pm

yay
xBoOtyBaLLaX69: HAPPY FUCKIN BIRTHDAY MY BABI BRITT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
UFLArocks: HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEXI SUGA MAMA CUPCAKE!!!!
So Cal 1449: HAPPY MUTHA' FUCKING BIRTHDAY MY LOVE!!!!
Naer2003: happy birthday
sweetheart91824: happy b-day
JsBrattyGirl05 HAPPY BIRTHDAY
SwEeTnCuTeDC: HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRITT!!
KiMmYLiKeWhOa7: HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRITTANY WOOOO!
KiMmYLiKeWhOa7: HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUCK MY DICK LOL
COBIA69: HAPPY B-DAY BRIT
RiEsEsPiEcEs116: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
MoOsEyDoOm080: HAPPY BIRTHDAY
MoOsEyDoOm080: THIIIIIIIIS IIIIIIS YOOOOUR BIRTHDAY SONG IT ISNT VERY LONG, HEY!
PRiMoSkHaTer69: HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRITTANY!
XXTiKi iNnXx69: happy birthday (again)

i feel loved
<3.

:: 2004 18 March :: 12.03pm
:: Mood: confused

Its more than you'll ever know..
Well today was rather horrible..i started bawling my eyes out in gym class..i refused to do a carthwhell..last time i did one i broke my arm and it was really bad so i wont even try to do one ever again. So yeah mcdowell yelled at me and told me to go sit out but then i talked to natalie and she talked to him and then we talked and now things are okay and he wont make me do them..but he wants me to try..i guess..Im scared to death to do cartwhells..=(

Then i was walking outta like gym and i was walking past arkinsons room and i went to say into her room and say hey but then i saw kyndra in there to drop off my paper she had to give me so that i can leave wif her on tuesdays to go to counsling..and yeah i freaked and like walked out but christan saw me and said hey so i had to go back in..that was odd..i hate her i dont wanna talk to her anymore.. ='( Except i need to talk to her..urgh i dont know wat to do ='(

I seriosuly was like soo fucking close to killing myself last nite it wasnt even rite!! Urgh im soo sick of everything..but neways

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRITTANY MARIE GAMESTER!! I LUV YOU MORE THAN ANYHTING IN THE WHOLE WORLD!!
I HOPE THAT YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY AND EVERYTHING GOES GREAT FOR YOU!! YOUR THE BEST EVER..NEVER FORGET THAT!!

Love always..Jilly!! ='(