well what else
Damn im fucked up
is there ever a day that i dont say the wrong thing
and get in to an arguement with the person that i love the most
i guess i just hae negitive vibes all around me
i am EVIL ill make your life suck so stay away
reading this journal is wast of your time mot like i matter to you hell i just said something stupid right tis very second
so yes i am
ROYALLY FUCKING MY LIFE UP

where will i go when i die
what do you think?
here will i go if i die tonight
what will happen
people will care that i died yes, but will i be remembered
not saying that i want to die
just where will i go
i close my eyes and hope its not that.....

my tonsils
well well my tonsils r touching
i had alot of fun today no reason caugh*erica*caugh
if i go to the drs and they tell me that i have to get my tonsils taken out im gona see if i cna keep em in a jar and bring em to school and ill name em the first one ill name fredwick maywood maryweather the 303 and the second one is tony 2 hes a spiecial one he can talk to me but fredwick maywood maryweather the 303 just swells up and moves around and sometimes they accedently fall into someone elses drinks

i have so much fun when im happy
woohoo
this is fun i talked to erica for like three hours last night she is like perfect for me
i had a lot of fun with JAY JUSTIN David and rachel we were jumping of of snow banks and jay can do a flip *bad ass* it ws fun to be with the old guys again felt just like old times
shool is going to be fun derrrrrr
I Luved SckhoOl....
see you all soon

fun
WOW
i had a GREAT time with erica on thursday we had a blast, loads of fun
then i had fun with justin and jay and david and rachel
i dident get to call erica which pisses me off *erica if you read this i tryed to call sorry i love you*
gona go to the mall today
i love you erica
see you all later

Change is good
well erica is coming over tonight and i just dint know what to say or what to do (yeh right its me tony come one)she came over for a little bit yesterday to we had fun fun
hopfully Jay will get to come over on friday i miss him
gona try to go to the mall with mama putt
oh yeah idd like to take my time to give brad a round of appaluse for joining a "good band" and hes just going to FUCK THEM UP!!! im not jeoluse if thats what your thinking brad cause im not its just *dusty robby kevin* brad sucks

it all turns around
good mood for a while
thats what im shooting for
the angry tony has left
just the fun lovible and annoying tony is here
me and erica are doing good(which is great news for me)and my friend dylan quit fuzzy logic*snickers* were going to try to start some thing like and 80's punk grunge rock band and we just need a drummer *cough chris cough* and a nother guitar player just anyone but "him" thats all just a add for a band and things are good again the bad part of me left hoppfully for good
im in love
and good bye

what to worry about next
i have to constently watch my back
never relax always know whats going on around me
never sleep more than four hours at a time
exepect and execpt
never relax

im the biggest fucking loser
!!GOD DAMIT!!!
why do i keep donig this
i keep fucking up
im just going to go away for awile
im leaving
NO ONE WORRY ABOUT ME
that means no one
im not important and dont fucking come on her and say i am
just every one
!!LEAVE ME ALONNEEE!!!!
*tear*

Good bye.......sorry

LOST IN YOU

Tell me what is on the mind
Of someone who's lost themself inside
Life has changed but you remain the same for now
Find what's left and change yourself somehow

Silence comes to take your breath away
As you come to realize your sorrows
Stumbling down, your place is finally found
Among the dreary, lost and lonely

Falling through oblivion, truth find itself a mark in stone
Falling fast as you tumble down
Below the good, the real and true

whats wrong with me
help anybody
people say im changing and maybe i am people are starting to hate me for what i have become people who wont tell me who thay are are telling me to get ride of erica well fuck you ok im in love with her
things are coming back together "The Lost Boys "might be coming back
grrrrrrrrrr..
MY LIFE SUCKS!!!!!
HELP ME PLEASE!!!!

the Promise
Back in the day
a group of hellions a montly crew a group of kids with a strong bond like no other

"THE LOST BOYS"
made a promise to watch after each other
to always be there
to always trust each other

becouse "the lost boys"had no one else but each other and then

trouble came for them
and things became different thay split up
some tryed to hold it together and some of them could not help but rip it apart
but not on purpose

i think its time for us to be whole again

"THE LOST BOYS" unite and come together


..please...