Scared Silly - I don't get how you can be scared silly, its an oxymoron that doesnt make sense.
Things are getting better. Controlling time has been getting easier and easier. Im having alot of fun too.

Last night, that was so creepy. I can't believe I got so scared from that. I can't imagine whats to come. How am I gonna react if just one guy scared the hell out of me?

it came by night
About an hour ago something came into my room. I was so scared. It came in through my window. I screamed of course, and moments later Calvin came running in with his bow and arrow. It was like this large shadow thing. It turned into a guy. I was about to scream again when something came out of his hands. It was like a dark powedery ball. It wasn't solid but like some sort of magic.

I screamed out stop!!! And the evil ball thingy just frozed in mid-air. The reason it just didn't fall on the floor was that I frozed everything around it too.

The guy and Calvin stared in disbelieve for a couple of seconds. Calvin was faster to gather his wits because he quickly put his arrow in position and aimed it at the guy.

The guy just smilled and jumped out the window. Did I mention this is a 3 story house.

I've been in the bathroom ever since I feel like throwing up. I don't know why I just do. Calvin wants me to let him in but I wont.

I'll write more later. I better go talk with Calvin.

describe
We've been practicing my powers all morning long since like 6 this morning we stop occasionaly for food and bathroom brakes. It's lots of fun. I'm still learning how to stop time for just one thing. It's hard. My aim is so off. But that makes sense I guess casue I can't throw a ball so how am I suppossed to throw time? Haha

I've been practicing on Calvin even though he's kind of big and he's alot to freeze it's easier than say an animal cause they move to much. On Calvin sometimes I just freeze certain parts on him like only his hand or leg. It's really rather funny! Except one time I think I froze his umm... yeah. I was trying to aim for his stomach so it would go all over his body but I think it went a little to low. You should have saw his face expression! It was so funny. J.r. saw and started busting up laughing but with just a twitch of his hand Calvin was ok. He got kind of mad though, thats why were taking a break.

Anyway I'm gonna describe everyone right now cause I'm right awake and I'm in the mode to write.

Calvin: Tall, Black Hair kinda long to his shoulders, Light Skin, Green Eyes, Skinny.
He's so sweet! He's really smart too. I know that if I'm in trouble he's always gonna be there for me. He's done a good job of taking care of me so far. I'm sure that in the neat future we are going to become really good friends.

Johnny: Tall (even taller than Calvin), Even lighter skin, RED HAIR (hehe cute!) Blue eyes.
He's so nice too! Except that he's so quite I haven't had any time to spend with him but he's so great you can't help but feel comfortable around him. I still want to know what his powers are, I know he has some!

J.r.: Dark Brown Hair, Light Brown Eyes Almost Hazel, Pretty Light Skin, He's so funny! When I'm with him I never stop laughing. He's also a great teacher. He's taught me so much. I've gotten so attached to him and I've only met him a couple of days ago.

Gigi: She's my dog. She's a mutt so I don't know what she is. She has short hair thats grey and brown eyes. She's small enough to fit in my backpack when she doesn't want to walk. She can be a bit spoiled sometimes but I love her so much. She's the only thing that has stayed constant in my life. I found her when she was just a little baby I was about 10 we've been insperable ever since.

Cloe (me): Im kinda short. I have brown hair and brown eyes. Theres nothing about me that makes me special or anything I think I'm very plain.

Well thats about all I can think of to describe the people in my lives. There so great and its hard to describe how they are in the inside not just there outside apperances.

Well I think practice is gonna start soon so I better get a snack cause we usually don't have dinner till late.

Powers
Today I learned how to control my powers some more. It was so exhausting. Calvin made me read a book on time travel, that was written by my uncle Ralph. I've never met the guy but the book was great. I thought it was going to be all boring and scientific and stuff, but he wrote it like a fantasy so people would buy it. The story was so great I read the whole thing in like 3 hrs. It was like a three-hundred page book.

Since Ralph's book was such a great hit he decided to write more books. I want to read them all. They're all about a young teenage boy that controls time, I'm pretty sure its him.

