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2003 10 October :: 11.10 pm
:: Mood: happy at last
well, went to the homecoming game tonight...
first i went over to rachels and we sat around played ddr, did some stuff on the computer, then we went to the game and just yeah... it was fun, i had a good time, only now i have a cold i think, and when i cough it burns not like cuz of soreness, but because its like hot air or sumn, it feels weird...
really only 1 part of the night was dissapointing but ya know what it wasnt exactly bad so yeah, all and all, great night ^.^
luv ya guys
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2003 7 October :: 6.48 pm
I hide in my shell,
i help when i can,
But every time i see you in pain,
i just want to hold you, and make everything better...
I want to give you all the love i can,
But i know that it wont be returned,
And every time i realise this,
i come one step closer to tears.
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2003 6 October :: 9.17 pm
wow small group was fun today, kt can you thank your dad for me, its awsome how he does that ^.^, i almost cryed durning that movie, even though it was kinda corney, funeral scecne things alwasy make me cry, im supirsed i didnt... but yeah fun fun
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2003 4 October :: 10.37 pm
One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on / but didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried
so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I’ve put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I’ve put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
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2003 4 October :: 9.50 pm
What is more inmportant
to follow you heart...
or to make sure a freind does and disobey your own...
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2003 3 October :: 7.26 pm
My heart feels cold as steel, my love is that of hopelessness, my life is spiraling down...
I JUST WANT IT ALL TO END!!!!
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2003 21 September :: 9.28 pm
yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
yesterday is a promise that you've broken
don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes
this is your life and today is all you've got now
yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose
yesterday is a kid in the corner
yesterday is dead and over
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
this is your life are you who you want to be
this is your life are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose
and you had everything to lose
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2003 20 September :: 11.21 pm
shandis, matt 2
Circle I Limbo john
Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind jackie, Rachel
Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow pam
Circle IV Rolling Weights jess, Kristy
Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled River Styx steven
Circle VI Buried for Eternity River Phlegyas ben, nick
Circle VII Burning Sands matt 1
Circle IIX Immersed in Excrement ray
Circle IX Frozen in Ice Design your own hell
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2003 11 September :: 5.37 pm
lol well i guess im finaly alowed to call my basement a bachelor pad.
3 strikes you out.
anyways, yeah anime club rocks!!! w00t.
ok september 11th, i want to pay my respect to all the new york firefighters, and everone who helped durning the attack on america.
also to all the troups in iraq keeping us safe, one day i might be able to pride myself in being a troup.
lastly i want to pay my respect to all that have died protecting this country, your my heros...
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2003 8 September :: 3.12 pm
:: Music: audiovent- the energy
good song...
Every now and then I think about you
And it makes me, it breaks me
Out of you and into me, I'll make it
So take a look at what you do to my head
When you're leaving, I'm breathing
Out of me and into you, I feel sick
I feel sick
Now that you're leaving
It complicates our lives
But I am the reason
That I will stay alive
We are the energy
We are the same as you
Take everything you need
We are the answer to
The broken, breaking through
Take everything from me
Every now and then I dream about you
I've lost the feeling, it's dead skin
I will never be dependent again
And every now and then I think about you
It's bringing me closer to closure
Every now and then I know it's over
It's over
Now that you're leaving
It complicates our lives
But I am the reason
That I will stay alive
We are the energy
We are the same as you
Take everything you need
We are the answer to
The broken, breaking through
Take everything from me
We are the energy
We are the same as you
Take everything you need
We are the answer to
The broken, breaking through
Take everything from me
Cause I'm not dying
No I'm not dying
Today
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2003 7 September :: 5.57 pm
Right so today was fun.
went into rockford and hung out with jess and pam, so were like okay we will meet at the dam at 2, i get there 2:06 and go, ut oh i hope they havent gone and left. so im looking around, and i think i saw ben and nick, and that brings a question to mind...
BEN DID YOU DIE YOUR HAIR!?!?
right so anyway i start down the trail and get to the overpass so im like ill wait here, and then there comes jess about 2:28....murf
anyway we went to the bowling alley which was fun and then we went to vitalies to eat and we thought we saw bens car by again. so yeah we finished eating and went down to the dam to just hang out before biking back home and yeah, bikes home now im hear bored again lol.
x.x dont eat at vitalies, we heard a guy like barfing or sumn, and it was just, just no....
oh and on the way home i got hit in the hand by a car and they just kept going and now my hand really really hurts, so im ganna stop typeing.
HAVE A NICE DAY ^.^
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2003 5 September :: 4.00 pm
there are no words to describe how much i love my new icon ^.^
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2003 3 September :: 3.48 pm
:: Music: yellowcard- way away
-in comic book guys voice from the simpsons- best song ever
I think I'm breaking out
I'm going to leave you now
Theres nothing for me here, it's all the same
And even though I know
That everything might go
Go downhill from here, I'm not afraid
Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe (Feels to be alone and not believe)
Feels to be alone and not believe anything
You can't stop me now
You can't hold me down
You can't keep me here, I'm on my way
I've made it this far now
And I'm not burning out
No matter what you say, I'm not afraid
Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe (Feels to be alone and not believe)
Feels to be alone and not believe anything
Letting out the noise inside of me (Letting out the noise inside of me)
Every window pane is shattering (Every window pane is shattering)
Cutting up my words before I speak (Cutting up my words)
This is how it feels to not believe
Letting out the noise inside of me (Letting out the noise inside of me)
Every window pane is shattering (Every window pane is shattering)
Cutting up my words before I speak (Cutting up my words)
This is how it feels to not believe
Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe (feels to be alone and not believe)
Feels to be alone and not believe anything
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2003 2 September :: 4.22 pm
that one corner of you heart
yout know that one corner of you heart where all your feelings that you never let out stay to rest, well lately ive been useing that corner alot more. i just dont know how to express them, if i do it might hurt someone... id rather feel this way than having that happen...
i love you all
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2003 23 August :: 1.11 am
wow just found out some weird info...
Vin Diesel played dungeons and dragons for 24 years...
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