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2005 6 May :: 8.16am
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: something corporate.
hey now the straw dogs out in the street, she said,hey now,theres chemicals in the clouds.theyre calling all the police.
well im going to be working on my journal . :) cuhz i have a hole 40 minutes to work on it . :) sweeet . i got my dress . its really hott . i love it . i'll post pictures on monday . i got a dress,black strapless bra, and a pair of heels for under $4o . im such a cool kid ... :) well im going to my best friend alicias party next saturday :) me&brittany are going together :) if shes allowed..
later
p.s. does anyone know how to put a picture for the background ?! i need help.. it would be greatly appreciated . :)
you dont do it on purpose
but you make me shake
now ill count the hours
till you wake
with your babies breath
breathe symphonies
come on sweet catastrophe
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2005 5 May :: 8.34am
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: taking back sunday.
i love alison with all my heart.
the pictures i promised. you may be suprised but hey.. we had fun.
me+alison=bestfriendsforever. i mean it.
best friend means ; best friends means ; i made lots of plans.. based on these mistakes .
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2005 4 May :: 8.15am
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: something corporate in my head.
niko--boh--biko . hey em .
well... went to work last night.. we had a few pickups and deliveries . we got severe thunderstorm warnings . i was kinda scared .. cuhz ben had to take me home and theres been alot of freaky accidents lately . : \ i got home in one piece . thank god . went in my room ; went online on my phone . talked to bryce . suprisingly i didnt listen to music .. weird eh` ? i know . my mom came in and took my phone.. cuhz it was past cerfew on my phone .. gay ? YES !! she got mad becuhz my dad,bro,sis,and mom went out to get a mothers day present for my mom.. and i couldnt go on saturday... my dad asked if i wanted to go shopping for my mom last saturday and i said i couldnt i had to go get alicias hair done for prom with her.. and hes like oh you dont care about your mom blah blah . so monday i called my grampa and i asked him if he could take me to get my mom an old metalica CD . and he said yeah.. and somehow my mom found out . and she called me bitching on how i couldve gone on saturday but i was too busy with my friends . WTF ?! if they wouldve told me a week in advance maybe i couldve gone . but i have no regrets on not going .. i had fun watching my best friend get her hair done for her first prom . and watch her be nervous . it was great . nothing like being there for your best friend before prom . both my best friends went to prom . alison went to ft.myers prom . and alicia went to ours (mariner) . oh well.. my dad wants me to go saturday afternoon to get a dress for me and my sis . "no black" he says. WTF ?! he thinks im some kind of goth .. im so not . i wanted a black dress .. but black is more elegant . i like it . but whatever . i'll get the dress i want . anyways , i have to get a dress becuhz we're going out to dinner at a "fancy" restaraunt for mothers day with my whole family.. and my dads gunna get me,my mom,bro, and himself a ticket to some monster truck thing , i thought it would be cool . theres going to be a bunch of rednecks there . i know a few . maybe they'll be there . idk . my dads like "im only buying 4 tickets" blah blah "you cant bring any friends" psh screw that . i wanna bring a friend lol . well.. this weekend everyones asking me to do something with them . jon,gabe,anysia,eryn,alison,my dad. what the heck ? hmm i have to make time for all them . cuhz i wanna hang out with all of them . maybe everyone could get together and hang out one night... hmm ... sounds good . me and my dad get to go get dresses . what fun . i cant wait . hes either going to make me get a sleezy dress or get one that has like short sleeves . hahaha . that'd be funny . but i have to look "nice" . blah . whatver . hmm... i dont think i have anything else to say... i need a boyfriend... someone that i can trust.. i want a long ass relationship . pictures will be posted tomorrow or friday . ok im done .
but i love the way youd roll excuses off the tip of your tongue as i slowly fall apart
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2005 3 May :: 8.51am
:: Mood: devious
:: Music: something corporate in my head.
poop.
guys guys !! i just finished a shit load of work we had to do in my computer class. i only have like 5 minutes to update.. I GOT A NEW SOMETHING CORPORATE CD !!! *leaving through the window* its fucking awesome. go buy it !!
