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2004 23 February :: .21 am
Dying is always discouraging. In game, you know.
Eleven hours saving up enough experience points to retire from Newbie Land. Part of that was wasted in the pwipe, while more of it just went futile with bad luck and carelessness. Man, almost, six million experience points. I seriously give up playing, this is just too discouraging. :P
I swear, there's some force out there that'd rather see me sitting behind the desk coding than anything else. Ugh, all motivation sapped. I am frustrated and relieved at the same time. I would've gone with priests had I not died, and last I tried that guild (before the pwipe) I really disliked the way things were. I played a priest back in late '01, early '02, and the guild was great in my opinion. Man do the times change. Better this way, discouraged now, than joining the guild and then becoming discouraged again before I got to the point of sitting around thinking of what I could do.
Well, just like all good things come in time, all that is good eventually ends.
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2004 21 February :: 9.03 am
Posting on boards makes me feel dirty.
I wrote a long-winded detailed report about "Inquiry of approval for a PT ring", but I had initially been contemplating where to place it; On the Creator board, even though I was directing it at the Admin for "approval".. on the Lord board, even though there was nothing Lord-ly about it but at least the Admin would know for sure it was for them.. mail them.. although it wasn't matters important enough to cause inbox spam over.. but I eventually posted it on the Creator board. I should've known better. Boards get overlooked.
Soooooo, I'm patient. It's no sweat. Maybe I can even look for ways to improve the ring while the higher ups do their things.
Got the underground hideout stuff laid out, now I need to go over with room descriptions.. quite like the three semi-naked rooms for the outpost still. Now I'm starting to realize why some people just write an inherit file with descriptions for a large area. Cheeeapness, but whatever works.
Hmmm, I was just thinking about this sitting here, but it would seem that in the past fifty-eight hours I've only eaten two pop-tarts. And I'm not hungry.. I'm probably dying of something. I still have a cough, would you believe that? It's been almost two months now. I bet I'm allergic to something in my room. Maybe I'll take a picture of it today.
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2004 17 February :: 5.37 pm
I didn't forget my sister's birthday.. I just forgot what day it was today. Which is not the same thing.
I could've sworn I had a plan today. I had a mindset and was looking forward to a hard, yet exceedingly fun, day of coding. Then I kind of forgot what was on my mind. Hmm.. oh yea, I wanted to code an assortment of weapons. Like a kidney dagger and a baselard. Stuff I've never seen in MUDs before. But then I drifted off into a state of mass boredom and began to pick items off the boards to fix. All in all, I played with one hundred and nineteen files. Most of which I sar'd through countless errors. Ewww. Typos and more typos. Ewww.
Just yesterday, or something, I removed a chunk of souls.. thus my clever brother-induced title. Tomorrow, or later tonight, I'll go through another fifty and maybe create two more.
Drudge: "One who works hard at boring tasks."
I shouldn't say such things. Everyone knows I love it. I love going through the souls and removing the ones that were a miracle of a dumb chance to ever be made. And I love going through however many files are defiled by typos. No matter how I may feel like I loathe the process, and I may fidget and whimper and try to get around it, I really do love the end result of typo-free rooms, and areas. I can't begin to explain how frustrating it is to catch these typos though. Am I the only person who ever goes through each file, line by line, to make sure it is fit for in-gameness? I even do that to the files I make that I know will never get in game, just to feel better knowing that if the quality of my coding is crap, at least the grammar is satisfactory and not exuding any crappiness I can't withdraw with a healthy dose of sar'age. Pfft. People who create just for the sake of creating, not for the quality or adventure, seriously irk me. But who am I to say.. I'm just an old-fashioned nitpicker with a lot of opinions and plenty of swears to go with them.
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2004 14 February :: 4.11 pm
Long day. By the time I finish this I will have been up for at least twenty-two hours.
Valentine's Day. Yay. ..Well I did get candy and pens.. so, ok, it wasn't too excruciating. I'm glad I didn't get a phone call. It's possible I may get one in the next few hours but, luck would have it, I will be fast asleep. Another, more sincere, yay.
