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2006 16 February :: 1.05am
alright so this is what I want: a mouse for my computer & a star tattoo either on my wrist(s?) or between my thumb & index finger.
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2006 16 February :: 1.05am
alright so this is what I want: a mouse for my computer & a star tattoo either on my wrist(s?) or between my thumb & index finger.
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2006 15 February :: 1.36am
sad day & not just because it was Valentine's Day.
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2006 10 February :: 7.28am
:: Mood: sleepy
alright...
I really haven't been sleeping well, if any, at all lately. I also haven't been doing something else. I need to start back up working out, again. I've taken the week off. fraternity matters have finally got a roll on things. it's very exciting!
I want to go home. it feels like it's been forever. since I've been there for a decent amount of time, last summer. I saw live feed of Wrightsville Beach & wanted to jump into my computer.
& as for him: he's officially an asshole who listens, but doesn't care because what he has to say is greater. so, thanks for? oh I know, being an asshole this past month or so.
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phoenixnaito
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2006 29 January :: 6.28pm
I'm back biatches! hahahaha! I just realized I still had this...wow I'm slow.
Much love.
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2006 25 January :: 11.25am
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: iTunes on Shuffle
Chinese Food!
ALRIGHT! So I officially hate my school. there was a big thunderstorm and lightning & what not. well the lightning hit a fuse & ONLY MY DORM went with out internet! JUST MINE! this happened Saturday morning, it was not fixed until Monday morning. that's pitiful!
anyways, hooray for the Steelers! I want Chinese food. the chinese food from the other nite was amazing. I am going to go get more of that. more to come later, soon later
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2006 23 January :: 2.08pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: the strokes
I've got the worst little flu-bug known to man.
ah, well, i'll get better soon.
i hope to paint in about an hour,
once I finish studying.
curse schoolwork.
<3kaye.
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2006 22 January :: 8.05pm
:: Mood: optimistic
i feel very open and I like how this is kindof a private blog thing.
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2006 22 January :: 5.46pm
so this is kaye and I am excited because Sirus is amazing for making this mine and making the graphics and all of that.
even if you're not a member you can comment, just include your name.
<3kaye
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2006 22 January :: 5.20pm
Transfer of ownership.
This now belongs to Kaye.
Yep.
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2005 5 December :: 11.27pm
:: Mood: drained
end of the semester
tomorrow is the last day of classes. I didn't get ANY sleep last nite, because of stupid math. thursday is when exams start, my exams are nicely spaced out. it just sucks that I have a marching band rehearsal for London on reading day (the free day between last day of classes and the beginning of exams). eh, I'll get over it, it will be worth it. my birthday is 23 days away, along with London. I'm so excited. I'm getting a digital camera!
it's been a stressful semester. had my first stress attack EVER. I don't think I've ever been directly involved in drama as much as what happened this semester. I'm just ready to go home without having to come back early. I just want a full break. you're probably thinking, well you have Christmas break coming up. WRONG! I do, but a week of it is being taken out for London (marching band travelling) and we'll be going to Chattanooga the first Friday that we are officially out for Christmas break. I don't mind, this is what college marching band and college football together mean and I wouldn't trade it for the world!
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2005 30 October :: 6.50pm
as far as I'm concerned, I'll be sleeping on the streets of London. all plans are falling through. everything has been going downhill since that Friday. apparently you didn't mind my opinion on a topic til I did something about it.
yay for Circle of the Hated. people get what's deserved to them, so they can go kick themself in the face
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2005 18 October :: 10.14pm
:: Music: Dancing Alone
On A Deeper Note
I've been thinking about a lot of stuff lately. I've come to conclude that I'm a lot happier than I was in Wilmington. Things were great when surrounded by friends and such, but by myself that's a different story.
It's crazy all the people who find me on myspace and do the whole friends things. It's interesting reading the blogs of people you have spoken to in like 5 years or more.
I am so unmotivated to do anything.
AEA because it's PEANUT BUTTER jelly time
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2005 4 October :: 12.06am
Donald Trump appears in an episode towards the end of the series. In an episode way prior to that, the song that will become the theme song of his show, The Apprentice, is played in an episode.
hmmm...
