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The Return Of My Day
Today was ummm...more exciting to say the least. Yeah, I woke up after getting 15 freggin hours of sleep. Which is nuts. I know. I went to sleep at 8:30 last night. It's a shocker. Most people don't realize that people go to bed BEFORE 2am. Yeah, then I um...watched I love the 70s....quality programming. Then jackie called me. And we talked until we decided to go break Jackie's non-junkfood thing and go to Quizno's for "lunch"...People with normal schedules might actually call it dinner....hehe so yeah, I got a turkey guacomole.....ooo man....But this is where things took an ugly turn ::cue scary music:: DUM DUM DUMMMMMMMM.......

So then we went to best buy so Jackie could buy her Elton John CD...(side note...Elton John rox...) So we left...being trapped by a false sense of security....All seemed well enough...then DUM DUM DUM...THE MALL! To return our disney shirts...we went through B&N....Jackie said she felt a bit sick....so we sat down...then she got all dizzy.....AHHHHHH!!! So this security guard had to escort us OUT OF THE MALL until jackie's mother could come pick us up. We were closely watched my this security truck thing until her mom came then we...dum dum dum...got in the car....Then we went back to her house and her parents made me show them where she parked and they took me back home....::GASP:: SAY IT AIN'T SO PATRICE!!!!! I know...I know...So yes, It was freaky though. Maybe not to you miscriants reading this, but it was scary. So jackie...feel better. Damn you. New year's is tomorrow..you have to feel better. Oh, and don't eat Quizno's...theyre trying to kill you.

Tonight I think I will stay up PAST 8:30 and watch some Breakfast Club and um....sleep. I'm excited. Hope you all had some excitment in your day. I hoep my parents let me out for New Years ::crosses fingers:: A 10:30 curfew on New Years?!?!?! That's a pile of horse shit. I don't know. We'll see. Lol, I did have a funny convo with Jackie's mom about my curfew...she was saying how it was waaayy too early and my parents are too overprotective and I'm like...coudl you tell this to my parents?? Cuz Jorie's mom told me the same thing and I'm jsut like...if only my parents could think like them ::sigh:: Anyways, Good night moon...hehe that's a quality book....

A Poem Of Boredomness...By Patrice Elaina Gentile(Maybe I shouldn't publish my name online...ahh well)
My shower is fixed now.

The hot water works.

I didn't clean anymore of my room today.

I just got back from the mall.

Disney store is getting new shipment tomorrow,s eeing if they get the shirt I want in the right size.

I'm bored mindless.

If you're bored mindless too, call me.

Then we'll be bored together.

I want to get out of here.

My parents might not let me do anything on New Years.

They suck.

I have to go clean before my dad gets home.

I don't wanna get yelled at.

Call me if you're bored.

My Day

So yeah, I woke up to the sweet sound of GET OUT OF BED SO YOU CAN CLEAN!!! So, knowing me, I procrastinate.....Yeah procrastination. So I read my sister's book...Gossip Girl...it was some serious junk food for the mind. It's mind boggling that that's the extent of some people's reading. Brings tears to my eyes. All the book was about was rich teens drinking, smoking, and having sex. Nice start to a day, eh? Lol. So then I laid there and stared at the ceiling until I figured i should do something productive.

The rest of the day just blurs by.. I tore apart my room. Cuz my theory is that you make it even messier so you get EVERYTHING done instead of just half of it. So yeah, liek teh dumb ass I am I spread everything all over my unmade bed, and I have yet to clear it off so I cannot sleep until I clear 20 million layers of crap off my bed. ::sigh:: Maybe I'll jsut sleep on the floor...oo would my dad be pissed ::evil cackle:: even more reason to do it....So yeah...after dinner Mel visited and we cleaned out my closet and some crap off my bed and we talked until she had to go home. Then I went back to my dungeon and cleaned from 10-12:30ish...So it's now 12:47 and I've been taking a much deserved break. My hands smell like dust. I think I'll take pics of my roomt o show you how much crap I have. i wanna show people all my crap, cuz it's cool. Some of its cool crap atleast. You know you want to see it ::wink:: hehe

