idont wanna feel this small

:: 2003 30 December :: 11.29pm
:: Mood: silly
:: Music: ULTIMATE YOU!

me n kimmys convo..
BlOw BuBbLeZ 23: im like to my mom..can daniel spend the night and shes like no and i said why not and she said CUZ HE HAS A PENIS!!
XoDrummerGurloX: LMAO
XoDrummerGurloX: lol!
BlOw BuBbLeZ 23: lol
XoDrummerGurloX: i asked my mom if daniel can spend the night and she walked away lol
BlOw BuBbLeZ 23: LOL
XoDrummerGurloX: :-P
XoDrummerGurloX: we need to chop off daniels penis so he can spend the night
BlOw BuBbLeZ 23: yesh i know!!
BlOw BuBbLeZ 23: u grab a knife..ill hold em down
XoDrummerGurloX: OF COURSE YOU GET TO HOLD IT!
XoDrummerGurloX: GOD DAN
BlOw BuBbLeZ 23: lmao
XoDrummerGurloX: *DAMN
BlOw BuBbLeZ 23: well u get to keep it
BlOw BuBbLeZ 23: after we cut it off
XoDrummerGurloX: no no...we will cut it in hald
XoDrummerGurloX: u can keep the end
BlOw BuBbLeZ 23: yay!!
BlOw BuBbLeZ 23: do i get the balls to?
XoDrummerGurloX: i dont want that leaky thing in my house
BlOw BuBbLeZ 23: or can we keep them on?
XoDrummerGurloX: lol!!!!!
XoDrummerGurloX: balls can be dangerous luckily there is 2 one for me one for u!
XoDrummerGurloX: (wow that rhymed sorta0
BlOw BuBbLeZ 23: LMAO! yes!!
XoDrummerGurloX: WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

kimmy had it in her journal so i had to add it in mine =]

2 alone | cant handle this

:: 2003 30 December :: 11.02pm
:: Mood: stressed

When you think youve got it..think again..
britt: then i dont think we can be friends

britt: yo u obviously dont care bout me
britt: and you obviousily dont care that this hurts me

Brittany marie gamester..before i leave..jus wanted to let u know:: That, wat u said rite there, could be nothing further from the truth, brittany u knw dat im da peacemaker and if someone wants to be my *friend* den im going to be like yeah sure *example da whole cassie deal, u knwo wat shit she did to me, but i took her back..no questions asked* and dats da only reason dat i became friends wif her again, iw ould never ever ever want to hurt you in anyway. I swear britt..=/ And im really srry..i wish dat you understood where im coming from, i jus wanna know why u dont want me to..dats it..i mean i'll stop..but it would be nice t oknow dat my BEST FRIEND trust me enough to tell me something as dumb as this..but wateva..

I luv you wif all of my heart britt..and im really srry, *forgive me* or *lose me* take your pick..the choose is yours..plz make da rite one..

I better go..latah..

:: 2003 30 December :: 3.38pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: Brenda's got a baby *Tupac*

Its about time..
I knew things would be different..and now im the one payin for it..i wish things could be back to how they used to be..but instead they cant..and im the one that has to pay fo it.. =/

Well lets see..not too much happening around here really..cept coming home from florida..and den my rents gettin into a huge fite last nite..yeah but oh well nothing new wif dat..they always fight..so who cares anymore rite..? neways..

Me and steve r doing good i guess..he'll prolly break up wif me soon tho..but im hopeing dat my mom will let me stay home while they go on vaca and den he can like come over n everything.. weee =) but i dunno bout dat..

Me and Ali are becoming alot better friends..its great..i luv dat gurl shes soo hilarous and shes always there fo me..were planning a road trip to see eachother..lets see ive known her fo like 2 years too..i luv dat chicka soo much hehe!!
LiLAliJEaN xoX: I have been having Jilly withdrawls <
I luv mah baby gurl ali Jean

Other den dat i dont really have anything giong on..well yeah dats enough fo now..bye!!

Love..me!!

2 alone | cant handle this

:: 2003 30 December :: 3.30pm
:: Mood: silly
:: Music: Better off alone *cranium bob*

weee heee deee!!!
Hey..its Jilly on britts journal..

Britt i jus wanted to say dat i luv you oh so much sweetie..ur da best ever!! Never forget it!!

Best friends forever!! No matter wat!!

Love..Jilly!! =)

3 alone | cant handle this

:: 2003 29 December :: 6.59pm
:: Mood: sad

what goes around, comes around
Jay told me to write in here,
anything for hubby.

today was okay, i guess. I didnt feel good at all.

i wonder where daniel is!!

lookey lookey!::

2 alone | cant handle this

:: 2003 24 December :: 4.50pm
:: Mood: sad

Hubby is mad at me.

Merry Christmas eve, everyone.

Today really sucked...
blah.

3 alone | cant handle this

:: 2003 21 December :: 11.25am

Today Jilly is coming!!!!!!! i cant wait, shes probly gettin off her plane right now! i <333 you jill!

i <333 jay!!

