Fantastically enough my computer is temporarily out of service. I need a new one soo effing bad, but I don't have the money to get one atm and my parents refuse to think that we need a new one because, "solitaire still works fine" and I'll be damned if you need a computer for anything other than fucking solitaire, right?
Dumbasses.
-Edit-
Yeah... so that took my computer guy all of 3 hours to fix and I've got my computer back. I had the Trojan virus and ... just fucking whatever. I'm so sick of this. Second time I've had to take it in, and it cost me $40. Last time I had to pay like $120 for all the shit John (comp guy obv) did, which included installing all this new junk on here and deleting shit.
I love my computer, I do, but I hate it more I think.
Okay, so I was driving down the road the other day when we actually had sunlight. And I saw my sunglasses laying there and thought I should wear them. So I put them on and I think, "Wow, these are fitting kind of wierd, I think someone sat on/kicked/stepped on, or otherwise maimed them in some fashion." (Yes I really think like that) and I just keep going for a while longer, then I notice they have a couple scratches on the lenses that make it annoying to look out of. So then I think, "Shit, these are like almost brand new, now I'm angry." And so I start looking at the scratches, and then I start looking at the rest of the sunglasses more critically, and I stop, and a realization hits me. "Hey, these aren't mine."
And so...the moral of the story is...I have someone's sunglasses in my car. So....If you are missing some sunglasses then let me know =]
And If you haven't been in my car in the past month or so... I know they're not yours. =]
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2007 27 November :: 1.59pm
:: Music: Life is beautiful
Deprivation
I think I've broken my body. It took me only 21 years, but I think I've finally got it on the ropes, and I have proof.
I can't sleep. At all.
I just wind up staring at the ceiling, and getting that half ass sleep that isn't really refreshing so much as it is irritating. Oh, and your mind goes to bad places when you can't sleep, bugging you about things you shouldn't think about.
The semester here is nearly over, and its about damn time. I'm already at that point where I want it to be over, but hey guess what? I'm a fucking freshman, so I'm nowhere near done. I'm actually getting started! wheeeee. Next semester will be where its at, as I've never completed a spring semester in the past 2 years without giving up, quitting, skipping, etc. etc. I'm curious to see if I have that fuckit mentality again. I hope not, but I won't be surprised if it surfaces.
I made my [Brass Hammer] last night, and despite some slight tolerance issues, I got 100% on it. If you guys saw my handiwork in high school and middle school shop, maybe you just shat yourself. Hell, if you've ever seen me try to do anything more complicated then change a light bulb, you should be shitting yourself. But I ran that lathe machine like a PRO. PRO I say. Even though I had no idea what I was doing yesterday due to sleep exhaustion and general lack of knowledge about drill presses and advanced lathe functions. But hey, its done, and I'll probably get an A or a B+ in that class, so rock on.
Other than that, I got nothing. I'm not sleeping, its freezing, I'm hungry...but I'm still somewhat happy. I blame Trans-Siberian Orchestra, as that will be epic on saturday night, and I can hardly wait.
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2007 26 November :: 10.01pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: All The Same - Sick Puppies
I want to be back there so badly. I don't see how I'm going to be able to wait until around January to be with him permanently. It seems things will suck around here for awhile.
It was a great trip though, minus the flight screw-ups/delays. Shadow even let me pet him this time around which made me happy.
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2007 17 November :: 12.48am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Beyond The Sun - Shinedown
3 days. Holy smokes.
There was a party tonight and Tessi and I got into this huge fight with this guy, Jeremy. It was AMAZING. She freaking punched him in the face. Greatest thing ever.
I have massive amounts of homework, still. We're having a "girls night" tomorrow and it's been planned forever so I can't get out of it but dear lord. Homework gallore.
I did find a coat today. Everyone was like "omg it's so cute" but ... I don't know if I like it all that well, but seriously, it was the only coat I found that I didn't hate. Hopefully it'll grow on me a little more.
Didn't get to talk to Kelly all that much today and I miss him :(
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2007 16 November :: 3.03am
:: Mood: content
:: Music: Cancer - My Chemical Romance
!!!
So Jacob told me he was still in Columbia at Mizzou and then I get home tonight and a few minutes later he come's strolling into my room. It was amazing. He just left because his dad had to have the truck tomorrow to go to work. If that hadn't been the case he probably would have just crashed here.
Anyway, tomorrow Ashley and I are having lunch together and then getting our nails done, and then attempting for the second time to find a coat.... and now Jacob's coming with us. I'm super excited. Ashley doesn't know yet, but she should be fine with it... I hope.
Seriously though, this is cracking up to be like the best month of the year. I get to see my boyfriend in a couple days, I just saw my best friend, I'm going to get pumpkin pie --totally my favorite thing EVER-- and just ... yeah. Fantastic.
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2007 14 November :: 4.45pm
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: Livin' Our Love Song - Jason Michael Carroll
School is teh suckzorz
I've got so much damn homework. Kelly's probably going to kill me while I'm up there because my nose will be buried in books.
HOPEFULLY I can get it done this weekend, but Jacob, Tylor, and Jessica are coming in and I haven't seen them in forever and Saturday night we're supposed to have a little "girl's night" over at Tessi's and just UGH.
Seriously though, I'll probably have to skip church Sunday just to get some of this shit done. It's fucking crazy.
-8 page research paper with bibliography, notecards, and works cited page for English
-6-8 minute speech to write and memorize for Speech
-a bagillion work sheets and a one page essay over Madison's Model and how we use it today for Political Science
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2007 12 November :: 11.44pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: Old school Kirby stuffs
Petty annoyances
So, lately I've been depressed, and have been unable to locate the source of this depression. I've discovered the truth behind it, and while I don't like the answer, I've accepted it.
