Today I did absolutely nothing, as usual. Man, I wish there were things to do and people that wanted to do them with me.

Lol, me and my fantasies.

Today I was going to clean my room, but I accidently fell asleep. opps! : )

hmm, Ever wonder what you're supposed to be??

Grrr, Is there such a thing as a friend who never ditches you?? Is there even sucha thing as a friend??

I like writing on Woohu because I could never get a word in otherwise. ; )

There's something about giving something you really want to someone else that makes you feel better, eh? Like something you'd die for, and when you realize you should give it to someone else, your heart tears up and you scream that you don't want to do it, and you try and try and try to avoid it like Jonah to Niniva but then God comes in and softens your heart, and you give it away, and it's the greatest feeling in the world! ...but, I'll probably go back to hoarding because I'm selfish like that... I don't want to though. No, I'm not selfish anymore... not me... not anymore...

I saw the Truman Show, which rawked. See y'all tomorrow!

I was reading something, and it made me think about how... small we are. Like, God makes us and everything, and He's in total control, and thinking about Him knowing everything and seeing everything and making everything, you know, why should all the little things I worry about matter? Like, we're here such a short time... and all I'm worried about is time and jobs and friends and the dead. I wish I could get my priorites in order...

other than that, I am very bored. if you feel so kind as to give me a call, that would be very cool.

Gosh, I'm sorry... about that comment yesterday...

I mean, I'm pretty much feeling like crap lately, and I was blaming it on you guys...

but I was thinking, I really deserve it... I've been so selfish... and trying to impress everyone... and some other stuff. Really, I deserve to rot in lonliness for eternity... I'm so conceited... and don't say I'm not, you don't know what I've thought or where my heart is.

sorry for focusing on everything that's going wrong and on all your faults... if you want me to leave y'all alone, I understand.

Wow. I need some new friends.

Yet can I not perswade me thou art dead
Or that thy coarse corrupts in earths dark wombe,
Or that thy beauties lie in wormie bed,
Hid from the world in a low delved tombe;
Could Heav'n for pittie thee so strictly doom?

-- Milton

I just realized that everyone is going to fail me sometime. Friends are cool, but they can't replace what's really important.

"There's no perfection in this life. This darkness creeps into the souls of the ones who are all the same (they're all the same). Why can't I find my happiness; why can't I fill the void? There is a way to love, I've found I was blissful in my ignorance. But I won't let it conquer me; You are my strength; protect me."

--"The Happy Evade" by House of Ill Repute

such a cool song.

anemia + nitrous oxide =

WWWOOOOOOoooooooooooo

I am sooo ticked off right now.

Happy birthday anyway, Tom.