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2003 7 December :: 11.28pm
My parents dressed my dogs up in elf suits to have their picture taken with Santa Claus at the mall. I had never felt so dumb in my life. Sure the dogs were cute and all, but they just looked so.......dumb.
We still haven't eaten. And it is 11:15 PM. My stepdad has to run to the grocery to pick up some food. And he hasn't even left yet. Dear god, I'm going to be tired tomorrow.
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2003 7 December :: 7.59pm
I am bored. I got back from my friend's house a little while ago. It was fun there. I shall explain more in detail later. I'm too lazy now.
I think my mother put vodka in my orange juice. Or maybe that's poison.......
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2003 6 December :: 4.23pm
I'm going over to my friend's house tonight. So I won't be online. Hmm what a pity.
I still have to take a shower before I leave. I better do that now....
See all you guys tomorrow.
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2003 6 December :: 11.34am
:: Mood: weird...
:: Music: feeling this - blink182
well i tried to be a good friend to kaitlyn... im goin to chill w/herr later n i could really tell she wanted to invite ali so i told her i didnt wanna be the only reason she didnt invite her cuz she knows im mad @ her... so she invited her... but she cant comee so o well lol... omg i cant believe im gunna do this... i think ima call her now... wow i dont kno whats making me want to do this... more in a sec... brb
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2003 5 December :: 11.26pm
I feel so sorry for my little stepsister. She had gotten her ears pierced for her 8th birthday and just last night they had gotten completely STUCK in her ears. Like, you can't see the actual earring part anymore. There is just the little stem thing hanging out the back of her ear, and that's it. It's nasty. They're taking her to the emergency room right now. I can't stand to watch her cry, so I am sitting here at home watching my other little stepsister because she has to go to bed soon. I still have to wrap a couple presents.
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2003 4 December :: 3.40pm
people wasting their life are all around me why people would do such horrible things to themselves is what i keep asking. each life created by god is precious, and each one deserves not to be trashed.
the pain felt by those who care, and by those who supposedly didnt, is unreal. i need some relief from this stress. what you're doing... it doesnt just affect you...it affects other people. slow down, take a look at whats been given to you. stop what you have started, and realize you're fooling no one but yourself. i see right through you...
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2003 4 December :: 3.40pm
:: Mood: tired n stressed
:: Music: figure - linkin park
Soemones still there, thats what I realized last night,
It's almost unfair, that my thoughts might just be right,
If I think like this, you're the only one who's wrong,
Your thoughts dismissed, somehow I'll think of some,
You keep pressing me, like I don't know what I need,
If you could only see, what it takes to be me,
Why should I, prove a simple point to you,
I close my eyes, and hope that I don't hit you too,
I've begun to feel, like I don't know you at all,
I'm not your shield, or bitch at every beckon call,
I do understand, this won't make life perfect,
But can you comperhend, the words, "It can't hurt it",
I do remember, the times I counted the days,
And December, when you said it was just a phase,
So don't preach, about how you were right,
You can't reach, what my feelings are tonight,
Pull yourself away, just says it's a lost cause,
I start today, breaking and making the NEW laws,
You're my bitch, how does it feel to be me,
Try and stich, whats left of your individuality,
You can just walk past, you can just talk,
You can kiss my ass, and royally fuck off,
I could care less for you, but all for me,
I'll do what you do, and walk around selfishly,
I could be the "smartest", and put on the biggest show,
But it's still the hardest, to dip down as low as you go.
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blacktears844
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2003 3 December :: 4.20pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: Switchblade Symphony
I'm going over to my dad's tonight again. We're going over to my grandma's to eat. AFI is on Hard Rock Live tonight *is overjoyed*. We all know we're I'M going to be. Sitting with my ass in front of that TV. I still have to buy about 4 presents for this party thing I'm going to on Saturday. Well, it's not actually a party, considering only about 4 or 5 people are going to be there, but it's a get-together thingy that my friend is having before she goes away to Texas for the holidays. I cannot wait until Christmas Break. *sigh* Ah, nothing much to write about right now, so I might write in you later. I don't really keep you up like I used to. :(
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2003 1 December :: 5.54pm
Sarah is a very very bored child.
I have to go to my dad's house for a couple hours tonight because he wants to see me. Hm.
He-who-shall-remain-nameless went home sick today. He's actually acting nicer to me than before.
Did I mention I was bored? Cause I am. :)
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2003 1 December :: 7.24am
:: Mood: extremely tired
Wow, back to school.
I got maybe three hours of sleep. I know what I am going to be doing in class today.
Today is going to suck.
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2003 30 November :: 5.09pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: TV
I just got back from my friend's house where I spent the night last night. She is crazy. She was running around her house blasting Black Sabbath, jumping on couches and other various furniture playing air guitar until her mother got home and made her turn Christian music. I almost peed my pants laughing. I helped put up their tree.
Well, actually, I helped unwrap ornaments and then stuffed my face while I watched THEM put up the actual tree.
But I unwrapped ornaments.
So there.
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2003 30 November :: 3.54pm
i got into the biggest fight last night w/ali im not talking to her @ all... not only do i feel like shes taking advantage of me, but she totally dissed ashley and im pissed off about that! gr i hate herr... ashley made me feel soo much better ((email from her: ))
awww i'm your new best friend! wo0t wo0t!.. you know i'm always gunna be here for you right? even if sometimes we do fight and say things to eachother to piss eachother off.. i do love you kris, you're like a lil sister to me, and i'm just sad that i can't be there for you right now, cuz i'm here and you're there.. but kris, josh kept talking about you.. he was like hmm maybe i should start getting online again! i was like wo0t go krisssssss!
every time i read that im like "omg i love you too idk what i'd do w/out youuu"... thats a best friend... someone who wont be afraid to just come right out n say "i do love you kris you're like a lil sister to me"... shed never say that to me... i mean, minus the lil sis part, but even ur like a sister to me... great now what do i do about the cd we bought together i want it, i paid more for it... muahaha i'll tell her mother it has that parental advisory on it n i'll have to take it off her hands for herr... w/e im like positive we probably aint goin back to how it was... this aint the first time she's ignored one of my problems... one of my big problems... she completely ignored me at the dance w/tim... wow i mean, i didnt expect her to like stop having fun for the whole dance just for me but i wanted like 5 minutes to talk and she couldnt gimme like 5 minutes... i forgave her that timee... im in no mood to do it again... she doesnt deserve to be forgiven again... i mean, would you forgive someonee who takes advantage of you over and over? geez all the voicemails she leaves me are whining about something and the day i go to the jets game and tell her im not taking my phone, she leaves about 100 messages "OMG YOU BITCH TURN ON YOUR GOD DAMN PHONE!" im like wtf is the matter with you? she just laughs about it... im sayin to myself... no, not funny, call me a bitch sounding that serious its not funny... ugh w/ee ima update this cuz if i just keep typing about how pissed i am @ her im gunna like punch the wall or something...
//if u feel ur best friend is taking advantage of u, get outta the friendship or tell that person immediately cuz it'll just keep happening...\\
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2003 29 November :: 2.05pm
Well, I have somewhat of an idea of what to get everyone for Christmas.
Hmm...
It's only Saturday. One more night off.
I have a runny nose. And I think my dog just pooped. Oh damn.
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2003 28 November :: 1.27am
Yes, we know you're hot, Glenn.
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