you know you've got everybody fooled

2 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 8 August :: 11.11pm

I have the songs from Grease stuck in my head.

:: 2004 8 August :: 7.20am
:: Music: <3333333333333

A Forest - The Cure
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Me lover that song.

:: 2004 7 August :: 6.31pm
:: Music: autobiography - ashlee simpson

you think you know me...word on the street is that do.. you want my history... what others tell you wont be true... i walked a thousand miles while everyone was asleep.. no one's really seen my million subtleties! got stains on my t-shirt, and im the biggest flirt! right now im solo but that will be changing eventually...i laugh more than i cry, you piss me off goodbye! got bruises on my heart and sometimes i get dark... if you want my autobiography baby just ask me!

:: 2004 7 August :: 8.29am

ok, sry bout that last update complaining bout u know what... oh right... some of you dont... cuz it was FRIENDS ONLY... yea, that means only my FRIENDS can see it... got it?

LBI was alright.. house was huge... 3 houses from the beach... we played football on the beach that was sooo funny.. and we were in the park checkin out the guys... and we played minigolf with 36 holes and we played hide and seek! my favorite game!.. yea so stuff was alright

::starts to do a dance:: i talked to joey, i talked to joey, i talked to joey...

i couldnt decide if he hung up or if his battery on his cell phone died...

its 830 in the morning im gunna go do the rest of what i need to do online and then im gunna see if i can sleep again and if not im gunna go watch tv and see if the xgames from last night are re-playing cuz i missed them.. cuz we went to kasia's show! roar i miss my cousins sooo much... we had so much fun, they did oklahoma nd it was soo cute and me and kasia's friend and mary.. when kasia was pretending to cry, busted out laughing when the whole audience was silent cuz we know her soooo well and it was hysterical.. and then when the lights went off on stage, kasia was wearing a white dress and the time and we saw her trip lol... and her friend brian who was the other lead, his foot got caught in the wire when he was coming onto the stage lol.. he was cool about it though.. once he got his foot out lol.. kasia's friend was sooooooo funny... i dunno how to spell her name so i aint gunna spell it... i know how to say it! lol

im out.. im gunna leave another friends only entry so if ur reading this now and there's nothing above it and you're a friend, hold up for 5 minutes

2 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 7 August :: 7.51am
:: Music: Ursher

In da club wit mah homies.
I just put that Gazelle Exercise thing together and MAN DOES IT HURT. I just exercised for the first time in months. Well, REAL exercise. And that Total Gym thing hurts your arms too. Well, it hurts mine.
MAYBE I CAN GET SKINNY BEFORE SCHOOL STARTS. =P

3 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 5 August :: 6.31am

Ugh
I went over to my dad's last night.
"I told you a lie," he said when we were sitting down.
"What did you lie to me about?" I asked him.
"I didn't drop Paris (my kitten) off at PAWS like I said."
"What did you do with her?"
"I dropped her off on a back road." (I already thought this.)
"Why didn't you take her to PAWS?"
"I wanted to get her out of my life as quickly as possible."
"You could have at least had the respect for her to drop her off somewhere where she could be adopted and have a life. She's probably dead now."
"Cats know how to get food".
"She was only a baby!" At this point he gets mad at me and slams his door. It's not my fault he was so inconsiderate.

I honestly don't see how anyone could do that to any animal. How could he have stood it when he dropped her off and saw her looking back at him when he was driving away. Oh god I'm going to make myself cry. I just hope that she got picked up, which I know she didn't. Now every time it storms I get sick to my stomach.

10 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 4 August :: 7.08am

Wahooo
My webcam decided not to be SO MUCH of a whore, and let me take some halfway decent pictures.

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:: 2004 3 August :: 9.55pm
:: Mood: pissy!!!
:: Music: pieces of me - ashlee simpson

dammit im in such a pissy mood and its shawn's fault... i was already cranky but he pushed my temper and now im gunna blow up at the first person that crosses my path... ali watch out...

shawn aint gettin no phone call from me tonight..!!!

:: 2004 3 August :: 4.29pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Dresden Dolls

-=CUT=-
Well, I cut it.
My hair is no longer long. I got it cut to my shoulders. I hope it doesn't look stupid.

