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2004 1 September :: 10.23am
this is an entry for Ali.. first of all, my entries are not public for you to read..they are public for other people... second, why do i have to find out every detail i can for you about kelsey? why cant you fucking ask them yourself?
just leave me alone.. i dunno if you got my text message last night.. but if you didnt, it said 'if you really cared about my life you would call, not read my journal whenever its convenient for you'
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2004 31 August :: 8.07pm
this may be the longest update i've made in a long time..
ok, so alot went on that i need to talk about...
first of all, last night, me and ali got into probably the biggest fight we ever got into.. but i really dont care cuz i dont want a friend who's so quick to replace me.. i say 'i just wanna let you know how good it feels to be replaced' and she says 'what else was i supposed to do? have a crappy end of summer?' so then she calls and i say 'i see how its easier for you to replace than to try and fix things and it lead to alot of calling and hanging up and shit just went down and shes mad at me too so stuff is all.. i dunno, blahhhh...
aaah kelsey's in the hospital!!! shes been there for like a week and a half.. RoRo told me that its cuz her immune system is superr weak and even just a common cold could make her sick for like a week.. they're doing tests on her and everything.. =[
soccer tryouts! cancelled! grrrrrr... moved to thursday.. that messes up everything!!! we were supposed to go to point pleasant tomorrow and stay til friday and maybe go to my aunt's house on friday to say happy birthday and stuff.. but no.... i felt really really really guilty i was soooo upset cuz i felt like no one was gunna have fun cuz of me i was really pissed.. and i told my mom and shes like we'll work it out, im not upset' but i still was cuz i felt like i was to blame for the week being messed up.. we can go to point pleasant and stay over til thursday, but thursday morning we have to leave at like 7:30, which sucks.. and once again, the kids get left home while the parents go and see Southside Johnny.. wait, new information, we go to point pleasant, my dad will probably take me back early thursday morning, and after the tryout i come back down to point pleasant til friday!!!! yay!!!! i cant decide whether i should get alotta sleep or no sleep.. cuz people say that you play better rested but my best game last season, scored three goals, was played when i hadnt slept at all the night before.. its just a thing.. its happened more than once.. i seem to play better with less sleep.. oh well..
dude, i SOO dont like joey anymore, i mean, I DONT TALK TO HIM! come on! how can you like someone you never talk to! ehh, oh well.. i dont care, i love not liking people..!!!
me and kaitlyn went to see without a paddle today.. soooo funny lol kinda gross at parts, but funny.. and me and kaitlyn just started laughing randomly in the middle of it.. i dunno, dun ask.. and there was a song in the backround like 'the big green trees' or whatever and i remember kait's softball song 'the trees are green, the mountains are high, and there is such a blue blue sky!' hahahahaha dont ask!!! it was soo funny.. crazyy mems.. i love those girls.. we had soo much fun.. anyway!! after the movie, i went to carvel to get icecream and fuckkk the cup was big and i was like forcing kaitlyn to share it with me but she wouldnt and i had to eat it all lol.. then we looked at the same picture album kaitlyn has with pictures from when we were really little and like, in girl scouts lol we look at it like once a month lol but its still fun.. haha and theres a picture of caroline looking like shes getting stoned off a plant when she's like 8 and im like haha thats why shes such a mess now! lol i know im soo mean but oh well..
