o...k...then...

You are a Romantic Realist

since the computer was down yesterday this is what i wrote down that happened from friday:
September 27, 2003

another day in hell

my day yesterday was a very..."iffy" kinda day...i thought things were gonna go well for me...i'm always wrong bout those kinda things...

i had to be at the band room @ 7 so i barely got there on time...rosa gave me a ride...i miss spending time with her...& she's going out of town this weekend...so i get to miss out yet again...whatever...well band sucked cuz we were out there for 2 hours w/out a break...it's been like that all week...wait ok one day we got a 5 minute break...WOW...*ugh*...so yeah we worked our asses off for our "moving show"...which i don't understand why we're doing, but whatever, what's done is done...

i'm gonna fail garewal's class...ok not really, but i'll pass probably w/ like a D or something...i don't pay attention much in there...oh well...plus i kinda lost my book...that's bad huh?...

i ran from passing period to 3rd to get keys for joey's car to get my books for that period that i'd forgotten bout...dude, joey's car is cool, but ghetto...I COULDN'T GET THAT DAMN THING TO OPEN...so i went to class w/out my book...& homework...*eek*...so i tried to copy words from our homework as quickly as i could so i could turn it in on time...& while i was doing that i had to take an oral test on bones in the body...which i'm surprised i did really well on...then mr. hardin says "oh class the papers that were due today, i don't feel like grading, so turn them in on monday"...*OI*...

math analysis i took a test...& i think i wrote a few of the answers wrong cuz i wasn't paying full attention to it, so whatever, my bad...nothing really exciting happens in that class...i talk to aubrey, joy, luke, denisse, jpo, fabian, & jorge...nothing really exciting like i said...

lunch was lunch...we went to taco shop...& we've been going there a lot lately...it's kinda hard to go to big john's when they are repairing all the damages that joey diez caused...LMFAO...well i told joey (we're talking bout my bf this time) to get me cheese fries...so we're waiting & waiting...then stupid joey yells out..."WHERE'S MY CHEESE FRIES?!"...& it was so fucking quiet when he did it...omg it was so fucking funny you had to be there...i'll admit i was so embarassed...but i got over it...

mac's class we took a test...*yay* another class i'm going to get a D in...i fell asleep after the test...so it was cool...

spanish 3 i wish i wasn't in now...i don't speak spanish well enough & we're graded on our i guess you would call public speaking...& we're having to talk bout political things & shit like that that should mean something to me...i just don't understand that class...but i left early cuz we had a pep ralley to get ready for...tony was crying bout how he was sorry & i had no clue wtf he was talking bout...

tony told me that he was sorry for like not being there for me i guess...to be honest i really didn't understand him & what he was talking bout...& i only cared a bit...so i comforted him saying that things were ok & shit...

i guess denisse now knows bout someone liking her...& she was a bit upset with me cuz i didn't tell her sooner...i'm sorry...but know after what happened with the rest of the day i know i do NOT want that guy to try & get w/ her...sorry dude, you fucked up big time...ain't no sorry that's gonna change that...

we had our pep ralley...big whoop...

i went with joey to his house to have pizza...lina brought along ben...que cute, eh?!...we had fun...I LOVE YOU SO MUCH WITH ALL MY HEART JOEY!!!...

we got to the band room "late", but no one really showed up til bout 6 so whatever...got dressed & got other freshman helped out w/ their uniform...& i'm not really one of the ppl who are supposed to cuz it was the section leader's jobs to help everyone else out & make sure that everyone had all their things...danny was in his car w/ the shade up...& i was mad cuz earlier i had asked him to help me out with something...& i asked him if he was alright & he didn't say anything...& he was supposed to be there to play the role of "section leader"...so when i went outside to say hi to joey again from after he dropped me off, lina started saying that "oh we have to feel sorry for danny...wwaaaa" & shit like that...so i went inside to unhappily make those posters...i didn't even know what to write on them cuz i'd forgotten...so i had tony go & ask mr macon what i was supposed to write...& lina came up to me asking me if i wanted her to say something to mr macon, so she did...& mr macon seemed kinda pist but at the same time worried...so i start up on the posters & tony comes up to me complaining bout how lina is being a bitch...i'm sorry she isn't the bitch here...(i'll explain more in the story)...she had something to say & danny being in the car is not being a section leader...so thanx lina for saying something...i really didn't care for what tony had to say after this...i told danny bout how i was mad at him for the whole "you're not being a section leader"...& he cried...& to be honest i think it also had something to do with the fact that i brought up the past...like when we broke up this last time...& i'll admit bringing that up is totally my fault, but i just don't remember why i did it...& i'm sorry that i blew up like that...but then danny started to cry...& i've never really seen him so sad & angry like that...& it hurt me cuz i couldn't do anything bout it...i just remember him saying "you hurt me"...& i feel bad cuz i know exactly what he's talking bout...& yes it is my fault...& i know that there is more to it than just saying sorry...that was completely my fault in every aspect of it...then he started saying that tony lied to him bout things...so naturally i want to kick his ass...cuz if you hurt my friends, i'll hunt you down like the dogs that you all are...so i go over to talk to lina first bout what was going on & for her to help me out w/ my hair...then i talked to tony asking him wtf he said...& he said he didn't say much & i told him what was going on...& i should've known that the night was gonna get worse & i was gonna be pist & hurt...well we practiced & got outside, ready to perform our first pregame show for this year...my first pregame as a senior...*sigh*...

