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2009 4 April :: 9.46pm
:: Music: Lily Allen- The Fear
And I am a weapon of massive consumption/ And its not my fault it’s how I’m programmed to function/ I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror/ I’m on the right track yeah we're on to a winner..
maybe i have a higher purpose in life.
going to vegas on tuesday, and planning on getting crazy.
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2009 3 April :: 10.19pm
:: Music: Everclear- Amphetamine
She looks so bored sometimes/ She has that super pale skin and those soft green eyes/ She looks like she could have been happy in a better life...
She came out west to find the sun
She lost her name but found a new one
Amy goes to school all day
But at night in the neighborhood
They call her amphetamine
She is perfect in that fucked up way
That all the magazines seem to want to glorify these days
She looks like a teenage anthem
She looks like she used to be happy
With the girl inside
She looks so bored sometimes
She has that super pale skin and those soft green eyes
She looks like she could have been happy in a better life
She came out west just to break away clean
From her family and her friends
Just a little girls dream
All she wants to do every night
Is sit beside my window and listen to the sirens
She is perfect in that fucked up way
That all the magazines seem to want to glorify these days
She looks like a teenage anthem
And she looks like she should have been happy
In another life
In another life, ooh, in another life
Yeah, in another life
She came out west just to break the spell
After three long years in a marriage from hell
Six months clean, living sober and right
The doctors tell her everything will be alright
Yeah you just take your pill
And everything will be alright
Yeah you just take your pill
And everything will be alright
She looks like a teenage anthem
She looks like a magazine girl
She looks like a teenage anthem
Like she used to be happy in another world
She looks like a teenage anthem
She is happy with the girl inside
She looks like a teenage anthem
And looks like she could have been happy
In another life
In another life, happy in another life
Ooh, in another life, happy in another life
In another life, happy in another life
Met her at a party and I took her home
She is the saddest girl that I have ever known
She wakes me up in the middle of the night
Just to tell me everything will be alright
Amy smiles at me and tells me everything will be alright
Yeah, amy smiles at me and tells me everything will be alright
Yeah, I tell myself the same damn thing
Everyday
Everything will be alright
Ooh, everything will be alright
Everything will be alright.
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2009 1 April :: 10.02pm
:: Music: Everclear- I Will Buy You A New Life
They might think you're happy/ Yeah maybe for a minute or two/ They can't make you laugh/ No, they can't make you feel the way that I do...
maybe tomorrow brings good news for once?
not hopeful.
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2009 23 March :: 11.27am
:: Mood: anxious
C'est Lundi.
It's the middle-end half of the semester and I can't wait for summer to get here. I feel like this semester had way more work than any previous semester. I'm writing over 16 papers, having over 15 exams, and over 2000 pages of reading (one being an 800 page novel entitled "Middlemarch"). Add to that the fraternity and working twenty eight hours a week; it's been trying.
I have class in about a half an hour: political science. It's about foreign policy, which is alright, but not my favorite. I get to take the better classes next year.
I figured it out, I only have three more semesters left, so it'll be four and a half years in total. I think I'm going to do an internship, too, since I'll be finished in December and Grad school doesn't start until August. I was thinking about doing an internship in Lansing with a congressman and seeing where that takes me. Lansing is only a fifty mile drive from Mt. Pleasant, and a few day a week wouldn't be that bad. We'll see!
For now, things are going good. I'm able to eat again and that's making me gain weight back...not too much, though. I'm still much more little than I was. C'est la vie!
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2009 10 March :: 9.50pm
:: Music: The Killers- All These Things That I've Done
Another head aches, another heart breaks/ I am so much older than I can take/ And my affection, well it comes and goes/ I need direction to perfection, no no no no...
yeah, I'm getting there. I need some hope to hang my hat on.
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2009 6 March :: 9.47pm
:: Music: Soul Coughing- Circles
For the right price I can get everything/ Slip into the car, go driving to the farthest star...
a good day.
