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2004 19 August :: 8.20pm
ExpressGirl1 [8:13 PM]: do u have an oversized carrot in your room and ur parents found out u started eating it and didn't save them much so ur grounded
omg kaitlyn is sooo insane =]
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2004 19 August :: 7.17pm
kalie, i stole this like it said to, but not just cuz of that.. cuz i really really want other people to read this.. PLEASE READ THE FOLLOWING! im begging you..
Read it..I've seen some of you this way...
You've decided to do it. Life is impossible. Suicide is your way out. Fine--but before you kill yourself consider these facts: Suicide is not usually successful. You think you know a guaranteed way?
Ask the 25-year-old who tried to electrocute himself. He lived. But, both his arms are gone. What about jumping? Ask John. He used to be intelligent , with an engaging sense of humor. That was before he leapt from a building. Now, he's brain-damaged and will always need care. He staggers and has seizures. He lives in a fog. But, worst of all, he KNOWS he used to be normal. What about pills?
Ask the 12-year-old with extensive liver damage from an overdose. Have you ever seen anyone die of liver damage? You turn yellow. It's a hard way to go. What about a gun?
Ask the 24-year-old who shot himself in the head. Now he drags one leg, has a useless arm and has no vision or hearing on one side. He lived through his "foolproof" suicide. You might too.
But...Who will clean your blood off the carpet or scrape your brains from the ceiling? Commercial cleaning companies may refuse that job- -but SOMEONE has to do it. Who will have to cut you down from where you hung yourself or identify your bloated body after you've drowned? Your father? Your mother? Your wife? Your son? The carefully worded "loving" suicide note is of no help.
Those who loved you will NEVER completely recover. They'll feel regret and an unending pain. Suicide is contagious. Look around your family. Look closely at the 4 year old playing with his cars on the rug. Kill yourself tonight, and he may do it ten years from now. You DO have other choices. There are people who can help you through this crisis. Call a hotline. Call a friend. Call your minister or priest. Call a doctor or hospital. Call the police.They will tell you that there's hope. Maybe you'll find it in the mail tomorrow. Or in a phone call this weekend. But what you're seeking could be just a minute, a month, or a day away.You say you don't want to be stopped? Still want to do it?Well, then, I may see you in the psychiatric ward later.And we'll work with whatever you have left. IF YOU’RE READING THIS, PLEASE STEAL IT AND PUT IT IN YOUR JOURNAL TOO
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2004 18 August :: 8.46pm
well i aint allowed online for a while.. if i come on im gunna be in shit.. im gunna update quick about my day and then im out for awhile, so if i dont update or comment in your journal, sorry...
me and kait went for lunch and then like wandered 3rd avenue aimlessly for 3 hours lololol.. i went to street sounds and they didnt have 3 of the cds ive wanted sooooo bad.. GRR! and kait had to have her starbucks lol.. and we went to 86th street and kaitlyn took all the cell phone flyers to give to her brother cuz paul always takes her phone.. and joey just called me hun again, and i got the september issue of revolver which is greatttt and ooh! i almost forgot!!! gc - new album - in stores in october - new single is disappointing, but grows on you a lil.. heard it twice in one day.. anyway.. oyy im trying to be my happy self but ali put me in a bitchy mood and its hard.. i still havent told anyone who i saw today cuz i need to back it up with hyperness and i just cant do it.. joey just called me hun AGAIN lol twice in one sitting, thats new.. kaitlyn! and he swallowed the hook! not steven, the fish.. lmao!!! omg that was sooooooooooo funny ur such a syco.. i really thought steven swallowed the hook lol.. and then the thing at the legion with the cheese? omg soo funny i was crackin up the whole way home lol.. yay! that made me hyper again! lol ok im gunna go now.. cuz there wasnt much more to my day except for who i saw which i was like omg for but thats alright..