later.
you dont do it on purpose but you make me shake now i count the hours til you wake with your babies breath breathe symphonies come on sweet catastrophe maybe this time i can follow through i can feel complete stop paying dues stop the rain from falling keep my oceans calm this time I know nothings wrong
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2005 2 May :: 8.14am
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: if you see jordan.
i dont care if you die your hair youll always be a little red head bitch .
yo guys . my weekend was pretty sweet . fridya night got outta work at like 8. :) alicia called me at 10:30 and said she could come pick me up to sleep over her house so i could go with her to get her hair done for prom the next morning . she came and picked me up . went to her house . she put her dress on . she look so awesome/gorgeous/hot/super . god .. she looked sweet . she showed me her shoes . there awesome . talked to billy while he was drunk . wow that kid makes no sense . went to sleep . woke up at like 9 . left at 9:30 . stopped at the bank and flower shop to get the boot something for wes (her prom date) . then we went to the hair place . alicia was getting her hair done so me , her sister titi (thersea) , and her sisters friend lisa went to publix and got a shit load of stuff . brought it back . ate . took pictures . then went back home . mom picked me up . went home and then alison came over . haha had the best time ive ever had . we took 4325907345 pictures . they're awesome . i'll put them on her tomorrow . then she had to leave sunday morning at like 7 cuhz she had to work . : \ went back to sleep . woke up at 12:30 . did my chores . went on the computer for 43957435 hours . talked to gabe :) bryce :) nate :) alison :) billy >:O . grah im so mad at him . UGH ! hmm.. well heres some pictures that i can show you from yesterday . they're me... sorry.
later
me,alicia,alex, and brittanys story we made.
A boy went pee. He missed the toilet though and got pee all over the person next to him. The they decided to climb a tree, the girl fell off and farted. It smelled. It smelled like a dumpster in the summer. Then they wanted to take a bubble bath with the cookie monster, and then they banged. They banged eachothers brains out until the mans penis came off. And the cookie monster thought the penis was a cookie and ate it. He said it was yummy, then they wanted to take pictures. Kyle--Boh--Byle, came and they went to the park to chase the ducks. Their hair was green and they sang "i like green eggs and ham". The penguins made love like it was the first time. But it wasnt the first time, just the first time in a pool. Potatoes are cool cause penguins eat them.
the bell rang and we didnt finish it sadly... : \ but what we have is AWESOME !! hope you guys like it . :)
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sorry , these are big and my hair looks like shit . :)
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2005 28 April :: 8.42am
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: taking back sunday.
yo . so i have a new liking . his el nameo is robin . im not quite sure if i like him yet .. but im pretty sure i do . well i finally got my period lol . i was a month and a half late . i know you guys wanted to know that lol . hmmm .. went to work on tuesday even though i didnt go to school . didnt bring enough tampons then i had the driver ... my friend dan go get me some . i was like "look for the purple box" he came back .. he brought the purple box .. but with the PURPLE tampons . those things are huge as a mo fo ' . ben took me home . listened to smile empty soul on the way home . :) it was raining.. i was sick . and depressed . ben made me feel better . he always makes me laugh . :) got home . went to sleep . woke up at 7:30 a.m. and my mom was about to take my bro to school . and im like "where are you going?" and shes like "taking your brother to school; i tried waking you up for school but you didnt budge and you were coughing all night . and you were up for a few hours in the middle of the night so i let you sleep." and im like "mmk" . and shes like i dont think you should go to school . she left . i got ready for school . so i could go see alicia and alison . got to school . alison IM's me on my phone ... saying that she stayed home with a cold . then i remembered she asked me for gum and i gave her half that was in my mouth . thats how she got sick . we were'nt thinking . :\ so i got my best friend sick . i felt like poop . she didnt come to school today either . talked to billy last night . talking about alison,alicia,me,and him . hes taking the 3 of us to get birth control when he comes down when hes done with college for this year . which is next week . i cant wait ! im getting my tounge pierced pretty soon . no im not allowed ... my friend is going to do it . but i know im going to get caught becuhz i yell alot and my mom will notice .. i dont know what she would do . when she saw that i pierced my belly button .. shes like "whats that?" and im like "are you serious, you know what it is." shes like take it out . so i did . blah blah . so yeah ... alisons coming with me cuhz im kinda scared .. :\ lol . saturday hopefully me and britt are gunna hang out . :) we'll go to her house .. invite a few people over then get drunk .. cuhz her moms going somewhere and wont be home until sunday night ... and her dads in michigan . it'll be pretty awesome if everything works out :) cant wait . im anticipating so many things . billy coming.hanging out with britt.alison coming back to school.getting my tounge pierced.getting a car.getting my permit.vans warped tour.summer.everything. im doing pretty well . well im gunna go so britt can read all this and she can comment . :)
later kids ♥
youve got this silly way of keeping me on the edge of my seat
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2005 25 April :: 8.30am
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: ruthless.
