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2004 27 February :: 9.29pm
:: Mood: OWWW... cramps!
:: Music: way away -- yellowcard
hmm... i have really bad cramps nd i just wanna roll over nd die!!! =] haha i saw trevor today nd jens mad cuz iput him on the phonee =] =] =] aaah i wanna throw up! more later i have to go shoot myself cuz i feel so miserable
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2004 27 February :: 4.16pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: My Ruin
Radio Silence
God, I never update this thing. Mostly because my life is so fucking routine. I want something to happen, something out of the ordinary.
I'm going over to Emily's tomorrow hopefully. I haven't seen her in a looong time.
 DAYUM she is perrrty. :)
I took a couple new pics of moi today as well, but only one turned out halfway decent.
Eh. See you all later. Maybe.
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2004 25 February :: 8.06pm
:: Mood: .um.
oOoh boy... ali nd oliver... i dun get it... but do i ever get anything? no... im so freakin tired right now... i could fall asleep... and its 8:oo... messed up? ya... well i guess its cuz ive been going to bed @ 12 nd waking up @ 6.. i need at least 13 hours of sleep a night lol you all know i dot get that during the week but i like to pretend i do... the whole thing w/steve nd ali though... i think he'll treat her right... even though im no fan of his, i think hes gunna be smart enough to respect her, nd not move to fast, like matt did, nd not be too short nd ignore her like anthony... ali if ur reading this sryy baby gurl but its how i feel.. nd if u hate me for saying this stuff, just remember i tell u the truth, no matter how much it hurts, cuz i care! ok? cuz i care... even if u get mad at me cuz u think im totally cruel nd that i have no sympathy... i tell ya the truth...
ashley you have missed SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH! baby gurl u my big sis im a mess w/out youu there to keep me together... ur the one that actually keeps me sane!!!! oooh u would have laughed soo hard today if u had seen mark slam his head into the LOCKED door... well, more like lorraine slammed his head into the locked door lol... but only because yesterday he bitch slapped her really hard after we left the seizure fishy to itself... dun ask long story... actually i wrote about it in here so read it if ya want... it was pretty funny... but so was steph asking jenn if she knew how to spell move... nd then she said duhhh im not stupid M-O-O-V-E... wow we were hysterical laughing nd saying "mooooooooove?" we are absolutely completely retarted... oooh i made a list of retarted people today... here it is
1.steph
2. me
3. steve
4. john
5. matt
6. sophia
7. emily
8.brenna
9.jenn
10.sarah
and i am very satisfied with that list.. except i think jenn should be a lil higher up but thats ok lol... im gunna go dry my hair nd stuff... yea i took a shower... byeeeeeeee
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2004 24 February :: 3.41pm
:: Mood: hyper
:: Music: blink182 - stockholm syndrome
lmao me nd lorraine ((oh btw i dont hate her anymoree lol)) nd mark nd mike were walking home nd u know the fish tank in the window of dragon china? well mike scared the fish nd then one of them like started vibrating! it would shake alot... then stop... then start... then stop... AND THEN IT DIED AND CAME BACK TO LIFE!!! IT STARTED FLOATING AT THE TOP OF THE TANK! omgg it was soo funny it was like floating vertically at first nd then it had its stomach up like a dead fish usually does nd were laughing so hard cuz we think mike scared the fish to death but then it starts vibrating again... its like the thing was having a seizure... nd it was still floating but it was shaking and all of a sudden it just flips itself over n swims away... it was great! sooo freakin funny holy crap lol we really thought it died...
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2004 23 February :: 4.15pm
:: Mood: scared!!!!
:: Music: boxcar racer - letters to god
aaah freakin scared shitless right now... someone called nd asked the girl im babysitting if her parents were home she said no they arent available nd then hung up... aaah! scared =[
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2004 22 February :: 1.25pm
More details on the big breakup.
Well, I was on the phone with him last night, and I was all quiet and he asked me what was wrong, and I told him I had been thinking about things, blah blah blah.
I had been acting weird for a few days before that, so I think he knew something was up.
So I told him that I think of him as more of a brother than a friend, and I don't think I could get past that image. So he was like, "So are you breaking up with me?" and I just said, "Yeah, basically". And then we talked about the whole us still being friends thing, which of course we still are going to be friends since we were friends for so long before. At the end part he started crying a little bit and he said he was going to try and win me back and that if I ever wanted a boyfriend I knew who to come to, haha.
