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denation

:: 2006 6 March :: 3.18pm

I called it. Everyone hates the new guy. Oh yeah, it's official. His nickname is Skittles now and he might be the biggest prick that ever existed. I figure, I'll work mornings on days he has off and nights when he's scheduled to work. And everything will stay civilized.

"I have a halo, it's just a little tarnished right now."


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I hope I know what I'm getting myself into, because I don't think I could take another fall.

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Series 1-8
[ series 1 ]
Name:Dennis
Birthday:8-7-85
Birthplace:Grand Rapids
Current Location:Cedar Springs
Eye Color:hazel
Hair Color:dark brown
Righty or Lefty:righty
Zodiac Sign:leo
Font:whatever
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[ series 2 - your favorite ]
Music:anything really
Cartoon:family guy
Color:red
Car:the hooptie! just kidding
Slushy Flavor:the strawberry banana at work is good
Magazine:meh
TV Show:House
Song at the Moment:i dunno
Language:english
Spice Girl:they all suck
Food & Beverage:quesadillas and diet coke
Subject in School:english
Weekend Activity:im usually working
Frozen Yogurt:yuck
Roller Coaster:not a huge fan..
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[ series 3 - what is ]
Your most overused phrase:"that's what she said"
First thing you thought when you woke up:wanting to
Last image/thought you go to sleep with:alarm clock
First feature you notice of opposite sex:two beautiful eyes
Best name for a Butler:Jeeves
Wussiest Sport:badminton
Your best feature:hair
Your greatest fear:death or heights
Your greatest accomplishment:either being the lead in the musical or graduating high school
Your most missed memory:high school
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[ series 4 - you prefer ]
Pepsi or Coke:coke... pepsi actually gives me headaches
McDonald's or Burger King:ugh.. gotta say bk...
Single or Group Dates:single
Adidas or Nike:adidas
Chicken nuggets or Chicken fingers:who cares
Dogs or Cats:dogs
Rugrats or Doug:doug haha
Single or Taken:i prefer taken, although i am single.. ugh
Monica or Brandy:brandy
Tupac or Jay-Z:jay-z
Shania Twain or LeAnn Rhymes:leann
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:hate em both
One pillow or Two:two
Chocolate or Vanilla:chocolate
Hot chocolate or Hot cocoa:hot chocolate
Cappucino or Coffee:cappucino
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[ series 5 - do you ]
Shower everyday:yes
Have a crush:yeah
Think you've been in love:no
Want to go to college:yes
Like high school:i did like it my last two years
Want to get married:eventually
Type correctly:most of the time
Believe in yourself:yes
Have any tattoos? Where:no
Have any piercings? Where:i used to have one years ago.. the hole never healed up either.. my ear
Get motion sickness:no
Think you're a health freak:ha no
Get along with your parents:my mom, not my dad
Like thunderstorms:yeah
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[ series 6 - the future ]
Age your plan to be married:no idea... anything before 30!
Number and names of children:i dunno, two would be cool... as for names, I have no clue
Where will you be at age 20:right here, typing this thing
Dream wedding:girly question
How do you want to die:morbid question
Dream job:teaching
Country you'd like to visit:Great Britian
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[ series 7 - opposite sex ]
Best eye color:blue
Best hair color:brunette
Short or long hair:long
Best height:shorter than me
Best weight:doesn't matter... not too skinny
Best clothes:preppy is nice
Best first date location:i dunno
Best first kiss location:doesn't matter
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[ series 8 - other ]
Last time you slept with a stuffed animal:when I was around 5
Rings before you answer the phone:3
What's on your mousepad:its one of those blue ones with the gel wristguard
How many houses you've lived in:three
How many schools you've gone to:2
Bedroom carpet color:ugh, its a nasty beige color, like we've got in our whole house.. i hate it
Shave your head for $5,000?:in a heartbeat
Stranded on a desert island. Take three things. No people:machete, a huge box of matches, and a tent
Best time of your life so far:senior year
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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2006 5 March :: 12.58pm
:: Mood: fucking kill me
:: Music: Citizen King - Better days

fucking shit man.. GOD!
it hurts to fall for another; i haven't hurt this bad in a long time..

i wish i could understand; i could give you what shes able to provide & more. I'm just as good.. i promise!!

UGH!!!! :(



--lastnite i went drinkin over gereds; just like every weekend.. it never changes...
--got alil fucked up.. and got emotional

yeah that was my nite.