In the past some odd hours I've been awake I have spent it wisely on Lost Legends. I am most proud that at most, if at all, I idled about an hour. If at all, mind you. And I coded practically the whole time. Ok, I was doing a lot of coding, then I willingly engaged in a friendly creator chat near the end of the semi-coding-extremely-boring-spree. I finished up a lot of the Valentine's related files and slowly began to realize that the odds of Lost Legends celebrating it would be only too slim to hope for my effort to be anything other than futile. So I spent a lot of time, doing comparably nothing in the eyes of the players. If the players ever expected anything. They weren't on anyway. But I became more experienced in what I dealt with. Sought help in the midst of it.. but I still learned quite a bit. Found new functions to play with and, hmmm yes fixed a lot of things that needed to be fixed for a substantially long period of time. And, I was very pleased that someone else went in and fixed all the streets! On the 11th I went through one hundred and twenty-five rooms, making a chart of what rooms could use what fixer-uppers. That was sar'd, weee. If I had done it, it would have been fixed more than three times the amount of time it really took. It probably would have taken up to ten times, actually. So a huge thanks to Sheepboy who overall made my day extraordinary. I was trying not to use names but damn.
After this, hopefully brief, nap I hope to get back and code. I need to do stuff... pfft. Stuff that puts me to sleep, so stuff is better approached with plenty of it. Sleep, that is.
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2004 7 February :: 5.43 am
:: Music: Refused "Summerholiday Vs. Punkroutine"
I've got a lot on my mind, sleep being high up there.
It's been a slow continuation of a day. I downloaded Messenger Plus and some plugins for that. Been listening to my lovely cheap punk tracks and coughing constantly. Feels a lot like hay fever. Winter hay fever, yes.
A few days ago the skatepark had its first casualty, so I hear. One of my brother's friend's sister, which is hilarious because her brother just got out of the hospital for a knee infection. But it's said she fell on a curb. Interesting enough, last I checked there were no curbs in sight of the skatepark. Ok, there are curbs about sixty yards away, but why should that count as a casualty on the skatepark? Asses.
Here's my desktop before I go. I'm quite pleased with it. No more yellow anyway.
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2004 5 February :: 6.49 am
I overuse the word later because I'm a procrastinator.
Mother was talking with me on and off about where irresponsible sister was. I kind of half-ignored what she said, as I was trying to code. It's annoying when I have my mind set, I'm all motivated and everything, and then someone tries to bore me about their worldly trifles or what they think is amusing, but I clearly do not. Lately my brother tries to strike up mindless chats when he gets home from school. Maybe I should try to care? Just annoying, that's all.
I bet it has something to do with the computer. It keeps fucking up, more than usual, and it'll randomly set the caps on and ruin the keys. That's getting under my skin. And the laggy typing is also becoming a problem. I'll type out sentences but letters disappear in mid-sentence. Very irritating. It's been doing this for almost a week, if not more.
I haven't felt healthy for the past month and a half as well. Undoubtedly, that also is adding onto why I'm becoming so easily annoyed. Everything slowly collects and I'm coming off as very rude to most of the people I've come in contact with.
Today was good though. Rather productive on my part, so that's always nice to reflect back on. I continued working on the halfling fort that I haven't fully touched in a while now, and a few hours ago I started on some Valentine's junk. Reworking some of my older files and creating a few more for this ah-maaazing holiday. I don't have a lot against the holiday, in all actuality. After all, it is a holiday. So I enjoy spicing it up with a darker twist. Now let's see if this will be the year I'll actually put Valentine's crap out.
Another good thing for today.. I cleaned up my directory. Yep. I'm rather proud of that. It's been ugly and cluttered for so long, and now it's semi-organized. Too bad there isn't a 'cpdir' command though, that would've saved some time. Now if a creator wants to look at my holiday stuff it's in.. *gasp* ~/holidays.
I have a habit of copying files that can function for more than just one thing. Like my dark cupid is in ~/npc and in ~/holidays/valentines.. hmm, that's not helping with the organization, but I'll probably finish sorting things out later. Yes, later, my favorite word.
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2004 1 February :: 1.56 pm
Man, I love my cheap shoes.
Went to the mall yesterday and got shoelaces. Went to Circuit City and got a punk CD. Went to Wal-Mart and got a nail buffer. Could've got a meal at McDonald's, too, but I passed that offer up. By the way, I didn't pay for any of these. Feeling left out of the spending spree I decided to get some big chocolate chip cookies and a pack of gum. Allll better.
My sister seems to pity her boyfriend's younger, single, brother. So she took me over there and told him I was his gift. Greeeat. He wanted to see me today to buy us McDonald's, but I passed up that offer, again. I'm not going to raise his hopes. I don't do the dating sibling of a sibling's date thing. Hell, I don't do the dating thing at all, really. Neither do I do the gift accepting, really, but some people like wasting money on me. And I don't care anymore.
