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VampiressHollyMarie

:: 2003 26 October :: 12.12pm

People have you loved?:None
People have you kissed?:one
Commandments have you broken?:Most
Places have you lived in (for over 3 months)?:5
Countries have you been to?:Other then theone I live in.... none
Languages can you speak fluently?:English
People are you talking to right now?:Amanda
Times have you been in a car today?:None
Different kinds of meat have you eaten?:.. the usual
Different kinds of liquor have you tasted?:Never have...
Jobs you have held?:... does babysitter count?
Years of school have you attended?:10
Shows have you been to this month?:one
Friends would you call "close"?:Amanda, Kelly, Brandi, Melissa..... four....

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Movie?:Where The Heart Is
Computer?:Dell?
Band?:Evanescence and Dio
Song?:Taking Over Me
Person?:Brandi Kelly and Amanda
Solo Artist?:Jewel
Sex Position?:far far away from the opposite sex
Food?:Chicken Alfredo
Pepsi?:Vanilla
Animal?:Cats and dogs and horses
Type of Clothing?:anything unrevealing
CD?:Fallen
Subject in School?:English and Art
TV Show?:Charmed and Buffy

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Which person comes to mind
best-friend:Brandi Kelly Melissa and Amanda
enemy:Rebecca
love interest:I not tellin
person you talk to when you're down:Amanda and Brandi
person you try to avoid:Bill
person you haven't spoken to in a long time:Kelly
person that makes you made:Bill
someone you think is stupid:Bill
a celebrity you wish u could meet:Sarah Michelle Gellar and Holly Marie Combs
person that cheers u up:Brandi
person who hates u:Bill
teacher that pisses u off:Mrs. Cruz
person that pisses u off the most:Bill
person u wish u could spend more time with:Kelly

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I've got to breathe


VampiressHollyMarie

:: 2003 25 October :: 6.53pm
:: Mood: cold

[ series 1 ]
Name:Becca
Birthday:09/06/89
Birthplace:Michigan
Current Location:nu
Eye Color:brown and green
Hair Color:blonde
Righty or Lefty:righty
Zodiac Sign:virgo
Font:arial
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[ series 2 - your favorite ]
Music:rock and punk
Cartoon:invader zim
Color:midnight blue
Car:99' firebird
Slushy Flavor:lime
Magazine:seventeen
TV Show:buffy and charmed
Song at the Moment:taking over me
Language:English
Spice Girl:Ginger
Food & Beverage:Chicken alfredo and root beer
Subject in School:english and art
Weekend Activity:sleeping
Frozen Yogurt:no thanks
Roller Coaster:the gemini
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[ series 3 - what is ]
Your most overused phrase:Fucking lesbien whore skank
First thing you thought when you woke up:God damn it
Last image/thought you go to sleep with:Logan in the rain, long story
First feature you notice of opposite sex:eyes
Best name for a Butler:Stain
Wussiest Sport:wrestling
Your best feature:eyes and hair
Your greatest fear:people, commitment, and love
Your greatest accomplishment:living this long
Your most missed memory:Knowing nothing and beleiving in everything
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[ series 4 - you prefer ]
Pepsi or Coke:Coke
McDonald's or Burger King:neither
Single or Group Dates:Group
Adidas or Nike:neither
Chicken nuggets or Chicken fingers:chickens dont have fingers
Dogs or Cats:both
Rugrats or Doug:BOTH
Single or Taken:single
Monica or Brandy:ewwww neither
Tupac or Jay-Z:Who?
Shania Twain or LeAnn Rhymes:neither
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:Nestea
One pillow or Two:forty
Chocolate or Vanilla:vanilla
Hot chocolate or Hot cocoa:whats the difference?
Cappucino or Coffee:Cappucino
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[ series 5 - do you ]
Shower everyday:Yes, sometimes twice
Have a crush:Yes..... sadly
Think you've been in love:no
Want to go to college:yes
Like high school:yes
Want to get married:maybe
Type correctly:yes
Believe in yourself:kinda
Have any tattoos? Where:I wish
Have any piercings? Where:My ears, four times
Get motion sickness:Oh yeah
Think you're a health freak:Not really, although no drinking and/or drugs and/or smoking around me
Get along with your parents:my mum somedays and my dad... dont ask
Like thunderstorms:I love it hen it rains, but thunder kinda scares me
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[ series 6 - the future ]
Age your plan to be married:25
Number and names of children:2, Holly-Marie and Lilly-Ann
Where will you be at age 20:I dunno, thats the best part
Dream wedding:In the rain on a cliff
How do you want to die:not alone
Dream job:writer
Country you'd like to visit:France
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[ series 7 - opposite sex ]
Best eye color:Green and blue... aqua
Best hair color:White/blonde
Short or long hair:short
Best height:5'6"
Best weight:120
Best clothes:ANYTHING THAT DOEST SHOW A FUCKING THONG!
Best first date location:the park
Best first kiss location:the park
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[ series 8 - other ]
Last time you slept with a stuffed animal:last night
Rings before you answer the phone:two or three, just to make sure they dont think I have no life
What's on your mousepad:Seagram's Smooth malt beverage
How many houses you've lived in:two house, one trailer, and countless apartments
How many schools you've gone to:5
Bedroom carpet color:off white
Shave your head for $5,000?:.. no
Stranded on a desert island. Take three things. No people:A cell phone, a boat and a book
Best time of your life so far:8th grade flat out

