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love4skate

:: 2005 30 November :: 12.10pm
:: Mood: irritated
:: Music: typing.

we real niggas; ya'll hoes.
so carissa is meeting stephen with me after 5th period now. did anyone care to know how i felt about this? apparently not. i mean; its not like i can be all "i dont want you to walk with us." i work with her now and i dont wanna start drama. these past few days have been hell. alison got her friends to call me 4953475 times. so i called her and bitched her out. she bitched me out as well. i wont make myself look big and bad or anything. all she kept saying was fuck and i was like dude chill out. and whatnot. it was kinda funny actually. then on top of that my brother found my pack of cigarettes when i went to tim browns house. i guess they just happened to "fall" out of my purse. but whatever. i took them back. i found them in my moms purse. and she came in and shes like "give 'em to me". and i played it dumb; ofcorse. and i was like "im gunna give them to my friend so she can have them". OHHHH. tim brown burned me a cd with a bunch of cool bands. i only know a few though.
panic! at the disco. (my favorite band of all time.)
blood brothers.
and i dont know the others. i'll find out who they are. theyre really good though. :) thanks to tim. im going to his house after school; my mom doesnt know yet; but i dont care. we're going to tell the bus driver that im his cousin or something. lol. i dont really have anything else to say. and i dont feel like typing anymore.
i love my jordan michael chandler.

emilychandler.♥

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 29 November :: 8.44pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: box car racer - i feel so

11.29.05
A kiss without commitment's
Like a flower without the rain
It only leads to pain
And it fills my heart with emptiness
Your touch without commitment's
Like a calm before the storm
The tears are starting to form in my eyes

When I kissed you I was curious
The child that I was
I never realized I would love you so
And in the magic of the moment
I was swept to the side
And I saw your heart
So small and tender..




today was gay. i hated today :) i went to the doctors cause my sister is sick and i had one too for reasons because people are assholes.. but ya anyways.. i was supposed to have an appt. for my permit also for driving but noooo not today its bullshit.. its like i will be 493094 years old before i can fucking drive i mean my liscense are already suspended for like 5months when i get them cause i was a moron last year and didnt like to come to school and always skipped. blah!!!!!

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love4skate

:: 2005 29 November :: 12.12pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: kids.

stupid bitches talk shit.
well; today. didnt see stephen. well i did in the morning. and after 5th period. but i only saw him for a few seconds because i had to ask heather for a ride home because i dont wanna ride home with michelle. (i dont know if alison is riding home with her). so yeah. im kinda sad about that. i turned to go to heather and stephen screamed BYE EMILY. and i turned around with a depressed face; and was like bye. :\ but he had carissa to walk with him SO EVERYTHINGS OK. but the hallways were so busy; considering we were leaving the portables and it was raining. so everyone was running for some sort of shelter from the rain. and some of the weird kids were dancing around in it.. thats lame if you ask me. but thats besides the point. i was walking with tim brown today and i screamed out I FUCKING HATE ALISON. for no reason; well the only reason would be because i hate her. but i didnt know she was walking down that hallway. ive never seen her there before. but what was even funnier is that at that moment tim asked me if alison was near by and i looked and she was walking by it was so funny. i cant stress enough how much i hate her. i know we've gotten in our little pity fights.. but she went too far this time. and im always the one to give in. well its different now. i dont think she'll ask me to be friends with her. she can go get a boyfriend on her own this time. i wont be there to help her get some pity dick; fucking slut. i cant stop thinking about everything shes done.. and how bad she makes me look. standing next to her; guys wanna get in her pants. with me guys wanna get to know me better. but thats totally besides the point. from what i've heard from the guys shes done stuff with.. "she sucks; man. i didnt even cum". exact words from a few guys. its so funny. i hope she reads this and thinks about how much i know and how horrible and fucking stupid she was towards me. this is the most dumbest entry i've ever posted before. i sound stupid. i dont sound inteligente at all. and another thing; i feel stupid for wasting my time and writing this about her.. shes not worth the time. but since i have nothing else to do i'll keep talking. lol. all she can do is talk shit. and behind my back might i add. she wont say it to my face. its so funny. and im thinking about being friends with me and alisons mask enemy. alicia. i realized alicia didnt do anything wrong for me to hate her. alicia wasnt the one that had sex with alison's (her best friend of 5 years) boyfriend.. i mean we dont COMPLETLY blame alison.. but freedom of speech. she couldve stopped it. but she didnt. shes..... well..... a slut. i said it to her when she walked by before lunch. she deserves every single thing im giving to her. shes so self centered and she thinks everything is about her; when it isnt. and i know im going to lose alot of friends because of this.. but honestly. I DONT CARE. i did nothing wrong. and for her to go and tell everyone that she broke up with her boyfriend (tim brown) because I (MEE!!!) was ALL over him.. BULLSHIT. tim brown is my best friend in the whole world.. why in the world would i be ALL over him? and you know what's funny... alison knew tim for one night and she was ALL over him at homecoming. (that first night). i dont take back anything i've said; and will say. i dont regret it. she deserves every single thing she's going to get. and another funny thing is.. she doesnt do anything BUT talk shit behind my back.


