you know you've got everybody fooled

:: 2004 22 September :: 5.52am

Yo. I feel like crap. Go.

& you can't save me

:: 2004 21 September :: 4.27pm

no updates for awhile.. school is taking over.. sorry if i dont talk to people for awhile.. Jena if i dont talk to you before (which i probably wont) GOOD LUCK! love youu<3

5 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 19 September :: 8.49pm

ashley's josh died.. i still dunno how.. but im shaking.. and crying.. i cant stop shaking.. omg im shaking so hard.. i cant imagine how the fuck shes taking it.. i cant stop shaking i just cant stop.. ive typed this over the course of 5 minutes.. nd im still shaking..

oh thank god.. im thanking god so much it wasnt my josh.. but still.. it sucks.. she really really hurt me at the end.. not these exact words.. too many pieces of it to put into exact words.. but she said 'no, im not gunna stay.. you fucking hate me.. i wanna fucking die'

...and i started to cry.

:: 2004 19 September :: 1.35pm

R.I.P. Johnny Ramone

:: 2004 18 September :: 10.22pm

New Sarah
This is me in school.

2 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 18 September :: 9.19pm

Sock Monkey!

:: 2004 17 September :: 8.42pm

fuck fuck fuck im not gunna survive this fuckin year of latin.. I HATE IT I DIDNT WANT TO TAKE IT IN THE FIRST PLACE.. you know what, if i talk about it alot im gunna be in a really really pissy mood.. oh well too late.. im watching molly and coco and i feel bad cuz im like being kinda mean just cuz im so tired and cranky i wanna be asleep right now my eyelids are heavy.. im staying over here tonight cuz mary jo's at a wedding so shes gunna be in late and i dont want her to wake me up.. i know i'll be asleep when she gets home.. and i gotta be up for a game to ref tomorrow at 9.. SUCKS! arghh im gunna go.. later..

& you can't save me

2 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 16 September :: 3.34pm

Yer Mother
Having a boyfriend is lovely. Oh yes, yes it is.
Now I have someone to mack on during and after lunch and after school. I so got two kisses in one day.

God I'm annoying myself and everyone around me talking about him. MOOHA.

2 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 15 September :: 8.56pm

hahaaa.. funny day today.. M (her name is julia but so is julia's so im calling her M for her last name..) was like making fun of maria and trying to get her to not concentrate.. haha the lunch lady pissing on the food haha that was soo funny shes hysterical.. and then Julia's dream haha Bill Clinton shot her uncle lmaooooo omg sick day.. Alexa got detention for being late.. she lives around the corner. haha ms darcy was funny about that.. what else happened.. blaise tried to play soccer in her school shoes.. HAHA! Vadim (he's our coach) was making fun of us so much cuz we had to wear them.. shes so stupid.. play in your school shoes? i mean, if you forget your sneakers borrow someone else's.. haha.. Me and Kristle had to like stand in front of the ball, open our legs (not like that!) and the other one had to kick the ball thru the legs for a drill for soccer.. we're like what the hell does that have to do with anything.. Kristle's really really nice.. she's a senior but not one who's all 'im a senior i rule the world' shes like trying to get to know all the frosh which is cool.. song contest! firefighting freshman.. woot! gunna be hottttt.. also coming: Sweet Sixteen Sophs, dunno bout juniors yet, Santa's Seniors.. the seniors are gunna be really good this year they got some cute lyrics coming.. i'll explain song contest for those who dont know which is like everyone.. Each year comes up with a theme (i.e. firefighting freshman, etc.) and we take real songs that relate to the theme (i think we're doing the song rescue me and something else) and you change the lyrics to make fun of the school and the teachers and stuff its really fun.. and you get like all these lil props and stuff and its real cute.. the seniors seem to like our idea so far so who knows, maybe the freshman wont come in last! =) i think the juniors won last year.. i dunno.. oh well.. ima update.. LATERRR

1 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 14 September :: 8.01pm

Sarah so has a date for homecoming. Oh yes she does.
Well apparently, others knew about it before I did. Christina told me Corey told Jenny that he was going to ask me. Since he's my boyfriend now and all.

I overanalyze things too much. And my sunburn is convienently placed on my shoulder so my bra straps make it hurt really bad. =)

:: 2004 14 September :: 4.25pm

roar

7 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 13 September :: 8.02pm

Capitalization is the difference between "I had to help my uncle Jack off a horse.." and "I had to help my uncle jack off a horse.."

WHY DOESNT ANYONE COMMENT ANYMORE!!!! SHADE, WHERE ARE YOU!?!

1 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 12 September :: 4.24pm

my eyes were still swollen this morning when i woke up from crying last night..

:: 2004 11 September :: 9.14pm

i listened to the song 'believe' by yellowcard.. i've always told myself that on 9/11 i'd always listen to the song.. and i did.. hearing the violin in the beginning tears started forming in my eyes.. and when i heard the first line, i started bawling uncontrollably.. and did that for about the next 20 minutes.. i couldnt stop.. i cried at the first line cuz i remembered what the whole song meant to me.. and how true it is.. my face is still red.. half an hour after stopping my crying.. thats how hard i cried.. i got Ali crying too.. shes watching Sal.. thats not good.. but i needed her to hear.. and then i looked at my phone like 5 minutes ago... it said 9:11.. first time i look at the clock in like an hour and it says that.. i dont know what to do with myself.. i found out that frank palumbo is maria's dad.. not just a relative.. and i wanna give her the biggest hug right now.. just to be there for her.. i almost need to hug her.. =[

& you can't save me

:: 2004 11 September :: 7.33pm
:: Mood: crying

today's entry aint about my day.. it's dedicated to all who died on 9/11..

Rest In Peace Robert Scandole

Uncle Rob I miss you sooo much and I know Sheila does too and Emma and Katie and everyone else who loved you. You were a great husband for Sheila and great father for Emma and Katie, a great Uncle for Molly and Courtney and a great person all around.. we love you and miss you sooo much<3 ='(

R.I.P. Billy Lake
I didn't know you all that well but I know how much your wife loves you and Kyler loves you too.. I know they miss you so much.. rest in peace<3

Rest In Peace Frank Palumbo

my dad and i were watching the news.. and i could hear that he was crying.. i didnt have to look at him.. just the sniffs and the sighs told me.. and i was getting there.. but when he just came over to my chair and hugged me and sat there with me i burst into tears.. I'm a mess today.. I'm asking every single one of you to pray for not only the people i mentioned above.. but for every single solitary person who died, every single person who lost somebody, and every single person who was affected in even the slightest way... they all greatly need your prayers..

9/11/01 WE WILL NEVER FORGET