:: 2004 2 August :: 11.34pm
:: Music: Rachel Stamp

I feel like a mooch.

:: 2004 2 August :: 9.38pm

Don't know what I was looking for when I went home, I found me alone...Sometimes, I need someone to say, you'll be alright, what's on your mind?...But the waters shallow here, and I am full of fear...And empty handed after two long years...
Back home, I always thought I wanted so much more, now im not too sure... Cause sometimes, I miss knowing someones there for me and feeling free... free to stand beside the ocean in moonlight and light myself a smoke beneath the dark atlantic sky... everybody here is living life in fear of falling out of line, tearing lives apart breakin lots of hearts just to pass the time...And the eyes get red in the back of your head, this place will make you blind, put it all behind me and I'll be just fine....

& you can't save me

:: 2004 2 August :: 2.44am

URGH
I don't know which one to get.
Dekoy: http://cdbaby.com/cd/dekoy

OR

Rachel Stamp: http://cdbaby.com/cd/rachelstamp

I HATE NOT BEING ABLE TO DECIDE

:: 2004 1 August :: 11.54pm
:: Music: Dekoy

URGH
I just spent the last hour and a half walking around my neighborhood searching for my dog who got out AGAIN. We found her, she was up by Speedway gas station, about to go into a huge intersection. My feet hurt so bad. At least we found her though. I love that dinky little dog. <3

:: 2004 1 August :: 7.14pm

new stuff at the bottom!
whoaa im back!!! it was fun... here's my day to day:

Sunday:
We got there at like 4:00... and we unpacked and did our food shopping and went to dinner... nothing exciting to talk about...

Monday:
We went to the beach and we went to the pool (nice heated pool! lol) and i had chocolate chip pancakes for breakfast lol ali you know how much i wanted those.. umm, yea we went to dinner at pizza hut lol... ooh! and we played mini golf! and i sucked! ha! lol .. the one we played was hard though... ohh and we went to the boardwalk that night... we saw peter there! lolol i did a double take i was like wait what? lmao yeah so he was there... he got one of his ears pierced... looks good... if any of you are wondering whether or not im still holding a grudge against him for trying to use me, im not lol.. but there was this guy... ooooh this guy was HOTT! he was a skaterrr<3 you know how i love my skaters! goshh i want one soo bad lol.. but his smile was soo cutee.. and he had the hair i love... the hair down to the neck.. ::squeals:: aaah he was soooooooooo completely gorgeous... ::points to me:: totally crushinn lol and i'll never see him again in my entire life lol but thats ok... enough about monday..

Tuesday:
it was nicee... we went to the beach and the pool and stuff... umm... where'd we go to eat? ohh yea we went to cape may and ate at henry's and me and my mom stole the rolls!!! lmaooo dont ask it was really funny thoughh... and we went shopping in the lil mall its soo cute its got all these lil shops in it and stuff and its just really cute lol and i got a pair of capris... and then it started with the major lightning and it was scary... oh yea it was my mom's bday too lol

Wednesday:
It rained... alot... the streets were flooded lol... we saw the bourne supremacy omggg frickinn good movie!! see it! seriously it rocked my socks... we went back to cape may and ate there and i had a strawberry daquiri lol dun worry, virgin... but it was good lol with whipped cream on top it was soo good lololol sryy hyper...

Thursday:
Gorgeous day... thats the day i was in the water all day and i met this kid... love his hair lol its the hair down to the neck lol hes so sweet he was from pennsylvania... ya know how guys love to talk about themselves? he does lol and he shows it but i think thats cute cuz he's not afraid to show who he is... he asked me for my sn like the first half hour we talked lol so yea i got his but email wont go through for some reason... oh well, i'll wait til he's home and he signs on... we went to duffinetti's for dinner... chocolate cake to DIE for dammit... our waitress was polish lol my dad was talking to her in polish like every time she came over to the table lol

Friday:
went to the beach and the pool and got pizza hut take out for dinner lol... oh and we went to the lil water park that's there... it was fun... talked to my friend again lol... and we packed that night..

