joslyn_julia
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2005 2 April :: 7.00pm
i am so so insecure. i hate it. but i may see my buddy next weekend. yay
oh, and i do want to go to prom i am just worried about not having a date and feeling like the third wheel to someone.
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joslyn_julia
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2005 1 April :: 4.03pm
two weeks exactly. so nervous. i hope that i have money to get a tatoo or something. idk. i have to be brainwashed so i can't be jealous or angry or sad or whatever this feeling is about him. i think it is the feeling of absolute rejection.
seriously, aren't 'friends' supposed to care. what doesn't he get about that. stupid fucker!!!
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joslyn_julia
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2005 1 April :: 10.50am
and here is the start of one pathetic break...
me working, and no one wanting to hang out. goodie.
oh yeah, happy b-day to kasey g.
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joslyn_julia
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2005 31 March :: 3.54pm
:: Music: The Stones- Till the next goodbye
i shouldn't have seen that... i really am not ready for any of what i see on here anymore.
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Honey, is there any place that you would like to eat?
I know a coffee shop down on Fifty Second Street.
And I don't need no fancy food and I don't need no fancy wine.
And I sure don't need the tears you cry.
Till the next time we say goodbye,
till the next time we say goodbye,
till the next time we say goodbye,
I'll be thinking of you,
I'll be thinking of you.
Yeah, a movie house on Forty Second Street
ain't a very likely place for you and I to meet.
Watching the snow swirl around your hair and around your feet,
and I'm thinking to myself she surely looks a treat
Till the next time we say goodbye,
till the next time we say goodbye,
till the next time that we kiss goodnight,
I'll be thinking of you,
I'll be thinking of you.
I can't go on like this, can ya? Can ya?
I can't go on like this, can ya?
You give me a cure all from New Orleans;
now that's a recipe I sure do need.
Some cider vinegar and some elderberry wine
may cure all your ills, but it can't cure mine.
Your Lou'siana recipes have let me down;
your Lou'siana recipes have surely let me down.
Till the next time we say goodbye,
till the next time we say goodbye,
till the next time that we kiss goodnight,
Till the next time we say goodbye,
till the next time we say goodbye,
I'll be thinking of you,
I'll be thinking of you.
Till the next time that we say good bye
till the next time that we kiss goodnight
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i have been listening to this song all day, and it makes me feel so in it. *sigh* i feel so all alone. i miss my guys so much. i can't wait to feel whole again.
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joslyn_julia
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2005 30 March :: 8.32pm
so, tomorrow is my last spirit day in high school. we got caps and gowns today. it is ending so fast, and i am so giddy.
YAY ONLY 16 DAYS UNTIL I AM EIGHTTEEN!!!
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joslyn_julia
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2005 30 March :: 8.14pm
irony
the studious student. You are definitely pressured
and suffer from side effects from built up
stress. You are constantly occupying yourself
with books, studies, or some other hobby. You
feel squeezed in place and have litte movement.
Most of the time you are busy with work and
family, and would love to spread your wings and
relax. One like you needs to find a certain
time of the day to just sit and release the
tension. However, you are doing fairly well in
school, but that does not mean that you can
continue stressing yourself out. Take a
breather and head out with some friends.
You can consider going into a field like
librarian, polotician, journalist,
Archeologist, scientist, or lawyer. You have a
brain...NOW USE IT....but please...spare
yourself the pressure and create some down time
for yourself. Or develop a hobby that releases
tension, such as knitting (it worked wonders
for me)
What type of teenager are you?
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joslyn_julia
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2005 29 March :: 3.16pm
is it okay if i don't go to prom???
i think i will take my dress back on friday, i don't have a date and there is really no point in me going if i won't be happy. right?
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joslyn_julia
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2005 29 March :: 3.02pm
:: Mood: empty
if i could i would die today
life is not going anwhere near the right way
give me some vodka
i wish that someone was there for me.
liz is gone
kelly won't talk to me
wait kelly isn't even my friend, because he doesn't give a shit about anything.
crystal is always busy
and my parents want me to leave.
i just want to go crawl into a ball somewhere and cry. does that make me emo? i am so sick of being there for everyone else but never having someone elses sholder to cry on. fuck it. fuck all of it. 17 days, and i am done. i am moving out. i fucking hate this town
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joslyn_julia
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2005 27 March :: 8.35pm
whoever thought of friends with benefits, had too much time on their hands.
lol.
i might die from boccelism(sp??) i ate moldy bread by accident. oops
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joslyn_julia
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2005 27 March :: 7.43am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: Semisonic- Chemistry
HAPPY EASTER!!!
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joslyn_julia
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2005 26 March :: 10.25am
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Where are the clowns
this growing up thing came too fast. i am still 17 and i work all the flippin time. crystal is 21 and she is less grown up than i am, and everyone else works but they still have time to have fun.
why is it that i had to grow up by 16 and no one else did?
i wish i could go back and do it all over.
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2005 25 March :: 10.02pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Lennon-- where's my beautiful
i really like bailey's limited edition ice cream... it's nummy
my grandma is fine but almost had a heart attach
i want someone to hold me... anyone
well no, not kells. i don't think i am at all attracted to him anymore, at times i think i might be...but alas, i don't feel much of anything towards him. all he has going for him is a good taste in music and redish hair.
hmmm, yeah, and i leave soon. so soon, and i am so scared but so happy. i just want the love to fill the void in my heart. i thought i could fill it with clutter, but no. material possesions make me happy for a short time, and nothing more than a few days. i just hope that everything turns around in college. i mean, it has to sometime. right??? there is another love out there; there has to be, doesn't there???
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2005 25 March :: 6.46pm
well, i got up when i was called into work, so i worked and then worked an extra 2 hours.
when i got out i was called and told that my grandma is in the hospital, so much for the stay home for easter idea...
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2005 24 March :: 10.59pm
:: Mood: mischievous
:: Music: Bob Segar-- (Give me the) Beat Boys
lets get naked
so, i looked through kid pics today, still getting ready for that openhouse and....
i wish i was still that skinny and cute
and...
i have always been an exhibitionist... go figure
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joslyn_julia
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2005 24 March :: 5.41pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Coldplay-- Clocks
Flippin' A
so i like how people tell you one thing and then post something totally contradictory online, where you are likely to see it.
FUCKERS!!!!
on another note, i am really tired and i don't know why.
and none of my friends seem to care about me and what i want anymore, and i sorta feel like i am not going to have anyone this summer before i leave, which hurts... but i suppose i will live in the end so it doesn't really matter
and apparently i am high maitenence (i totally spelled that wrong)
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