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2006 9 January :: 12.55pm
:: Mood: mellow
:: Music: Chemlab - Codeine, Glue, and You
White Room.
I feel as though my journal is filled with the utmost unimportant plethora of CRAP. I guess it's pretty much my fault for filling it with such needless things but, yeah. I live no adventorous life; or have done anything recently that I would say is exciting enough for me to share.
Blah, blah, blah. So onto filling again with more inept shite topics!
I'm glad I finally got those CDs out into the mail. Now it's no longer my fault for them being delayed so much. Though I wished I could've had them out before xmas. Oh well. Procrasinator that I am. [Btw; when you get the discs Dai, check the front zippery pocket thing on the case. Somethin' I just randomly tossed in there.]
In other news; school starts tomorrow. I got my two psychology classes. Also an online business class. And guess what? I only have ONE book for one class. This sucks.
On top of that; in more other news... I've been listening to Chemlab a lot recently. I used to like 'em, sort of overplayed them, dropped away, am now back again. I need to get another copy of 'East Side Milita' .. that was a good album. So for now I'm stuck with a few remixes of their songs and the album 'Oxidizer' ... And I ordered a shirt last night. Heh. It's cool. Got the neato Oxidizer logo on it and on the back it says "Fuck art. Lets kill." ... lovely.
Anyway.
Currently withering away; locking myself in a cell of electro-metal and industrial stuff again.
I want Android Lust's new CD when it comes out. Should be good. Need to get her old one again too... someone swiped it from me. Assholes. ....
..Talked to Rosa for a minute or two last night. Guess she broke up with yet another internet boyfriend. That had a girlfriend. ... I think I basically told her that's what she gets. You can't expect much from these online things. They're ridiculous. ... She asked me to buy her a new heart. O_o; .. I wonder if I can find a cheap one on ebay? ... on top of that she said she might kill the internet, somethin' 'bout money issues and that she needs to get a life. Dunno if that'll really happen, but... I hope it doesn't. Who else 'm I gonna bother when Dai isn't on? .........
I think I'll just stop here to avoid ranting about any more useless crap.
Yeah.
<3
Smile, you slime.
In The Face.
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2006 7 January :: 9.29am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: Funker Vogt [All Albums; on Random]
Cømpulsiøns.
Funker Vogt - Compulsions:
"The dreams still come and go
Lying wounded on a beach
With shrapnel in my leg
My only weapon is a knife
And there is this golden fluid
A bag full of tiny bottles
It’s a promise for relief
The key for my survival
So I feel, yes I feel the need
To lock myself up in a room
Squirt some morphine into my veins
To leave this cruel world for a while
And when I close my eyes
I find myself somewhere else
In a world built on illusions
Where compulsions are expelled
Out of a need I had to use it
Although I never thought I would
And before I was aware
This need was present every day
A golden mirror for my soul
Will be injected through a syringe
Slowly creeping up my vein
To hit the center of myself "
In The Face.
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2006 5 January :: 6.43pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: Norther - Last Breath
Revelations?
I need to stop posting song lyrics... but I can't help it. I keep finding songs that fit not only some into my moods, but... just more that fit into other peoples moods. And I feel the need to post them. XD I'm weird...
Not much going on. I was really excited about the new leather collar I got today. No, nothing fancy, just a normal leath dog's collar. It's comfy and I like it. I was bouncing around like a happy puppy... y'know how some dogs love having their collars put on... heh....
's bout it....
In The Face.
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2006 5 January :: 6.36pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: Norther - Nothing
Lyrics Kill Me
Lyrics for Norther's song "Nothing" --
Every day the pain comes back again
The grief that tightens it's grip, day by day
Loneliness it haunts me, makes me cry
Feels like the world has abandoned me
I'm weak, I'm nothing, just a shadow of my life
My heart is dead and still I dream of you
Don't you understand you're the reason for my pain
I hear you calling me to come
There's no-on I can see
Just the nights cold breeze
Oh god I'm so alone, so alone
I fear the darkness that makes me blind
There's nothing I can feel
These tears are nothing without you
I'm nothing without you
Can you see my heart, broken like my life
Nothing to hold on, nothing to live for
This pain is too much for me to take
Holding on to you was like holding on to nothing
My trust for you tore me apart
I gave all for you from my heart
In The Face.