our pregame was average...first time doing it...i think we messed up on the star spangled banner, but whatever...marched off...got into the stands...& boy was cheering fun lastnight...i was really stessed out bout how danny was...& i tried to say like hey what's up...but he just looked at me then looked away, so i said forget it...i hung out w/ freshman mostly...i think i am a ppl person & i just don't realize it very well...lol...

we went down for half time & danny gave us a pep talk...got in our positions...i talked to sandra jabalera...& i felt bad cuz the ppl i used to talk to all the time i hardly ever do anymore...she asked me bout why i wasn't w/ danny & stuff like that...we talked bout it & she was saying how joey was a cool guy...*yay*...so yeah...& then after the team was done we got on the field...our first half time show...(as a senior)...& i knew it was gonna suck...lol...

we get out there & i'm pumped up...we start to play a few measures into it...then we have to move...then POW!!!...one of the flags hit my trumpet & hit me in the face...i had already messed up on the introduction to the song & that little scene just made me feel so embarassed that i just quit playing the intro...the rest of the show was fine...fantastic if you will...(stupid luke)...lol...we lined up & got off the field...then we went on our break...i went up to the stands to drop off my stuff & bring joey w/ me...lol it was funny cuz we both had to pee so bad...so yeah...

afterwards we got something to drink & him to eat...we're hanging out...& tony comes up to me saying he has to talk to me right right now...so ok...he starts crying telling me that he's sorry for what he'd said to danny...WAIT WAIT WAIT...now if you go back up to the story didn't he say he didn't really say anything to him???...so i guess the whole story was that tony was telling him that i still had feelings for him & shit...now what tony might've meant was that i care for him as a friend...& how danny took it was that i want to get back with him badly...now everyone may have the story wrong so frankly i don't give a fuck...i was just really mad at tony...& i think i always will be...cuz he is like that...he says one thing for you to believe is true...then the next minute he says he's sorry cuz he lied...WTF DAMNIT? JUST SAY THE FUCKING TRUTH MAN!!!...

then i drowned...lmfao...stupid danny (aubrey's bf)...that was funny...

i had to go back to the stands for the rest of the game...that was cool...we did "hey cheerleaders"..."hey guillermo"...lmfao that was genius dude, genius...the "where you from?"...& the viking spell out...lol i kinda forgot how to spell on that one...heeheehee...& i was a cheerleader...omg...lol...so yeah it was fun...up until we didn't realize that we lost...HA HA WE SUCK...but that's ok cuz we all had fun with it...

we got back to the band room & put away things & got ready to leave...joey lina ben denisse & i went to hamburger stand...it was cool...i was just really tired, stressed out, & sleepy so yeah...i fell asleep on the way home...i woke up when we dropped off denisse & said goodbye...joey dropped me off...walked me to my door...THAT'S MY JOEY!!!...hugged kissed & said our goodbyes...i got inside & fell on my bed & tried going straight to sleep...i fell asleep for a while...until i heard sirens...& i was afraid it was someone i knew...i was really afraid of danny hurting himself cuz in the band room he kept saying how he was gonna kill himself...& i wouldn't live right w/out my best friend in this world...so i stayed up a bit after i heard that...then fell asleep...

i was afraid of calling him this morning...fear of him not talking to me...fear of him yelling at me...fear of him not answering...fear of him not being there at all...

i'm supposed to make this never-done-before recipe from mark...a bit of an experiment i should say...kinda like a casserole...but i'm gonna try it out...i think my "guinnea pigs" for today are denisse, joey, lina, ben, tristan, my nana, & my dad...my mom refuses to eat anything i make now since what happened last time...i'd rather not talk bout that one... :( ...

i better get going...but i really do hope that you are ok danny...& sorry tony but sometimes i never know when to believe you...i think now i will hold on a bit more true to the saying trust no one...i'll only trust those that i know are worthy of trusting...

what...huh...mande?