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2006 4 March :: 7.32pm

ooOo yes!
lastnite..

was..

amazing..

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denation

:: 2006 3 March :: 6.24pm

His name is Mike Morris, and I believe he is pure evil.
An evil parasite has crawled its way into our store. I will do everything in my power to exterminate it. He is no good.

Is payday here yet? The $1.82 in my checking account is getting pretty lonely.

EDIT: He made you cry? It is now my PERSONAL business to get that asshole out of our store.

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denation

:: 2006 2 March :: 8.20pm

Thanks to my mom, I have minutes on my phone and gas in my car.

Geez, those moms come in handy.

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2006 2 March :: 7.31pm

uhh yep
My birthday was okay; and the past couple of days have been alright as well; just nothing to exciting, haha. yay!

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denation

:: 2006 1 March :: 10.38pm

I hate not having any money.

If you need to call me, call my home phone 696-0007. My other phone is out of minutes. Yes, I have a prepaid. If you wanna know why, look above.

Isn't :fuck: a great word?

Anne, you are loved. And wanted.

Allison, one of these days I WILL beat you at chess. Unfortunately by that time, we'll be too old to know what chess is.

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denation

:: 2006 28 February :: 4.21am

It's great to have friends that are there to pick you up when you fall.

I wouldn't trade them for anything.

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2006 28 February :: 1.25am
:: Mood: Tired

woowee..
been stressed out whats new.
lai came over we smoked.
stacey came and got me we went to walmart and then chill at her house, i dyed her hair & highlighted it.
went to the gas station; my ex smokey called me so we talked and hes getting out soon.. so more stress is on my way.. ya cool, hmm.
then we went to gereds just chilled for alittle.
now i'm home and basically its my birthday, sweet.
tomorrow i'm going out to eat; and getting cable(tv).. and yes i am EXCITED! hahahahaha annnd i will update later on--- nite all

fuck this bullshit

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2006 26 February :: 11.51pm
:: Mood: PISSED THE FUCK OFF
:: Music: mudvayne - determinded

FUCK IT ALL. seriously wtf
You know what hurts me so bad; i mean seriously something that just breaks me down and rip my insides out. Loseing someone that means the world to you, someone who has been there for you through thick and thin, someone who cared about you did everything with you, always was with you, Someone who you took in from being on thr street when they were kicked out and nowhere to go. Someone who you did everything for and was always there, Someone who took your virginity, Someone eho you loved like part of the family; my bestfriend. Yes; i was stupid 2 years ago when i dated Smokey aka (Danny) and i left everything behind and gave up on people and myself. i was down always and i never wanted to be without dan i was always around him and he "owned me" as he said. So i never went ANYWHERE. i accepted it cause i was in "love" (which was all bullshit). He cheated on me and did not treat me right at all and everyday my friend would call me and we would talk like old times and be goofy; and he would lecture me saying i need to leave his ass and what not because he's a loser. But when he called usually danny was around so i couldn't talk to him til i went home.. and all hell broke lose; always. Yeah i was dumb, and in love. But everyone has someone I mean Asshole or no asshole; they fall for them. I should have listened... I mean mabey things would be different mabey i wouldn't be so much more fucked up in the head from all the Bullshit & drama. And now its taking a turn on me.. for hurting Jordan (bestfriend) for those 2 years it's now coming back on me. Him and I stopped talking for a good 7 months; he just moved and i didn't have a number or anyway to get into contact with him.. then i seen him at my other good friends house (Ben) and we started talking saying how we missed talking and what not.. so i gave him my cell number.. but of course he wasn't allowed to talk to me because 1. i'm a girl 2. we fucked A LONG TIME AGO 3. we dated LONG TIME AGO 4. I used to be his bestfriend. and he chose her over me and all his other friends, even his best guy friend Ben whom is my other bestfriend. its just so fucked! i mean i cry always.. i was dumb and now hes being stupid. SHE DOESN'T LET HIM DO ANYTHING! i'm dead serious, shes a bitch who killed her own baby. fuck that. stupid whore. SHE TREATS JORDAN SO BAD it makes me sick and i want to hurt her severly but i can't cause i want him to be happy; even though he really isn't he just doesn't want to be alone BUT WHO DOES!? forreal.. theirs other fish in the sea, you may not think so but there is.. you just have to let love come to you, not you go out on a bounty hunt.. i learned from the hard way. i don't mean to blubber on and cry but this is what a journal is for BITCHING! haha. I'm just so hurt anymore.. and it isn't just that, that is getting to me.. Today is 1 year for my friend Cyrus's death; i miss him lots. (R.I.P)<3. and lastnite i was at my friend Gered's and all i could do was cry and fall down.. there was times where i was goofy as fuck... but shit just shit just hit me..UGH! and then i started thinking about my ex danny and it's like what the fuck, i wonder if i would be a better person today if i was never with him; honestly.. he ruined me. fuck him, fuck it! and now i'm thinking about dropping out of school or atleast signing myself out and going to a different school like alternative RINGGOLD IS JUST DRAMA and i can't take all the stress.. i've gotten into so many rediculous fights; over nothing.. just bitches who want to talk smack and not back it up.. but now i have a black girl and her 'crew' wanting to kick my ass. uhh bring it. honestly i don't care, either you win or lose all that matters is that you try your damnest! forreal. I never did anything to them or to anyone really and if i have i'm sorry i'm sorry for what i have done to everyone in the past and i'm sorry for what i may do in the future. <3. Noones perfect. "true dat" haha. and now since school and loseing friends, no job, no money, no love, no life... hah!, no nothing.. i'm lost. i began doing things like i used to which isn't smart.. ugh i hate this i hate myself i just wish everything wouldn't fucking get to me like it does. And not only is thats whats wrong with me, but also my uncle had a massive heart attack the other day, SORRY JENA. so i wasn't able to go anywhere. and the one i love most doesn't feel the same. =( isn't life grand. i mean fucking stupid shit, i would do anything to have things the way i wish they could be or atleast be similar. bah fuck it.