ASHLEY IF YOU READ THIS, CALL ME.. actually.. ANYONE, IF YOU READ THIS, CALL ME lol
byee! hope you guys dont die while im gone! =]
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2004 18 August :: 8.16pm
I don't want you to give it all up and leave your own life collecting dust...and I don't want you to feel sorry for me, you never gave us a chance to be...i did enough to show you that I was willing to give and sacrifice and I was the one who was lifting you up when you thought your life had had enough... and when I get close you turn away, there's nothing that I can do or say...so now I need you to tell me the truth, you know I'd do that for you...
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2004 18 August :: 7.41pm
omg omg omg! guess who i saw today!!!!!! just guess!!!! leave a comment and guess!
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2004 18 August :: 4.24pm
*joins the crowd*
1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I would kill myself?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your live journal and see what I say about you?
21. Would you ever date me?
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2004 18 August :: 2.18am
Just got through shopping one last time for the ever joyful school.
I got some jeans, some Dr. Martens, socks, and this blazer:
Read more..
YAY.
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2004 18 August :: 12.55am
sry bout all of the 'im bored's before.. but i was really bored lol.. sryyy
i went to the beach today.. mr.clark came down w/patrick and ryan came w/his gf.. shes nice... and sal came, and clark bet ryan 10$ the bald guy with the watermelon shaped head wasnt sal and then my mom was like 'he's wearing an ensemble! its sal!" and it turned out to be sal, so kevin owes ryan 10 bucks...
((in case you are confused, kevin and clark are the same person.. his name is kevin clark but people call him by both names lol))
anyway.. so we played football and stuff.. that was cool.. and then i came home.. and im kinda tired but i dont wanna go to bed.. im just hoping my parents dont find me here cuz im not supposed to be online at 1 am.. actually i literally cant be online at 1 am im on kaitlyns sn..
im talking to matt.. RRC matt.. i've been talking to him all night.. i talked to eric tonight!!! yay!!!! i missed him..
im gunna update cuz im getting tired.. might go to bed soon.. laterrrr
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2004 17 August :: 9.48pm
im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored im so bored!!!
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2004 16 August :: 11.12pm
Warped Tour was fucking awesome. ALOT better than I thought it was going to be. We got there and we waited around until we saw Lars Frederickson and the Bastards. Then we saw Tiger Army and Anti-Flag.
So we were walking around and I see Nick 13 from Tiger Army and wave at him manically. We follow him to his booth, where we get stuff signed, and I watch his non-existent glass eye move about. Then we went and stalked Meggers from the Casualties, and right when he was walking by us, Ashley screamed, "WHERE IS MY DADDY?" right into his ear. Oh my.
So we went to the Casualties booth and Jake signed my CD (and BROKE it =P) and then Meggers was there, so we got back in line, and got a picture with Meggers and Jake. Hopefully Ashley can scan them soon so I can show all you lovely people.
Then we went and stalked Lars. He signed my ticket and it looks like it says "Paul". Multiple personalities, anyone?
Then we went to see The Casualties and were then forced to go home. So that has been my day. And it was lovely.
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2004 16 August :: 9.19pm
:: Mood: see iMood
:: Music: La La
SoFtBaLLgiRL2060 [9:14 PM]: guess what? i can speak spanish! wanna see?
SeAmUsIsmYhOmbOy [9:15 PM]: yea!
SoFtBaLLgiRL2060 [9:16 PM]: hola.. i-o speak-o spanish-o... do-o you-o?
SeAmUsIsmYhOmbOy [9:16 PM]: yes-o i-o speak0o spanish-o like-o you-o!!!!!!!!
