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2009 16 August :: 11.07pm
To think that this meaningless thing was ever a rose,
Scentless, colourless, THIS!
Will it ever be thus (who knows?)
If we wait till the close?
Tho' we care not to wait for the end, there comes the end
Sooner, later, at last,
Which nothing can mar, nothing mend:
An end locked fast,
Bent we cannot re-bend.
-Christina Rossetti "Summer is Ended"
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2009 13 August :: 4.12am
Christina Rossetti=My dead poetess crush of the Victorian Era
4am= Oddly awake after five hours of sleep
Lou Dobbs= Dumb
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2009 3 August :: 8.51pm
:: Music: Death Cab for Cutie- Little Bribes
You said this city has a beating heart/ That pushes people down the blvd/ They're all hoping for a wish fulfilled/ In a desert for a dollar bill/ Those foolish dreams, you know they plague me still
The Eiffel Tower built to smaller scale
The freshest oxygen I'd ever inhale
I tapped a bottle against the safety rail killing time
And you were like a walking compliment
Tall in stature and exceptionally read
In dummy glasses and a cardigan
Oh, come on
And oh so empty were the faces of the dealers and the waitresses around
You said that all these things you've learned to ignore
The hidden cameras on the casino floor
And what gets paid for behind hotel doors
Oh, come on
Pretend every slot machine is a robot amputee waving hello
The people stare into their eyes
And they feed them little bribes and then they go
The never-ending twilight
In a basement where the sun has never spilt
You said that you were lonely
And then we kissed like lonely people do
You said this city has a beating heart
That pushes people down the boulevard
And they're all hoping for a wish fulfilled
In a desert for a dollar bill
Those foolish dreams, you know they plague me still
Oh, come on
And oh so empty were the faces of the dealers and the waitresses around
And oh so empty were the faces of the dealers and the waitresses around
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2009 1 August :: 10.03pm
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick
Time to go to bed because I have to work at six thirty in the morning. Bah. This will be the last time, though, because I changed my availability. I will have six roommates this year and it's not fair nor is it realistic that they will be quiet after ten pm on Friday and Saturday nights. Therefore, I said I can't work until nine in the morning after this weekend.
I work the next three days and then I'm off to home for five days for a bit of a vacation which includes a shopping excursion to Valueland with my mother and grandmother and a family reunion.
I tried on most of my clothes today to figure out which ones still fit and which ones don't. Because of my illness I went from a size 16/18 to a size 6/8 in the past year. Right now I'm hovering around a 10/12, which is perfectly fine for me. However, that means that I have a ton of clothes that don't fit-old and new. Luckily, I didn't buy too many small clothes when I was really sick, so I only have a few pairs of pants that are too small; most of my clothes are way too big. I'm donating them when I go to Valueland next week.
"Now and then she appointed trysts beneath certain shrubs about the grounds, where he would find her naked, or with her clothing half torn to ribbons upon her, in the wild throes of nymphomania, her body gleaming in the slow shifting from one to another of such formally erotic attitudes and gestures as a Beardsley of the time of Petronius might have drawn. She would be wild then, in the close, breathing halfdark without walls, with her wild hair, each strand of which would seem to come alive like octopus tentacles, and her wild hands and her breathing: 'Negro! Negro! Negro!' "
-Light in August, Faulkner
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2008 20 May :: 6.41am
So...five year anniversary with Meijer today. I can't believe I've wasted so many years in that place. At least I get good hours and although I'm not making that much I have an in with management and it's relatively easy work.
This morning around three a nine year old girl stole about three hundred dollars worth of stuff from the store. She had snuck out of the house and rode her bike to Meijer. On her way (back home?) she got pulled over by the cops. Her mom had to take her to the hospital because she had cut herself with the utility knife that she stole to open the merchandise packages. After that, the mom brought her back to the store (about seven am when i first opened the desk) and purchased the stuff that she opened and got blood on and returned the other stuff that was still in the packaging. The girl didn't even look upset.
Another day in the life..
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2009 10 July :: 10.38pm
"what were we just talking about?"
"......... holy shit. i dunno. we need TIVO for our conversations."