WOW i typed alot.. more than i think i have ever typed and i betcha noone will read what i wrote. hah oh well. i needed to vent. sorry people! =P just all this shit has been bothering me. and its dumb!

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denation

:: 2006 25 February :: 7.22pm

a verbal five fingered slap to the face
Ouch.

Why do I even bother?

It is true, the higher you are the harder you fall.

I hate myself for even thinking I could actually be happy.

My fault entirely.

Am I really that horrible?

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2006 25 February :: 2.29pm
:: Mood: geeked
:: Music: ICP - Clown walk

fucking A dude.

LASTNITE WAS THE CRAZIEST FUCKING NITE EVER.. OMFG WOW I AM LIKE GEEKED AS FUCKKK!

loved it. to bits. omg yes

HAHAHA..

- went to monroeville for the EXPO MART. which was cool as hell.
- went back to gereds and hung out with him, stacey, fat e (for alil), paul, and d-block. but it was great dude. especially later on that nite when it was just me gered and stacey, omfg. WOOOO, mwahaha





IM IN THE MOOD TO DANCE!!! <3

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2006 24 February :: 1.50pm
:: Mood: Sad
:: Music: T-Pain & Mike Jones - I'm in luv wit a stripper

whoop de loop!
loves supposed to hurt; atleast it does for me anyways.
nothing ever goes according to plan. But that is such as life i guess.
all i want and all i will ever need seems so far away; a mystery.
I just have to let it run its course obviously.. but nothing ever works out for me. & he doesn't even know my love really exists. Like a toy.

ugh.
i don't know anymore; seriously
i'm just a piece of shit.
But i know one thing..I got so much love for you in these arms. forever
My GoodLuck Charm<3

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2006 23 February :: 12.26am

all these bitches talk shit.
i love getting into fights with little bitches and black people.
fuckers. seriously i'll beat ass. i hate the bullshit.

so i left at 2 and alaina came and got me since i got into a stupid fight.. i almost killed someone, no doubt. so we went to bentworth HS and i saw all my lovely friends.. all i heard was holy shit ROACH U BACK? and its like NAH im visiting.. but i think im going back tomorrow hahahaha

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2006 21 February :: 9.52am

eeekkk
It's 9:52am and i just got home from school; i'm not feeling to good once again. ugh!. my mother got on this roll about me not likeing school and i make excuses cause i'm lazy and what not. i said no mother i don't feel well.. yes I HATE SCHOOL but today had nothing to do with me not being there.. but seriously wtf-ever. I'M ACTUALLY thinking about signing myself out on february 28th, or something close to it, and just move to Colorado and go to school there. I've been thinking about that alot; i'd be alot more happier. Cause i really don't want to stop with school all together (even though i've been thinkin that as well) I mean i'm almost a senior. EEEEKKK! so yeah i have alot of ideas running through my head.

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