stuff on my mind
1.the was one of my better weekends and i wasent at home at all
2.i really hope the movie turns out good but its just a dumb movie to go see if you want to laugh but if you want a quality movie then go to the "real" movie theater
3.girls !!BAHA!! to many
4.i want to start a band but its just not working
5.WHAT THE FUCK im failing 4 of my classes
6.....my hair is falling out
7.joyride kicks ass
8.do any of you really read or care about my journal cause it feels like im typing to a brick wall
9.have you ever wanted to do some thing that would make alot of people mad (like the teachers at school)but you dont have the resorses
10.last but not lest the number ten thing on my mind is...ummm..well..hang on its comin....err...DAMN I GOT NOTHIN

i just dont get it i do everything for one person that is very speical to me and i end up getting screwed everytime
i mean i did everything i could for you to make you happy and just feel good about your self and i meant all of it and it just seems like it leaves you like as easily as you breath like you dont take it in and relive it i never asked for anything in return and i dont want anything i kow i cryed for you and even bleed for and i never wanted anything when we argu i hate it but you love it you even said that your self but what do i do i just play along to give you what you want and once again what do i get out of that great conversation nothing but a broken heart and bad dreams some times it makes me wounder if what you say isent what you really want to say i think you want to say more and tell me how you really feel but can i do anythin about it no why becouse you are locked up in side your self but when you want to know what im thinking or how i feel you get it out in a blinx of a eye and for the last time what do i get nothing well its about time i get something in return and your probly pissed but i want to know what did i do wrong, how did this die, why do everytime we talk we fight Erica i remember when we were something speical
wel you still are to me but do you remember how that was i do i dream about it everynight, everytime i see you ,everytime i talk to you
erica i love you but i just want to know why.............. why this??

this week
well this week is going to be hell bent
tough
well all live and get throught it all
with someone
things should get better
guys dont let girls get you down anymore
i learned my lesson the hard way
thay will hurt you big time if your not carefull on who your close to
now not all girls are mean but you know what i mean
and girls same goes to you
well im still looking for band members
i ve been talking to some people but yeah know
so ill leave nt like youll read it

why cant we all just get along
well this weekend turned out better then i thought
i went to the mall with Rachel Ryan and David it was fun im a bitch
then when it was raining really hard we were like a mile away from home and we were on foot we got socked
smelled like wet DOG
and once again ive been thinking
ya know about life
and really its not as bad as it seems everyone needs to know that wen someone breaks up with you or you have family problems you can always look to some one no matter who you ate theres always someone
heck if you ever need advise you can ask me
ill tell you the truth just like you told me.

well the end has come
or mabye the begining
of a new life
one where im winning
for once i was right but wrong in all
and now i know this was my down fall
was to let you win
and it was my fault to let you in to my head my heart and my soul
and when i look in your eyes the look is gone
almost as if you dont care
and in the back of my head i think
was all of this fair
of corse not they say to me
and then they tell me to be true
but i cant anymore when im around you
so to you i say with all my heart it breaks me most for you i part
its what you want and it the best and my burdind is of your chest
so relax and injoy your choce
ill see you around in my next life

questions why are there so many
i feel weird like im doing something wrong
no not really
ahhhh
well i just need everones insight on a couple questions
1. should i cut my hair
2.what am i
3.why do i get played by girls
4.what color shoes should i get
5. what should my bands name be
and last but not least
6. do you find me attractive
god soo many questions

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

Today was great
i do
i feel like im whole again
i had a good day and you know what
i dident cry once
except when the skateboard hit my nuts
but its all good
i just cant calm down
i mean i could have SEX gor like 7 hours streight
haha
(yeah right like thats going to happen)
i got to clean my room
my cribdigidy is kickin yo
god i ,i,i,
feel good again
IM BACK
HAHAHAHAHAHA
this is gona be good

well truilly i think im back
guys im back
im staying
and do you now WHAT
YOU CANT GET RID OF ME KNOW
im hear
im NOT quer
i relized who i can and cant trust
and Jay thank you for watching out for me thats why you said and did what you did
?FRIENDS?
i had a ok day the job crap sucks
but the TONY RUSH is coming back to me i remembered how to do it
+TONY RUSH+
my addrenilian rush
when i can do anything
and no one can get me down
its great
but all of us can do it
well at least "THE LOST BOYS" can
thats our power
and its the strongest when were all together
so no more fighting
lost boys unite
i love you all good bye

hehe
well
its nice to know how you really really feel jay
i thought really friends would except you for how you are and what you want to do with your life
that goes for everone who hates me now
you know who you are
i do appreciat what most of you have tryed to do
some of you think it all wint to wast but i listened
but you know what
if you guys dont like it when im happy thats fine
its not her fault
i mean what
i dident like some of your guyses girl friends but i dident do anything like this now did i
but i guess like jay said im being a jerk off or what ever
but i got my friends
erica,david,umm its so hard to think anymore the number has decreased so much