So yeah. I am single now.
Funny how I'm really horny now too.
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2004 22 February :: 12.54pm
:: Mood: bored...
am i depressed again? it kinda seems that way... i dunno... maybe im just in a bad mood, i seem to be mad at everyone today... n if ur wondering, no, im not PMSing... in the words of paul..
Syco540 [12:46 PM]: u need some one to hug
and its very true...
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2004 22 February :: 9.23am
I broke up with James last night.
I felt so much better. He cried.
I am a horrible person. I even did it over the phone. *sigh*
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2004 21 February :: 2.44pm
:: Mood: blahhhh
:: Music: i feel so, boxcar racer
aaah havent written in soo long... sooo much happened... so here it goes!
*I GOT THE BOXCAR RACER CD!!!! AAH!!!!
*i was suicidal for a long time, then i got over it... thank u ash, meg
*i miss ashley soo much shes never online anymoreeee come back ash! i need my big sis!
*ali might have fractured her arm... oi... if so then there goes our only 3rd base person for softball season this year.. nd we gotta win this season... we gotta... our last together...
*brenna is goinn thru some toughh shit lately.. long-ass emails just bout how we feel... btw kumquat where is my latest email!?!
*i need to remember to give emily the 2 cds shes gunna make copies of, but am i going to? of course not i dont remember anything
*josh is hot
*sophia did u nd steph forgive lorraine? jenn said ya did but i havent talked to u in awhile w/the vacation nd everything
*kaitlyn's allergic to hotdogs lmaooooooo
*i hate lorraine shes a bitch
*i have completely given up on trying to "look for fishys" as mark said... he helped me realize i dont need any fish! thanks squishy
*i have no clue who jenn's going out with cuz she cant even keep it straight herself nd i think its joe but it could be billy n i think john asked her out again even though he knew she was taken... somethin like that i dunno dont ask me
*hahaha i have the boxcar racer cd nd matt doesnt =P hahahahahaha
*someones in love w/conor!!!!!! ooh u wanna know who it is? oops sorry i forgot... you'll have to ask my mind... im not sure where it is right now...
*steph!!! la la la la la la buchaaaaa lmao
*john next time i see u say fudge!!! pleaseeee? lol
*me nd julia love o's
*me and claire havent had any luck w/our gorgeous wanted posters
*im not a bad bowler
*cassie's comin' to stsaviour w/me!!! yay!
*molly nd coco went to mexico nd i got stuck w/the dog lol... i wanna go to mexico damnit!!! i mean, these kids r like 4-5 years younger than me nd already they needed a second passport... I HAVENT EVEN LEFT THE COUNTRY BEFORE!
*eric hates me and i hate him =]
*matt aka jackass thinks i can IM him on his cell but i cant! cuz hes a jackass! ha! ((a lil hyper you will have to excuse me
*i think anthony's shrink helped me w/my depression cuz ant repeated what his shrink said nd it helped me not to commit suicide so yea...
*i have a twin... meg warped tour o4 babe gunna be sooo sickk
*i told thomas about my monkeys nd penguins nd tigers nd ducks... n he probably thinks im completely insane for having so many animals on my clothes but hey, i mean, im completely insane anyway so let him think it! =]
*ali nd matt got together nd broke up again...
*i think ali likes steve... go ahead ali smack me across the face i can smack harder nd u know it... =]
*i bought two of the cutest bathing suits i have ever seen yesterday... but i still like the one ali had last year w/the blue stripes ali can i have it???? pleaseee??? i dun care if it dont fit, less is more, right? anyway...
*i really really really really reallyyyyy hope that i get to see mr. new jersey soon... ooh i could wear my new bathing suit =] it looks really good on me cuz it makes my eyes look even more blue than the really really blue that they are.
hmm... what else? ooh yeah
*my team won 2 games in a row! yay! lol kelsey
*i want a new cell phone i hate mine soo much... people say its cool but i hate it...
*O is back in town lol brian... the drunken monkey club members r all in brooklyn again! lololol that was such a stupidly retarted night...