SoFtBaLLgiRL2060 [9:16 PM]: lmao-o
SeAmUsIsmYhOmbOy [9:17 PM]: brb-o shower-o
goshhh i keep posting IMs.. sryy if you arent amused by them.. but i am..
i got mad at matt cuz he kept calling me a bitch so i told him to stop cuz every time someone calls me that i flashback to when i was raped lol.. he was like sryy i didnt know and im like cuz it didnt happen sucker.. and then he called me a bitch again.. lmao.. he's like ''im gunna rape you and call you that now" lol hes suchh a moron.. but hey, he's matt.. i nicknamed him jackass lol
ANY SINGLE GUYS OUT THERE BETWEEN 13 AND 15 LEAVE A COMMENT ((yes, im getting a lil desperate but i dont care what people think so.. yea..)) BUT SERIOUSLY, LEAVE A COMMENT lol
i've updated like 60 million times in like 2-3 days.. im such a loser i have no life lol.. shut up ali, i know what you're thinking.. my life really aint that pathetic but oh well..
goshh i cant wait for the first day of school!
oh shit.. i cant believe i just said that.. i gotta go knock some sense into myself..
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2004 16 August :: 8.14pm
me and meg
BlindedByTears2x [8:10 PM]: im gunna throw a fit now, k?
syCosnOwbOardEr3 [8:10 PM]: noo! lmao
BlindedByTears2x [8:10 PM]: (you're supposed to say yes.. just say yes!)
syCosnOwbOardEr3 [8:10 PM]: yes
BlindedByTears2x [8:10 PM]: yay!
syCosnOwbOardEr3 [8:10 PM]: but go find somethin apple
BlindedByTears2x [8:11 PM]: AAAH! i NEED the slushieeee meg! i physically (but mostly mentally) need the sour apple slushie meg i gotta gotta gotta get one meg, oh gosh i may DIE without one!
syCosnOwbOardEr3 [8:11 PM]: no kristen!
BlindedByTears2x [8:11 PM]: ::dies::
BlindedByTears2x [8:11 PM]: ::comes to life to complain bout needing one::
syCosnOwbOardEr3 [8:11 PM]: omg and apple gelati
BlindedByTears2x [8:11 PM]: what!?!
BlindedByTears2x [8:11 PM]: ROAR!!!
BlindedByTears2x [8:12 PM]: i need apple.. ::panting:: gimme gimme gimme i need it meg, i really really do, like real real bad, meg, come on, pleaseeee?
=] there was more lol.. but its X-rated.. confidential between me and meg.. you dont wanna know what side of me came out =]~ ::giggles::
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2004 16 August :: 8.00pm
i signed meg's guestbook and the entry before mine was from some kid a year older than me so i told meg to hook me up.. this was the result of our first conversation.. it was quite funny.. at least, t
BlindedByTears2x [7:54 PM]: hi..
Siamese Dream xO [7:54 PM]: hi
BlindedByTears2x [7:55 PM]: <<--kristen
Siamese Dream xO [7:55 PM]: <-- jack
BlindedByTears2x [7:55 PM]: lol hi jack
Siamese Dream xO [7:55 PM]: hey kristen
Siamese Dream xO [7:56 PM]: ok Kristen, I'm gonna take a little nap now. bbl
BlindedByTears2x [7:56 PM]: lol alright
BlindedByTears2x [7:56 PM]: laterr
Siamese Dream xO [7:56 PM]: ttyl
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2004 16 August :: 7.35pm
:: Music: surrender - ashlee simpson
i'd totally forgotten about my old quote to live by.. i was overcome by my newer one.. but the old one is better
"the more you suffer, the more it shows you really care"
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2004 16 August :: 4.47pm
before i begin, major props to kalie for the blur!!!! wanna know what im talking about? put the mouse over the link to leave a comment! sickk, right?
yes, i am back from the mall! and i didnt get my converse cuz they fit weird.. but i got these DC shoes that rockkk! wanna see em? go here: http://www.journeys.com/catalog_detail.aspx?c=vendors&s=DCShoeCo&id=16018
sryy i couldnt get a link in here for some reason.. just copy and paste that..
i set up an account with greatestjournal too.. its a suckky website though, this one is so much easier... u want the link, i'll give it but there's like nothing in the journal and im like never gunna update it cuz i have this one which im in love with
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