you know you've got everybody fooled

5 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 14 August :: 7.24pm

my gosh!!!!!! no one has commented in an eternity!!! except for kalie.. THANK YOU KALIE... YOU ARE COOL! kalie is the only one that's cool.. the rest of you arent, cuz you dont comment!!!

:: 2004 14 August :: 5.48pm

Well, picked up Christina today at the airport. She was SO surprised, haha. We're all going to the zoo tomorrow, I'll have to push her around in her wheelchair.
Warped Tour is MONDAY, not tomorrow like I thought. I'm about to call Ashley right now to find out the plans.

2 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 14 August :: 5.08pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: bring me to life - evanescence

i feel better bout not going to warped.. more than half of the bands i was dying to see werent at that show lol

:: 2004 13 August :: 11.02pm
:: Music: "Pretty Girls Make Graves" - The Smiths

People Are Strange
Read more..

:: 2004 13 August :: 10.08pm

Well, I got back from the fair a little while ago. Twas pretty fun. Christina's mom called for me today to ask me if I would go with her and Marty to go pick up Christina from the airport tomorrow. Marty kinda freaks me out, but I haven't seen Christina for about a month, so I'm DESPERATE to see her. And then Sunday is the Warped Tour, which I'm going with Ashley. <3

4 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 13 August :: 8.45pm

found this funny..
If Your Child is a Gothic, Reform Through the Lord!

Listed below are some warning signs to indicate if your child may
have gone astray from the Lord.

Gothic (or goth) is a very obscure and often dangerous culture that
young teenagers are prone to participating in. The gothic culture
leads young, susceptible minds into an imagined world of evil, darkness,
and violence. Please seek immediate attention through counselling,
prayer, and parental guidance to rid your child of Satan's temptations if
five or more of the following are applicable to your child:

-Frequently wears black clothing.
-Wears band and/or rock t-shirts.
-Wears excessive black eye makeup, lipstick or nailpolish.
-Wears any odd, silver jewelry or symbols. Some of these include:
reversed crosses, pentagrams, pentacles, ankhs or various other
Satanic worshipping symbols.
-Shows an interest in piercings or tattoos.
-Listens to gothic or any other anti-social genres of music. (Marilyn
Manson claims to be the anti-Christ, and publicly speaks against the
Lord. Please discard any such albums IMMEDIATELY.)
-Associates with other people that dress, act or speak eccentrically.
-Shows a declining interest in wholesome activities, such as: the
Bible, prayer, church or sports.
-Shows an increasing interest in death, vampires, magic, the occult,
witchcraft or anything else that involves Satan.
-Takes drugs.
-Drinks alcohol.
-Is suicidal and/or depressed.
-Cuts, burns or partakes in any other method of self-mutilation.
(This is a Satanic ritual that uses pain to detract from the light of God
and His love. Please seek immediate attention for this at your local
mental health center.)
-Complains of boredom.
-Sleeps too excessively or too little.
-Is excessively awake during the night.
-Dislikes sunlight or any other form of light. (This pertains to
vampires promoting the idea that His light is of no use.)
-Demands an unusual amount of privacy.
-Spends large amounts of time alone.
-Requests time alone and quietness. (This is so that your chid may
speak to evil sprits through meditation.)
-Insists on spending time with friends while unaccompanied by an
adult.
-Disregards authority figures; teachers, priests, nuns and elders are
but a few examples of this.
-Misbehaves at school.
-Misbehaves at home.
-Eats excessively or too little.
-Eats goth-related foods. Count Dracula cereal is an example of this.
-Drinks blood or expresses an interest in drinking blood. (Vampires
believe this is how to attain Satan. This act is very dangerous and
should be stopped immediately.)
-Watches cable television or any other corrupted media sources. (Ask
your local church for proper programs that your child may watch.)
-Plays videos games that contains violence or role-playing nature.
-Uses the internet excessively and frequently makes time for the
computer.
-Makes Satanic symbols and/or violently shakes head to music.
-Dances to music in a provocative or sexual manner.
-Expresses an interest in sex.
-Masturbates
-Is homosexual and/or bisexual.
-Pursues dangerous cult religions. Such include: Satanism,
Scientology, Philosophy, Paganism, Wicca, Hinduism and Buddhism.
-Wears pins, stickers or anything else that contains these various
phrases: "I'm so gothic, I'm dead", "woe is me", "I'm a goth".
-Claims to be a goth.