but if i built you a city... would you let me? would you tear it down ?
you're waving goodbye, well atleast youre having fun
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2005 22 April :: 8.37am
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: taking back sunday.
i get to leave work at 7 today :) im oh so happy :))) . i hooked up my best friend with a guy i like . but it dosent matter cuhz he dosent like me and she deserves a guy like him . :) im so fucking happy for her . :) i love her to death and i would much rather see her happy than myself . i want to go see bryce this summer . we'd have the best time . or he could come down here . i dont care . i wish guys like him lived down here . all guys want here is sex . not counting aj (anysias *my bestfriend* el boyfriendo. :) ) anyways ; im going to work till 7 :) then gunna see my el best friendo :) cant wait . well... later
YOU WHITE
im out and on the parkway , patient and waiting for headlights , dressed in a fashion thats fitting to the inconsistencys of my moods.
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2005 21 April :: 8.45am
I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit
outside heaven's door, & listen to you breathing
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2005 21 April :: 8.13am
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: something corporate.
last night i was going to go to this wrestling thing with brittany . but i called her and she didnt answer but her phones being retarded so it wasnt her fault . anyways; i called leighanne so she came over and we were about to leave and we're like we dont wanna go cuhz we need to catch up . we havent seen/talked to eachother since my birthday *feb. 15* she used to be my very best friend . and ever since high school ; we totally lost touch . so we caught up . and we talked about alot of stuff . but before she came over my mom called crying . our convo .
me-hello? whats wrong ?
mom-do you remember alissa ?
me- yes how could i forget her?
mom- well she broke up with chewy *a really good friend of mine* so she could move somewhere else to start a new life.
me- Ok ?
mom- well a few nights ago she was murdered .
me- what ?!
mom- her and her friend were walking at 1:00 a.m. when 2 guys came up to alissa and tried to take her purse . *she was holding her and her friends purse* she resisted and the guy shot her in the head . she was on life support for a short time . and her family pulled the plug . and she died the same day .
me- ok bye .
mom - bye
i didnt cry for some reason . my eyes just got watery . it was weird . but yeah . nothing else to say for now .
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2005 20 April :: 9.00am
Fire's a beautiful sound,
The wings that you burn, turn to ashes my dear
& ashes's just fall to the ground
we're only ashes.
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2005 20 April :: 8.31am
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: something corporate. in my head.
im so tired of days that feel like they're night.
