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2004 6 April :: 11.54 pm
"Needles"
searching for higher meaning
i stumble to a fall
laid you back and forth between the innocence
and the frail days that started on
and the beginning was never this frightening
and nobody warned you of that
and you never thought something this beautiful
could send you deeper into the abyss
[chorus]
so you're pushing the needle again
hoping that when you do
somebody's waiting for you
rusted and old
your feelings have numbed
when you find nobody there
pushing farther and farther
you need someone
you need anyone
to show you yourself from deeper within
and if only someone could forgive you
for all that's been done and said
but maybe it's too late to change
and nobody cares anymore
[chorus]
you'll find out that nobody cares anymore
you'll find you'll have to save yourself
[chorus]
nobody's there
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2004 5 April :: 3.46 pm
good news... my grandma is out of the hospital
bad news... now my grandpas there...
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2004 5 April :: 1.06 am
been searching for some answers
to the questions i should know
there's an angel up above me
and another down below
They offer me the world
But I don't exactly know
If these visions here they come to me
To stay or finally go
and i'm caught between two angels and a dream
one is pulling at my heart while the other rips the scenes
caught between two angels and a dream
and i don't know where to go
that's a vision of a kingdom
and its twice is black as night
They're no brighter than the sun
With growing rays of light
And somewhere in between
is the place that i ignore
my decision last and win
and to where i wanna go
and i'm caught between two angels and a dream
one is pulling at my heart while the other rips the scenes
caught between two angels and a dream
and i don't know where to go
i've got to find
find the answers
i've got to find
my equilibrium
i've got to dream
within the balance
i've got to keep
my equilibrium
between the black and white
between what's wrong and what's right
it's where i feel myself fall upon
between you and me
between what's cash and what's free
and i found where i belong
and i'm caught between two angels and a dream
one is pulling at my heart while the other rips the scenes
these eyes have shown no future to be seen
then to throw it all away for something in between
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just an awsome song i thought id share
depswa- two angels and a dream
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2004 4 April :: 1.49 pm
finaly got a good nights sleep today
went to bed around midnight woke up around noon, it was glorious, i feel soooo much better, cept this morning i couldnt hold still, i felt stressed, cept there wasnt any stress... oh well, i feel better now
hope you all are having a good spring break
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2004 3 April :: 9.18 pm
There’s no holding me back
I’m not driven by fear
I’m just driven by anger
And you’re under attack
I’m just climbing up slowly
I’m the one and only
The tease, the way you lie
The stumble in your mind
The fear, the hope inside
They hit here
Hit here
But whatever you need
‘Ever you got
‘Ever you want
I’ll take back again
Whatever you need
‘Ever you got
‘Ever you want
I’ll take back again
There’s no holding me back
I’m not driven by fear
I’m just driven by anger
And you’re under attack
I’m just climbing up slowly
I’m the one and only
The tease, the way you lie
The stumble in your mind
The fear, the hope inside
They hit here
Hit here
But whatever you need
‘Ever you got
‘Ever you want
I’ll take back again
Whatever you need
‘Ever you got
‘Ever you want
I’ll take back again
Though whatever you need
‘Ever you got...
But whatever you need
‘Ever you got
‘Ever you want
I’ll take back again
Whatever you need
‘Ever you got
‘Ever you want
I’ll take back again
Whatever you need
‘Ever you got
‘Ever you want
I’ll take back again
But whatever you need
‘Ever you got...
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we all have to be strong, we all have to be ready for whatever life throws at us.
im ready to stand alone againsed whatever the world can conjour up
bring it on...
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2004 2 April :: 12.17 pm
You know it wasn't so long ago
When things weren't as we know
Back when I was younger and had a hunger
For all the things I didn't know
And I remember the day when
I went out to play
And I bird flew down to my hand
Didn't want to leave and
When I asked to keep
I remember my dad said
Yeah son let it go away
Hope that it comes back
Here to you some day
Just let it go away
And if it comes back
you know it's here to stay
Since then I've gone through changes
Since then I've gone through life
Since then I found me a beautiful woman
I thought could be my wife
She said she really loves me
But she said she couldn't stay
She said I've got to go my love
To find things my own way
So I let her go away
Hope that she comes back
Here to me some day
I let her go away
And if she comes back
I know she's here to stay
There's not always reasons for the things in life
But it's comforting to know within your mind
If you love something enough
And you've done all that you can
If there's one thing I have known and learned first hand
Sometimes you have to just let it go away
Hope that it comes back
Here to you some day
Just let it go away
And if it comes back
You know it's here to stay
Let it go away
And if it comes back
You know it's here to stay
Let it go
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i love this song...
so yeah im going dt today cuz im bored bored bored, if anyone is interested ill be at the bowling alley for a while
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2004 31 March :: 5.47 pm
the past is ancient hystory, the future doesnt exist, live life for the moment, and nothing else. Do what makes you feel happy, because this might be the last second you can be.
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2004 28 March :: 9.54 pm
right so saturday was sooooooooo fun, bowling then me jess ted and laura were walking around dt, jess has this mechanical baby for child development, so were walking around and people will turn and look, then like the baby would start crying and we got so many bad stares and stuff, we were like on the floor laughing, Mr. Rineheart, my math teacher, and teddys old football coach saw us 2, its was fricken hillairous :P
love you all, have a jim-dandy day
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2004 25 March :: 5.18 pm
i think im a lesbian girl stuck in a boys body...
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2004 24 March :: 5.57 pm
Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and makes me catch her every time she falls
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
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-sigh- im pathetic
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2004 21 March :: 7.46 pm
I think ive discovered why i like to run...
because for the time i am, nothing matters, all that runs through my head is taking that next stride. i dont think about relationships, friendships, grades, family, or even myself.
when i run, im free...
its my only exit from the pain
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2004 17 March :: 6.36 pm
Right so today, i duno about today, this wed. is being kinda werid to me...
what a mean wed. it knows i get werided out easily and yet it does it to me.
right so during my gym class eveyone but me and 4 girls were giving blood, we ran outside and all the girls got to run wherever they wanted for 20 mins, i have to follow veen... it sucked, the mans a fricken machine, we ran like 2 miles straight ( fast ), i was drenched with sweat when i came in and all the girls were sitting there giggiling cuz they didnt have to..
grrr
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2004 9 March :: 4.39 pm
hey everyone, today was cool.
i did an experiment at lunch and i can not talk and not make eye contact with anyone at lunch and no one will care... maybe i was invisible... i bet i was, i have a super power... ^.^ sweeeeeeetttt!!!!!!
so yeah, im finaly getting.... not on edge... so its cool
oh just a note to KT
make sure you keep your drawling in proportion, we wouldnt want there to be gasungas now would we...
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2004 2 March :: 6.55 pm
Uh i feel like a jerk...
Jokes are fun, but only when the person doing them isnt stupid...
i guess i should be a little bit more serious... why not ill try anything once...
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2004 29 February :: 7.34 pm
wow so yeah, went bowling today and the guy in the lane next to me was named Mat, he looked about the right age, and i know ive seen jackies mat before but i couldnt tell if it was him or not... maybe it was... it was interesting, today was interesting
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