you know you've got everybody fooled

1 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 4 November :: 5.47pm

well the only reason i went to school today was to present the group project so i wouldnt be the only one missing from the group and mess up the whole thing.. so i go to school and i get to 3rd period and WE DONT DO IT!!! omfg im gunna go crazy..

3 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 4 November :: 3.34pm

I changed my background. Waheyyy.
Anyway, I'm definetly going to see Deadstar Assembly and the Birthday Massacre on the 14th. We have to buy the tickets at the door, and hopefully we shall get there in time.
Another night at my dad's. Well I don't think there is much else to type about so I'll sign off...out?

:: 2004 3 November :: 7.36pm

i am sick.. don't bother me today..

3 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 2 November :: 6.09pm

well i re-did my journal.. i like it for now.. its a change.. i was getting sick of that red..

i feel really sick right now.. ive got a bad cough.. maybe mom will let me stay home tomorrow..

the train was crazyyy today.. i think someone got stabbed at my stop lol haha longggg story i'll tell it later.. im on the phone with kaitlyn right now.. ehhh longer letter later..

1 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 31 October :: 8.49pm

HaPPy HaLLoWeEn!!!

1 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 31 October :: 6.52pm

The Taking Back Sunday tickets were sold out. Jenny was pissed. But I guess she's ok now. According to Christina.
Girls confuse me. Even though I'm one of them.

:: 2004 30 October :: 11.40am

awww Erin's birthday today! we threw her a suprise party last night at Hinsch's.. major props to Julie for keepin her busy lol "then try em on!" lmao.. wow we had so much fun.. Julia was sooo stupid me and Nicole we dying with laughter.. Alexa came over after.. and these guys were like hitting on us from the car.. i was like shut the fuck up and we walked down a block that was a one way street so they couldnt turn down it lol.. i met Alexa's parents last night theyree sooo sweet.. Brittany came to Erin's party.. i really didnt want her to.. it was my fault that she came though cuz she lives on my block and she was walkin down the block while i was outside talking to alexa and she heard me say 'hinsch's, half an hour, with julie and erin, erin doesnt know" so it was like i couldnt really lie to her and say ohh nothing's going on lol.. oh well..

she goes from really really annoying to not bugging me at all, but last night she was really really annoying.. ehh oh well.. its over.. i got erin this pair of earrings that i want lol they were really pretty i was gunna go back and buy em for myself last night but it didnt.. i bought a pair of hoops though.. so its all good.. Erin was soo suprised.. she was like wtf and we're all like HAPPY BIRTHDAY! lol im going to matt's game now.. my soccer season's over, i need to get some soccer somehow..

& you can't save me

6 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 29 October :: 3.50pm

I finally did it. I told her how I felt. She didn't really blow up at me like I expected her too, she just didn't understand where I was coming from.
I tried to explain it to her the best I could. She got in a fight with my other friend today too.
Anyway, tonight should be fun. I'm SO going trick or treating with Amber. Haha. <3

:: 2004 28 October :: 6.52am

I made my skirt last night. It didn't turn out as bad as I thought it would. It's perfectly decent, actually. Even my mother liked it. I had this small fight last night with one of my best friends last night. I was putting it off because I hate fighting with my friends, but if I had said what all I wanted to say to her, we would no longer be speaking right now. And I choose to keep the peace.

& you can't save me

:: 2004 27 October :: 2.29pm
:: Music: My Ruin

AND YOU WANT ME LIKE A HURRICANE
Today's just been one of those days. Bleh.

:: 2004 26 October :: 9.05pm
:: Mood: sad

To Ms. Ferrara
I'm sorry
I heard about the bad news today
A crowd of people around you
Telling you it's okay
And everything happens for a reason

When you lose a part of yourself
To somebody you know
It takes a lot to let go
Every breath that you remember
Pictures fade away but memories forever

An empty chair at all the tables
And I'll be seeing you when all my days boil down
But it's better where your going anyway

I'm sorry
I heard about the bad news today
It's really hard to get through
Tough times and long days

For now we'll say goodbye
We know it's not the last time
I've lost the best part of my day

This is the last thing
I will remember
Its better where you're going anyway

"Sonny" - New Found Glory

& you can't save me

3 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 26 October :: 3.14pm
:: Music: Sleater-Kinney

Youth Decay
I got some ADORABLE hot pink with black polka dots fabric yesterday at hobby lobby. I think I'm going to make a skirt out of it. Either that or a purse. Any suggestions?
I also got some stencils so I can make another shirt. I spend so much frickin' money at those places. *shakes fist*
Today I think I'm getting the tickets for the TBS concert. Wahey. Finally.

:: 2004 26 October :: 9.14am

im in 1st period now.. ms. ferrara died... the whole school is like crying hysterically.. its sooo sad.. the seniors are soooo upset a ton of them came into HR this morning to see ms willard cuz they know they were like best friends.. ms willard made our whole hr cry.. and i saw alexa and she was crying soo hard, she made me cry again.. and cait's real upset too cuz she knew her soo well.. her whole homeroom's a mess.. this suckss.. and ms willard was gettin all into 'if you've ever lost a family member' and briana started crying cuz of her mother.. i was like omg.. this whole day has been so horrible.. i just want it to end..

R.I.P. MS FERRARA

:: 2004 25 October :: 6.47pm

omg i think i sprained my ankle.. and we still have a game left.. omg it hurts soo bad.. like i twisted my hurt ankle and the pain just shot thru my ankle and i remember gettin dizzy for a sec and losing my balance and then standing up til the ref blew the whistle to end the game 5 seconds later.. and i collapsed.. grrr it hurts! i dont wanna believe that its sprained but i think it is.. =( i hope i can play tomorrow.. we can win that game.. if i dont play christle has to..

haha we had the ref that hates me.. he screamed at me and chucked the ball straight at me.. it was the same ref who fucked us the first time we played stella...

oh well.. dinner..

K