If five or more of these apply to your child, please intervene
immediately. The gothic culture is dangerous and Satan thrives within
it. If any of these problems persist, enlist your child into your
local mental health center.

:: 2004 13 August :: 8.40pm

i just thought of something.. give your opinion on it... ANYBODY.. dont care if i dont know you.. i want opinions...

sometimes i think that we love someone so much that we become numb to it.. because if we knew how much we loved them, it would kill us...

:: 2004 13 August :: 8.27pm

Basics
Name:: kristen
Birthplace:: brooklynnn
Birthdate:: 6/7/90
Current City of Residence:: brooklyn
Family Members:: mom, dad, brother
Favorites
Color:: black and red
Beverage:: water
Movie:: identity
Musical:: music or actual musical?
Board Game:: monopoly
Computer Game:: i havent played computer games in awhile
Game to Roleplay:: ??
Animal:: dogs
Sport:: football
Book:: i dont know
A Day In The Life..
School:: what about it?
Typical Mood:: hyper
Usually Found?:: on the phone
Collects:: cds
Have You Ever
Been kissed:: nah
Done drugs:: nope
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no lol
Eaten sushi:: no i hate fish
Been on stage:: yes
Been in a car accident:: no
This or That
Cold or Hot:: hot
Blue or Red:: blue
Rain or Snow:: rain
Wool or Cotton:: cotton
Private or Public School:: private i guess...
Chocolate or Plain Milk:: plain
Celsius or Farenheit:: farenheit??
Spring or Fall:: fall
Science or History:: science
Math or English:: math
"Love Life"
Do you like somebody?:: no
Do they know?::
Do you want them?::
Are they hot?::
Random
Who do you e-mail the most?: i dont usually email...
Who do you IM the most?: ashley
Who are you talking to now?:: paul and james
Are you currently in love?:: no
Is this survey lame?:: nope
In 24 hours have you...
...Had a serious talk?:: no lol
...Hugged someone?:: yes
...Gotten along with your parents?:: yes
...Fought with a friend?:: yes
...Done something kind for someone?: yes
Do You Like To...
Give hugs?:: yes!
Give back rubs?:: no
Take walks in the rain?:: yes
Cook?:: it depends what im cooking
Eat?:: yes! i love that!
Sleep?:: yes! i love that just as much as eating!
Who..?
..Knows you the best?:: ali and ashley
..Have you known the longest?::tim and joe
..Do you know the most about?:: ali and ashley
..Do you consider your friend?:: i consider alotta people my friend...
..Is most likely to end up in jail?:: nocco... nah actually hes smart enough not to get caught.. one of them will eventually though..
..Can you go to with your problems?:: ali and ashley and tim and my journal
..Do you want to get to know better?:: no one at the moment
..Do you spend the most time with?:: uhh my family
Have You...
..Been to a concert?:: no.
..Loved someone so much it made you cry?:: i cried but i didnt love
..Cheated on a test?:: yes
..Ever stalked someone?:: jokingly
..Done something you regret?:: duh yes
..Been in an online relationship?:: ehh came close! long story... i know SOOO many people thru aol its stupid.. but hey, i met ash that way (xoxo ash)
Random Questions
Single or Hooked?:: single!
What is your worst habit?:: i dunno
Scariest moment?:: i almost killed myself yesterday lmaooo.. details? leave a comment
Do you swear too much?:: eh.. nah i dont think so
How do you feel about homosexuality?:: i have absolutely no problem with it
Where are you right now?:: at my computer.. duh
Are you sitting by anyone?:: no
What song are you listening to?:: addicted.. simple plan... warped radio on aol! woot!
What is the last thing you said?:: anyway
What's on your mousepad?:: red
What are the last four digits of your phone number?:: which one?
What was the last thing you ate?:: cookies
If you were a crayon, what color would you be?:: something bright.. like orange
How many buddies do you have on your list?:: i dunno.. dun wanna add up the groups
What's the weather like right now?:: i dunno its night and humid
What do you feel like doing?:: i dunno.. jumping around and yelling at shawn
What is your favorite quote?:: what i put 2 entries ago