Alison: go ahead and cry your eyes out. go get sympathy from your pathetic in your life kinda friends. because; you know how to do that.. and personally i wont do it anymore. im not going to give you sympathy because your parents got in an accident. im not going to give you sympathy because you lost one of the best friends youve ever had. i wont give you anything but pity. pity for thinking your better than me. you may be older; skinnier and well i was going to say smarter but we all know im smarter.. so yeah. anyways; but i have such a better everything besides looks compared to you. im not a slut. the most ive done is make out. i would never do anything with my bestfriends boyfriend. EVER. and i would never tell your secrets to other people. i would never let someone take my phone and text you and call you a bitch. i would never say "no wonder people call you a bitch" just because you wanted to know if i was alright. i would never ditch you for another guy. never have and now... i never will.

you fucking bitch; i hope you get backstabbed like you backstabbed me.
FUCK YOU.

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 28 November :: 5.29pm

whoaaa
well nothing exciting ever happens. so i just post lyrics cause i like to sing. [lol]



Take this pink ribbon off my eyes
I'm exposed
And it's no big surprise
Don't you think I know
Exactly where I stand
This world is forcing me
To hold your hand
'Cause I'm just a girl, little 'ol me
Don't let me out of your sight
I'm just a girl, all pretty and petite
So don't let me have any rights

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love4skate

:: 2005 28 November :: 12.29pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: kids.

fuck bitches.
i dont know if alison knows yet or not.. but we're NOT friends. ANYMORE. fuck her. she lies; makes herself look good; and wanting too much attention for my liking. SO FUCK HER. cassi might as well die now; i'm gunna fucking beat that bitch down.

WATCH IT.
kbye.

i love tim brown.

Read more..

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love4skate

:: 2005 28 November :: 9.31am
:: Mood: artistic

I LOVE SHELBER AND TIM BROWN.

TREMENDOUS TRIO; BITCHES.
you jealous.

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theedgeofyouratmosphere

:: 2005 28 November :: 2.09am
:: Music: Adam Sandler - i'll grow old with you

you be love & i'll be liar
That wonderful Someone
Who makes the stars all shine
Who fashioned the mountains
To reach to the sky
Who brings each tomorrow
Who hears every prayer
In sunshine or sorrow
If you call He'll be there
That wonderful Someone
Who makes the flowers grow
Who paints every sunset
With colors that glow
Look all around you
And these wonders you'll see
Designed by that Someone
For you and for me


*sigh*

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 27 November :: 5.07pm
:: Mood: bitchy

i don't even care anymore
It Doesn't Even Matter Anymore


i have no feeling.

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 27 November :: 2.37am
:: Music: bon jovi- have a nice day

crazy night, wooo
i was at my aunts house thursday until today and i came home..

and i just got home.. i was house cleaning my room rugs. earlier..[lol] and then ben calls and is like you wanna get jena and then me u and jordan hang out and i havent seen jordan in like 2 yrs so i was all excited [this kid was my bestfriend for like 5 yrs] but u see when we got together me, jena and ben went looking for something..and we didnt succeed so we called kelly and we all chilled so me jena ben kelly and audrey got together .. then just drove around and hang out.. hahaha. it was fucking sweet as hell. omg i feel so fucking stupid im tryin to type all okay like n shit. lol. now im home and its 2:45 am and i left here at like 7:30 pm, hahaha and im just chillin bout to hit the sack :):) but i had a fun time and turkey day break is going swell.

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denation

:: 2005 24 November :: 2.26pm

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression of me?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
32. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
33. Are you going to put this on your Woohu and see what I say about you?
34. Who do you think loves me?