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2009 5 March :: 5.01pm
:: Music: Panic at the Disco- Nine in the Afternoon
Back to the street, down to our feet/ Losing the feeling of feeling unique/ Do you know what I mean?/ Back to the place, where we used to say/ Man, it feels good to feel this way
I'm starting to get frustrated with.... not really knowing where my life is going or where I will be a year from now.
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2009 25 February :: 9.30pm
:: Music: Beck- Girl
fists pounding on a vending machine/ toy diamond ring stuck on her finger/ with a noose she could hang from the sun/ and put it out with her dark sunglasses
(It starts tomorrow.)
Hmm... this week is dragging. Work is aggravating. I drink way too much wine.
I think I am ready for 2009 to be over...Get me out of here!
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2009 23 February :: 9.50pm
:: Music: MGMT- Kids
The memories fade/ Like looking through a fogged mirror/ Decisions to decisions are made and not bought/ But I thought this wouldn't hurt a lot/ I guess not
I'm not looking forward to the next step.
It sucks that this is the way we have to do it.
yeah...i'm bitter.
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2009 22 February :: 7.52pm
:: Music: Ben Kweller- Lizzy
Like momma said/ dont ya let it go to your head/ when your town is painted red/ I'm so proud to know you
Went to the Ben Kweller concert on Thursday with Eliz. It's weird to see that he's gotten old (and we've gotten old, too).
Good times. We ate a lot of food, gambled $3, gave fake names and numbers to some parking attendants, rode the (homeless) people mover, and mostly made (drunk off our asses) fools out of ourselves.
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2009 18 February :: 11.42am
So... I'm a lot less grumpy than I was this morning. I finally finished my paper on Structuralism, although it's not a full two pages. I think it'll be fine. Who cares how Torodov uses Saussures concepts in order to analyze narrative plot?!?! Gah.
So, I have to work tonight, still have a few more classes today. I have a french oral exam tomorrow, then I have Literary theory, band, meeting, then I get to sleep in on Friday morning. Woot!
I hope i get my grade back for my political science (foreign policy) exam. I'm not sure how I did.
I'm super busy and I've been grumpy to Rueben. Sorry, dear!
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2009 14 February :: 11.14pm
:: Music: Matt&Kim- Daylight
I have five clocks in my life/ And only one has the time right/ I'll just unplug it for today
trying to keep up with this a little better.
we went to Olga's in the mall for vday. totally an old married couple.
i think that i don't update anymore because i dont do anything interesting anymore.
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2009 13 February :: 9.11pm
:: Music: Keane- Spiralling
I fashioned you from jewels and stone/ I made you in the image of myself/ I gave you everything you wanted/ So you would never know anything else
pretty sad that I have less than page of journal entries in a year.
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2009 10 February :: 3.05pm
Rueben, I'm sitting up at a computer on the fourth floor of the library by the big windows because our phones don't work. Again.
Ahhh. I also forgot my literary theory book. See, I thought I was suppose to write a paper on this horrible forty page article about reader response theory and it turns out it's on the eleven page less scary one that I actually understood, except the only problem is that I didn't bring my book, so I can't do that paper. But, I did do my paper that is due on Friday for my Victorian Literature and Thought class, so I'm a little ahead, but still behind :(
It's super nice out today and I feel like I want to be outside but I'm stuck in here in the library because that's where Rueben knows I will be because our phones don't work because SOMEBODY didn't pay the bill. I guess we probably should have checked that out after what happened last time. Oh well. I think I'll go through and plan my future now. I'm not doing French anymore. Well, I am. I'm in French 102 this semester, but I'm NOT fulfilling my BA requirement and taking a whole nother year of it and killing myself. No siree. So, that means that I'm switching to a Bachelor of Science which won't be quite so bad and I really only have english class, political science classes and three science classes to take for it. Yippee.
AHH. I'm sick, too. bah. I'm feeling better since I wrote my paper and I know that it's fanfuckingtastic. I feel a little crazy right now. AHH. Woohudotcom. bah. Fifty more minutes until Rueben is done with his lab. Then I can go to the store, get my pills, buy some cookies, go home, write my other paper, maybe, go to uband, go to the concert, go home, go to bed, go to class, go to work, go home, go to bed......
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