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2004 27 February :: 3.49pm
:: Mood: moody
:: Music: yeah--usher--lil jon--n luda
Without you, nothing seems worth it =(
Wow today, yeah it was interesting!! Actually it was good, besides the fact that tiffany and me almost got into a fight!! I swear iw ould have socked the shit outta her if she wasnt cassie's friend!! i hate when i try to be respectful!! =(
But besides that, one good thing was that kyndra came into skool today tot alk to me! She didnt even have any other appointments, she jus wanted to talk to me cuz she said she would talk to me again sometime this week!! Then she was late to her appt lol but i'll see her tues in group at skool!! YaY!! =)
omg i luv this song its country, its i luv you this much by some odd guy i dont know lol but its a good song everyone listen to it =p
neways i dont think me and steve are going to work out this time!! But me and James are getting real close and whats his face asked me back out, so yeah..im okay!! =) cept i miss my baby =( and wif snowfest this next week, dammit i need him here wif me..srry depressing moment, back now!! =)
i have to go to da doctor when my mommy gets home, we think that i pulled a muscle in my shoulder dammit!! =( it hurts like hell ='(
neways thats enough for now, i think that ima get offline, internet bores me anymore..the only reason i get online is for this journal, and to talk to britts, but of krose she dont get hoem till like 4 30 and is never online anymore anyway so no use being online!! Luv you all =)
love..me!!
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2004 27 February :: 3.49pm
:: Mood: moody
:: Music: yeah--usher--lil jon--n luda
Without you, nothing seems worth it =(
Wow today, yeah it was interesting!! Actually it was good, besides the fact that tiffany and me almost got into a fight!! I swear iw ould have socked the shit outta her if she wasnt cassie's friend!! i hate when i try to be respectful!! =(
But besides that, one good thing was that kyndra came into skool today tot alk to me! She didnt even have any other appointments, she jus wanted to talk to me cuz she said she would talk to me again sometime this week!! Then she was late to her appt lol but i'll see her tues in group at skool!! YaY!! =)
omg i luv this song its country, its i luv you this much by some odd guy i dont know lol but its a good song everyone listen to it =p
neways i dont think me and steve are going to work out this time!! But me and James are getting real close and whats his face asked me back out, so yeah..im okay!! =) cept i miss my baby =( and wif snowfest this next week, dammit i need him here wif me..srry depressing moment, back now!! =)
i have to go to da doctor when my mommy gets home, we think that i pulled a muscle in my shoulder dammit!! =( it hurts like hell ='(
neways thats enough for now, i think that ima get offline, internet bores me anymore..the only reason i get online is for this journal, and to talk to britts, but of krose she dont get hoem till like 4 30 and is never online anymore anyway so no use being online!! Luv you all =)
love..me!!
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2004 27 February :: 8.28am
:: Mood: cheerful
I'll be yours
heyy muh b-e-a-utiful peoplez! wow this week went by fast.. nothin really has been goin on .. wendesday it was raining reallly hard all day &the games were canceled.. last night the games were canceled 2 soO me & sarah talked on the fone lyk all day from lyk 5-10 haha n today shes comin over =] & we might go to the movies i dunno whatever we feel lyk
jay still hates me. he never wants to talk to me again i guess? ='[
right more when i got more to say.
if you'll be mine
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2004 25 February :: 11.57am
:: Mood: sore
Okay just sittin here in renteria's class being bored..man this lady gets on my nerves shes a bitch!!
But oh wells..neways nothing really been happening lately..cept one BIG THING!!
me and steve finally started talking again!! Omg yesterday we were talking during lunch cuz i went up to him cuz he was sad about something and yeah i was takling to him and we jus keep gettin closer and closer and den like yeah we hugged and then we kissed and when lunch was over we went to his 4th hour so we could tell him teacher and then we walked to my 4th hour and we were kissing and everything then he met me after 4th hour and we walked together to the lobby and then like he grabbed me and pulled me to the side and we were kissing and huggin and talkin and everything till my mom got there to pick me up!! So yeah i dnot know whats gonig on wif that..he keeps sayin you need to get ungrounded soon so that i can see you and we can go back out..yeah what if i dont wanna go out wif him again. But neways..