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I've got to breathe


VampiressHollyMarie

:: 2003 18 October :: 8.56pm
:: Mood: confused

Tell me about yourself
What's your name?:Becca
How old are you?:14
Where are you from?:Michigan
When is your birthday?:09/06/89
What color hair?:Naturally brown, blonde right now...
What color eyes?:brown and green
What is you favorite
Color?:midnight blue
Food?:Chicken Alfredo
Animal?:Dog/cat
Drink?:Root Beer
Song?:Taking Over Me by Evanesence and Throw Away Children by Dio
Band/Singer?:Dio and Evanescence
Movie?:Where the Heart Is
TV show?:Charmed and Buffy
Book?:My Sweet Audrina
Sport?:Getting out of bed in the morning
This or that
Night or day?:night
Black or white?:black
Chocolate or vanilla?:vanilla
Pepsi or Coke?:coke
TV or computer?:TV
Movies or DVD's?:... theyre the same thing.... between VHS and DVD I like VHS...
Rock or rap?:ROCK! RAP SUCK HOT BALLS ING THE MICRO-ODEN!!
Pop or punk?:punk
Old or young?:young
Tall or short?:tall
Big or small?:big
Randomosity
Have you ever tried to lick you elbow?:yes... xx;
When was the last time you cried?:... about five hours ago
Do you sing in the shower?:Sometimes... no
Can you drive (legally)?:no
Do clowns scare you?:yes
Do you enjoy jello?:yes
What is the one thing that annoys you most?:Bill
Do you laugh a lot?:Yes
Do you consider yourself a funny person?:no
Who is a sexy mofo?:hpaay noodle boy
Does MTV suck?:yes
Does Avril Lavigne suck?:not really
Do I suck?:yes, I dunno...
Do you suck?:Whats that supposed to mean?
Have you ever chased a duck around in circles?:They dont let me near ducks anymore
Are you tired of this?:No
What time is it?:8:47 pm
What day is it?:Saturday
Do you love me?:Who is you?

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12 I can't keep going under | I've got to breathe


VampiressHollyMarie

:: 2003 17 October :: 3.22pm
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: Haunted

Dreams
So I have been having the worst reocurring dream in the world... god that sounded so very preppy. But anyway, I will tell you about it....