Ohhh!! So guess where I'm going this summer for two weeks?!?!?! Guess!!! I'm insanely excited!!! Guess.....Ok, You give up? I'll tell you!! THE OUTER BANKS!!!!! WOOOOO!! I haven't been there since forever and it's north carolina and we're going back for two weeks, that means the light houses and the crazy awesome tall sand dunes and goombays, only the best restaurant ever where you can order these crazy drinks that are sprite but come with this toy shark that has cherry syrup in its mouth so you pour it out and it looks like blood and it makes a Shirley Temple and they have alligator, which is surprisingly really good, and the kite stores!!! and the beach!! And we're getting one of the houses we always used to get and they were so cool and had piers where we could go crabbing off of and i hope it has a pier....and a hot tub!!! Ooooo, there was this pretty green one that was so beautiful and had its own pool and was right by the beach and we always wanted to stay there but it was crazy expensive. Maybe we'll get that house. I doubt it....but yay!! I can roll downt eh sand dunes again and get sand all in my hair ang not be able to wash it out for the rest of the week cuz there's so much there. And I'll go shelling and the horses!! Omg!! They have these wild horses that run around...we had one picking out of our trash once and my uncle ran out in his underwear to scare him away...hehe my uncle in his underwear would scare anyone away.... I hope we get to visit Ralaigh though..cuz my dads beign a butt and says its too far out of the way, but I so want to go back and just see things, ya know? and Danielle!! Hehe, it's all about the Danielle..hehehehe...maybe Allie, I mean I've always wanted to talk to her again...I doubt she'd remember me, I'd just do a five second "hi how are you?? Im in town...yep...well just wanted to drop by...have a nice life" Lol. Oh god, I love nc. I just hope its not one of those things that you loved so much as a kid but u go back later and you're more mature and things just seem...different, ya know?? Oo I so wanna go back to Swift Creek and see the playground and teh car graveyard and bloody mary's house and go see the horse farm i would pass everyday on my way home and the strawberry farm!! and the other horse farm that I would walk to everyday and feed the horses and pick grapes from the old vineyard..i think thats what it was, i dont know, the grapes always tasted like gummis. And the flowers on the side of the street...so much has probably changed...things became more civilized probably. Which is sad. I'm dreading it but at the same time I want to go back soo badly....I loved it there. In case you didn't pick up on that. Ok..enough of that, You don't want to hear about it anymore. :-) Yay!! ::squeal:: Ok...:-D

I'm really insanely happy now. I love it. I love everything. I love all of you... Thank you everyone ::tear:: hehehehehehehe!!! Ok...I need to finish my room...Night alll!!!

Umm...Complaining..Probably be deleted by tomorrow neways
One may ask...patrice your away message says you're not here!! Then how are you typing in your journal?!?! For that question I can offer two responses. A) i'm magic and I can transport my thoughts from my head to the computer or the more possible option B) I'm not in a mood to talk to people right now and I know any conversation will be as follows:
Me: Hey!
You: Heya
You: Whats up/sup/hows it?/How're you?
Me: not much/nothing/not terrible
Me: You?
You: Same....::enter minor story::
Me: Lol
_End of convo_
So, I'm not talking for the sake of your sanity. You must be bored enough as it is to be home online on a Saturday night...I feel your pain dudes, so talking to me will only further add to the extreme torturious boredom you are already experiancing. Well I guess that whole speel is useless now considering dumb lil kids I meet at lake house NEVER stop iming me...::sobs:: Why oh why?!?! Anywho...