Saturday:
We left! and i didnt say goodbye to my friend! =[ oh well... umm, so it took us three frickin hours to get to point pleasant! it should have taken one! roar... yeah so we went to the beach with uncle marc and aunt kathy and chrissy and tj... lots to tell from that trip lol gosh our parents took 3 hours to eat dinner... ha.. yea right... then at 12 they went out again and werent back til 2! we think chrissy's mom got drunk... long story... wanna know the story, leave a comment i aint typing it, its long.. yeah and we went to the boardwalk and my brother played this game where like you gotta get a football thru this moving tire and this guy in like his 20s is trying to do it, he tries like 10 times and he says, alright i'll pay for 6 more, give this kid 3 and he points to my brother... now this guy was a total loudmouth hes like 'this is my main man right here, hes gunna get it' and all this crap that was hysterical... so the first ball my 10-year old brother throws, he gets in lol... it was kindaa funny...

Sunday:
i woke up, me and chrissy watched road rules for a lil while and then we started watching a movie and then i left and i signed online and i did everything that i needed to do online and yea... now just my regular daily entry:

ok whew done with the days that took me awhile... anyway.. i want my dad's friend to call so we can go out to long island and see his hott sons lol teehee.. he calls every summer but he hasnt called yet and i hope he calls really soon... CUZ I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANNA GO!!! gosh my fall out boy cd rules.. ali wont call me back and its getting me pissed... i need to talk to her for like awhile at a time... just to clear up everything that i havent said this past week that needed to be said cuz i cant say it to everyone else.. i mean, i talked to chrissy a lil yesterdayy but ali's the only one i can really trust... AND SHE WONT CALL!!! i know ur gunna read this ali, you suckk.. i want to talk to the guy i met! ::cries:: ...ok i updated cuz i was gunna get kicked offline last night but i wasnt done with my entry... for those of you who read it, heres more: i talked to joey last night!!! ::smiles!!!:: i talked to him online first and after that i got really giggly lol i called ali and giggled to her lol... like the first thing he did, though, was give me his number lol =] and i gave him mine and he called me last night<3 he had to go cuz his battery was shot but then i called ali and i lost service but couldnt call her house back cuz it was like really late lol and she didnt call me back so, yea.. then i called shawn, and he might still like me ::cries:: nooo! not good! but he knows about joey so oh well... and adam doesnt like me!!!!! yay!!!.. oy.. my xanga aint updating right... grr.. OMG I LOVE MY FALLOUT BOY CD!! "wish that i was as invisible as you make me feel!" i could live by that line... im talking to joey right now lol.. yay.. ali gave me an idea to ask him what he likes in a chick... and im going to like any minute lol... ok scratch that, i just asked him lol.. now a smart guy would say 'everything you have' but not that many guys are that smart lol.. grr still no answer.. he could be typing lol.. i called tim last night and we talked for... oh.. 5 minutes? lol he said he had to go so i was like whatever... he kept bugging me last time i talked to him about how i wasnt talking to any guys that i liked and i didnt get to tell him that i am now lol.. ok joey answered:
stud81ng [11:28 AM]: umm definitely pretty and always smiles but I like a girl who is nice and not a slut I like a really sweet girl with a personality
everything was good except for the first part lol but hey, he's a guy can you blame him? lol.. hey, im always smiling lol.. maybe a lil too much lmaoo... and i got personality...which can be seen in my excessive energy bursts lol.. im not always sweet though lmaoo ali knows that =]~*.. i was reading the paper this morning... they got major info on terror threats and stuff.. got main targets and everything... in ny its like nyse and something else shit i cant remember... so they boosted security there and everything but the level is on orange at least til the elections... i dont like that... it scares me... i mean, new york has been on orange for a long time but its like DC and other places too now... i dont like that... after 9/11 being here, any attack in the states is gunna have a hugeeee impact on me cuz i'll know how other people are feeling too and its a pretty sucky feeling.. oyy i wont be able to go online for awhile cuz once i sign off, im not online til i finish my next book for summer homework and it might take me awhile so this is my last update for a couple of days... leave some love or call me whenever!! mwaaa laterrrr

3 not real | & you can't save me