6 alone | cant handle this

:: 2003 20 December :: 9.17pm

Hey everyone..well id ont have very much time..cuz yah ive gotta get going to bed real soon cuz my flight leaves at 8 10 and we've gotta leave here at like 5 in da friggin morning!!! =/ ick!! oh well =)

Yeah..leavin 2marro now..and now comin bak till da 29th i think? if i can count rite =) hehe yah dats when =)

Awwe im gonna miss everyone tho..like chelsie and megan and stacey and steve =/ and becky dawn and courtney and tiffany and katt and brittney and cassie and sidnee and all of my other lil ol' buddies =)

yeah but i bet its all going to be worth it..cant wait to see my fav booger brittany!! =)

Well yeah im tired..and bored..and gettinraedy fo bed..so leave me some lovin for when i get home!! =)

I luv all of you!!

LaLa91

:: 2003 19 December :: 4.16pm
:: Mood: happy

winter break!!
hey hey lala herrr
lol

winter break is finally here
time for christmas, joy, and cheer
families get together (for hanukkah to)
and share good times the whole night(s) thru
presents clothes and the cha-ching$$$
no one knows what christmas brings
so happy holidays from me to you!
and merry christmas and hanukkah too!

<3 LaLa

1 alone | cant handle this

1 alone | cant handle this

:: 2003 18 December :: 8.37pm
:: Mood: worried

::Im going to name off a few friends that i think dat i have lost touch with over time..that i really wish that i could get bak and be friends wit::

::Cassie::
::Taylor::
::kathryn::
::SARA::
::Emily::
::Mitch::
::Kari::
::Brittney B::
::Brittney S::
::Danielle::
::Becky Dawn::
::Travis::
::Aaron::
::Brenda::
::Chris::
::Josh C::
::Josh W::
::Morgan::
::Heather::
::Anthony::

::And soo many other ppl.. =/::

::Now i would like to say thanks to a few ppl that i am still friends wif dat mean alot to me::

::Brittany::
::Stacey::
::Chelsie::
::Megan::
::Ashley::
::Cassie M::
::Steffanie::
::Sidnee::
::Cassie B::
::Lisa::
::Tiffany::
::Courtney::
::Tasha::
::Gloria::
::James::
::Mike::
::Steve::
::Nicole::
::Nate::
::Ethan::
::Tanner::

::and alot of other pplz =)::

::Now a few ppl dat i think dat im going to be becoming alot better friends wif sometime soon::

::Autumn::
::Katt::
::Leslie::
::Ashley::
::Riley::
::Gloria::

I luv all of my friends and if i forgot you here im srry..i luv you all!! =) *Well most of you* hehe =p

::But my bestest friend in da whole wide world is::

::BRITTANY MARIE GAMESTER:: *big surprise eh? hehe*

I LUV YOU WIF ALL OF MY HEART BABEY GURL!!!

love..jilly!!

:: 2003 18 December :: 10.47am
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: mrs rodmans fat ass talkin.. =/

Wow in class wif my bestest buddy duffey again..shes sucha lil blonde dumb bum..but i luv her =) hehe no really tho we've been becoming better friends lately and its aweosme..im soo glad dat were
becoming better friends..shes always there fo me and i dont know wat i would do without her..i luv her soo much..but yah neways..britt i hope dat we can have dat talk t nite..haha ur da best i luv you.. =)

nothing else to really talk bout rite now...bout to get ready to leave fo third hour..LUV YOU BRITTANY!!

I luv sid duffey soo much shes da best

1 alone | cant handle this

:: 2003 17 December :: 7.56pm
:: Mood: indifferent

If only..
I wish dat i were good enough fo you..i wish dat i could be your all..but since i cant..i wish that you will find someone dat you can one day..cuz all you deserve is the best.. =/

Brittany u mean everything to me..im srry dat i hurt you..i never want to hurt you..i luv you bye!!

LaLa91

:: 2003 17 December :: 7.40pm
:: Mood: sad

baby i'm lonely
though your right in front of me
you controlled me
that was the girl i used to be
gave up myself
but that's over now

tell me who should i be to make you love me?
tell me what does it mean to be alone?
cant you see me standing staring out from a distance,
hear my cry if you'd only listen
out of focus into me and you
why can't some one like me be with some one like you?
im am aware that all in love is fair
but that's no reason to make me feel this way
and it hurts me so much to deny it
but these feelings are out of control
do you know what it's like to want something so bad
and then having to let it go?
and it hurts me to know that this time in our lives
will so soon be in the past
and instead of pretending and playing it cool
never knowing what we could have had
you got me wonderin if i'm good enough, pretty enough, giving enough, special enough

he wants her she wants him to
broken message coming through
same story for different fools
she sees him
he stares right through
nasty rumors so untrue
theres nothing that they can do

LaLa91

:: 2003 17 December :: 7.25pm
:: Mood: accomplished

i feel accomplished!!! i finally got into woohu! yay! lol
today was ok... early dismissal was the best part. we got out at like 2 n we had to take the f cat crap math!! lmao
n then there was lilia, i "stole" her shirt. actually i had it first but she just thought it was really sexi n bought it the day after i wore it.
ne wayz. bailey came home with me today n we were ballin with my bro n josh (well i was) josh sux! lol
after that i went to mia's house n we hung out for awhile, that is, until she got a phone call from gabi <3 (and yes, he's a guy) and now i'm on the computer talkin to chris,heather, calli, kristi,mona, ethan, danielle, and a few friendz from ky
yep, awesome ppl!! lol
well i still got another entry so smell ya later u bunion!!
lol
luv lala