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i broke down from all my stress today...& i think i'll be like that tomorrow...i find myself now always wanting to hang out with ppl, but not being able to put up with them in the end...i think i just have enough patience for joey...& sometimes even then...i dunno...

"i'm so tired of being here" - great lyrics from evanescence...i'm a dork...

i find myself once again hiding things from ppl & i wish i wasn't like that...but sometimes ppl just seriously can't handle the truth...*sigh*...

i'm worried bout our show for tomorrow's game...it'll be over soon though...i hope...

i had lot's of thoughts today...but i'm having a long term brain fart...so talk later...

p.s. I LOVE JOEY WITH ALL MY HEART!!!

bored

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damn life...
i'm freaking out bout the dumbest things right now...I JUST DON'T WANT TO GROW UP...i'm tired of thinking bout the future...here's what's going on in my stupid little head of mine:

college
marriage
smoking
sex
homework
my relationship with parents
death
driving
eating
pregnancy
music
teaching
family
band
work (radio)
finding better work (that actually pays ;) )
friendships
traveling
running away
cooking

i think that's about it...i'll only go into detail with one...i'm clueless as to why i think some of those things to be honest...

college: i'm starting to fill out applications for them...& i'm not sure if i really want to go to CHC...or college at all for that matter...i just don't know & i'm scared of it again...

i'm just not ready for anything right now...i'm stressed with that stupid moving show for band...& getting into an argument with joey...which i sometimes feel like i have to bring up something with him so he can understand me...but i'm not gonna try with that...sometimes i think that things are going bad with us...& if it starts to i don't know what to do...i'm clueless as to what i could do to fix things...sometimes i don't even know there is a problem...& it's usually me...*sigh*...i'm so lost right now...it's not even really close to funny...

sometimes i think bout if i'm not with joey...i think i'd be by myself...& it's not so much of a matter that no one would ever love me again...but i think i'd just be too emotionally drained & hurt...i hope this one works...& for good...somehow i keep thinking it's breaking apart...little by little...

& i don't know what to do anymore...with anything at all...

damnit just let me do what the fuck i want now!!!
i was talking with reuben bout my relationships & shit...he asked me bout danny & joey & other things...

i told him that i wanted to get married to joey...& he kinda laughed & asked me why...& what the difference was between joey & danny...& well danny hurt me alot...& joey hasn't...

& i know that ppl think i'm wierd for saying i want to marry him & all...even though we've only gone out for 4 months...but it seems like longer...& we're really in love...& to be honest...i'm willing to get married to him...

like it or not...

in need of backup plans now...



Everybody's

Your Lyrics

Perfect by nature
Icons of self-indulgence
Just what we all need
More lies about our world that
Never was and never will be
Have you no shame ? Don't you see me ?
You know you've got everybody fooled
Look here, she comes now
Bow down and stare in wonder !
Oh how we love you !
Too bad we didn't know she
Never was and never will be
You don't know how you've betrayed me
Somehow you've got everybody fooled
Never was and never will be
You don't know how you've betrayed me
Somehow you've got everybody fooled
Never was and never will be
You're not real and you can't save me
Somehow now you're everybody's fool


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convo w/ danny...the honest truth...hurts
i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
i'm going under

Sometimes when you think no one in this world loves you, your one winged angel comes and saves you. says:
lol

Sometimes when you think no one in this world loves you, your one winged angel comes and saves you. says:
hery

Sometimes when you think no one in this world loves you, your one winged angel comes and saves you. says:
hey*

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
what's up?

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
nothing h/o

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
ok

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
back

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
just got my food right now

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
alrighty

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
so what's up?

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
nothing really

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
looking up marriage & divorce thingys to figure out something with my parents

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
lol

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
i'm that fucking bored

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
lol

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
lol

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
yeah..

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
what's wrong?

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
what was that yeah for?

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
nothing is wrong and yeah was for i know the feeling of being bored

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
what have you done all morning

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
nothing...hey what are you doing today?