Calvin gave me this book, It's beautiful. It's black leather with a beautiful symbol on it of a clock with a world on it. In it is my destiny. I havent started reading it yet. He said I should wait till a full moon. That will be in 3 days. I can't wait but I'm very scared to see what it says.

I met one of my uncles today, his name is J.r. He's the funniest person I have ever met. He's great at time. I asked him, "Why come I lived in foster homes all my life and why come you never came to visit me."

He said, " I always wanted to come and have you live with me. But evil has been hidding you. None of your other family has been able to find you. Calvin was hidden from his family like you have been hidden from me. You see Calvin is very good with dreams. Its easy for him to slip into someones dream when hes right by them but he found his familys dream when they were way across the country. It took him a while, but he contacted his family and thats how you got here."

He taught me how to use my powers like now I can stop time for one thing, so its like frozen. It was so fun learning that because he made so many jokes.

He told me that there's a way to stop time for just the oxygen aroung a person so it kills them. Once I get really good at my powers, he said I'm gonna be so powerful! He also said this,"With great power, comes great responsibility." Calvin did a very good job taking care of me because evil has been after me because I have a very big destiney. He said that there's two things that can happen in my future:
1. I will stop the world from it being taken over by evil. He's seen the future and knows that there is a very big plan to destroy everyone and everything and I am the only that can stop it.
2. I will turn evil and become the strongest leader this world has ever seen.

Whatever I choose, good or evil, I will be the best at it.

I told him," I want to be good. And I want to fight evil."

"Good the first step in ambition and will and you seem to have alot of that. Your next step is to know your powers so well that you wont even have to think about it. I know you can do it! And I will be there for you whenever you need me and so will the rest of our family. But when the times comes for you to fight we are going to have to leave you, you won't understand now, for the resaons are unclear, but just remember I am always in your heart."

"Don't forget Cloe, I will always be there with you, I will be fighting by your side the whole time." Calvin said with a big smile on his face. He was gleaming with pride for what I will one day in the very near future accomplish. I smilled at him but in my heart I was scared.

"Yes not only are you going to have to trust your powers but you most trust Calvin too. He also has a very big destiny and he's been doing a great job so far." J.r. was quite as he stared at us smilling. "You guys are so young but I have every once of confidence that you will come out with shinning colors.....Well on to the work there will be more time later for the pep-talks." He laughed.


I'm so tired right now. Every day has been so tiering but I'm anxiouse every morning to learn more. I wish my mom was here because at night I get so scared and even though I know I can go to Calvin for anything it's just not the same.

Oh yeah I saw Calvin looking at a photograph of his family, I know he misses them dearly. I feel bad for him because I know what it's like to not have your family with you.

And Johnny's been gone. Calvin said he has things to do. It sounds like he's keeping something from me. When I told him that he just looked at me and smiled then walked away. I wonder what Johnny's doin and if he has a big destiny too.

Calvin said that I would be a good idea if i kept writting in this journal, because after its all over, my descendants are going to want to know what happened, and this will help me remember.

When I first met Calvin I really thought he was crazy. I thought that maybe he wasn't even real that I had somehow created him in my desperate need for friends. But, he's real.

Oh no it sounds like someones comming I better go so bye for now.

the feeling of being alone in a crowd
Im in my computers class. This morning at break a guy came up to me as I was sitting under a tree reading a book. I thought that he was gonna come over and make fun of me. He said, "Hey."
"Ummm.. Hey." I said. I was wondering what he wanted.
"Can I sit down?" He said. He was cute. His hair was dark black and it was kinda long. He had very light and skin and was wearing a black. It looked like he was going to church or a wedding or something. It was very odd.
"Yeah sure."
"Thanks." He sat down. "You don't know who I am because I've never revealed myself to you. My names Calvin." He put out his hand. I shook it.
"My names..."
He cut me off, "Yeah I know its Cloe. I know everything about you. I've been watching you for a long time. I know this sounds weird, but i've been watching over you since you could walk. I've been taking care of you and making sure evil couldn't get you. You probably think I'm crazy." He laughed." And I don't blame you. But you must believe me! I've been sending you those dreams so you'd be ready. Tomorrow night were gonna leave. I know you want to come. Theres nothing here for you anyways. You have an important job to do. You've none that you've always been different from everyone else. I know about your infactuation of time travel. The reason for that I can't tell you yet. But just believe me and you'll find out. I have to go now but please trust me!"