okay.. 2 days ago i got on the bus to go home and i went to my seat and i saw legs under the seat so i pulled on them and there was a doll .. then i found another one :) they were pretty damn ugly though lol . so i took one and put the body out and closed the legs in the window and did the same for the other doll on the other window . we got half way down the road and "chico" *the bus driver* goes "ehh ehh boy you take that down ." stupid bish . so i opened the window and let it fall out while we were going 438573495735 miles per hour :) then my friend kyle did the same for the other doll . it was funny. yesterday .. came to school ; nothing happened that i can remember . hector came home with me cuhz he got locked out of andrews and no one was home . went to my house . played slinter cell . which is an awesome game . kinda confusing . but it was cool . rents got home listened to "blue collar rides again" . GIT -R- DONE ! . haha i love larry the cable guy . hes bad ass . :) got ready for work ; went to work ; it was super busy for some odd reason . so i had stuff to do allllll night . :( normally thats my lazy work day ... but no people wanted food . god damnit . lol . talked with ben until we got slammed . you can tell when he has a lot of food to cook when he cusses at himself . its soo funny . lol . hes a cool kid though so .. yeah . listened to some hawthorne heights;something corporate;and some gangster lil` jon cuhh . on the ride home from work with ben dover . haha . love it . some car broke down and we had to keep stopping and going ; so ben kept swurving around.. im like what are you doing and hes like having fun .. and im just like okaaayy ? lol . so we got outta there just made a U--turn . and took us 3456907567 extra minutes to get home . but i didnt care cuhz i hate being home;and i wanted to listen to loud music . and ben makes me laugh lol . :) got home . me and ben went inside ; i changed into my PJ's ; watched like 45 minutes of meet the fockers ben left . i went to sleep . had a hard time waking up this morning . remembered ITS 420 !! hahaha . alison didnt come to school cuhz she wanted to be like the rest of the "cool" kids . even though she dosent smoke lol . wootevaaa . i wasnt gunna go to school but i need to pull my grades up .. :( tonight is this wrestling thing with teachers . its gunna be awesome . me and brittany are probably going . FAT FAASSE !! yaya . haha . well 1st period- did my work . im done Activity period- went to brittanys portable with ashley . went over by adam and rubbed his back for a bit cuhz he didnt feel good . brittany came and sat by me for a while then i went and sat by her and ashley . cuhz ashley was looking lonely . :( sat there and talked for a bit . then the bell rang and now we're in 2nd period- updating and being quiet . whoa i know me being quiet ?! hey it happens . :) brittanys a cheater . hah j/k i love that girl soo much . anyways ... this is wicked long .
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2005 19 April :: 8.18am
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: hawthorne heights.
spare me just 3 last words..
nothings been really happening lately. didnt do ANYTHING over the weekend. friday got in this huge fight with my dad in the car on the way home from work at 11:30 at night ! walk in the house screming at him and go in my room. mom comes in and says "you have a friend on the couch" and i was like "nu uh" and i was like "who?" and shes like "its hector" my dad came in my room screaming at me while hector was out on the couch. and i forgot he was there and started screaming back at my dad. 2 more hours down the drain. still screaming with my dad. tears were streaming down my face. i couldnt hold them in any longer and just exploded and started screaming so fucking loud. all my opinions about him. everything i hate about him. how he drinks too much. and how he has an anger problem and how he judges my friends way too fast. and talks shit about them. and how he judges what i wear. and makes fun of me for it. god i was so fucking pissed. i was cussing;screaming; i was about to lose it. so i went in my room layed on my bed and just cried. then i called my mom in to come lay with me. and i hugged her and said i was sorry. and shes started crying saying she was sorry. blah blah. then all of a sudden i felt like i was gunna puke. so i told her then shes like you can come sleep with me. and as i was crying.. i kept saying "no no im fine im fine ; i swear" until finally i just gave up and slept with her. oh i forgot to tell you about what happened with hector. well ; i went out by the couch and he wasnt there. i heard the door shut so i opened the door to say i was sorry that he had to listen to that. but he got in the car and drove away before i could say anything. i felt like shit. then i went to sleep with my moma dukes. i woke up with swollen eyes and crust around them. yumm ; eh` ? hahah . anyways . im getting my permit prolly tomorrow or thursday. cant wait. me and the rents have been ok so far this week. i work ALL weekend. my dad said i can bring a friend.. duh im bringing anysia lol. this is long. so im going to go .
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2005 19 April :: 8.23am
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: hawthorne heights <3 .
summer isn't coming fast enough. i miss you more & more each day
i'll wait forever, beautiful. just wish that you weren't so far away.
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2005 18 April :: 8.52am
:: Mood: blah
sharpen your overacting skills
to cut through the tension
mark your words
with confidence:
selective attention
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