Okay, so I walk out of the back of a club into an alleyway. I'm not scared, even though its like one in the morning and totally dark. I keep walking until I hear a noise behind me... I turn to see what it was, nothing is there, I keep walking. then I hear someone call my name, a man, a familiar voice. I turn to see a mans outline standing there, his hands are on his hips. He's only seven feets away, he's too close.
"Who are you? What do you want?" I scream. He lunges at me and pinns me to the floor. He feels and smells familiar, I know him. I try to scream for help. He's raping me. I can't breathe anymore. I look over and see five dirty little homeless children half hidden by the shadows. One of the boys is standing not even a few inches away from my out reached hand, the others are rummaging in the garbage for food and clothing. The little boy just stands there, blood is pouring out of unknowns places on my skin. theres blood everywhere, on top of the bruises from the strangers hands holding me down. I stop screaming, its useless, no one can hear me. I stop kicking and tears stream from my eyes. The stranger gets up and vanishes. Now I'm laying in the middle of a sidewalk on a very gray day. I'm wearing a white button up top with a black jeans. The blood is still all over me, staning my abnormally white hair red. I look around and see a street, one side houses whose lawns are covered with kids outside toys, the other side is a forest. I start to walk down the sidewalk, I step on something and it squeeks, and then I almost trip over a little bike thing when I hear a baby start to cry. I keep walking towards where the cries are coming from... when I turn a corner I see one of those old baby carriages, a black one, the top it pulled down so you cant see the baby. I walk up to it and pull the top up thus releasing a hundred black bats and when I look at the baby its all eaten and gross. I cover my mouth with my hands and silently scream. I look around for help and see 8 people walking down the street, the middle one is the stranger in the alley. I start to run away from them, stumbling a little when I'm back in the alley, with the stranger right in front of me. The last thing I remember is him grabbing my wrists and pulling me somewhere, then I wake up.

I've got to breathe


VampiressHollyMarie

:: 2003 14 October :: 3.54pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: Yuna's song

damn it
I am so annoyed right now, maybe its because I have massive PMS, or maybe its Bill... its always Bill. He pisses me off, never shutting up I swear, he is so annoying. I really think I'm going to break up with him if this doesnt stop.

1 I can't keep going under | I've got to breathe


VampiressHollyMarie

:: 2003 13 October :: 4.56pm
:: Music: ???

Wo0t
Kill

I've got to breathe


VampiressHollyMarie

:: 2003 12 October :: 1.10am
:: Mood: busy

A Shotgun?
Name:Becca
Nicknames:Becca
Age:14
Birthday:09/06/89
Nationality:human
Current Height:5"6
Hair Color:blonde
Eye Color:brown/green
Family:PLEASE GOD NOO!!
Location:eastpointe michian
College:nope
Piercings:ears
Red or Blue:boo
Spring or Fall:fall
Santa or Rudolph:no
Math or English:no
What are you going to do after you finish this survey:masturbate?
What was the last food you ate:chips
High School or College:high skool
Last movie you saw:freddy vs jason
Last noise you heard:brandi & sasha snoggiing
Last time you went out of state:6 months ago
Things you like in a girl/guy:eyes, non annoyingnes, a little less sensetivity
What book are you reading now:10 ways on making soup from rockd
Favorite board game:life, I always end up with 3 cars of kids
Favorite magazine:swank?
Worst feeling in the world:holding hands
First thing you think of in the morning:god damn it, Bills still alive
Future daughter's name:Holly-Marie Lillian-Veronica Miller-futuerlastname
Future son's name:Logan Richard
Chocolate or Vanilla:vanilla
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal:Like forty, a-duh
Dream job:whore... writer/singer/journalist
Whats under your bed:what isnt?

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I've got to breathe


VampiressHollyMarie

:: 2003 11 October :: 10.40pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: stuff

A Shotgun?
Bad bad day... bad... no... not good... bad.

I've got to breathe


VampiressHollyMarie

:: 2003 6 October :: 3.08pm

WUSS UP HOMIE F KITTENS?!?!? I had a good day, no maming, but in Drawing some kid was lighting paper on fire making the teacher think that it was the wires in the wall, which was funny because I hate Mrs. Cruz with a passion.. she made my Mr. Blake list... yeah but anyway... I have a new favorite song that makes me all tingly... I'm bored... and Unhappy.... KILL ALL STUDENT TEACHERS!!