I wonder if this is true or if he really is crazy!!!

The one thing that sucks about living in this town is that theres nothing to do. I don't really know anyone nor do I care to. I mean no disrespect but everone here is a hick. Yeah I know I don't have a right I was born here and on. But I think it would be so much better to live in the city like L.A. or something. Im getting pretty bored. I think I'm gonna get Gigi so we can go for a walk. Yeah that sounds like a good idea. Maybe something intersting will happen unlikely but maybe.

watching
I had that feeling again that someone was watching me. It really creeped me out. actually I have that feeling again. Ever since that big storm two nights ago I've been feeling so afraid. I don't know whats happening. I had a strange dream last night. In my dream some one is in my room. Its two guys about my age. They are wearing capes so I can't see there faces. They tell me that eveything is ok and to not be afraid, but I am. They tell me to get dressed and put the wormest clothes on two of everything. They say because were going somewhere far away and it might get cold. For some reason I have feeling that where there taking me is where I belong. It really scares me. I don't wanna leave but in my dream I know that I must. They don't have a gun to my head or anything. They hand me a back pack and tell me to take only my most preciouse things. They worn me not to take much cause im gonna have to carrying it by myself. I grab two pairs of pants, 5 shirts rolles up ( im wearing two shirts already), a couple of undies,socks, bras, my brush, my favorite book, a notebook and a pencil, and a small photo album with a couple of pictures of my family and friends. I also grab my favorite stuffed animal which is a panda. I ask them if i can bring my dog, Gigi. They hesitate for a moment then say yes. I also grab this dog blanket thing that she can wear that ties around her body. I put on my turtle neck sweater and then my hoddie. I slip on gloves, a scarfe, and a beanie. I put on two pairs of socks and my black convers. They say Im gonna need better shoes. I tell them that these are the only ones I have. They tell me its ok that we can get better ones later. I slip on my best friends necklace and it slids in place with the one i already have on. Which is a stone that looks like it came from the moon on a silver chain. I pick up my dog and tell them Im ready to go. They ask me if I'd like to say goodbye to anyone. I say no it doesn't matter cause I'm ther foster child and I don't know them. They tell me they already knew that. I ask them if I should leave a note so they wont worry. They said someone will tell them where I'm going. I ask them where am I going. They say all in good time. I wak with them out my window and onto the balcony. I whisper good bye. As they help me down the ladder I suddenly wake up. Im laying in my bed like nothing happened exvept I'm cold like I just been outside even though I'm wrapped in a dozen blankets.
I don't know what this dream means. I kinda wish it was realy cause I don't want to stay here. Its not that I don't like the people I'm staying with. Actually I'm pretty lucky because there very nice and they said I could keep Gigi and they even bought her good name brand food, Puppy Chow. Gigi loves it here. Ther have there own dogs that are old, humongus labradores. Its nice. The only thing that bothers me is that it smells of old. Mr. and Mrs Johnson (the people taking care of me) are old and strange. All they ask of me is to not be to loud and not leave a mess. Mrs. Johnson makes deliciouse food, and Mr. Johnson tells great war stories. They can't have children so they've been taking in foster children ever since they were married. I like them alot but I don't think I could ever love them. I don't think I could ever love anyone. I have the feeling again that someone is watching me. Mrs. Johnson just yelled up that dinner is ready. Thats another rule, we always eat dinner together, I like that. I also like this computer they said I can do whatever I want on it cause they don't know how to use it, its for the children. Im the only child here for now which is nice. It smells like lasagnia, I better go.