yuckk, shawn came back from Cali, which means i have to deal with him again.. kaitlyn said she was gunna tell him i cant stand him anymore but i said if you do i'll go on your sn and tell anthony you like him hahaha.. anthony's this kid that was like stalking her lol it was pretty funny.. ((love ya kait! =]~))
so then we went down to the field for my bro's soccer practice.. as always, kate oliver was as cute as ever and john cap. was like pissing me off and mike and joey were there!!! i was like yayy! i havent seen them all summer! i saw johnny gearity today too.. but thats not part of the story.. so yeah, me and kaitlyn talked to mike and gosh hes so much cooler outside of school lol hahaha.. i swear, i think its cuz he cant stand being like trapped inside for so long that he spazzes out lol.. his voice is changing.. i could tell.. (finally) lolol sorry.. (crap! shawn just signed on!) and anyway, yea i missed mike.. i told him we'd hang out tomorrow but i thought we werent going away so now i cant hang out with him til like monday.. which sucks cuz hes gunna be mad at me lol.. he made the soccer team for xaverian.. yay! happy for him.. and did i update about how kaitlyn missed her tryout cuz she couldnt find the place? well if i didnt, thats the story, and mike's sister jaime is the assistant coach as of like a few days ago so mike and mr. martin are gunna make jaime try and get kait on the team! yayy lol
my cousin, who's absolutely horrible with needles like me, got her ears pierced!!! yayyy lauren!! im so proud of her!!! and she survived her physical today too.. i might stay over her house saturday night and they'll bring me to Kasia's sunday cuz they're coming.. ohh i hope Chrissy was invited cuz Patrick's gunna be there and Chrissy's in love with Patrick lol hahaha..
ok i gotta go i'll update a lil more later tonight or tomorrow if i can, im going to kaits now so ttyl!!! comment!
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2004 30 August :: 9.47pm
im asking you all to pray for a guy named ryan.. he was struck by lightning, was in a coma for 2 days and may have serious brain damage.. ryan is really close to ashley who means the world to me, so please, give ryan your prayers, AND ashley, cuz they both really need them... comment to lemme know that you will..
please give ryan your prayers!!!
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2004 30 August :: 6.10pm
haha.. im having a grand old time not looking normal in my clothes.. im wearing short shorts and a huge t-shirt.. usually its like, baggy pants and big tshirts or short shorts and tight tops.. and if your hair is nice, your makeup is nice.. but nope, my hair's straight and my makeup's running.. and i love how i look right now!!! =] sorry, im going thru a phase where i dont give a shit how i look!!! i dunno if its a phase actually.. i like it!
i watched new york minute with the olsen twins.. it was cutee.. i didnt think it would be that great but it was pretty good.. some of it was funny lol..
im on the phone with kaitlyn.. HI KAITLYN!!! sorry you didnt get to see kyle =[
comment.. ALL OF YOU!
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2004 30 August :: 2.25pm
thanks to Kalie and Jena who left comments two entries ago.. i needed that..
guess who landed herself a job!?!?!?!!!! me!!!!!! yayyy! and i get to have fun, too! im a ref for soccer and i get like 20-30 bucks a game!! its almost every weekend and each weekend you get 2-3 games so im like sooooo psyched about it.. my mom was like, you know that the coaches give the refs a real hard time about it and im mom, you know me i dont give a shit what people say to me! and shes like yeah alright and i gotta go to a meeting next week sometime, john's gunna lemme know and.. oh yeah so you guys know, it was john slattery who called me.. he's a nice guy.. remembers my name lol =]~
i need to go running.. soccer tryouts tomorrow! wish me luck! eh, you'll see an entry before tomorrow.. forget it lol
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2004 30 August :: 10.24am
hey, you, living for tomorrow,
you sell your dreams for a bucket of change
hey you, smoking up your sorrow
just pointing fingers at someone to blame..
this life's like living in the gutter
all this pain just makes you feel dead
you're just giving it all away
slow down, and just look a little closer, you might find that it's not the end,
you wonder how your life could get better,
when you're alone you just tear yourself down..
try and find your better half now,
open your eyes and find yourself,
hey girl screaming for attention,
once you get it you throw it away,
im broken, picking up the pieces,
i wont live in all your mistakes..
you;re just giving it all away...
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2004 30 August :: 9.30am
sometimes i wonder why i post my thoughts anymore.. all it gets me is trouble.. im thinking of abandoning this.. starting over on greatest journal or something.. and giving only certain people the link.. no more randoms, no more commenting to other people, even though thats how i met kelli and erika and jena and kalie.. who are great people..
sometimes i wonder if its worth it.. the people who have to misinterpret what i say and cause shit..
i didnt mean everyone in the world has it fuckin better than me!!! yet people accuse me of thinking that!!! and someone, who will not be named, thinks that this is the first person that i've ever lost.. which i think is pretty funny.. he thinks just cuz he lost more than the one person i updated about that he's special.. and this causes trouble..
people dont know me or anything that's happened to me.. and i hate that accusations have to be made and trouble started up.. cuz i dont want that.. i want everything to just be ok..
is that too much to fucking ask!?!
comments would be appreciated..