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 23 November :: 2.53pm
:: Mood: livid

ugh confusion it doesn't matter
I HATE GIRLS WHO RUN THERE COCKSUCKERS!!


stupid people need to shut up and keep my name out of there mouths... i love people who try to be 'cool' and say false statements bout me and saying i supposivly said this and that bout someone.. FUCK THAT!.. you must be fucking dumb to even try and pull some Bullshit with me. hahaha. :)


pay backs a biiiiitch.




not caring?

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 22 November :: 4.38pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Green day - nice guys finish last

people are really fucked you know that?
welp today was an interesting day

not only is school gay off the rocks.. but we had a bomb threat again! yes SECOND DAY IN A ROW WE HAD ONE! you would think they principles and the administration and the teachers or whoever would think 'hey we should hold off school' or hey 'lets do more action in this instead of letting these kids freeze their asses off' yeah we stood outside for like a fucking hour just cause some loser doesn't have anything better to do than call and say "your all gonna die theres a bomb.." and blah blah blah.. its funny in a way but when u make me stand outside in the cold for a fucking hour of course i'll be ticked wouldn't you? its like puemonia (sp?) weather out there!!! ugh. soooo.. I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE FUNNY AND SAY " A BOMB? THERES A BOMB IN THE SCHOOL? HAH LET IT BURN bomb bomb bomb bomb" all loud 'n' shit and also i said hey is ur parents a terroist cause ur da bomb to some cute kid [lol] and i guess i was heard by a teacher so i got reported AND i told them i thought it was dumb for me gettin in trouble because its my opinon hahahaha. so my mom isn't lettin me do anything today because i made a big deal bout shit and got ISS and Detention [what else is new? lol] AND i was supposed to hang out with jena&ben so basically if i wouldnt have like smart mouthed and threw a fit cause of there stupid policys 'n' shit i could be ok and chillin with them.. so i feel real bad. but tomorrows another day!!!! and we get out at like 12:18pm; and i really do not wanna go tomorrow especially cause some retard might do the call phone again ugh. ill shove the phone riiight up there ass whenever i find out who it was.. makin me stand outside for a fuckin hr. is this coldness. piish think again biiitches! hahahaha :):)


UPDATE!!! i did hang out with jena and ben after all thank goodness. :) it was nice seeing them & hopefully we hang out tomooooorrroooowwww!!!! :):):):):) luv yins

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 21 November :: 6.05pm
:: Mood: sappy

i'm bleeding and i'm heartless; but i'm yours
I can't help that I like to be kissed
And I wouldn't mind if my name changed to Mrs.
This is one side, my conventional side
An attraction to tradition
My vintage disposition
My sincere architecture
And I want to cook him dinner
But I'm more indecisive than ever
And who believes in forever?



today wasn't so bad.. i wasn't so tired as i usually am when i'm at school.. i wouldn't say i payed attention but i was there [haha]. called ben when i got home and then i 3 wayed jena so we had our plans straight for tomorrow and wednesday after school.. there coming over tomorrow and wed. were going to the movies or something; whatever we do, we do. [lol]. but i know we will have fun! i got asked to the christmas dance today from some mexican guy.. of course i turned him down because for one i don't go to those kind of things, two its like $35 dollars and i'm broke as it is.. three i don't like him or wanna go with him and four i just dunno, ahaha. i really can't see myself do anything like that i'm used to being in a relationship for 2 years and not doing anything with anyone else [meaning going out and shit] but it's just so complicated i'm starting to realize i'm either destined to be alone. i honestly don't know my mind is so jumbled -so confused- i just don't know what i want anymore. this is just the time for me to have fun and be a teenager with my friends.


& mabey one day my prince will come around?

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denation

:: 2005 21 November :: 12.06am

im probably not gonna be doing woohu much anymore, cuz i just started a myspace and ill most likely be doing everything on there... same with my xanga too.

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denation

:: 2005 20 November :: 10.26pm

BK is really starting to get to me, and not in a good way. i mean, its not my coworkers cuz i love all of them. its really not the business aspect, cuz im getting more and more used to the whole managing thing and how to take care of the store. no, its more of the monotonous things i have to do every single day that's just making work so boring. every night i go in and its the same damn thing. take orders... deal with pissy customers... make sandwiches... clean steamer... clean dining room... close store... its just getting so dull that there's no fun in it anymore, no challenge. i think the only solution is to start looking for a new job. something to break up the repitition. i have a lot of thinking to do, and nothing is set in stone yet.

i went to see the wizard of oz at the highschool on saturday. i cheered on cherie, ben, shannon, and even saw a few people i remembered from when i was in school. it was cool.

Dec. 1st is gonna be awesome

lyrics:

I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted

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