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2009 5 July :: 7.29pm
:: Music: The Limousines- Very Busy People
And when we're done sleeping/ we'll stay busy dreaming/ of the things we don't have yet...
we'll end up numb
from playing video games
and we'll get sick
of having sex
and we'll get fat
from eating candy
as we drink ourselves
to death,
we'll stay up late
making mix tapes
photoshopping pictures
of ourselves
while we masturbate
to these pixelated
videos of strangers
fucking themselves
we are very busy people
we are very busy people
there's crusty socks
and stacks of pizza boxes
making trails straight
to the bed
and when we're done
sleeping we'll stay busy
dreaming of the things
we don't have yet
well there's a long
long list of chores
and shit to do before
we play, oh let's just
piss away the day
crank call the cops
down at the station
just for friendly
conversation requesting
songs they never play
let's hear the one
that goes like
we are very busy people
but we've always got
time for new friends
so come on over and
knock on our door
it's open, what's ya
waiting for
we might be spawled
out on the floor
but we still make
lovely company
pull up a chair
i'll pour some tea
we'll shoot the shit
'bout everything
til you get sick
of politics and
flip on the tv screen
we stare at the tv screen
that donnie darko DVD
has been repeating for
a week and we know every
single word
i've got an ipod
like a pirate ship
i'll sail the seas
with fifty thousand
songs i've never heard
all the best of them
go fa la la la la la la la...
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2008 22 April :: 6.06am
An old angry man threw his Meijer Credit Card at me yesterday when I told him I couldn't check his balance for him and that he'd have to call the number on the back of the card. I promptly said, "Sir, I want you to know that was very rude and I do not appreciate it" like he was five years old. He apologized and said he didn't mean any "offense."
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2009 23 June :: 9.13pm
It's decidedly too warm outside-especially for our apartment which doesn't have air conditioning.
Just working all summer; trying to study my french and read a bit.
Rueben is standing in front of my fan and it makes me angry.
grr.
"Until the become conscious they will never rebel, and until after they they have rebelled they cannot become conscious."
-two points for whomever gets where this is from without searching for it.
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2008 12 April :: 8.23am
Idea for graduate admission paper: Analyze three or four contemporary American novels (1980 to present) cataloging the decline and/or transformation of religion in the American population. Contemporary cultural criticism; additional information found from research polls and other cultural articles related to thesis.
So exciting!
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2009 15 June :: 12.51pm
:: Music: Dashboard Confessional- The Swiss Army Romance
Making up a history, it's nothing from the life you lead/ But man, will they buy all your lines...
Sleep with all the lights on. You're not so happy. You're not secure.
You're dying to look cute in your blue jeans, but you're plastic just like everyone.
You're just like everyone.
And that face you paint is pressed impressing most of us as permanent and I'd like to see you undone.
College night will draw the crowds. Dorms unload and you're heading out.
Here is your moment to shine. Making up a history.
It has nothing from the life you lead.
But man, will they buy all your lines.
Sleep with all the sheets off your bearing your mattress, bearing your soul.
And you're dying to look smooth with your tattoos but you're searching just like everyone and could be anyone.
And those friends you have are the best impressing most of us as permanent and I'd like to see you undone.
Youth's the most unfaithful mistress.
Still we forge ahead to miss her.
Rushing our moment to shine.
Making up a history, it's nothing from the life you lead but man, will they buy all your lines.
We're not twenty-one, but the sooner we are, the sooner the fun will begin.
So get out your fake eyelashes, and fake I.D's, and real disasters ensue.
It's cool to take these chances. It's cool to fake romances and grow up fast.
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2009 3 June :: 7.27pm
Heartbeat with a high demand/ Often will go hand in hand/ But I'm sick of just starting plans/ I wanna spend the rest of my life...
again tomorrow.
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2009 24 May :: 9.11pm
:: Music: whatevers on tv
Well its been a long time I posted. I don't even know what all's going on anymore. I realize now that high school was definitly different than I thought. There was alot going on that I didn't know or realize. But again that was then. I'm still friends with certain people, others I could honestly care less. I'm married and working towards a divorce because he wasn't what I thought he was. He's not a bad person... just too much like my dad for me. I found a good guy who I'm living with. Far, far away from everything I've known. Its kinda nice although I tend to miss my other friends. Life is pretty much changed for me, everything is just different now. The only constant in my life has been some friends and my puppy. But that can only get you so far... *sighs* well... yeah. I'm still me, but I'm so different. And that doesn't make sense in my own head.... lol. well maybe someday it will....
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