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2004 29 August :: 10.44pm
Some pictures from Warped
Read more..
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2004 29 August :: 5.41pm
the beach today was crazyy.. we get there and like 5 minutes into it, the lifeguards have to go running into the water cuz theres two guys screaming for help.. they went out to the sandbar thats out there and its easy to get out but its a bitch to get back in.. and then the lifeguards had to pull the other 20 people off the sandbar.. there were like 8 lifeguards in the water.. but the two guys that yelled for help, one was ok but then one collapsed and they were like giving him oxygen and carried him away on a stretcher and one of the lifeguards said he was unconcious.. so we were all like.. uh ohh..
heh, when the lifeguard at our post was going into the water, he had to take off his sweatpants and he's halfway down to the water when he realizes hes only in his boxers and that his shorts came down with the sweatpants lol he was so embarrassed.. us and the guy near us were teasin' him lol it was funny but i felt bad for him lol
alright i'll write a lil more about yesterday.. we watched the tape of Kasia's play.. it was soooo funny cuz me and mary knew exactly where there was gunna be noise in the crowd.. when Kasia had to pretend to cry, there was a burst of laughter coming from up front.. that was me, mary and Kasia's friend Geelaine.. (sp?) ima call her Gee.. so then when she had to kiss Bryan, you hear Gee going woowoo!!! lolol it was sooo funny.. and then you could see the weird look on Bryan's face when him and Kasia were standing next to each other and we were making faces at Kasia but she didnt see us, Bryan did, and he thought we were making faces at him.. THAT was funny.. i had to explain to him after the show that i was Kasia's cousin and that was her sister and her best friend making faces at KASIA not YOU lol.. yea but it was funny.. and then Aunt Ann made Kasia sing and i mean, I've heard her sing in her shows but she can belt it.. damnn..
im mad that i didnt get to go running today.. well, theres still time, but i'd have to eat and blow out my hair before i went and i dunno if im up to blowing out my hair today.. i like to just let it dry..
alright, lemme update, i have much more to do right now..
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2004 29 August :: 12.34pm
:: Music: dead on arrival - fall out boy
yeah we had alotta fun last night at Kasia's... me and her dont hate each other anymore lol.. we're cool.. we had soo much fun though.. anywayyy.. um, yeah..
my aunt eileen left a message last night she was really upset about something, my mom shut it off cuz she knew i was listening when you started to hear her crying.. yeah, so we got insane family problems about to go down.. she called like 10 minutes ago too and i talked to her and she didnt sound happy at all.. this isnt the aunt eileen who was at my house the other night.. this is Jessica's mom, Eileen.. and no, it had nothing to do with the dinner lol.. she said it went alright but i could tell she didnt wanna talk about it.. you could hear in her voice she just wanted to talk to my dad (they're cousins lol)).. im going to the beach in like a few minutes.. and i dont want to.. i have too much to do.. i have to finish my summer hw, vacuum my room before my mom kills me, and i have to go running today.. damn.. too much to do with the beach in there at the same time..
i didnt go to mass today.. shit.. my mom didnt wake me up to go.. i woke up at 1030 and i was like uh ohh.. my dad had already left, duhh..
Ali, i replied to all of your comments and left you an entry that had been friends only so you could know how i felt..
Jena, i wanna fly in a helicopterrrrrr lololol.. xoxo
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2004 28 August :: 9.20am
:: Mood: tired..
:: Music: meghan's air conditioner..
I thank Jena for being the only person to comment in like 6 entries!!!!!!!!!!
Thank you
The rest of you suckk..
probably no more entries for the day.. im going to jersey to go in the pool thank goodness i need a pool i've been so hot lately..
I think its funny how if I don't call Ali, she forgets I exist.. heh.. I haven't talked to her in days and she doesn't check my journal for like a week unless I tell her to so she still hasn't seen the entry I posted to her or the reply to the comment and I'm thinking about making that Friends Only entry public so she can read why I'm so pissed.. maybe I'll do that when I'm done here..