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
nothing mostly just have work from 2 to 7

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
and that's it

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
what about you

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
damn...cuz mark & tristan wanted to know if you'd take us to the movies..but you're working...

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
i can take you but it all depends on what time the movie starts

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
hmm...

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
what moive did they want to see

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
i dunno

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
what are you doing right now

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
talking to mark on the phone

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
& still surfing the net

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
cool

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
hope you get something for you and joey when you get married

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
you know what...just cuz you said it like that...then thanx

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
what do you mean "you know what"

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
i mean...you know what?!

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
lol

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
lol

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
dork i mean what i say

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
dumbass

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
so what did mark say

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
he's gonna call back...cuz tristan needs badly to get out of the house...i guess he's freaking out bout the whole mass media thingy...but he wanted to go to a movie round 5, so i dunno what's going on

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
ah

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
ok he's gonna call again a bit later...tristan's parents aren't there

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
so yeah

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
i dunno if i can even go...i have a feeling i can't

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
dmn

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
damn*

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
whatever so what's up?

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
so what was the point of that last comment you made?

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
nothings up

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
and the last comment i made i forgot the point

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
sup with you?

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
nothing...& you said something bout me getting married to joey

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
oh since you were looking for marriage and divorce things for your parents i just said that you are probably looking something for you and joey that's all

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
....uh huh....

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
*sigh* fine then

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
maybe i will

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
hey i am sorry i didnt mean to get you all sighing and stuff

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
fien

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
fine*

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
really

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
hey who's online right now

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
ben & michelle...& jaime

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
what's up w/ your sn

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
it's another quote

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
& that's why you didn't put the ""'s on huh?

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
lol

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
i forgot those

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:

i know your sn is about the time you and joey first went to the drive in and saw a shooting star and then you looked in his eyes

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
am i right? or wrong?

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
yes & no

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
ah at least i gave it a try

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
sorry to ask but have you ever seen or made a turkey dinner

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
seen yes made nope...

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
my name was just what happened lastnight, but it did reflect from our first date

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
so yeah

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
you were kinda right

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
lol

What if everone is right, and i am the only loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
lol

What if everone is right, and i am the only
loser that still thinks otherwise. says:
well good for you

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
thanx

'No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
so what's new

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
nothing

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
you messed up on the first quotation

'No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
yeah i just realized that

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
lol

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
lol

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
yeah i am probably boring you even more

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
because i am not talking

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
umm...whatever...it's not that ...

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
i'm not bored even

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
yeah what is entertaining you

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
?

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
you

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
lol

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
lol

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
that sounded dirty...i likeded it

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
ha

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
no seriously what is entertaining you if i may ask?

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
talking to ben& you

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
ah

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
how's their band doing?

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
i dunno i don't care

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
well, i better get going i still have to shave and clean up my room.

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
fine then

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
you didn't even talk much

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
why do you get like that almost everytime i am about to leave

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
cuz you dont'

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
fine leave nm me

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
have a good day then...call mark later

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
cuz i dont' want to go now

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
& probably can't

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
why are you getting like this really what's the problem

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
we don't communicate you said so yourself that i was bored cuz you weren't talking

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
you dont' talk

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
you ask me things all the time & i never know what's really up with you

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
i'm too busy answering you things

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
your*

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
the only reason i do that is because nothing is up with me

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
i have the same old thoughts stuck on my mind 24/7

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
ok then it's my fault for jumping down your throat nm

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
i'msory

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
it's ok

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
look i just dont want to be mad or frustrated at each other. i am not mad or frustrated. what about you?

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
i kinda am but i'llget over it

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
i guess

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
honestly the reason why i dont tell you what's up is becuase they are the same thoughts over and over. If you got tired of denisse talking about mario and the same shit over and over, i figure that you would get tired of that too so that is why i dont say much sometimes

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
fine then nm it

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
becky dont get frustrated

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
ok danny

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
honestly would you really like to hear everyday what i think of you

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
my thoughts and feelings

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
i'd like to hear you is all

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
you never say anything

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
of the years that i know you you said nothing to me

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
it was all about me...24/7 becky...& i can't stand it anymore danny

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
ok

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
i really miss you everyday. i wake up thinking that today is a new day and that everything can go great with you. next i think about how much you love joey and that just makes me want to kill myself but i dont do it because i value life too much to do such a thing. then i think of what will happen if i never get back with you.