*i feel like posting lyrics...
sometimes, i wish i was brave
i wish i was stronger,
i wish i could feel no pain
cuz i feel so mad
i feel so angry
feel so callused
so lost, confused again
feel so cheap
so used, unfaithful
lets start over
*those lyrics describe me too much...
*my mom went into hot topic yesterday and got scared... figures...
*i feel short.
i have to go change for my game! bye!!!! hope i wasted your time with all this crap!
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2004 18 February :: 4.25pm
I have to go to my dad's tonight.
James is smothering me. He calls WAY too much and he won't give me any space.
I NEED MY SPACE, BOY!
Arg.
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2004 17 February :: 4.45pm
:: Mood: slacker
:: Music: "Graverobbing USA" - Murderdolls
I come from a planet beyond the stars...
^ My cool as fuck new shoes. They're pink and black. OH YES.
^ My cool as fuck new bracelets. OH YES.
^ A little headshot JUST FOR YOU.
I have no idea where my mother went. She went to put the dogs in the fence and that was about an hour ago. Sheesh. She better not be walking the streets. I've decided I guess I won't leave. I have too many friends here to just desert them all. Plus I can hardly go a day without updating this thing or it kills me. So, yeah. ENJOY ME MOOHA!
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2004 16 February :: 5.03pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: "Get Pretty" - My Ruin
I want to go to the mall. Mallrat. MOOHA.
I have ten whole dollars. WOW.
I can't seem to find things to write about much in here anymore. I have started a MOJ too. Uh-oh. I might leave Woohu. :(
Dammit.
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2004 13 February :: 6.58pm
A Survey For You All....
| What is your favorite.. | | gum: | Eclipse....or Juicy Fruit I guess. I don't chew gum too much. | | restaurant: | El Rancho Grande, Texas Roadhouse, Applebees, and Olive Garden. | | drink: | Mountain Dew and Frappacinos | | season: | Fall | | type of weather: | Slightly warm and sunny | | emotion: | Happy of course | | thing to do on a half day: | Nothing | | late-night activity: | Sex you idiot......since I can't get that right now I'll say go to the mall or something...woo | | sport: | I dont like sports. | | city: | Los Angeles or Chicago | | store: | Wal-Mart bebay! | | When was the last time you.. | | cried: | A couple days ago. | | played a sport: | About 6 years ago. | | laughed: | Today. | | hugged someone: | Today. | | kissed someone: | Less than a week ago. | | felt depressed: | 3 Days Ago | | felt elated: | 5 Days Ago | | felt overworked: | About two weeks ago | | faked sick: | Last month | | lied: | Last night....shame on me | | What was the last.. | | word you said: | 6:47....I was telling my little sister the time | | thing you ate: | Cheesecake YES | | song you listened to: | "Toxic" by Britney Spears....that song is damn catchy I love it | | thing you drank: | Milk | | place you went to: | School | | movie you saw: | Edward Scissorhands | | movie you rented: | I can't remember | | concert you attended: | One of my mother's country concerts.... | | Who was the last person you.. | | hugged: | James | | cried over: | TJ | | kissed: | James | | danced with: | TJ | | shared a secret with: | Mandy | | had a sleepover with: | Emily | | called: | James | | went to a movie with: | Emily | | saw: | Shelby | | were angry with: | My mom | | couldn't take your eyes off of: | DJ | | obsessed over: | Michael | | Have you ever.. | | danced in the rain: | Yes | | kissed someone: | OH YES | | done drugs: | Yes. | | drank alcohol: | Yes. | | slept around: | I wish. | | partied 'til the sun came up: | I wish. | | had a movie marathon: | Yeah. | | gone too far on a dare: | I dont play truth or dare as much as I'd like... | | spun until you were immensely dizzy: | Oh yeah, I do that all the time. | | taken a survey quite like this before: | Yeah, they're all the same yet I can't stop taking them. |
The Favorites, Have-You-Evers.. and Last Times! Oh, the variety! brought to you by BZOINK!
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2004 11 February :: 3.25pm
The newest pic of my gorgeous best friend Emily
Yep, and she thinks I'M the prettier one! HAHAHHA.
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2004 11 February :: 2.55pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Eve 6
One put my tender heart in a blender...
Well, I'm supposedly getting a kitten today. School wasn't too bad. There's not been too much to say past couple days. I don't come here as much as I used to. Oh well.
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