I really really really wanna see Green Day in concert on the 21st.. like really really really.. Fall Out Boy is playing a show here too! And I got sooo excited when I saw that! But its the day after Christmas!!! I'm like nooooo wtf!!!! My parents will NEVER let me go the day after Christmas... I'm so pissed!!! But if I don't see them, I'll definitely go see them when they're on the tour thats even better.. Mest, Fall Out Boy, and Matchbook Romance.. three GREAT bands.. like GREAT.. you know, I typed two before I typed three great bands cuz I cant count.. =]
I want Molly and Courtney to come back!!! I miss them!!! Arghh I hope Molly's not too mad that I couldn't come to see the teen show.. uh oh.. I'm making Anthony like me again without trying to!!!
FeArDaRkSLaYeR [9:28 AM]: you sound like the coolest chick ever
he asked me why I wanted to go somewhere so bad and I said cuz we act like we're two and it got into a conversation about like why I love molly and coco so much, cuz i can act completely stupid in front of them and then hes all 'you're like the coolest chick ever' and im like noooooooooo not again... =[
I had a dream about Ashley last night.. my big sis Ashley.. something about Josh and a pair of jeans and a swimming pool? I dunno.. and she lived where Shawn lives.. hahaaa that would be a nice switch!!! hee hee I'm so mean behind his back lol.. ohh wait! The dream also had something to do with a car.. oh well, i dunno.. Ash, if you read this, dont be afraid of me I have strange dreams.. but call me I'm really about to disown you!!! actually I'm sending you an email right now disowning you.. this is what I sent Ashley:
::Dis-owns you::
This is your warning.. I am dis-owning you for now as my big sis because you never talk, never call, never email, never nothing.. this is the warning message.. if we dont talk in the next few days I'm making it official.. talk means more than hello...
-Kristen, for now not known as lil sis
i dont want to dis-own her... but I may have to.. =[ i miss ashley! ::cries::
last night, a helicopter flew by and i got sooo pissed cuz it was 1 am and it was soooooooo low and sooooooo loud.. RrRrRrrr.... i gotta put Dookie onto my iPod.. that's Green Day for those of you who are stupid..
I'm going to update.. cuz I'm very, very afraid I'm going to lose the entry.. another update tomorrow.. once again, Jena, thank you for leaving comments.. the rest of you are not nice
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2004 27 August :: 8.49pm
Kasia, Mary, and Lizzie's birthday party is this weekend.. the Levatinos (my cousins) are coming, but they have to leave around 6.. why? Because Aunt Eileen and Uncle Bobby are going to Jessica's bfs house to meet his parents!!! Which means its totally serious! this is like really big for our family, cuz none of the kids have gotten married yet and I've talked to Jess about him, she's crazy about him! So everyone's like 'oooh maybe she'll get married!!!' Yayy! I hope she does.. i love Jess soo much she seems to be happy with him<3 I mean, I know its nothing definite theres a good chance they wont stay together, but its so funny cuz the whole family is talking about how the Levatinos are going to meet the in-laws lol.. aah! good luck Jess!!! <333
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2004 27 August :: 6.03pm
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:: Music: The Birthday Massacre
Give me something good to die for, to make it beautiful to live
Ugh. I think Emily is mad at me.
My little stepsister was playing on the computer and she said, "This thing keeps popping up," referring to Emily's IM, and it said on there, "If you don't answer me then I'm not talking to you anymore." So I was like, "Sorry, Morgan was using the computer, I just now saw your IM." And she was like, "Whatever." Then she was all PMS-y from then on. Eurgh.
I think I get too upset over little things.
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2004 27 August :: 1.09pm
:: Music: getting away with murder - papa roach..
its soooooo hot.. i feel really dehydrated right now.. and i still have to go running.. oyy.. if i dont run today, my dad's gunna yell at me.. i said i was gunna go running every day and i havent gone in like a week and a half.. oops..
someone give me water!!!
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2004 26 August :: 9.28pm
fuck you Ali.. you want an explanation? look at the reply to your last comment
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