Yeah i went to meet my counsler last night. She is really really awesome!! I like her. Im going every tues at 3 pm!! YaY!! Ima get *better* hah funny shit!!
Well ima go for now..latah everyone!!
And ali jean, did you call me yesterday?? omg if you did im seriously going to kill my lil sister!! Dude if you can call me tonight or whenever you can!! i luv you soo fuckin much and miss you tons!! =)
Love..Jilly!! <33
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2004 24 February :: 8.40am
:: Mood: uncomfortable
youxwillxnever
HmMm.. sO yeserday was another yankee'z game 15-0 wOo hOo GoO yAnkEez!! they are reallly gOod.. undefeated so far.. wOop wOop .. neway me & sarah went & kev was playin so we couldnt tlk to him so we went n hung out w/ evan & tyler.. n we got our lollipops [ best part of the whole game ] & swung on the swings.. lol .. n than the four of us jus layed on this thing on one of the open fieldz n talked & laughed .. [ dat be my hip ! lol ] .. than we came back n watched Corey, Julian , & Bryan's game.. i love sarah she is sooo awsome we are hangin out alot latelly and we have alot in common n shes jus a sweethear .. <3333
well thats it..
write more later.
knowxhowxmuchxixlovexyou
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2004 23 February :: 8.16pm
:: Music: give it up--fefe dobson
ummm... 4 hours till my b-day!!! today was ok.. ya know, school, what more do i hav to say. kayla wasnt at school today and i came in late b/c of my orthodontist appt.
you want her and you need her and you beg her but you deceive her
during my time in gulf middle i've learned that ppl are self centered, ignorant, perverted, and selfish... [[ANYBODY WANT TO TRANSFER??]] rumors, sluts, [[wanna-be]] pimps.. our school has got to be one of the worst.. but thatnk godd i hav all of my friendz. they're what make this school a little less selfish .. itz not "all about me" with them.. sure sometimes we have attitudes bbut who doesnt.??
well ima go to bedd... and
for all the people who hate me.. one word..
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2004 23 February :: 1.35pm
i swear that i can go on forever again
please let me know that my one bad day will end
i will go down as your lover your friend
give me your lipz and with one kiss we begin
are you afraid of being alone? cause i am im lost without you
are you afraid of leaving tonight cause i am. im lost without you
I'll leave my room open til sunrise for you
I'll keep my eyes patiently focused on you
where are you now?
i can hear footsteps
im dreaming
and if you will keep me from waking to beleive this
are you afraid of being alone? cause i am. im lost without you
are you afraid of leaving tonight cause i am. im lost without you
LoST WiThOUt You---- BlInK182
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2004 22 February :: 7.15pm
My B-DaY iS IN 2 DaYz!!!
hey hey ... i thought of some more things i want... the sims and a
[[which i really want pretty badd..
any wayz... my weekend was good.. friday kayla and mia came over and we rented cabin fever, [[scary movie]] and american wedding [[funny]] on saturday kayla and i went to a party. and we hung out. for 2 hours. lol.. kayla's dad picked us up and we dropped kaitlyn blanchette off at her house. [[we also passed chris' so i got to c his house.. lol]] umm.. when we got home kayla and i were plannin on hittin the movies but ended up just watchin freddy vs. jason, and making funny songs out of blink 182 lol... kayla... playing sims... mad tv and snl.. cruel intentions... a fun time.. what more can i say?? lol. i had to go home at around 2:3o b/c kayla had to go to a bball game up in port charlotte.. i hope u won kaylag [[lol sims]] tell me all about it. at round 4:3o my mom and i met up with bailey and her madre' to get party supplies.. after me and my mom went to get bailey her b-day present [[and she went to get mine]] lol... we tryed goin into jcpenny's but the lady kicked me and momma out "WE'RE CLOSED'' i just dont think she knew who she was talking to.. hmm.. now im at my nrighbors house. i just had din-din.. yum. lol. im gonna go...
