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2004 27 July :: 12.31 am
:: Mood: meish
So yeah, I don't like reality. And that's as far as that subject goes.
Happy Birthday To The Pants!!! He's a whole 18 years old. Gasp-p-p-p....
So I worked today. He told me to go home at 8, but I wanted to work more. So I asked to stay. I ushed more. Found $2.49 on the floor. woo.
Called my mom and told her to pick me up 45 mins past when I was really done. Tehehe, I'm a bad child. Oh well. Then sat. Talked with people. and yeah. Ok. Project time. Night.
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2004 26 July :: 1.55 am
I'm a terrible person.
Screw it. What can I do about it now?
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2004 26 July :: 1.28 am
:: Mood: bored
101 Things That Make Me Go :-)..dude
1.Meeting new people and being able to talk to them
2. Talking to old people and finding you have alot in common still
3. When your phone rings and the caller ID is someone other then Home
4. The text message sound. Means people want to talk to you. Still can't stand convos through texting though...
5. Singing along and knowing every word to a really bad/old song with someone else
6. Full out laughing. Not just because you feel like you should.
7. "Tainted Love" By Softcell.
8. Limeade. 3 days old. :-)
9. Chocolate so good it just melts in your mouth
10. Looking in the mirror and thinking "wow, I'm not hideous looking"
11. Getting compliments on something you worked hard on.
12. Reading a difficult book and understanding it.
13. Watching a movie for the 30th time and still laughing/crying at it
14. The feeling that you accomplished something.
15. Late night conversations where you can talk about everything.
16. Unexpected phone calls from someone just to see what's been happening.
17. A hug when you really feel lonely
18. Putting on a warm fuzzy sweatshirt after you've been cold for a while
19. Laying down in a soft bed with a comfy down comforter after a long day
20. Making dinner 100% on your own or with a friend and eating it. And it tasting good.
21. Random unexpected compliments
22. Overhearing people talking good about you when they don't know you're there.
23. Making someone else smile
24. Making someone's day a little easier
25. The beginning of a crush..before you get crushed
26. Realizing that somehting you dreaded isn't so bad afterall.
27. Dreaming
28. Laughing until you can't breath and your stomach is sore
29. Inside jokes that you never really tire of
30. Realizing you have alot going for you, especially after some bad times, realizing how much good you have.
31. Being able to say "remember that time.." in reference to something years back.
32. Peanut butter and FLUFF sandwiches.
33. Screaming parties at tech saturdays
34. First day of crew for a show
35. Getting flowers after a show you've worked on
36. Finding out random tid-bits that you have in common with others
37. Foam. Foam. Foam.
38. Getting covered in foam and hugging people.
39. Spatulas and microwaves. :-)
40. Pillow fights
41. Stealing from contenintal breakfasts
42. Seeing a good movie
43. Sheep.
44. Being insanely creative and making people go..wow..good idea
45. Crazy stupid dancing with the friends.
46. Vernon Hills style raves at 4am
47. The Tribe
48. Waking up after a long night of sleep and feeling refreshed
49. Actually havign an appetite. Being able to look at food without getting nasuas.(sp)
50. Geeky boys..tehehe, Lol.
51. Making random lists.
52. Relaxing with the cats.
53. Long striped socks
54. My people. The people who I can lean on and who can lean on me..who will catch me if I ever fall. And vice versa.
Blah di blah. I can't think of more right now. So that is 54/101 things that make me happy. Tune in later days for 55-101. I feel like the I Love The 90's people. Woo hoo! o that reminds me...
55. I love the 70's, 80's, 90's
56. Lord Of The Rings
57. Johnny Depp
58. Going to salvation army and finding a sweet shirt for 50 cents
59. These smilies faces on the advertisment that keep smiling randomly.....
60. Getting money after working your ass off.
61. Surprising people
62. Knowing that you are loved and have somewhere to go if it gets too bad.
63. Knowing people trust you enough to confide in you.
64. Getting personal email
65. Getting anonymous comments in your journal that aren't bad. That are supportive and nice. Even though you don't know who they are, it makes your day.