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
the only fear i have of leave holtville is the fact that i wont be near you

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
it kills me to think about it

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
then i think why cant you love me back the way i do

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
everytime i am not with you i am missing out on a hug a kiss or even a moment with you

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
every second i am not with you it makes me think that i have just wasted time i could have spent with you

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
i can only think about you and the reason i cant concentrate most of the time is because of you

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
i keep saying to myself to hold myself from crying that i will get over it but i know i cant

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
you changed my world becky and now that even though you might not love me the same anymore i still love you

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
ppl tell me "why do you still talk to her"

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
and i tell them that i want to because i care

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
some tell me that "you can find someone better, trust me"

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
and i turn it down

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
always because my heart tells me what i want and what i want is you

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
nothing more

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
i dont care about anything in this world but you

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
you are more important to me than my own life becky that how much i love you

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
and those are the thoughts that go through my mind everyday for almost every hour of the day

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
o

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
do you have anything to say to this?

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
do you want me to say something to this?

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
yes if you have something to say, say it? i want to know? i need to know?

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
why? why do you all of a sudden have all these feelings for me?

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
you realize how not fair it is?

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
i always had them

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
i just never found good ways to express them

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
no you didn't...you wouldn't have hurt me all those times...you wouldn't have made me cry...you wouldn't have said that you didnt' want to marry me...you wouldn't have done so many things to me...& i think that is why i can't love you anymore...

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
3years danny & you never showed me that side of you

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
ok fine

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
now what does that mean?

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
it means you right i hurt you and if i really loved you so much why did i hurt you so many times

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
but honestly i would have not taken you back when you cheated on me if this was true

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
fine then

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
look we both hurt eachother...

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
yes but i hurt more than you did me.

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
ok

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
danny how do i know that if i do get back with you i won't get hurt again? or vice versa?

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
because if you hurt me i will just let go

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
that

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
that's not my question though

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
i wont hurt you because i know what i did wrong

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
and even though i didnt fix it those other times it was because i was stupid

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
but now i am not

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
i have changed for the better and that is what i wanted you to notice f

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
but how do i know that? how do i know that you've changed? i don't want to take my chances just to get hurt again

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
because i know how you express my love towards you and i am will to do many things for you. i thought the time that you got drunk and got caught and i drove you girls home would have given you some idea that i have changed

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
that i thought was because you wanted to be my friend still...

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
i am your friend

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
dude, you were the one who freaked out if i ever said i wanted to drink & you hated me for thinking that...

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
*ugh*

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
& i'm happy with you as my friend

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
i am more liberal now

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
big word...for me i mean

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
i understand that whatever you want to do go ahead and do it

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
i will support you or help you against it if you need it

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
now what does that mean?

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
it means i am more flexable and understand your choices you make

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
if you want to drink go ahead

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
just be careful

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
becky (and tell me honestly) have you had time when we are hanging out and sometimes we just want to be together and sometimes kiss or no?

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
yes

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
why?

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
i just had to ask because i thought i was the only one

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
honestly some ppl give me shit about me still being your friend

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
and i just ignore them because i want to be your friend

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
same here

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
and i want to be something more

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
not the same here...

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
is it the fact that you are afriad to get hurt?

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
yes

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
i know a promise doesnt mean anything becuase i have broken promises but you have to start somewhere again to earn trust once more. so i promise you this that i wont hurt you and so god as my witness if i do i will get out of you life and you will never see me again

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
danny i wish that was made sooner...cuz promise or no promise...god as a witness or not...the answer remains the same

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
ok

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
& i'm sorry for that...but to be honest we fucked it up for ourselves

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
you know i dont think i will ever find a girl like you ever honestly

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
i'm flattered

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
really

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
*sigh* honestly i do have to go i have to shave and get ready for work sorry i have to leave

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
alright then

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
call mark & tristan

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
ok

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
well i will talk to you some other time than

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
ok

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
take care

i think the shooting star & the look in your eyes said it all ... says:
bye

"No matter how much you love something, it always ends up hurting you in the end." says:
bye

i'm a blabbermouth...

You Would Pick Your Boyfriend Again!

so ... yeah
well i'm just here...waiting for something to happen...i have no clue what i'm up to today...& something tells me i'm doing nothing...*sigh*...whatever, maybe i'll take a walk later...i think i'll need it...still need help or suggestions right now regarding lastnights (or early this morning's i forgot) post bout making a lifelong decision...lol...i'm a dork...well guess i'll talk later.