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2004 22 February :: 3.37pm
:: Mood: thoughtful
well nothing has really been happening
this weekend, just worked last night
That was really fun tho, i aint seen tammy
in like wat seems like forever..but now she
wants me to come over this week and baby-
sit her lil girl, but im major busy, but of korse
i said that i would..wat a nice person eh =p
Last night steve called me after i got outta
work and we were talking for a while, and
he asked me if i would ever go back out with
him, and i said i dont know, and asked why
and he said because he wants to go back
out when im not grounded anymore, bcuz he
misses me..HAH BULLSHIT!! But no i really
dont want to go back out wif him, i need to
get my shit straight before i have a relationship
ya know..i need some time by myself, some
time for jilly for a while..then ill start dating
again, but just not right now. =)
Oh yeah you guys.. *chelsie mostly* im
getting *help* omg miss conrad/mrs beer
was soo happy lol..it was soo cute!! But
freal i am gettin help, im talking to a counsler
at skool and then im seeing one at the aware
shelter, and then im going to group counsling
at the aware shelter, and then im doing this
like second challenge day thingy to help other
students and everytyhing, *to become a
challenge day leader* and yeah then im doing
this like group counsling thingy at skool that
mrs arkison is doing, its on tues the first day,
then at the otehr group counsling is the
same day after skool..its gonna be great
you would be soo proud =p
Well thats enough for today, ima go..luv you
all soo much!! Latah!!
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2004 22 February :: 1.10pm
:: Mood: crappy
safe in your arms
so valentines day sucked..sunday i went to ema's for cake .. monday went shopping and gocarting @ green wells.. tuesday -kevins baseball game went w/ sarah&cassandra .. IT WAS SOOOO COOOOLD !! but kevv gave me his jacket--than me&sarah went to the bathroOm n like 15 ten year olds were tryin to get in tha gurl's bathrOom.. n there lyk OMG ITS THE HOTT GURLS!! U GUYS R SO HOTT U WANNA GO OUT ?! ".. aww it was so kyute!! than we hung out w/ evan fOr a lil bit than went back watched the rest of the game... * they wont corse * wendesday.. nothin really thursday.. nother one of kevin's game.. me&sarah went this time .. we were hangin out w/ TJ&Kevin wen they werent playin' .. TJ is sooo freakin hillarious.. &i met this gurl Heather ..shes really nice &than we hung out w/ Zach & watched the game some more.. they won `gain 7 to 1 i think? n than friday i spent the night @ courts.. saturday didnt feel good stayed in all day .. today i donno what im gonna do .. i have tons of homework to do .. make up work.. i had 2 d's n a F on my interum sO im grOunded from goin anywhere.. if i get un grounded im gOin to the movies w/ *nick on friday .. i really miss kevin...
&Jay !!!
<3.
iS where i belOng *
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2004 20 February :: 12.25pm
Hey britters, i jus wanted to write in ur journal because i havent talked to you in forever and i jus wanted to say that i luv you and that i miss you tons!!
HOpe to talk to you sometime soon..luv you lots babes!!
Luv..Your lil baby..Jillers!! =)
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2004 20 February :: 9.43am
:: Mood: restless
Wow were jus sittin here in uprights class and we arent doing anything, so i might as well just write in here..
Urgh me and my mom are like fighting soo horrible..we actually got into a fist fight the other day..all yesterday i had to walk around with this huge red mark rite on my face..it was soo noticable i felt like sucha loser =/
I dont think that im ever going to be ungrounded..which means that i will never be able to do anything..with anyone..so me n steve are going to start not talking, and then cassie and I are going to lose touch again..and urgh all of my friends are gettin mad at me cuz i either cant do anything..or ive gotta work ='(
The only thing good about this week, is that me and Brandy are becoming alot better friends!! She is really awesome!! I luv this gurl hehe!! But she thinks that i like really dont like her that much cuz like she dont have very many friends here at nw yet..and so she asked me if i wanted to go to holt with her and met some of her friends this weekend, but no i cant..gotta friggin work, and im still grounded!! =(
Dammit i miss my baby ali jean!! I seriously wish that i could talk to her soo friggin bad!! I jus wanna cry ='( But i wont cuz like wat my mom said before, your not surposed to cry..it makes you a weak person =/ And i friggin miss brittany marie gamester too!! Babes i luv you and hope that your okay..gosh i miss everyone..oh well life goes on ig uess =(
Well ima go..i think that im going to like go to bed or something..latah everyone =(
<33 Jilly!!