So I haven't written in here since the glorious day of xmas eve ::sense sarcasm:: Um, yeah. Since then i have been locked in my prison(house) for two days until Jackie so nicely asked me to reside at her house for the night. i accepted and my wards(parents) granted me permission to leave the house for 24 hours. Which really wasn't 24 hours, but I'm not at the point in the story yet. So I stayed at Jackie's house and I made Wender a present...an awesomely awesome golf ball....technically Bauer made it. Hehe...So yeah, he gave me a pig. Then we went to Jackie's and watched Indiana Jones and The Last Crusade which wasn't bad. The parts that I was awake during were good. Then we went upstairs and talked then slept. And she didn't make me use a sleeping bag this time. I didn't wet the bed :-) Hehe, no more pee pee Patrice.

So we woke up at noon, but I was still all...blah....Then I found a sticker someone stuck to my stomach when i was sleeping, expect not really we don't know how it got there, that said I cost 59.99, but I was orignally 120.00. I know, I'm costly....so we talked till like 1:30ish and went downstairs and had bagels with extra crunchy peanut butter. Then we were all "hmm..I'm bored...." So we called smelly fish and eventually he came over and we went out and I bought jackie's present. Which was insanely obvious...but shhhhh....I like it though.

So then my dad called and here the joyous times start. They wanted me home at 5 and it was 4:50ish and they said they were gonna pick me up and I was like...Um....I'm kinda not at jackies...I'm in the car and they FREAKED....Oh my freggin god. I'm just like...well it was a quick trip and we're just driving...so I'm told to behome at 5:30 or be at a place where I can be picked up then, so Benton drove me home then my dad calls and tells me that he wants to meet the people I'm driving with. So I rolld my eyes and said ok...cuz I'm trying not to be all pissed at him so he won't get as mad at me. So we get home and he acts all "Look at me I'm a good dad blah blah blah" then jackie and benton leave and we eat dinner....then after dinner I get the talk...::cue doom music::

So apparantly they...from an "secret source" have found out that when I sleep over at people's house i stay out late and drive around...GASP! and that I lie to them about everything and everytime i say I'm at jills....no i'm not...and the night of jorie's xmas thing...I wasn't there...oh no, Why would I tell the truth?! And Ok, I admit I do it. I stay out till my friend's curfews...but if something were to happen to me my friends parents would know and would be able to vouch for me and call my parents or what not. I mean, yeah I go against them I'll say that flatout right now. It's just because if i don't then i would be able to do nothing. Absolutly nothing. I would be able to sit in jackie's/Jill's/Jorie's/melanie's house all day. But then what would they do? it's not fair that if I'm spending the night at a friends house that my rules for being in at 10:30 have to apply to them too, so I can't be like...Noo lets stay at your house and be bored..its not fair. And i can't call my parents at 11:30 to tell them I'm going to eat or go to someone's house cuz they'd freak out. So it's like they trap me in this box and basically ask me to go against their wishes and ask me to rebel against them. I mean, ok..I have to be in at 10:30, sometimes its just a burden to get someone to take me home at 10:30...and i admit I am shelfish in that i wont ask them to take me home earlier cuz I want to be out and not at home, but that's only natural teenageness. I mean, grrrrr...so yeah. So because i "always lie" I can't have a sleepover for two months. Cuz yeah....thats gonna make me stop "lying to them"

And then at dinner I said something like "oh, when I leave home you have no control over me..." As in college and it was part of this joke story type thing i was telling, but my dad flipped and he's threatening to get that bracelet thing that tracks your kids so you'll always know where theyre at and they started question me to why i always have them call my cell phone and not my friends houses..and im like well cuz I always have it on me and you know the number better and thats kinda the point of a cell phone but if you really dont trust me, then go ahead call their parents...then the whole Its nto a trust issue thing...but wtf?!?! They told me two seconds ago they can't trust me anymore. I never could have guessed how much those words can hurt, I mean I try to be trustworthy. Yeah, I try to get away with things, but everyone does it but they freggin set themselves up for it!!!!! it's their own damn fault.