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2005 29 August :: 8.47pm
the other week, I sent my cousin Emily saying what I wanted to say to her, just so she would know. she sent me an email back, saying words could not express what it meant to her and it almost brought her to tears.
it felt really good being able to send her that email, just letting it all out. I don't know what I would be like, what condition I would be in if I wasn't able to tell her that in time.
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2005 18 August :: 7.54am
I close my eyes
only for a moment
and the moment's gone
all my dreams
pass before my eyes a curiosity
dust in the wind
All they are is dust in the wind
Same old song
just a drop of water
in an endless sea
all we do
crumbles to the ground
though we refuse to see
dust in the wind
all we are is dust in the wind
Now, donīt hang on
nothing last forever,
but the earth and sky,
it slips away
And all your money
won`t another minute buy
Dust in the wind
all we are is dust in the wind
dust in the wind
everything is dust in the wind
dust in the wind
everything is dust in the wind
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2005 13 August :: 3.04pm
:: Mood: blah
school
yesterday, my parents and I travelled to Boone, to get me settled back in for school. well today, at lunch they were asking if I were excited and such and I was like yeh. and my dad was like, if you want we can pack it all up, turn around, and go home. and I was like, no. my dad just kept saying that we will if that's what I want. if I truely want to do that. then when we were saying our goodbyes I started to get teary-eyed and I don't know why. I'm not scared. I'm not scared as I was when I first came up this past January. this time, I already knew people. I already knew people that were already up here. so why am I getting tear-filled eyes?
I want to stay here in boone. at the same time I don't. I don't want to stay in the sense that it is new. I wouldn't say that I haven't found my place. I want to go back to wilmington because it's a comfort zone. I know I need to get out of wilmington so I can "spread my wings." I need to start doing things on my own.
once my parents left I was just fine until just now when I got back to my room, after walking across campus. now I'm sitting here with tears gliding down my face and I don't know why.
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2005 10 August :: 7.13pm
I'm sorry...
I shall not be returning to woohu. In fact...I won't be online at all. I figured I've destroyed everything else...why not myself?
Farewell. And I'm sorry for everything.
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2005 5 August :: 2.14am
:: Mood: morose
alright, I love my best friend. enough said.
I love my best friend. I never have to worry about what I say. I don't have to be fake at all around her. I love that. I would do anything I could for her. that's right.
last summer at one point involved: a small group of people, the beach, liquour, and a camera. that's all I'm going to say.
evidently amanda mentioned this moment to her dad's new girlfriend. so tonite when we were together, amanda mentions that moment again, I turn beet red in the face. HaHaHa!
those were great times.
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2005 1 August :: 10.24pm
Spent all day working on my mother's car, cleaning, and tearing at my skin with sharp objects. Oh yeah, so fun. If I am lucky I will die in my sleep...nah, I'd leave behing too many people I love. ^_^
Tony is getting irritable, he wants to come up and see me now, but we still have 5 months to wait. I do not know if I, or he will be able to wait that long, he took a major OD of LSD the other day, had to puke himself unconsious to get it out of his system. Woke up and cut himself! :( He's worried about me because as we all know and don't care I haves evere emotional problems. And I'm worried about him because apparently, he has a severe self-mutilation problem.
I finally finished my little crafty things I've been doing out of boredom.
I've also been killing my knee. I swear I'll have arthritis by the time I'm 20....I won't make it to 20, I'll be shot! (Since the age of 6, I have believed that)
Voila, I'm going to bed.
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2005 1 August :: 7.18pm
:: Mood: whatever
my dear passport
I went and took care of my passport today. let me just say: there was a lot of unnecessary waiting for no reason going on.
so I got up at 9, which was rather surprising considering I went to bed at nearly 3. anyways, I got up, took a shower, washed my hair. by 10 I was on my way to cvs to see about getting a photo for the passport. I get there and they tell me they can take the photo there. he's getting the camera ready and then the battery dies. they get new batteries, take the picture. then the printing of the receipt. there wasn't any paper to print the receipt. but that didn't take long at all.