I truly live for the weekend. I hate the weekdays, and most people I meet. While a few weeks ago I learned that drowning my sorrows in booze is nowhere near the answer that I seek, surrounding myself with friends and family is.
Had a great time with phil and nate on friday, though I got the impression that nate's woman wanted to rip my head off. That won't be the last chick I drive to a murderous state of mind.
Saturday and sunday were spent hanging out with david. I'm amazed at the nothing we can do, and yet I enjoy myself so much. One of these times we will actually do something, god willing, that doesn't involve booze or sitting around all night.
The other problem is that if I'm not with someone on the weekend, I get lonely, and that has become devestating for me. The whole over-analyzing thing bites me in the ass, and I contemplate many things that I shouldn't, such as things involving heather, my friends, my 'distant' family, myself, hell, even Katie Albrecht. I mean, srsly, what the fuck is wrong with me?
A stupid girl today reminded me that most people are worth dick. She was talking on her phone, and followed me nearly all the way to class. With speakerphone on. For about 5 minutes, I got to listen to two typical valley girls chat it up. Yeah, no problems there.
After Lara (the girl using her speakerphone) told Sandy that she couldn't figure out why Jamal left him, I spun around and replied, "Maybe because you are whiny, or self centered, or stupid. Maybe we can just combine all three and say he left you because you are a whiny, self centered, stupid bitch." She then looked at me and said, "Don't butt into my conversations!" We argued, but I eventually copied a move from david's book and used the over exaggerated head nodding with a goofy smile technique. It was super effective.
For some reason, I haven't given a damn what anyone thinks about me since then. All it took was a huge moron to remind me why people aren't shit, or at least most of them out there. Now to finish that homework that I've been avoiding for about three hours...though this kirby game won't play itself...dammit.
-Thursday- My teacher loved my powerpoint and is going to make me show the people who weren't there next week. She also said I was pretty.... which made me feel kind of awkward.
-Today- Shopping went wonderfully. Like everything in every store was on sale. I got two pair of jeans and a pair of khakies, three pair of sleep pants, two sweaters and a long sleeved shirt, five pair of underwear and two bras at Victoria's Secret, which I had to get resized and that's always just awkward imo.
"Hey... you see that tape measure around your neck? Yeah.... I'm going to raise my arms up and let you wrap it around my boobies k? Awesomesauce. Oh I'm a ___? Sweet thx. Bai2u."
Ugh.
Anway, everything that I stressed about all week went perfectly fine. Blah.
I haven't talked to Kell in like 1 1/2 days and now apparently I have to go all weekend without talking to him and who knows how much longer.
i r sad.
Yep I still check this from time to time
Wow it's been a long time since I posted. Let's see....what's up with my life...
Caleb turned a year old on Oct. 26! Yay. He had his doctor appt on Tuesday. Stats when he was born: 6 lb 10 oz, 19 in long.
Stats when he was a year old: 22 lb, 32 in long
He is soooooo tall! Seriously, he's in the 97% ! He's 97% taller than all other 1 year olds! The doctor said with his height he's the size of a normal 17-month old. But his weight is just normal.
Carazy. This year has gone so fast. I am in my 3rd year at GRCC still no sign of graduating anytime soon. ha. Still cookin up good things all the time. Not working right now, just a stay at home mommy. Charlie and I are doing great. We're living in Wyoming right now, but we might be moving to Traverse City in the next couple years. It's sad I don't really have much to write about after all this time. Except Caleb, he's wonderful.
He's brought so much to my life, I love him so much.
Anywho I need my beauty sleep, HA! Nah, I have a date in the morning with a little boy to watch Clifford cartoons!
Alright, so, this week has been kind of awful.
My class was canceled Monday, but we weren't told so until we actually got to school, so waste of gas there.
Tonight I had a test in Political Science; I think I did alright, but I don't know for sure, and it was a very large stress enducer for me, and even though it's over with, I'm still stressed about it. Then, once the test was over, we started going over our new stuff, and I told him that I wasn't going to be there on the 20th and he was like "... yeah, ok" and then this guy Jake told him he wasn't going to be there on the 13th and he just like snapped and started bitching and being really rude. So, that was awesome.
Tomorrow I have a speech to give, and I only just got done writing it, but it only has to be like 2-4 minutes and I can bs my way through it if I forget anything.
Thursday I have a powerpoint presentation to give which is worth 200 points. I hate powerpoints. They're effing retarded and just annoy me. On this one I have to insert a sound clip and it's not freaking working so I don't even know what to do. Once I get out of class tomorrow I guess I'll just work on it for a million hours until dumbass Erma (the bitch-face I hate that works at the school) kicks me out. Oh how I loath her.
Anyway, on top of all the stress I have from school, I'm REALLY sick and have these gigantic pills to take, and though I'm not sure what ass tastes like, I'm sure they're fairly close.
The only good thing about this week is that I should be going shopping with Ashley on Friday. She called and asked if I wanted to, and it actually works out because I need to go. I don't have a winter coat yet because... well I live in Missouri and quite frankly it doesn't get all that cold until later into winter, but since I'm goin to Michigan and I'm a huge baby, I need one now. I also need some more jeans and tops. And bras.
I'm thinking I'll ask my parents to just give me money for clothes now instead of waiting for Christmas. Dad'll be cool with it, Mom... I'm not so sure about. Fingers crossed though.
Despite my ranting, I'm actually in a good mood. I get to see Kelly, so I can't even stay in a bad mood if I wanted too, I'm too excited.