:: 2003 19 August :: 8.51 pm

so yeah, im feeling alot better, i dunno if kristy is going to read this, but i think we both should move on, but your not getting away from being my friend, which means, I STILL GET TO PESTER YOU MWUHUHAHAHAH

anyway, yeah, schools starting soon and i cant believe im looking forward to it

w00tness, im just happy to be alive today, im all happy, just happy, get it, happy

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:: 2003 17 August :: 10.01 pm

why does it hurt so much...

i wish i could turn back time, take the cowards way out...

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:: 2003 13 August :: 9.26 pm
:: Mood: not really sure
:: Music: incubus- drive

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:: 2003 12 August :: 5.18 am

im tierd, dont quite know what to write...... im tierd, waaaa, well anyway, yeah.

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:: 2003 11 August :: 10.12 pm

mustard, the story of the young and the hormonal.

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:: 2003 3 August :: 11.34 am

well im leaving for 4h today, one week away from home yay!

jessie- hey sissy lol, se ya after fair sometime.

nick- its hard to keep track of everyone but i though i rememberd u being gone, cuz jess was complaining, well when ya get back, try to stay out of jail lol

Jackie- if im not mistaken and stupid you were gone, maybe your back, meh, hi! be good!

Rachel- Be good, maybe ill se ya at fair, dunno ^.^

Kristy- ILLL MISSSSS YOU!!!!! ;.;

Ben- No random killings when im gone........i want to help

ray- i cant believe i have to put up with you for a week, lol jp

KT- 100cc's of trench coat, remember it!!! lol

I hope i didnt forget any of the peoples... if i did, i am sincerely sorry.

luv ya all, be good every one of y'all

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:: 2003 2 August :: 6.44 pm

When i was a boy of 10 i had a very best friend
fred was kind with good intent,
but just a little diffrent...

oh special fred,
moma droped him on his head,
now hes not so bright instead.
hes a little bit special,
just a little bit special.

We'd play tag,
and he'd get hurt.
id play soldier,
he'd eat dirt.
i liked math, and a spelling bee
fred liked talking to a tree

oh special fred,
moma droped him on his head,
now we keep him in the shead.
hes a little bit special,
just a little bit special.

I ran track, hung out in malls,
fred ran head first into walls.
I had girls and lots of clothes,
fred had names for all his toes.

oh special fred,
moma droped him on his head,
now he thinks hes a piece of bread.
hes a little bit special,
just a little bit special.

One day talking to special fred,
he grabbed a brick and he swong at my head.
and as he laughed at me thast when i knew,
that special fred just made me special too!!!

Now i laught as i count bugs,
i give stangers great big hugs.

Next to me fred is fine,
yes
hes a fucking eignstien!

oh special fred,
now were not right in the head,
now were not so bright instead.
were a little bit special,
just a little bit special.

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:: 2003 1 August :: 3.06 pm

i got stung in the shoulder by sumn, and i dunno what it was, not my shoulder is cramping up... it sucks

yeah, nothings really new so ima just end it, quickie update.

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:: 2003 26 July :: 10.19 pm

I've sure enjoyed the rain
But I'm looking forward to the sun
You have to feel the pain
When you loose the love you gave someone
I thought by now the time
Would take away these lonely tears
I hope you're doing fine all alone.
But where do I go from
Here 'cause

Without you I'm not okay
And without you
I've lost my way
My heart's stuck
In second place ooh
Without you

Well I never thought I'd be
Lying here without you by my side
It seems unreal to me that
The life you promised was a lie
You made it look so easy
Making love into memories
I guess you go what you wanted
But what about me 'cause


Without you I'm not okay
And without you I've lost my way
My heart's stuck in second place ooh
Without you


Somebody tell my head to try to tell my heart
That I'm better off without you
'Cause I can't live-------

Without you I'm not okay
And without you I've lost my way
My heart's stuck in second place ooh
Without you Without you

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:: 2003 15 July :: 7.04 pm

I feel so impure, sadly everyone is, no one can be pure we are all tainted in our own ways, even if we ask for forgiveness, we all have sins, sins in which we cannot atone to. We would all like to think that we are good people, but wickedness is within all of us, we have to let it go, sadly, it lingers within many, no one on this world is perfect, not one of us can be, only 1 thing is perfect...

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:: 2003 15 July :: 2.14 pm

top gun
just watched top gun today, and i realised how good of a movie it is, so im posting the song i like from it :)

its prolly not you style but i think its good...

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Revvin' up you engine
Listen to her howlin' roar
Metal under tension
Beggin' you to touch and go
Highway to the danger zone
Ride into the danger zone

Headin' into twilight
Spreain' out her wings tonight
She got you jumpin' off the deck
And shovin' into overdrive

Highway to the danger zone
I'll take you
Right into the danger zone

You'll never say hello to you
Until you get it on the red line overload
You'll never know what you can do
Until you get it up as high as you can go

Out along the edges
Always where I burn to be
The further on the edge
The hotter the intensity

Hightway to the danger zone
Gonna take you
Right into the danger zone
Hightway to the danger zone
Gonna take you
Right into the danger zone

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corse i prolly like it cuz its talking about things that go fast, and thats just me ya know ^^

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:: 2003 14 July :: 9.53 pm
:: Mood: cheerful

my faint attempt to make some lifes better, i know it sucks, but oh well
EVERYONES BEEN REAL DOWN LATELY, THE ONLY REASON IM DOING THIS ALL IN CAPS IS SO THAT PEOPLE READ IT, USUALY PEOPLE DO WHEN THINGS ARE IN CAPS, BUT ANYWAY, NICK ALREADY EXPRESSED THIS BUT I FEEL THE NEED TO AS WELL, WHEN EVER YOU FEEL DOWN DO WHAT I DO AND SING YOURSELF THE "DONT WORRY BE HAPPY SONG!!!!" WORKS FOR ME, BUT IM JUST WEIRD. WE ALL NEED TO JUST TAKE A MINUTE AND SMELL THE ROSES, IF LIFE GIVES YOU LEMONS, MAKE LEMONAID!!! W00T LEMONAID SOUNDS GOOD RIGHT NOW, ANYWAY, REMEMBER TURN THE FROWN UPSIDE DOWN!!!

DONT WORRY, BE HAPPY!!!!

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:: 2003 11 July :: 8.59 pm

You are a rapier! You"re fast and very sharp.
your only weakness is that in certain
situations you can be thin and easily
breakable.


What kind of sword are you?
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:: 2003 9 July :: 4.35 pm
:: Mood: happy

cybiko
w00t ive been waiting for quite a while and finaly today i got my cybiko, happy me, now im ganna have to find some more of the nimh batteries, they run out a little fast, well i was doing alot of things on it, but yeah, they usualy last 2-5 hours when useing like the chats n stuff depending on the conditions, and 2-3 days when in a inactive mode

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:: 2003 7 July :: 1.56 pm
:: Mood: depressed

right so im spending the night at rays house and hes like ok lets go see rachel for a while, im thinking cool, it'll be fun, and at first it was DDR n' such, then we started watching a movie and i just couldn't get kristy out of my mind...its all i can think about how badly i want to see her, i tried calling her this morning cuz i thought she was getting home yesterday, but no answer... I just want to see her. And seeing ray and rachel together doesnt make things any better... so there downstairs watching a video and im just sitting here on the computer trying to ignore myself... I am half tempted to start walking to kristys... At the moment it doesnt seem like that bad of an idea... I just want to get out of here, maybe ill just go for a walk around atlanta... Either way im getting out of this house...

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