Coding, Coding, Coding, keep that.. uh, something rolling. Something like that.

If you've heard of iXia, I will love you, love you, love you. Badass melancholy Californian alternative music. I swear I'm the only Midwestern who has ever heard of them. I downloaded two versions of the incredible song, Gloomy Sunday, yesterday. One was sung by Hernádi Judit, which.. I'm guessing is in Hungarian, but I really have no clue. It's a very jazzy and mellow version. Then, the other version by Diamanda Galás, I listened to next. When the song started, I could have sworn it was a guy. Her voice is powerful, and I don't want to say opera-ish, but it's like goth rock classical opera. (Am I making up genres now?) She does have an amazing voice, though. I bet my sister would love her. Gloomy Sunday has to be my favorite lyrics, ever. The lyrics are just intense, it blows me away. Read this article on Gloomy Sunday, if you've never heard of the song. It has such an intriguing history. After reading all the articles I could find on the song, I think suicidology would be an exciting career. I also added Hungarian as an attractive ethnicity, on my now public mental list. ;) Second only to the Irish and British. (How clashing.) I'm a freak, I know. Guess who I was hoping would make it out of the CSS H.L. Hunley.. HEHE! Yea, yea, I know..

So, Lost Legends you say? Today I coded some *stuff* for Halloween. It's a surprise. Only one other person seems to be up to date with what I work on. ;) And I'm ever grateful that he's helping out. I'll probably have coded one of the main Halloween ideas in my directory by tonight. I didn't expect to have so many branching categories from one initially small idea. So I'm feeling just BLEH. Not mad, not upset, just BLEH. BLEH.

Every time I sit down and think about what I'm coding, I get more ideas. Whyyyyy?! It's a little late to be coming up with all these ideas, this I know, but in a strange sort of way I feel like the majority of these ideas will be finished in time. It's almost absurd. I spent a lot of my time researching things to code for next year, and possibly the next fucking decade, and put off coding a whole lot these days. I pace myself, very, very slow. If I'm not in the mood to code, which I haven't been in months, I won't be as productive. As would anyone. Obviously. And I hate deadlines, I absolutely loathe them. But, despite all the self-made stress and all the ideas I've just loaded out into my lap to code within the next ten to fiften days, I feel unusually confident that all will be well.

I know, for a fact, that if I was feeling excited about all this festive coding I would be finishing idea after idea, like bunnies doing what they do best. But it's like drawing. I can't force myself to become motivated, it either happens or it doesn't. Factors are completely disregarded by my one-track mind: planning. I love to plan. I love to research. I love to come up with ideas. Carrying them out is where I usually sigh.

Well, anyway, like I said earlier. Badass music. I'm going to get a lot done before I sleep.

J'ai de la visite aujourd'hui.
If you've noticed my AFK messages lately, you probably figured out that they were in French. That's the one language, within reach, that I've been wanting to learn since I entered high school, and the language I've had the least experience with. The downfall of transferring schools after the first semester. I found French to be much easier to pick up than Spanish, which I wasted three years on. Then again, where I live, Spanish will prove to be most helpful. Too bad I was never good at learning languages, though. I was taking a Korean class alongside Spanish, my sophomore year I believe, and I ended up dropping Korean because I wasn't getting grades in that class and couldn't concentrate on both. I might take another Korean class sometime soon.. In the meantime, I'll be reviewing what little French I've learned. So, if you know French, feel free to use that language instead of English. I can figure out the gist of sentences..

Je mange vaches. Crainte moi.
Despite my 'mood' being accomplished, I haven't coded a damn thing today. I'm just upset about life and its endless subcategories. I've felt this way all fucking week.

Too many shitty events happened and I'd be better off not writing about them. I don't particularly feel like spending an hour or two reminding myself of how much life sucks.

Personal Ads

Don't ask me why I was on a Penpals International website today. Well, I guess you wouldn't need to in any case. I was looking for a penpal. My last one died, or something. In my terribly lovely, and yet wasted time, I found a few ads that I am tempted to reply to. The majority of the ads had mentioned 'art', and I was thinking of that as 'hitting two birds with one stone'. As in, alongside the written content, there's a chance a picture will be included. I like looking through that sort of stuff. And, if you like writing letters, I'll have you know the feeling's mutual. I won't die on you either. Art.

Hurray for Accomplishment
I've been on for a little past six hours, on Lost Legends that is, and in that time I have edited thirty-four files, sixteen of those being in the typo reports. So that cleaned the board by a third. Also, in that time, I have added four more memos on my "to do" list. That list is now up to #21. Ehhh, I have tons of things to do. I haven't even worked on the Halloween stuff yet, I've just been fixing typos so far.

Going to watch some anime. ;) When I get back I'll probably do some Halloween coding.

Hmm..
I know I just updated, but when I come to terms with my conscious mind I'll most likely delete it. Along with this one, probably.