I played a song from the CD and my brother said, if he could understand the words, it's not punk. So I switched to Rancid. "Ok, now that's punk," he said. Yesss. Although I liked Pulley better. He's reading Johnny the Homicidal Maniac right now, probably three feet away. He laughs more than I did..
Well, had an awesome last week, but weekends never, ever, live up to the week itself. Or is it just me noticing this?
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2004 30 January :: 10.28 am
:: Mood: optimistic
Oh Happy Day..
People seem to need more things to smile about, and since I've had a peachy day thus far (carried over from my equally peachy night), and since I also have to stay up for the next two hours, I decided to tweak the Display Properties and make it... yellow-ish! No doubt it'll piss off everyone else.. I admit, it's starting to hurt my eyes.. But, in a way, I kinda like it.
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2004 30 January :: 4.06 am
:: Music: Pennywise "Kodiak"
"When I see your smiling face you best be prepared to leave in a land of pure untruths."
Great, great, more great. Had Subway today and spent about five hours downloading songs. Pennywise, Sugarcult, Linkin Park.. then a few bands that I only downloaded one song from, like Outkast, Wheatus, Chevelle (mmmm), and Tantric. Good times.
Spent about an hour checking emails and notes from Elftown. I really should check both more often. If people can make time for me, you'd think I do the same. Speaking of which, I still need to finish the site layout I've been making for a friend of sorts. (I use that term a lot, 'friend of sorts'. There's a reason behind that, of course.) (That rhymed.)
I had a dream about layouts, too. You don't need to tell me that's a bad sign of addiction, I already know. It's very intriguing to see layouts in my dreams that I've never seen before, and fiendishly ravishing, madly divine little online obsession-worthies at that. I shall look around and see if I can find a layout quite like the one in my mind.. it has to exist, and if not, I shall bring it to life. And I will cherish it like I do the darkest nights and bleakest mornings. It will be my covetable little creature; and I, its gracious webmistress.
I'm too splendid for my own good. Much too splendid.
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2004 28 January :: 12.54 am
:: Music: Allergic to Whores "Where they End where I Begin"
Today was.. Productive.
I've been generally, all around awesome today. Woke up around five in the morning and felt like coding. Went through around sixty files in my editor, and sar'd another ninety or so. Got to talk with someone I hadn't heard from in days, and conversed with another whom I hadn't really conversed with much. Noticed an old friend of sorts start to re-acquaint themselves with Lost Legends. Also noticed a guy outside riding a four wheeler, and ten feet behind him was a younger boy sitting on a sled attached by a rope.
Interesting day.
I'm very pleased to have cleared off fifty two posts on various boards. Most I fixed, though many had already fixed themselves (were fixed) in the passage of time since then and now. I'm also incredibly pleased that two other creators were granted /d access. This happened a while ago, but realizing today how much both have helped so far in fixing bugs and typos made me thrilled. It felt like a most sincere pat on the back. A genuine helping hand. The boards shall be rid of their spam soon enough!
I kind of got upset with my brother today when he assaulted me in the kitchen, but the other day I showed him the gold-lined, gem-encrusted, gloriously wonderful and flawless in every way, shape, and form: the crimson editor. Actually, I left the computer for a bit and he got on, noticed the editor up, and showed interest in learning whatever it was I spent most of my day towards. I think he could become a good coder, and I'd be willing to teach him all I knew (which would take a few minutes) if he were truly interested. Then again, that'd mean less computer time for me. But hey, I want to get the Summoner 2 this weekend, and chances are then I'd avert all my ten seconds of attention span into that.
Let's see.. still need to finish the Halfling Fort. Then there are two semi-large areas I should go over and correct misspellings and extra spacing and lack of spacings, and then.... I'll think of that later.
For the record, I don't really work on areas. To do so would require, in my opinion, a lot of time. I've never built my own area in game.. I've built a small shop, and a small cave. That is all. Lately people have been asking what I've been working on, and I can't really answer that because it's so varied. I clean the boards. I dilute my time over so many things at once. If I ever had an area to call my own... hmm, I'd have to say Newbieland. Most definitely, that's the one area I keep spending time on. But, it's not mine, so I can't say I've ever made an area. Yepyep.
I should sleep now.. like I said I would have hours ago..
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