66. Sitting down and reading a good book.
67. Seeing a sappy movie and that makes you cry alot
68. Playing in the summer rain
69. Sledding
70. Acting like a little kid again
71. Disney movies
72. Sporks
73. Pippin
74. Hanging out with friends and just..hanging out. Enjoying each other's company. ::nods::
75. Those rare days where nothing wrong happens and you don't even think about the bad shit. You jus tlive.
76. Flipping to a random radio station and hearing your favorite song
77. Getting positive reviews on yuor stuff on fictionpress..even though they're probably lying
78.Doing something out of the ordinary routine
79. Being right on time for something. Not too early..not too late
80. Finding this many things that make me happy.
81. Monty Python and The Holy Grail
82. Looking at the stars
83. Cheese
84. Roasted garlic
85. The soap in Jill's house
86. People randomly showing up at my house(doesnt happen ever mind you)
87. Staying the night at a friends house and staying up all night and sleeping until 3ish
88. Random walks at 6:30 am
89. Hot chocolate after freezing your ass off sledding
90. Canoeing with no idea how to steer or paddle
91. Visiting the cats at PetSmart
92. Finding money on the floor
93. Did I mention chocolate cake?
94. My kitty cats
95. Uber awesome people who are uber awesome...too many to list
96. Whenmy cell phone gets reception
97. Being short
98. Writing/drawing something and actually liking it
99. Good times.
100. EEP! :-D
101. All my dudes out there. Lol. I love you all. :-)
Maybe more, I'm tired and lazy though. Lol. Okies. Nightsss.
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2004 26 July :: 12.27 am
:: Mood: Um..
Yes. I decided sleeping is bad. So I might as well just write. Things right now are...different. I can't explain why or what, but they are. I can't even tell you how I feel about certain things anymore. I feel like a sponge and I've absorbed waay too much and I'm at the point right now where I'm just a wet soggy mess. And I need to dry out a bit before I can take in more.
It's like...a platau. Things go either up or down..then level off. Yay for endless analogies. Um. Bozo on crack. Haha. Had to add that one.
Before I go..just one big dramatic ::sigh::. we all need a good bit of dramatism in our days.
Boy oh boy. Am I a confused little person or what?
:-\
-Patrice
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2004 25 July :: 11.56 pm
Quick update of the journal. Weird weekend. Worked alot. Moon bounce yesterday. Sandy came over and it was fun. Saw Sandy and Goli and Matt sing today. They were uber awesome. Woo final 11! :-D Then I worked for two hours. Cleaned and such. Made pasta. Ate. Made a list. Only up to 35...it's getting tough. Started another book from the library. Decided I'm tired. So Sleep. Good night.
-Patroce
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2004 23 July :: 12.21 am
:: Mood: Lonely
Sorries.
Um. Yes. I don't feel too good. Don't feel like going into details much. Whatever. ::shrugs:: Life will go on.
I love you all. And I'm sorry, to some of you,(well..most) for my uber-complainingness. I know it's not fun for anyone.
Bye.
-Patrice
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2004 22 July :: 2.26 am
:: Mood: crushed
Hm. Assumptions are fun. When you find out people are two timing lying sacks of shit. I almost was in a good mood for once in about two weeks. Almost. I almost didnt cry today. Thanks. Just....wow. Wow. Screw you. Bye.
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2004 22 July :: 12.58 am
So I worked today. Party. Concession. I was dying at first. Tiredness and blahness.
I'm now on a sarcasm diet. Mwahaha. Niceness/normalness..here I come.
Have fun peoples. Don't party too hard.
I should really try that sleep thing tonight. Maybe it'll work. O man. I can't wait to see. :-P My eyes burn. My skin feels oily. Because of...well..oil. Hm. Ks. Bye.
-Patrice
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2004 21 July :: 6.26 pm
:: Mood: Showered
I went to the dentist today. He was a funny funny man. He asked about theatre. He knew about everything theatreish. He knew about All-state and thespians and he ASKED if I did props. He said "do you act or crew or props" and I was all "props!!" Except he had his hands in my mouth so it was muffled.
Um. Yes. I have no cavities. Woopie! And that means no s-h-o-t-s. ::shudder:: I told him I'd sneak him into the movies and told him crazy tricks to getting free popcorn and crap. I'm a bad employee. He said he wouldn't be mean about my flossing if I was nice if he came to the movie. So yeah. Lol.
So I feel sick. I have all day. Now my stomach is all...eck. And I feel like I'm gonna puke. Which isn't good for concessions. Oh well. I'll get through it. I will live. I slept for 2 hours. Didn't help the old stomach out much. We'll see what happens.