I've got to breathe


VampiressHollyMarie

:: 2003 4 October :: 2.14pm
:: Mood: chipper

I'm in a good mood, for once in the past month I dont feel like murdering the next old person that passes me
I'm listening to T.a.T.u.... why? I dunno, I like 'em, and I like Kelly Clarkson too, well only two of her songs... I'm in a chipper mood so no profanity today... sorry if you came here to see what kind of new swear words I put together, but I guess I can muster something.....

ASS LICKING COCK SUCKING FRO TRIMMING SPUNK DIGESTING MOTHER SNOGGER!

I've got to breathe


VampiressHollyMarie

:: 2003 2 October :: 4.25pm
:: Mood: cranky

damn it
Fuck cheese. Bad mood, Grr, Not good, feel like yelling, must not kill, have to stay, aw fuck it. SCREW EVERYONE! YOU ALL SUCK HOT ASS AND I HATE YOU< EVEN THOUG I DONT KNOW YOU I FUCKING HATE YOU! I CAN DISCRIMINATE IF I FUCKINGWANT YOU GOD DAMN WHORES YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IN THE HELL YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT AND YOU THINK THAT YOU HAVE THE FUCKING RIGHT TO SIT THERE AND CALL ME AND MY FRIENDS AND FAMIlY FUCKING NAMES LIKE FAT AND STUPID WHEN YOURE THE ONE WHO IS TWO TIMES AS MUCH AS I AM ADN TEN TIMES AS STUPID YOU FUCK WHORE ASS N****R

I've got to breathe


VampiressHollyMarie

:: 2003 1 October :: 6.14pm
:: Mood: cranky

Why is it that everytime I want to be alone ppl want to be around me?
I'm annoyed, dont touch me. Fuck everyone, fuck everything. Fuck my "friends" fuck my "family" fuck school, fuck my teachers, fuck the preps, fuck the jocks, fuck the freaks, fuck the lunch ladys, fuck everyone in this fucking horrid world. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK GOD DAMN IT CUNT LICKING MOTHER FUCKERS ASS WHORE SOCK BITCH WART COCK SUCKERS FUCK FACE ASS WEASLE SHIT GOBLINS!!!! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I FUCKING HATE ALL OF YOU GOD DAMN IT! FUCK YOU ALL I HATE YOU SO
BAD FUCK!

^I cranky.

1 I can't keep going under | I've got to breathe


VampiressHollyMarie

:: 2003 30 September :: 9.16pm
:: Mood: Not good
:: Music: eh

I hurt
My head, tummy, teeth, toes, fingers, everything, hurts. This isnt fair. I feel like throwing up.

2 I can't keep going under | I've got to breathe


VampiressHollyMarie

:: 2003 29 September :: 3.58pm
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: T.a.T.u.

Odd..
Today was good, no wait, today was great. I had the best day in my life since... well ever. I never knew that school could be fun, but I know that I should be careful, whatever goes up must come down, I am very wary of that rule. But still I had to much fun today, in math I was drawing Ragamuffin and I got asked out by this kid I dont know to go somewhere I've never heard of, then I had fun at lunch and sixth hour wasnt that bad... and I got my work in on time in computers for once, although I didnt get to steal the stapler as I had hoped, but I'll get to do that tomarrow... then I got to go to a forensics meeting, it was fun and I'm glad as all hell that I went, but I cant afford actually being in the club, but thats alright, I wouldnt have a lot of time for it anyway, as I have a lot of work and am already in two other time consuming clubs. I hope I can still join Drama though, that would be a lot of fun. I have no idea what in the hell has gotten into me because I'm not exactly the kind og girl tha involves herself, but I have, just I will never ever ever ever show any form of school spirit, for my school anyway. I had a great day, I'm happy, adn I really dont think that anything can take this... smile I think its called, off of my face... watch, someones gonna die or something, just wait, my next entry will be a morbid one.

I've got to breathe


VampiressHollyMarie

:: 2003 28 September :: 1.07pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: T.a.T.u.

Thos kind of fucking happy ass people that I hate
OoOo I have to go to my second cousins babyshower.... shes one of those happy married people who is going through one of those planned pregnancies... I hope I dont kill her.. that would suck if I got blood on mums shirt that I'm barrowing...

I've got to breathe

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