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2006 4 January :: 10.16am
:: Music: Soil - Unreal
Soil-(ed)
Another pointless... maybe... not so pointless update. Eh. I need to get more Soil. Jeff needs to stop by so I can copy some of his CDs to my computer. Heh... yeah... uh... shit. Here's some Soil lyrics of the songs I have. Because. I like them. So STFU 'n read 'em.
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/Inside/ :
"Take your time take all your time baby
C'mon
Take your time take it anytime
Raise the line raise the line everytime
C'mon
Raise the line
Raise it above my mind
Everything that stains me and breaks me
It's just a gut reaction trapped in this aggressive action
I: Rise:
Everything is right here color me unsold
Everything is right here inside
Take the pain wash it all away baby
C'mon
Take the pain rip it all away
Take my hand take it anytime friend
C'mon
Take my hand take it anytime
Just like the king's men's nightmare
So low gotta see me to feel me
It's just a gut reaction
Trapped in this aggressive action
Everytime I give up something
I end up with less than mine
Turn around and see what's given
It's still less than"
/Need To Feel/:
"Tell me what you want to be, and don't hide it from me
Tell me where you want to be, and I'll take you there
Tell me how you want to feel, don't keep it from me
Tell me how it outta be through more than a stare
Show me what you wanna be, don't hide it from me
Show me where you wanna be, and I'll take you there
Show me how you want to feel, don't keep it from me
Show me how it outta be through more than a stare
I just want to see you
And I just want to hear you
And I just need to feel you
So stand up
Tell me who you are
Tell me where you want to be
Tell me how you feel
Show me how it outta be
Take a little piece of me and hang it from the right tree
Share a little piece of me and I'll keep you as a part of me
You are my all
You are my everything
Who are you, you're my everything"
/Breaking Me Down/:
"LET IT GO
How far will a falling star take me
How far can I go can I go
Gotta be what the nightmare made me
Gotta be gotta be what I see
Jump clear of the falling parts from me
How far will they go will they go
Can't give what you need from me baby
Just let it go
Bringing me down break me down sweet sugar
Bringing me down break me down
Breaking me down to the ground sweet baby
Breaking me down to the ground
Too much is made of what's in me
Not enough about how I strive
Keep an eye on your world it's cheating
Keep an eye keep an eye on me
Deep inside there's a little place for me
A little place for me
Can't give what you want from me baby
Just leave it be
Sweet razor wound
Deep down slice my groove
Sweet razor wound
Deep down C'mon and slice it
How far did the falling star take me
How far did it go did it go
Had to be what the nightmare made me
Fuck,..Just had to be
Jump clear of the falling parts form me
How far did they go did they go
Can't give what you want from me baby
Hell,..Just let it go"
/Halo/:
"I'm the man,I'm the king,I'm the one
That's pure inside
Everyday,everyway I smell of suicide
Bitter sins how they grow within
So you tell me it ain't right
I AM...ALL SINS
And you're my reason for life
I will stone you,stone you
Wrap my arms around you
I will stone you,stone you
My little HALO
I'm the man,I'm the king,I'm the one
That's broken from giving
Everday,everyway I swear just one last try
Killing me with the death to be
Something that's so right
I AM...ALL SINS
My hands are scarred with time
Feel through my eyes
I'm the man with the rock in his hand,got
the rock in my hand gonna stone you stone you
Make a change,gotta rearrange
Idle minds,crushing time
I AM...ALL SINS
And you're the reason for life"
/Unreal/:
"Sit back bare your cross to me
Oh won't I listen
God damn have I burned my hands
On what's been missing
I feel,.. Unreal everytime I try and stop to feel
Pick me up my friend
Let me start again
You fucked with me
Behind this garden
Don't fuck with me
Long before I could even see
You're what was missing
Twisting deep inside of me
Forever missing the glistening
I feel,.. Unreal
Everytime I try and stop to feel
Pick me up my friend
Hold closed your hand
Can you see all the clear skin in front of me
Can you see can you see what you wanna see
Can you see there's a little spot of light in me
Can you see can you tell I'm fuct
Bleeding emotions
Bleed emotions
Sat back gave your soul to me
But did I listen
God damn did I burn my hands
On what was missing, the glistening
I feel,.. Unreal
Everytime I try and stop to feel
Pick me up my friend
Hold closed my hand
You fucked with me
Behind this garden
You fucked with me
Within this garden
Don't you fuck with me"
In The Face.
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