Um. Ok. I need work pants. So to the luandrey room. Adios mis amigos buenos. Si papra espanol! Pero...no. :-P
-Patrice
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2004 21 July :: 1.51 am
I can't be online right now. I don't think. I wish my sister and her friend would just go away and let me sleep. Argh. Fuck it. Night.
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2004 20 July :: 1.44 am
:: Mood: pessimistic
I wish that people from work would read this. I want people to know that I'm not boring-sad-crazy me. Lately I've been slowly becoming less able to pretend to be happy. And less able to just relax. And I'm sorry for that.
I'm not a bitchy person. Really. I promise. I'm just tired.
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2004 19 July :: 12.56 am
:: Mood: Undecided
Somebody. Please. I dont know anymore. I can't do this. I want to quit, can I quit? Please?
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2004 18 July :: 6.41 pm
I REALLY need to learn how to drive. Badly. Not drive badly. but the need is bad. Never mind. I'm of to work. Bye.
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2004 18 July :: 6.08 pm
:: Mood: crappy
I'm a very crappy person. Just so you all know. This is probably another entry where I shouldn't say exactly what I think. Because no one really cares anyways. But as soon as you write something controversial...Boom. Drama. Crap. Fun.
So yesterday was fun. I was out almost all day. And honestly I needed that. We went to see I, Robot. Insanity. I never have seen a movie there since I started working. Then I was flipping out. Too much energy. That's what happens when you have A) No school at 7am and B) No work until 10:45. It was uber-cool.
After we journeyed to Culver's where The Kim and I shared a burger and fries. Then we shared ice cream with the Jillian. Haha. "what flavor do you want?" "There's flavors?!"
So we proceeded to remain outside of Culver's for about another 2 hours. We talked. Boys talked. We talked together. Before moving ourselves to Jill's place. Where we saw two "puppies"...even though they were BEASTS. So then the Kim went home and we were joined by Hul-ay.
Then off to VH celebration, which I actually went to. Uber sweet. I have to go. Eventhough it can be boring. Or else I die. It's the way it goes.
The walk over there was kinda ehh..I don't know. I wasn't too happy at alot of times when we were there. Which was bad. BUt I don't know. We're all allowed to have bad moods. I don't know. I can't really explain why here. Refer to first paragraph for more information. And no, it's just not one person. ok?
So yeah. We stood around at the thing for a while. It got better. Circles suck though. You're in one. Then two seconds later, they close you out of conversation and circle. so you have to fine someone else who was un-circleized. Party. Not really.
Well. Good times after that atleast. Jill and I went to the Ash-A-Lee's. Where we slept. The pants was there for a bit. But he's not a girl, thus he had to leave.
We watched lotsa I Love The 90's and Degrassi. And then parts of the movie that I can't spell even though I've tried for five minutes. It was..wow. We decided it wasn't a 4am movie and flicked it off. Then we discovered...bum bum bum...aol radio. Hehe. Had VH style rave there. It was good though. At Ashley's house. Because it was just realxing good time fun. No drama. Woo hoo.
Then after chatting about aliens abducting us and writing poetry about it. I passed out. Then woke up. and passed out again. The woke up again and went home.
Where I proceeded to explode on my family for everything that made me angry at VH celebration thing. Which is uber bad, I know. But someone told me that if I hold my anger in, I'll be an explosive angry little person. Which is oh so true.
So to avoid more human contact, I slept. For 4 hours. Then I took a shower. And I'm here now. Going to work soon. Working concessions. Woo popcorn.
-Patrice
PS- I hate the world somedays. I hate hating things. But I do sometimes. I have to think about my own sanity. Right? That's a good thing. But what's good for me? I really don't know right now. I wish someone could tell me.
DOOM DOOM DOOM DI DOOM DI DOOOM!
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2004 17 July :: 11.10 pm
:: Mood: Relieved.
Work is getting better. It's not hellish. I'm starting to kind of talk to people. Which is hard for me, dudes. Which most of you know.
So yeah. I saw Sandy and Goli and Wender-Pants and Jill and Chris and Jorie and Nick and Jackie and Benton and Lisa and probably more people. That's all i really saw saw. Yeah. It was cool.
[Edit:12:26]
Don't feel so peppy anymore. Deleted most of this. Does really matter anyways? Not really. Nothing does. Good bye.
~Patrice
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