you know you've got everybody fooled

1 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 16 March :: 11.43am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: "Wicked" - Switchblade Symphony

My Jade Ring Can Beat Up Your Jade Ring
I cleared out my room last night, and my new bed (which is HUGE), my new chest, and my new dresser with a humongus mirror came last night. I slept on my bed and it's like 4 feet off the ground. I hope I don't roll off. I still have to paint my room and all, and since the furniture is like, shiny black 50s style, I was wanting to do it kinda 50s style. So I was thinking maybe a pink with my black furniture or something, I don't know. Any suggestions from you guys?
Anyways, we have a snow day today. *dances somewhat* I'm glad since we're off school but I'm a bit tired of all this cold weather. I'm ready for spring. Oh well, our weather has been so messed up lately it'll probably be 50 degrees tomorrow. *shrugs* Well, see you all later.

:: 2004 15 March :: 7.38pm

got some nice pictures goin on over here... pictures of HOT GUYS kinda pictures =] yeaa... anyway... im watching alia as well as coco now on mondays... but thats ok cuz shes a sweet girl and i like her lol

ANYWAY!!!!!

la la la i DROOL over benji's guitar cuz its soooooo hottt omGgg... and so is he... but thats beside the point i LOVE his guitar sooo much what i would give to play it... aah!

haha coco knew my cousin's sn before i did...

dont ask...

i like hott guys... what girl doesnt???

:: 2004 15 March :: 6.39pm

Emily and My Ruin
In all of this *ahem* excitement going on, I FAILED to mention that Emily met Tairrie B. and Yael of My Ruin! She went to their gig last Friday (I was supposed to go, but apparently couldn't), and she sent me pictures a couple days ago.
The pictures are too big for me to post them right here, so I'll give you the links because I'm just so cool like that. *puts on sunglasses*

Her and Tairrie : http://blacktears844.250free.com/meandtairrie.jpg
Her and Yael : http://blacktears844.250free.com/meandyael.jpg

She's so lucky. *shakes fist*

:: 2004 15 March :: 4.01pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: the best of me - the starting line

i dont wanna be told to grow up
and i dont wanna change
i just wanna have fun
i dont wanna grow up

softball canceled this weekend... grrr

OMG!!!! I HAVE TO GET A BLOOD TEST SOON!!!! OMG IM GUNNA DIE!!! crappppppppp i really really dont wanna... ::shudders:: i hate needles

omg im about to cry... coco's being soo mean! shes torturing me with how her tb test wasnt just a poke like the last one i can remember... how they like dug deep into the skin nd stuff AAH!!! i must have screamed a good 20 times... you have no idea how much i screamed she brought me on the verge of tears i had to put the speaker of the computer up to my ear to hear the music playing and had to SCREAM the words so i couldnt hear her... its simple plan... addicted... u know how they go "heartbreaker!" yea well she had just been talking about how the needle goes thru the vein and stuff for the blood test and she screams "VEIN BREAKER!" i screamed soo loud anyone walking by the house would have been like wtf...so mean...

i need to go cry to myself in my own little corner...

hmm... i already did that today..

1 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 15 March :: 4.09pm
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: "Black Juju" - Alice Cooper

Luvable Stitches
I have to completely clear out my WHOLE room, on account of I'm getting a new bedroom suit. I'm way too lazy to even get up from my chair. RAWR. *is even too lazy to write in this*

2 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 14 March :: 10.26pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: "Death Sex" - Distillers

Wish That You Didn't Love Me No More
Well, I got back from Chicago last night. Twas pretty fun. I went to load the bus at 4:45 AM Friday morning, and we got to Chicago around 11:00. We went to this little village place and ate there, then we checked into the hotel. We had about a half hour to get ready for this fiesta thing and that lasted until about 9:00. I got so sick on the food though, I didn't eat anything Saturday and I'm barely eating today. All in all it was fun though. We went shopping Saturday morning on the Magnificent Mile and I got The Distillers "Coral Fang" CD and the Alice Cooper "Love It To Death" CD FINALLY. I'd been searching for it forever and finally found it in Chicago. *dances* Anyways, I'll have pictures on Thursday, since the picture place has to send it out and do....some stuff, oh whatever, so yeah. See you all later, I'm about to eat dinner. At....10:15 at night....joy. Ta.

3 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 12 March :: 6.40pm
:: Mood: blaaaaaahhhhh
:: Music: my mix!!! cuz it worked!!!! hahahahaha