I'm thinking to myself. Here are some numbers.

10.6 6
6:51 + 6:38 = 12:89 - 60 + 1 = 13:29 + 22 = 13:51 + 5:22 = 18:73 - 60 + 1 = 19:13

10:03 - 1:30 = 8:73 - 60 + 1 = 9:13

19:13 + 9:13 = 28.26 + 1.30 = 29.56

?? I had everything figured out when I started, but that thought isn't going fast.
I'm tired now.

Not much LL related

I'm feeling pretty terrible and oh how am I'm refraining from turning this entry into one of Pantera's songs. I'm dying too slow. I've done so many crunches and sit ups, yesterday and today, that my stomach is sore. On top of that, suddenly my allergies kicked in (well, it wasn't a surprise, really.. I provoked it) and every time I sneeze my stomach hurts more. And, on top of that, I haven't had sleep in around thirty hours, still counting, so I decided to take two allergy pills for my stupidity and in hopes I can fall asleep because it's the drowsy type. But when I'm this sleep deprived, I really do some stupid ass shit. I decided to record myself chewing on one allergy pill, using the camera I mentioned in prior posts, and I guess that was fun while it lasted. I couldn't smell much so it didn't taste as bad as it would have under normal circumstances. Then, on top of that, I've hardly eaten anything in the said 30+ hours, and chewing that pill without food in my system was probably also very stupid. I took the other pill, drank a soda, and forty minutes later my symptoms haven't shown any signs of improvement. Why, oh why, do I do this to myself. I get the strangest thoughts, and ideas, when I'm in this stupor. Bad thoughts, on sole the basis of, "Why not?" If you know me, you will have known that I initially typed a lot and later cut it all out. I hate rambling on and making little to no sense, as fun as it may be.

Sheepboy's Birthday
I saw Sheepboy log in earlier and just felt like drawing. So I sketched out a picture on yellow notebook paper and later transferred it into my sketchbook, where I inked it. I took a digital picture of it and cropped the picture. Yes, it's blurry. I could have sharpened it but then it wouldn't have that 'homemade/poor camera' effect, it would have 'homemade/poor editing program'. We don't want that.

He left right before I took the picture, so hopefully he'll get to see this gift sometime today. And the lack of sex appeal comment was just something I mentioned earlier.. (Ushio & Tora inspired, too)..

Blaring Music + Motivation = Badass Coding
That's right. It's past three in the morning and I'm listening to very loud music, courtesy of Oleander. I actually wanted to change CDs but everything else is in my room..

So.. Lost Legends news, eh? Well, I met Amasiel the other day and talked with him earlier today. It was weird when he first sent me a tell because there were two other creators on at the time, if I recall, and a few other players. When he asked if I was a 'wiz', I figured my name was just that approachable. Strange. I should have picked a better alias.

I considered asking him how he found out about Lost Legends, because he was a new player, but I'm just not the type who really cares. I always have unanswered questions in my head, but it's nothing I ever need to know. So I don't ask. It wouldn't make a difference to me where he heard of Lost Legends. It's these little questions I find myself cutting back on a lot. I have general ideas and that's enough for me.

I spent a few hours chatting with Amasiel but I don't know the faintest thing about him. And I kind of like it that way. He's here to code and that's just fine with me. He seems genuinely interested in learning LPC, to which I applaud, because I would love to see another player join the ranks of the wonderous creators. Lost Legends may have plenty of creators, but not nearly plenty enough to my liking. The creator population is like a small locality; I've seen all the faces.

Some of my writing might come off as offensive, but it's not what I aim for. Blame it on the music.

Hopefully by tomorrow Amasiel will get around to touring Charlton, so that he can start a creship this week. Which, playing the game, reminds me: I haven't contributed my 25% of playing to the recommended 75% of coding. This sounds unhealthy. I'd make an attempt to balance out the ratio but I'm already knee-high in projects. Maybe in November. I'll have at least two Halloween projects done by then, and possibly two other individual projects completed. Well, the last two aren't so much as 'projects' but additions to the game. And I bet neither will be noticed. That's just what I do.

I'll make project updates here as I complete them.

Phewies..
Right after that last entry a runtime error popped up and I had to restart the computer. But, unlike other times, this time the computer didn't want to start back up. Instead, I saw a message like: Master hard disk failure. After further investigation, I realized I had to find the system disk and try that. Well, I found an MS-DOS CD-ROM Extensions with Device Driver disk which I put in, but that just made a snazzy freakshow out of the monitor. So I turned off the computer this morning and just twenty minutes ago my brother asked, "Does the computer work yet?" I told him very matter-of-factly, "A computer does not just fix itself." Lo and behold, I turned on the computer and it did. Well I'll be damned.

Lost Legends news.. I'm visible at the moment. Yea, that's all for now.