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2004 19 February :: 6.01pm
:: Mood: _My BiRthDaY is soOn!!_
yo yo yo here's what i want for my birthday!
evanesence cd
britney spears cd.. [[call me gay w/e i like toxic]]
maroon 5 cd
the ring
freddy vs. jason
picture frames [[with ur guyz pics of course!]]
edison mall gift cards
a stick!!
umm... hugz!!
mah girlie mia is gettin me a lamburgini... maybe u will 2!!
a proposal!! lol
pins for mah shoes...
and ne thing else!! u guyz decide but get me a gift receipt lol
I LovE mY WiFe [s]
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2004 19 February :: 5.50pm
:: Mood: _SiCk_
††††† i DO beleive...
hey yall.. whatz up. i just £ëä®ÑëÐ how to do letters in weirdness!!! lol looky..
pimpin huh?? lol. yeah, kayla u still need to giv me rocki's invite!!! itz vital that i kno where her house is.. oh yeah and i read vuitton's journal. i honestly think her life revolves around u and what u think lol.
any wayz mia is over and we're watching the first wives club. good movie.. yea
today i went home from school. i hav the flu:(
[[sniff]] i finished all of my homework and watched a few movies. i really dont know who all is coming to my party but hurry up and tell me!!!!! 292 8289. yall r slow.. so far itz rachel, kristi, kayla, lacey, andrew, and devin.. god.. seriously 2 weeks!!! u guyz r sad!!! hey rach-- can u bring my cd playa and my two cd's babe!! thanks!! idk wether i should go to softball... im not feelin hott.. but without me we'll prolly lose.. lol [[j/p]] well ima go slëëp!!
†ë ämÖ!!
[[donde estas tu pantalones!!]][[lol, mia]]
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2004 18 February :: 9.55am
:: Mood: indescribable
Rest in peace!!
Omfg everyone!! Joes dad died..hes dead..gone forever..and kevin hes in the hospital with like a swollen brain and then like a broken jaw and all of his teeth knocked out!!
Omg i hurried as fast as i could to this class too, and i found duffey sittin at her computer all alone with nobody around and shes was bawling!! I jus grabbed her and she was shakin and she didnt let go or anything..omg i feel soo horrible!! I seriously luv sidnee duffey soo fuckin much!! shes means everything to me and i hope that she is okay..this really sucks!! i hate this, i luv her soo much shes still crying!! ='(
Brittany marie gamester i miss you call me tonight if you read this and if you want to. But yeah i luv you soo much and miss you tons!!
And ali jean, omg i got ur letter last nite..omg your the best friend ever sweetie pie!! Awwe your soo sweet i started crying!! i luv you soo fuckin much!! awwes!! Ima write you back..and well ya know!! lol i luv you soo much!!
Please pray for kevin that he is okay..and pray for little joe and mallory *shes only six, and little joe is 15 my age, and then kevin is only 12* and thier mother..god help us down here *yesh i said god britt*
<33 Jilly!!
Okay im going to just edit this journal entry and write while WE ARE DOING NOTHING..wait i mean while brandy is doing nothing in tuckers class!! =) heh
Well nothing much has happened since last hour but yeah duffey didnt stop crying the whole class, it was really upsetting, and i started crying.. *yesh i actually started crying brittany*
But yeah we've gotta get going..ill write more latah t nite!!
BRANDY IS AN ASSHOLE!! =) heh jk shes kool..*britt u know all bout dat*
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