The BEST part though..wooo..made me laugh ::sense sarcasm:: Ok...So they said " i know why phelan didnt pick u as crew head, it's not cuz u missed opening night, its cuz when u say ur after school at crew, you're really out with your friends driving around and messing around and u missed too many days of crew cuz its your excuse to go galavanting off without our permission." WTF?!?!?!?! I didn't miss a DAY of crew up until they made me miss opening night!!!! I wouldn't lie about staying after for crew or theatre or band or what not. I mean, When I say I'm staying after school, I'm staying after school. So yeah, apparantly my dad dismissed me too early from the "talk' and I ran upstairs and my mom got mad cuz apparantly she had more lies to shove in my face about how awful of a kid I am.

Fuck this shit. That's what I say. I'm sick of trying for them. I'm sorry for lying to them, but they set it up for themselves. I'm sorry for staying out past curfews at friends houses, but what can I do?? I mean, I forget to call sometimes and sometimes tehre's communication errors and I forget alot...cuz I'm having funa nd I kinda forget, And I apoligize for that. But it doesnt seem like enough to make a case against me. Fuck it!!! I give up. I dont deserve freedom. I'm a terrible person and I don't deserve to live. ::nods:: sounds about right.

My ears are ringing...thats what happens when you blast your music too loud in headphones...I've always been smarter then most. I wanna write something, just my thoughts on things...but I'll do that later...you've had enough of my shit tonight. You shouldn't have even read this if you read teh subject...but I guess by posting it to this journal it means that I do want pple to read, which in that case you slipped past my wishes to my subconcious mind and have made my day. I dunno, they say misery likes company...I just feel the need to complain right now and if you wanted to read it, you did. So I'm apoligizing for being selfish and posting this, I'm gonna end up kicking myself and tomorrow deleting it, but we'll see...Just blah. I'll see you pple later maybe.

Patrice Likes This Song
Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly

When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you're gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Yeah...
Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know

(Be strong)
You'll break it
(Hold On)
You'll make it
Just don't forsake it because
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
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Merry Christmas Eve!!!
~Patrice

BlechDon't read this...just fun complaining...
Someone kill me right now. I fucking hate this. My nose is all stuffy, I can't stop coughing, and I just feel like total crap. I wouldn't mind much but it's winter break! Damn it. Why?!?!?!?! ARRRGHHH!

I can't stand being home anymore.

Thanks to Jackie and Hul though. :-) Your five minute visit made my day...So thanks...cuz I know my house is insanely out of anyone's way. Anywho...i'm gonna go medicate and maybe stop this damn cold. Night.

Buttface
So this weekend I have to say has made my day...or week...or..right..lol. No more talking for Buttface. Haha! So my new name is Buttface, thanks to me. Well I called Hul Buttface and he called me Buttface back and I guess it just stuck to me. Not to him. Odd, eh?? Lol, I don't care. I realized if you want people to talk to you, talk to them. I love being included. :-) And and and...Ohhh we had a jackie sandwich with a side of buttface...which could be viewed as a bit ackward...but hey, whatever blows wind up your skirt. Then today we (as in Jackie and I) took pictures for her photo thing. It was insanely cold. Cuz I had to chase her dog around in the snow and lol, she's got waaayy too many pics of me in that roll..Yeah, then we looked at pics from Jessica's house...went online...then went to take extreme angles and ran into Charlie who decorated me as a Xmas Tree(Patricemas Tree) and jackie took some extreme pics of my extreme treeness with my insanely cool sunglasses on...You gots to see the pictures. And then Charlie's awesome mommy gave us hot cocoa and we hung out there for like and hourish at the least. Which was totally random but mucho fun. So I'm now Buttface, House Slut, Food Slut, Candy Cane Slut, Chocolate Slut...umm...yeah...the list goes on. It feels like I can go on for days but this is all i really feel like writing. I learned that whenever I laugh alot and have a good time, i get a headache that night. So last night I had this huge headache and I was all WOO! Coool...But yeah...Lol...I'm gonna go now and shower/eat/sleep....hehe....Cya later!!!!