I go back home for a brief minute to get all the papers. I'm on my way downtown to the post office. I finally find a parking spot and quarters. I only had four quarters. four quarters gives you two hours of parking. I was hoping it would last. I go into the post office. I'm standing in line for like 20mins maybe. it was a slow moving line, but not too terribly slow. then I get to the front of the line and I'm told I need to get into another line: the passport office line. I get in that line. I'm the second person in line. we're standing there for like 10-15mins with no movement. out of the three windows open, none of them were calling us to one. finally one of the windows without the sign that states "passport office" above, which is the window we were practically standing in front of, starts calling us over there. the kind gentleman tells me I have an unusable document that cannot be used as my birth certificate. I then have to walk three blocks to get a copy of my birth certificate. walk three blocks back, get back in line which is now longer. then the line seriously didn't move for like the longest time. the whole time I'm about to get irritated. I'm not one to complain, but 95% of the time was unnecessary. I made it back to the car with 11 minutes to spare on the parking meter. everything is taken care of now. which is a relief.
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2005 29 July :: 3.17pm
I have been working all day, on a break, will continue in a matter of minutes. It's really hot, I'm shaking, can't eat anything, and I had HUGE spiders crawing up my garage walls. It was awesome!
And I had to clean off a few things...it looked as though I were going into a biohazard area. (It practically was)
Anyway, back outside to further injure myself.
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2005 28 July :: 9.34pm
Pain
All I can say...is OUCH! I popped my knee cap out of place, and pulled a muscle in my arm. But was that enough for moi? Nooo, I had to continue with wearing cartilage away in my right shoulder! My migraines won't stop! I may have to resort to injections. Oh well, nothing new.
Farewell for now.
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2005 25 July :: 7.04am
I was dragged away from Eric...again. :( I haven't been able to see him for months. He got pissed off at my mother because she didn't let me stay long enough to talk to him or even get a hug. (He's big on hugs.)
Tony and I are making arrangements for him to stay for a few days. He claims I won't make it to 17 being a virgin...ha! I'll die a virgin, thank you. But, in any situation, I'll be glad to see him.
Although now he wants me to move to Louisiana with him. His mother has a house there left to her from her mother. It's being rented out now, but Tony said he's going to arrange with his mother so he could move in.
It's storming...sort of.
I sharpened my nails and scratched the hell out of my face last night.
I am ill, bleeding, back to having really strange and disturbing dreams. Apparently I talk in my sleep. Last night I said "Don't say a word" and "I wish I could stay..." Don't ask me why I said it, I just did.
I shall be going off again on my never ending job hunt. It seems the only thing I could even begin to qualify for is the Babylon (Strip club) and that, my dear readers, simply won't be happening. I do have some self respect, thank you.
Other than that, I don't count for much.
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2005 23 July :: 11.00pm
Went for a really...really long walk and I pulled a muscle. Other than that...I miss you all, and that is it.
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2005 21 July :: 8.59pm
:: Mood: peaceful
want; no, better make that need
I really really really want an iPod mini, a pink one to be more specific. the more I think about it and see them, the more I want it. right now I don't even have the money to be thinking of getting one. I've finished paying over the $586. now I need money to get a passport, which from what I hear, they ain't cheap. we'll see what happens...
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2005 20 July :: 11.08pm
Whatever
Anthony now decides to tell me that he does just about any type of drug he can find. He want's me to try acid with him.
Umm, no, you want to fuck yourself up? Fine, not my problem, leave me out of it.
If he has a problem with me not wanting to do drugs, he can just shove it up his ass!
I've known people who have died because of drugs! I'm not going to sit around and watch someone else fall too!
With me, you either quit, get help, or said goodbye, because I, for one, don't put up with that shit.
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2005 18 July :: 7.21am
:: Mood: tired
Delayed...um, I've not much to say other than Tony spent $60 to send me roses and a letter. I feel really bad now. He says my heart is enough for him. Heh, since I told him he's not allowed to rip it out and take it with him, he said he'll just have to carry me around with him. I apparently made him shiver...is that a good thing?
Anyway, I need to go exercise.
[EDIT]
Heh, I found a really old picture. I was 4 I think.
When I was actually cute.
And...this is me now.
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2005 15 July :: 8.56pm
This is so TRUE
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2005 13 July :: 3.09am
:: Mood: bouncy
dear woohu,
don't think I forgot about you... 'cause I havent. I'm just 11 years old and it's summer - i can't be spending all my time with you.
I still love you.
-stef
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