:: 2004 16 August :: 11.10 am
:: Mood: sad

Well, it's over.

God damn it. I hate the world sometimes. It's just not fair.

I don't know anymore. I can't do this.

It's not fair.

-Patrice

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:: 2004 13 August :: 10.20 pm

Semester 1:
1.Study Hall
2. PE
3.Comtemp. Fiction
4. Wind Ensemble
5. Sym Orchestra/lunch
6. Int'l Studies
7. Trig
8. Photo

Semester 2:
1. Creative writing
2. AP Government
3. Study Hall
4. Wind Ensemble
5. Sym Orchestra/lunch
6. JR/SR PE
7. Photo Studio
8.Theatre Tech

Hm. Any sameness?

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:: 2004 13 August :: 12.49 am

Concert was awesome.

I shared air with Issac. ::dies::

My ears are ringing.

We camped out for 5 hours. My feet were numb.

They're ok now.

Insanity.

Much love.
-Me

Are you a purple cow?

:: 2004 12 August :: 12.28 pm

I need food. And that's that. Lol. Good bye.

Are you a purple cow?

:: 2004 10 August :: 11.39 am

my hands are freaking out again. It hurts like hell. My parents think I have arthritis.(sp) Yeah. I'm an old lady. O.o;;

Listening to Hilary Duff. Somebody want to kill me? Lol.

Ok. Back to Thoreau and my endless dorkiness.

Later days.
-Patrice

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:: 2004 10 August :: 12.06 am

I spilled salsa all over my pants today. Not good. I smell like Chipotle. :-\ So off to change the pants.

Are you a purple cow?

:: 2004 8 August :: 6.03 pm
:: Mood: Done with this

:-\
Ok. I just want to say. I probably won't have many real updates anytime soon. Well, not any emotionful ones. I think I'll stick with the surveys and random entries.

This journal, as much of a blessing as it can be, it has brought me down ten times as much.

I'm trying this not writing thing. See what happens.

I can't keep focusing on my emotions and stuff right now. I'm not trying to avoid reality or any of that shit.

It's good to talk about problems, but focusing solely on that is bad. ::nods::

I love all you guys. ::hugs::

Ok..Shower time.

-Patrice

Are you a purple cow?

:: 2004 7 August :: 2.00 am

I can't be online right now. All there is on this computer is IMing and journals. So not many mood improving things. Just had a good conversation with the Keister. Emotions suck. Especially when you can't control them. And you don't even know why you're thinking them. And the only reasons you come up with only make it worse, because why would you flip otu abotu such small things?

So seeing as A) It's late at night. and B) I'm alone. It's best that I'm not online.

I will be awake though. Because I'm just insane.

uuumm...yes. Bye I guess.

Are you a purple cow?

:: 2004 6 August :: 12.42 am

Im tired. But sleep doesn't look like it'll happen anytime soon.

I honestly feel kinda crappy right now. Not a bad night, just bad thoughts that won't leave me alone.

Reality finally catching up with me I guess. I kinda just want to disappear.

I know I shouldn't though. Because reality will always be there, no matter where I run to.

Trying to find quotes from Thoreau. Something I read a while back that kind of relates. But it's not working.

Want to hear a funny story though? So Jackie was over. And my sister was being..weird. So we, well I, attacked her with shaving cream. Then she came back with shaving gel. Lol

You'd be surprised how far the gel shaving stuff shoots. :-) Good times.

I haven't laughed that hard in ages.

It was cool.

Just be careful. It's a bitch to get out of the carpet. :-)

I got ten cigar boxes today. They're really pretty. I just need a use for them now.

I'm only working one day this week. :-( Poo. This week is shaping up to be very bad. I guess I'll just wait and see what happens.

Poo on a big fat hairy stick.

Ok. Good bye.
-Patrice

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:: 2004 2 August :: 1.06 am
:: Mood: ::shrugs::
:: Music: Five For Fighting

2 Hermaphidites | Are you a purple cow?

:: 2004 31 July :: 12.50 pm

Do you know what would be fun? A machine that erases your mind. And clears out every bad thought and just leaves the good stuff. I would like that.

Are you a purple cow?

:: 2004 31 July :: 11.37 am

"When people don't express themselves, they die one piece at a time."

I should really shower soon. I don't know when I'm leaving for the Jillian's. And I still need to pick up my senior picture outfit. I'm excited for tonight. and Tomorrow. It should be fun.

And I'm gonna be in a good mood. I'm gonna be happy and smiling. Because who wants to hang out with someone who's always pissed off? It gets boring. and annoying. So :-). Okay people. Bye.

-Patrice

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:: 2004 29 July :: 11.20 pm

I'm doing my nightly update. Not much to say. Learned to knit. Finally watched West Side Story. Saw Farenheit 9-11 with Sarah. It was fun. Then yeah, I'm here. Dreading my final and planning on sleeping really soon. Good night.

Are you a purple cow?

:: 2004 29 July :: 12.20 am

Entry From Work Today
So I wrote this at work today. Stupid me left it in box. Manager found it. ::shrugs:: Nothing harmful. Just yeah, have to post it. That's why I wrote it.

Mood: Bored

I'm writing this on a piece of paper. I'm at work right now. I'll probably type this up later. Why? I'm kind of slightly optimistic right now and I figure it'd benice to see me not totally out of it. So this is me- now. At 5>24 pm in the box office. Bored mindless. I'm glad I'm working though. And actually getting piad for beingbored. Instead if just getting a headache from the stupid computer screen. That's all I'd be doing now anyways. My knee hurts like hell. Thanks to The Moore ::hats off:: :-P You poo. Whatever though. It was an accident.

So. I should have ditched school today. I was incredibly crabby. I was about to cry because I didn't understand damn unit pricing. Sorry about that Jillian. So yeah, I went home and slept. And slept.
I had to be at work at 3. Had insane dreams about cars flipping over and being late for work and the such. Then when I really woke up, it was 2:45. But good ol' me managed to get there by 2:56 when I realized I still wasn't awake yet. I mean, not all the way.

A 30 year old just was hitting on me. Jokingly, I hope. He asked me how old I was. And when I got off work. I was just..ummm...sure...yeah. You know me. I was scared.

So yeah...apparantly the security camera was unplugged the whole time. He came in a yelled at me. Oh well. It happens. Yeah, this kid dyed his hair pink. I think it was supposed to be red, But not. Ha.

Ok. I don't know. There's onyl so much you can think abotu when you're in a plastic cage.
______
So yeah. I wrote a poem thingie too. But no one reads my creative stuff. Don't want to scare you.

Yeah, my mom got tickets to see Fiddler friday. She didn't tell me until today. When the schedule came out. And I'm working. I hate it. I could ask her to switch the days? I don't know. Just. Gr.

-Patrice

"No matter how many times you wash a turd, it's still a turd."

Are you a purple cow?

:: 2004 28 July :: 1.03 am
:: Mood: Ummm...

I need to sleep more. I think that's my problem.

I've been an idiot. Letting stupid things get me angry. Thinking stupid thoughts. And I'm so pissed off at me. And many other people too. It's just...I'm losing all my patience and I can tell that I'm going to just explode soon. The next thing that pisses me off..and boom. Fun, eh?

I don't know anything right now. Just...gr. I wish I could write in more detail, but you'd think I was stupid. So here is where I quit.

The concert was overall pretty fun tonight. Talked to Brittany. Which was fun. I haven't seen her in like 2 years. So yeah. Good times all around.

Poo. Ok. School tomorrow. Bye.
-Patrice

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