Good Times At VHHS
So, I'm being a badass again. Weeeee...Yeah, the concert was tonight. It was okay. I got to study for chem atleast. Well, a little bit. Lol. I understand chap. 10 now which rocks. And and and....umm....and Bah....I have an essay test and a chem "exam" tomorrow....which means seriously massive headache all day... :-( then a presentation 4th period...noooo...

Make tomorrow not come. Please?? I guess that's what they made headache medicane is made for, ya know?? UGH! And I don't want to go to study hall 8th period tomorrow. Well, I guess I have to get over it. But still....grrr...I don't like him. Whatever. :-)

So, funny/weird/depressing/happy news...My grandpa wants this women to move in with him. Which I'm honestly so happy for him. If he wants someone to talk to and live with and if it makes him happy, then yay for him. I mean, he hasn't lived with anyone since my grandma died in 1998. The thing is she's 54 freggin years old. He's 80. That's a 26 year age difference. Plus...I can't imagine anyone but my grandpa and grandma living in that house. If some stranger moves in with him, I mean I know she would want him to be happy too and if this is what he needs, then props for him. I know it's been a while since she died, but I still miss her so incredibly much. I never got to say goodbye. The last time I even talked to her was atleast 5 months before she died. She wanted to see me wearing my new glasses and I never let her. You don't know how shitty I felt when I found out that she was dead and she hadn't gotten to see me in glasses. I don't know, I'm sure she never held it against me, it's just one of those things. I don't know...why?? Okie days...crying is bad...wooo...So off to sleep now so I don't die tomorrow...see ya!

Super Secret Online Time
So, I'm grounded for another week from the computer. As sad as it is, its literally killing me....Grrrrr.....So I have snuck onto my dad's computer to read people's things and to add to my own journal....

You know...random thought of the day. Right now things aren't bad. The only thing that slightly pisses me off anymore is band...annoying people in my lit class and shenk...but other then that I'm actually kinda happy. Well happier then I've been for a long long long long time....I'm not like insanely happy....cuz nothing insanely good is happening, but not depressed cuz nothing insanely bad is happening either ::knocks on wood:: More like I'm content...is that a good word? lol I don't know..

my grades aren't good, but right now I'm doing everything I can. I actually understand algebra and not really chem, buit I have till friday. I'm not insanely freaking out. And well, I want to prove to people that I'm really not scared of them, but it's not like I'm stressing about it. It's not worth it.

And guys...well, I like a guy now but not like terribly "omg i need him now" Like I usually am with every guy. I really do like him, but once again it's not worth putting myself under stress about. If it's gonna happen, it'll happen I guess is my theory. I kinda really would love something to happen, but it's not like the center of my life like it was with Zak..and that kid...then that other kid...then....::fades into silence:: hehe ::hoping certain pple don't read this..::

You know what I realized? When people say kid they're usually refering to a guy...and girl is used for a girl. Weird, eh? You know one of the best feelings in the world is?? Laughing so hard that your stomach starts to hurt and you can't breath and it feels like if you laugh anymore it'll kill you, but you just can't stop. I want something to happen again like that. Cuz it's just fun.

Yep yep...Woooo! It's 10:45 and my head hurts. So off to bed...I know it's sad, but when I have no AIM, there's no point in being awake.

i don't know, Like I said I'm losing my mind today. Ask anyoen I've talked to today. Lol, especially stupid bassoon kid. and woooo...gym...I was being stupid...then tonight, I would say something then be like "wait, what the hell did I just say?" lol, i know I'm good. So that whole bed thing right?? Hehe...well good night my friends!

Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the lord my soul to keep and if I die before I wake, I pray the lord my toys to break...so no other kids can have em.
~Patrizzle~