Mood: la la la
Clothes: black shirt, black pants, black nails, black makeup, black everything... except my eyes those are blue
Thinking: i want cake...
Wanting: the world to stop being evil
Weather: i dunno... its like dark...
Loving: absolutely nothing
Hating: everything in the world except my music and the color black
Watching: the screen
Most overused phrase: shut up, i hate you
What's all on your wall in your room: PICTURES OF BLINK!
What song describes you best: the young and the hopeless
Your current boyfriend/girlfriend: single and satisfied!
Funniest memory: um... alot... the seizure fish!!!!!!! rofl or maybe buttsniff... NEVER SEE JEEPERS CREEPERS 2 IT WAS SO BAD AND THE BLACK GUYS DIED FIRST AND THE REALLY UGLY BLONDE KID YELLED 'SHUT UP YOU LITTLE BUTTSNIFF!'
Saddest memory: 9/11/01<3 RIP rob scandole<3
Best Sexual memory: i dont have any! haha
Had sex more then once in a period of 5 hours: oooooh yea lol
Do you like humping things: uh... no.
Ever stuck your tounge out and wink at a hot girl that passed by: haha thats a good idea... but no.
Do you bark out the window: occasionally =]
Where do you go to school: st. a's but soon to be sshs!!!
Last person to make your heart fall to your feet: that is a secret and no one will ever know
Last person you were in love with: still a secret
Makes you piss yourself laughing: steph lol we laugh way to hard girl
Annoys you: almost everyone in the entire world
You miss the most: i miss ashley<3 come back!!! im so lonely!!!
Were in a car with: um... mom
Was over your house last: my aunt... last night... and her bf... we watched the apprentice lol... thats a good showw
You haven't talked to in months: seems like ashley..
Last person you kissed: no one at all knows that not even ashley so dont expect me to be telling the world
Last persons house you were at: molly and courtney's lol
Last person that IMed you: jess
Acts like you the most: caroline... jump off bitch!
Has changed the most: me...
Are you most likely to marry: if i knew id be engaged!
Lied about your age: yea i tell people im 2...
Broke the law: ::looks around:: um... ::runs away::
Cried in public: i almost did today... and no im not telling you why its not for you to know
Commited suicide: i dont wanna talk about it...
Ran away from home: no lol
Ran away from home and got caught: if i didnt run then i didnt get caught
Been attracted to the same sex: no

Pick a band/ musician: good charlotte!
Answer the questions using only their song titles.
1. Are you male or female: riot girl
2. Describe yourself:the young and the hopeless
3. How do some people feel about you?: say anything, i heard you
4. How do you feel about yourself?:emotionless, wondering
5. Describe an old girlfriend/boyfriend/interest: movin on
6. Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend/interest: emotionless
7. Where are you?: east coast anthem
8. Where would you rather be?: a new beginning
9. Describe what you want to be: the day that i die
10. Describe how you live: walk by, wondering
11. Describe how you love: complicated
12. Share a few words of wisdom: CHANGE!

hmm... that was a good band to pick... i like the last one... just change... all of you...

//people suck... deal with it\\

4 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 11 March :: 8.00pm

Chicago in less than.....*counts down* 10 hours!
Yes, I have calculated this, kiddies.
I've got a disposable camera that converts to digital or something....so I'll be able to post up my pictures I take up here! *dances*
Well....I'm here with my aunt watching the Home and Garden channel...fun stuff.
See you all later.

:: 2004 11 March :: 8.00pm

:: 2004 11 March :: 7.18pm
:: Mood: BORED!
:: Music: seasons - gc

heyy... omg dance almost killed me... krissy nd me were like doubling over cuz we were so tired.. aah im soo good i might be gettin ali and matt back together<3 cuz i have skills! he actually listened to me! he doesnt listen to anyone and he listened to me cuz i have skills!!! woot!

Auto response from Alicatt87 [7:16 PM]: no guy is worth ur tears... and wen u find 1 dat is... he wont make u cry...
BlindedByTears2x [7:16 PM]: if u wont listen to me, listen to what your own away message just said...

seriously... ali stop crying... you dont have the music to jerk the tears too in that song<3 i, i wanna fall in love, tonight! and i remember when u said, everything, is gunna be alright...

life sucks...

i got buddha today...

the unscratched one ::coughlorrainecough::

ali almost lost it...

bitch...

just kidding...

anyway... im really bored... and i almost put a bullet thru alis head cuz she really couldnt find the cd... grr...
'OCTOBER AIR REMINDS ME OF ALL THE SEASONS OF YOUR LOVE AND WHAT IT WAS LIKE WHEN WE WERE TOGETHER!' oops... no caps... i didnt even realize i did that...

i miss ashley... we had such a good convo last time we talked... i miss those convos... =[

stupid people all around me... people in brooklyn judge so much... its like i dun care what you think... why do you spend so much time trying to let me know u dont like me... if u dont like me then stay away from me... assholes...

i need to clean my ring...

i need a shower too... i got all sweaty from dance... for the first time in awhile...

i wish people would just shut up... i hate people... they're so judgemental and expecting and needy... why cant people just be independent...gc describes it perfectly in two songs...
I DONT REALLY WANNA BE LIKE YOU
I DONT WANNA DO THE THINGS YOU DO
I NEVER WANNA HEAR THE WORDS YOU SAY

dont care about a thing today, i used to but im fed up, and i can hear the words you say, i wish that you would shut up, i dont want your boring life, i dont want your 9 to 5 or anyone to tell me how to live my life

thank you very much
now i have to get to my homework, which is an evil demon who is taking over the earth using giant man eating flies. bye.

1 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 10 March :: 7.19pm

2 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 10 March :: 3.32pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Trollhammaren or whatever Daniel sent me

Mother, may I dance with danger?
No connections today. *curses*
Only two days until Chicago. :) School was alright, nothing special.
*is incredibly bored* RAWR. I'm going to go pick the wings off of some flies and pin them to my wall.
*dies*

3 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 9 March :: 3.55pm
:: Mood: connected MOOHA
:: Music: Danzig....in honor of the CONNECTION

Have I told ya, you can really get it on?
I MADE A CONNECTION.
Well, sort of. I went up to that guy I liked today and told him I was going to steal his Danzig shirt. Then he told me he was going to steal my AFI shirt. IT'S A CONNECTION.
As small as it was....the connection was made, kiddies. *brags*
I finished my White Oleander book. I'm going to read Big Fish now. Funny how I always read books that are later made into movies. See you people later, you know I love you, bye bye. ;)