:: 2004 13 August :: 8.06pm
:: Music: the pros and cons of breathing - fall out boy

***What is your favorite..***
gum: orbit!
restaurant: santa fe ((suprise suprise))
drink: strawberry daquiri
season: summer
type of weather: nice lol
emotion: happy
thing to do on a half day: lunch and movies!
late-night activity: phone and magazines!
sport: skating, soccer, softball, football
city: brooklyn!
store: pacsun! i could live off that store i swear

***When was the last time you..***
cried: couple days ago
played a sport: i went running yesterday if that counts.. if not, i played football last weekend
laughed: today
hugged someone: today
felt depressed: dont remember
felt elated: that means...?
felt overworked: like last week
faked sick: dont remember
lied: i dunno i dont keep track of my lies lol

***What was the last..***
word you said: house
thing you ate: cookies
song you listened to: im listening to 'chicago is so two years ago' by fall out boy
thing you drank?: milk
place you went to: the deli.. i saw my friend! lol
movie you saw: bend it like beckham.. on hbo like every day and i love it!
movie you rented: i dont remember
concert you attended: dunno

***Who was the last person you..***
hugged: my mom lol
cried over: dont remember.. i havent cried over a guy in a LONG time
danced with: myself! i dance with myself every day!
shared a secret with: ali... I STILL CANT BELIEVE I SAID THAT OUT LOUD! lmao
had a sleepover with: ali
called: ali
went to a movie with: my family
saw: my mom
were angry with: shawn.. still mad, too
couldn't take your eyes off of: the guy at the park in LBI lol ali!!!
obsessed over: 2 ryans.. cabrera and key.. my new obsession is soon to be the guy from Matchbook Romance.. GOSH HES HOTT!

***Have you ever..***
danced in the rain: yes! omg it was funny lol you want details leave a comment
kissed someone: nope
done drugs: um.. like to make me get better when im sick
drank alcohol: yes
slept around: ew no
partied 'til the sun came up: yes!
had a movie marathon: yessss
gone too far on a dare: no
spun until you were immensely dizzy: yes like a million times
taken a survey quite like this before: yes i enjoy them lol

:: 2004 13 August :: 5.45pm

truest words i've heard in a long time..
sometimes i just cant tell the difference
between your touch
& a burn from a fire
its like i dont even know you anymore.

im thinking of saying that to shawn...

he tells me 'i can tell you anything' yet i just find out yesterday that he's had a chick since july 18th! almost a month i dont know something like hes got a girl! half the frickin world knew before i did... my cousin knew! and i didnt! yet im the one he 'can trust the most'

bull shit!

:: 2004 13 August :: 5.36pm

getting away with murder
Somewhere beyond happiness and sadness
I need to calculate
What creates my own madness
And I'm addicted to your punishment
And you're the master
And I am waiting for disaster

I feel irrational
So confrontational
To tell the truth I am
Getting away with murder
It isn't possible
To never tell the truth
But the reality is I'm getting away with murder

I drink my drink and I don't even want to
I think my thoughts when I don't even need to
I never look back cause I don't even want to
And I don't need to
Because I'm getting away with murder

2 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 12 August :: 8.40pm

We are young, heartache to heartache we stand
No promises, no demands
Love is a battlefield

cant go online for awhile... thats why i havent updated.. gotta do ALOTTA summer work... and im busy running the track at fort and stuff i gotta get in shape for soccer...

leave a comment, even if it just says hi... lemme know someone's out there!

:: 2004 12 August :: 6.08am

Well I'm going over to my aunt's tonight and we're all going to the state fair tomorrow morning. I don't think I've ever been to a STATE fair, just the county ones around here. Sadly, this is the highlight of my week.
So I guess I'll see you all Friday night or Saturday. Mehaw.